Yung Miami Reveals She's Been the Victim of Domestic Violence, but 'That Wasn't My Experience' Dating Diddy (Exclusive) 

Yung Miami is getting candid about what it was like dating Sean "Diddy" Combs.

The rapper and former member of City Girls, born Caresha Romeka Brownlee, is returning to her hit podcast Caresha Please on Revolt TV this week, opening up about her experiences over the last few months amid Diddy's mountain of controversies and legal issues. Ahead of the Season 2 premiere, she told PEOPLE exclusively about it all.

"It's not easy," she says about finally breaking her silence. "It's a rollercoaster of emotions."

Yung Miami was dating the defamed rapper-mogul and Revolt founder and former chairman, 54, prior to the May 19 release of 2016 surveillance footage showing him physically assaulting then-girlfriend Cassie. In recent months he’s been hit with multiple civil lawsuits and his home was raided back in March amid an ongoing federal criminal investigation. 

The rapper, who amicably split from Diddy following his barrage of legal issues coming to light last November, says she was "deeply hurt and shocked after watching the video," of her ex and Cassie. "That was not my experience at all," she says.

In a since-deleted post to his social media account, Combs admitted to being “disgusted” by his actions towards Cassie, stating, “It’s so difficult to reflect on the darkest times in your life, but sometimes you got to do that."

He added, “I was f---ed up. I mean, I hit rock bottom. But I make no excuses. My behavior on that video is inexcusable...I take full responsibility for my actions in that video. I’m disgusted. I was disgusted then when I did it, I’m disgusted now.”

Yung Miami admits that in the past, she too has suffered abuse at the hands of a romantic partner.

"I've been in a toxic relationship before when I was younger," she says. "In high school, my early 20s, and they're not healthy. They're not fun. It's just I've been there, done that, and that's somewhere I would never want to put myself."

She continues, "Now, being 30 with two kids, that's something I don't condone or tolerate, something that I grew from. That's why I say that wasn't my experience with him, because I wouldn't even put up with that [again].” She adds that she wants to be a good example “of a mother and a woman for my daughter.”

As for what did take place in her highly publicized relationship with Diddy, Yung Miami explains, "I met him in his Love era," noting another of the mogul's many monikers. "He was focused on building love, and really locked in on his music and business. I was with him when the world was celebrating him."

In terms of attraction, "I just think that when I met Diddy he was just a man first. He was more into what I wanted to do, and he approached me with a lot of business [ideas]. 'You should do this. I see this in you.' So it was more of that for me. He saw more in me than music."

One such venture was Caresha Please, which Diddy encouraged her to do and found a home for at Revolt TV, which he founded and was chairman of at the time. [Amid recent allegations and legal issues, Combs stepped down as chairman and no longer has ties to the media organization.]

The two took their romance public on the first episode of the show, with Yung Miami interviewing her then-boyfriend and confirming the rumors that they "go together."

Back then, "it was just laughs, giggles and personality," she recalls. That all changed amid the news of numerous allegations against him, but as for what specifically caused their split, she says "sometimes a relationship runs its course. People breakup every day, and with everything that happened, I just needed time alone."

And she's had time to reflect back on her own actions in recent months. When another woman, Gina Huynh, who has shared her own Diddy abuse allegations, spoke out about Yung Miami's relationship, the rapper took to social media with insults and a racial slur aimed at Huynh. It's a move she now regrets making.

"I'm aware of the things I tweeted towards another woman that, now looking back, I know I shouldn't have given any energy to," she says. "Everyone only saw how I responded when I was repeatedly tested. I'm working to make sure I don't let people take me out of my character, no matter how hard it might be."

She adds, "I don't ever want to disrespect an entire group of people because one person is pushing to get a reaction out of me. It's not right, but I am a work in progress and constantly doing the work to become a better version of Caresha."

It's work she hopes fans will see in the new season of her show.

"This whole thing has broken me and impacted me in such a way, and it was kind of a dark time for me," she says. "So I just want to stay positive and focus on myself and what's important to me right now. I always tell myself, 'stay strong, stay consistent. You are beautiful. You are worthy.' In life you always face challenges. But when you fall like it, you pick up, you ride again."

Representatives for Combs did not immediately respond to PEOPLE's request for comment.

Season 2 of Caresha Please premiered on Revolt’s app and YouTube channel on Thursday, Aug. 8 at 8 p.m. ET.

If you or someone you know has been a victim of sexual abuse, text "STRENGTH" to the Crisis Text Line at 741-741 to be connected to a certified crisis counselor.