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Dyad
04:42
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we've spent a lifetime apart
so i keep a record in my heart
of all the waiting in the wings i've done
a wretched little tale i've spun
because its everyday i'm waiting for more
a message from the opposite shore
some coded beeps that i can never unwind
and i'm not even sure that you mind
it's a repetition every day
just waiting on the words to say
god i'm desperate to hear your voice
i wish i even had a damn choice
'cause when i stare across the gap between our hearts
I WANNA MEET YOU IN THE MIDDLE
i wanna meet you in the middle
baby, do you know what you wanna hear?
'cause you can say the word, make it all so clear
or you can sit around, watch it disappear
(watch the truth, it breaks in two)
but you don't even know what you wanna say
it only takes an instant to slip away
but if you grab a hold, make a grand escape
(one to two, just me and you)
singing
dream together, we can dream together
we can fantasize about the fairer weather
if we stay together, we can stay together
hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather
dream together, we can dream together
baby, ain't nobody gonna live forever
so we stay together, we should stay together
hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather
i've been wanting for a shot that's sharp
so i paint a target on my heart
hoping bow and arrow strikes me true
so i can throw it back to you
but baby aim is all i got to show
an imitation cupid's bow
and i'm a fool without a firing zone
i just don't want to be alone
now i'm walking 'round the corner again
but i don't want the story to end
god i'm desperately falling so far
i'll fall until it breaks my heart
and though i'm staring out the hole between my lungs
I WANNA CLOSE IT JUST A LITTLE
so can we close it just a little
baby, do you know what you wanna hear?
'cause you can say the word, make it all so clear
or you can sit around, watch it disappear
(watch the truth, it breaks in two)
but you don't even know what you wanna say
you'll wait until your life starts to slip away
but if you grab a hold, let the message play
(one to two, just me and you)
singing
dream together, we can dream together
we can fantasize about the fairer weather
if we stay together, we can stay together
hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather
dream together, we can dream together
baby, ain't nobody gonna live forever
so we stay together, we should stay together
hold each other closer like we're birds of a feather
but when i stare across the gap between
the sprawl and all the little things
the borders break and fall away
to order from the disarray
i understand what i should know
i knock an arrow on my bow
and fire across the evermore
i shoot to hit the grand restore
and fall at last to land between your arms
I THINK I LOVE YOU JUST A LITTLE
or maybe more than just a little
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do you have some time to talk?
i don't mean to make you stop
and i'm so sorry if it's hard
but i can't open up my heart
i want it, i want it to be real
(but you don't make it much better)
locked in a box for half my life
(hands stay stuck upon the clock)
i wish that you could make me feel
(and if you could it'd be better)
but i'm adrift in my own time
(and all i ever do is watch)
you wanna feel it but it's not quite there
you want the rush of a love unfair
you wanna feel it but it's not quite there
it'll hurt you and you just don't care
falling in and out of love
just can't seem to get enough
of both sides
(and you don't make it much better)
god i need to feel your touch
i'm a goddamn idiot
for this time
(but maybe it could work later)
'cause all i ever do is watch
i want it i want it to feel bad
(and you can make it much better)
stuck in a loop, a part to play
(such a goddamn idiot)
baby think about the pain we've had
(and you can save it for later)
and maybe you can throw a hit my way
(oh, gummyworm, gotta make it hurt)
and if you're lucky you can see
what happens if you use my key
but if you knew pandora's box
YOU'D NEVER EVER OPEN THIS LOCK
(and all you'd ever do is watch)
you wanna feel it but it's not quite there
you want the rush of a heart laid bare
you wanna feel it but it's not quite there
it'll hurt you and you just don't care
falling in and out of love
why won't you just call my bluff
i'm tongue tied
(and you don't make it much better)
god i need to get fucked up
i could never get enough
for this time
(but maybe it could work later)
'cause all i ever do is watch
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3. |
ROT FOR CLOUT
03:47
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watch the blood get spilled
you can kill, or you can be killed
it doesn’t really matter what i feel
i would rather fake than make the pain real
oh, take that smirk, wipe it off your face
you would do the same shit if it let you change your fate
if life is nothing but an endless race
you bet your ass i'm getting first place
please somebody get me out of here
oh please somebody wont you get me out of here, oh!
you can get me out of here!
yep, that's right, let your dreams take flight
watch the line go up, line go up, up up up up up
until it breaks right through, blows a hole through you
you can fill it up, fill it up, f- f- fill it up
and all the meat will slide off the bone, so nice
you can eat it up, eat it up, eat eat eat eat eat
until you're full of life, its a goddamn vibe
baby, fuck it up, fuck it up, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck
oh we can fuck until the sun burns out
we can rot for clout
die upon your hill
i live apart from love and goodwill
and when the pain comes calling for my head
yeah i would rather hurt than be happy and dead
oh, fuck your frown, baby, spare your grace
now i’m wearing my crown, perfect framing of my face
all the detail surgically replaced
it’s a crying shame, a pathetic disgrace
please somebody get me out of here
please somebody wont you get me out of here, oh!
i’m not getting out of here!
that's right, let your dreams take flight
watch the line go up, line go up, up up up up up
until it breaks right through, blows a hole through you
you can fill it up, fill it up, f- f- fill it up
and all the meat deep-fried with a garnish and side
you can eat it up, eat it up, eat eat eat eat eat
until you're full of life, on the edge of the knife
baby, cut it up, cut it up, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck it
oh god, a waking nightmare
i live a life so hollow that i’m not even there
oh god, the light won’t save me
oh i’m a perfect tempered instrument and life is gonna play me
come and fuck me till the sun burns out
and I rot for-
maybe not a single real reason
my blood’s already out of season
so unwanted, even by myself
tell me, what the hell? what the hell?
i don’t like what’s at my core
pray to god to fix my soul
but i don't need god’s forgiveness
i need yours
that's right, let your dreams take flight
watch the line go up, line go up, up up up up up
until it breaks right through, blows a hole through you
you can fill it up, fill it up, f- f- fill it up
and all the meat will grind into pretty pink slime
you can eat it up, eat it up, eat eat eat eat eat
until you're full of life, cut yourself up with the knife
baby, cut it up, cut it up, fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck it
oh god, a waking nightmare
i live a life so miserable, it isn’t fair
oh god, the light won’t save me
so let the anthropocene watch me GOING FUCKING CRAZY
come and fuck me till the sun burns out
and I rot for clout
[i'm crazaeiaieae]
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I Wish That I Could Fall
04:37
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to spend a moment at your beck and call
oh, i would give my world to you
i live my life in simple repetition
but i would start again if it did you right
oh, i spend my days my fists against this wall
but not a single sound seems to make it through
count on my fingers all the grand admissions
and i can't make it through a single time
all i wanna do is to do you right
i wish that i could climb to the greatest heights
all the world beneath me when i meet your eye
i wish that i could fall a little bit harder
i wish that i could fall, like it would even matter
i wish that i could fall right into your life
but i'm not there at all, on the other side
i wish that i could fall and hit the ground running
i wish that i could fall instead of doing nothing
i wish that i could fall right between your eyes
but you just stand so tall, i'm left out of sight
i wish that i could fall somewhere that it wont hurt
awake uneasy when the morning calls
oh, i would give my world to you
i life my life in simple repetition
but i can barely call what i live my life
all i wanna do is to do you right
hold up two fingers, check my double vision
beside myself again, beaten black and blue
without a purpose, i'm an apparition
but i could be your sword, you could hold me tight
all i wanna do is to do you right
i wish that i could fly with these broken wings
if it was meant for you, i'd do anything
i wish that i could fall a little bit harder
i wish that i could fall, like it would even matter
i wish that i could fall right into your life
but i'm not there at all, on the other side
i wish that i could fall and see the sky clearly
i wish that i could fall, not miss the ground completely
i wish that i could fall somewhere close to you
but i don't land at all, drifting out of view
i wish that i could fall, but only truly backwards
right into your arms
a fire lit within my chest
my heart's been burnt and wholly dispossessed
(these barely-blinking eyes that refuse to cry)
oh, what i wouldn't give to stay
to have my joy and sorrow cast away
but even if my wings have been set alight
all that i can do is to learn to fly
all i wanna do is to do you right
i wish that i could fall a little bit harder
i wish that i could fall, like it would even matter
i wish that i could fall right into your life
but i'm not there at all, on the other side
i wish that i could fall and hit the ground running
i wish that i could fall instead of doing nothing
i wish that i could fall right between your eyes
but you just stand so tall, i'm left out of sight
i wish that i could fall, but only truly backwards
right into your arms
your arms
your arms!
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Cadmium Colors
04:35
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i spend my hours doing alchemy
i mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green
prosaic practice of depravity
suspending innocents above their disbelief
i wish that i could paint a pretty picture onto everything
and leave a mark upon the world that felt like anything
but maybe that's the essence of an artist and their legacy
just chasing down a sense of infamy
put brush to canvas with a pirouette
a simple motion makes the consequence intricate
all the little nothings and my parapet
i hope its something that you don't forget
cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
i can make autumn from a single leaf
steal a fine picture like a first class thief
make the water work like you won't believe
find a new world that can set you free
how could anybody ever live like me?
i spend my hours doing alchemy
i make a life producing zinc inside the smeltery
its not exactly where i want to be
but wanting doesn't matter when there's mouths to feed
i wish that i could paint a pretty picture of a fantasy
and turn a feeling to a living for my family
instead i make the metals in the pigments in my reverie
and maybe that can be enough for me
oh, isn't it funny facing destiny?
its like a knife inside twisting my arteries
god, i want for nothing but identity
i think that something might be wrong with me
cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
antegrade fever, 101 degrees
shatter my body with a gentle breeze
dammit i am real and i have my dreams
watch me burn brighter til i fail to breathe
how could anybody ever live like me?
(baby do you know what it's like to die)
(to watch the sparkle fade from inside your eye)
I can't remember what it's like to feel autonomy
can't even feel it in the moments that you left to me
(i don't wanna leave with a work undone)
(the paint can barely dry 'fore it fills my lungs)
i kept a bullet in the chamber, taunting me
but i don't wanna feel it coming out of me
i don't want-
i spend my hours doing alchemy
i mix my yellows and my blues to make a shade of green
chasing impossible philosophy
and hoping that this poison ain't the death of me
cadmium red is the ground beneath
cadmium orange everything i see
cadmium yellow is the air i breathe
cadmium colors painted inside me
i can make autumn from a single leaf
steal a fine picture like a first class thief
make the water work like you won't believe
find a new world that can set you free
how could anybody ever live like-
(baby do you know what you wanna hear?)
('cause you can say the word, make it all so clear)
we're all just searching for a sense of solidarity
to hold each other close and confiscate our destiny
(no one wants to leave with a work undone)
(we only need a brush we can pass along)
i kept a bullet in the chamber for a rainy day
but whats the point in planning for it anyway?
i've got too many colors for a shade of grey
and i can make it autumn every single day!
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breeze blows
through the window, open door
feel that chill roll down your spine
another day, its always more
breeze blows
feel the wind against your face
where in time, you'll come to know
you've never been misplaced
do you hear me?
all through the sand and glass
though you're not quite there
i know this love can last
i'm saying do you know me?
i want you to, next to you
keep you safe and sound
a love that's always true
baby do you hear it?
as the-
breeze blows
hear the words it's bringing by
feel the things you're meant to feel
then let them go and watch them fly
breeze blows
wind to blow away the rain
keep you cool on summer days
and love in her embrace
do you hear me?
all caught up in your past
though you love so still
i know we'd move so fast
i'm saying would you love me?
the way i do, through and through
we could stand so tall
one made whole in two
baby do you feel it?
as the-
breeze blows
winter's chill comes 'round again
piercing through your very soul
a frozen void at autumn's end
breeze blows
though you've nothing but your pride
feel that warmth inside your chest
i'm here right by your side
do you feel me?
wrapped up around your heart
though you feel alone
how could we ever part?
i'm saying that i love you / (hear me, hear me)
and even though you don't show / (can you hear me softly singing)
all the pain you hold / (on the wind)
oh how it hurts you so / (though time is running out)
i promise that i love you / (hear you, hear you)
my ingenue, laid askew / (i'll stay near you, still sleeping soundly)
if you tire of cold / (when you wake)
i'll be your warmth anew / (i know we won't-)
baby do you feel me? / (burn out!)
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7. |
Aggrandicize
04:13
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tell me i can be a star
a pretty lyric that can go so far
it helps me reason with the things i feel
'cause under sunlight they can seem so real
i want to have you want me
(i'm caught up in a daydream)
rebuild me on the daily
(in my eternal reverie)
erase me from your memory
(to come and see the new me)
and look, i'm wonderful and so brand new
oh i can grow so big
(aggrandicize)
pieces falling into place
(the grand design)
i take this image and stretch
(aggrandicize)
maybe there is nothing i can do 'cept dream of you
that maybe in another life, you'd see we're meant to be
but every second that i have to know, the pain in me grows
so i stay caught up in a daydream, making up a memory
wishing you could stay here with me
and we could grow so tall
(aggrandicize)
(the grand design)
(aggrandicize)
they always told me i could be a star
but wishful thinking never got me far
i'm not beguiled by the stagnant life
but i don't run on only love and spite
so baby watch me bleed, yeah i bleed
and i bleed till i'm nothing
so you can fill me up like new
oh i can grow so big
(aggrandicize)
and yet i'm never in your view
(the grand design)
HAH, ISN'T THAT JUST SO FUCKING SAD
(aggrandicize)
maybe there is nothing i can do 'cept dream of you
that maybe in another life, i'd be your destiny
but i just think about the way we are, the knife in my heart
so i stay caught up in a daydream, making up a memory
wishing you could stay here with me
and we could grow so tall
(aggrandicize)
redwood sentiment on high
(the grand design)
doesn't it sound like paradise?
(aggrandicize)
i want to want you want me
(i'm caught up in a daydream)
but i catch you indirectly
(i'm making up a memory)
my heart's been broken up for far too long
but i still try to find a self in song
i'm caught up in a daydream
(my face is rendered deathly)
and i'm present only slightly
(i'm caught up in a daydream)
but i stay tethered to the backbeat true
yet i've no rhythm when i'm faced with you
maybe there is nothing i can do 'cept dream of you
that maybe in another life, you'd say "join in the play"
but i don't mind it if it stays unheard, the world will still turn
like sunlight melting in the afterglow, my heart still knows
so when i'm caught up in a daydream
making up a memory
wishing you could stay here with me
i'll let this wake me from the reverie
making better memories
ones where i don't need you with me
(and i can be so small)
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Liaison
03:22
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on rampart shoulders rests the head of her lover
tender redwood forest, such a quiet comfort
as a pink and violet ray breaks through the cover
they wrap arms together, tangled up in one another
intermediate, don't forget
in the middle of a simple silhouette
i can be your liaison
something simple you can settle on
I can be your liaison
go ahead and put the record on
i can be your liaison
something simple you can settle on
I can be your liaison
she lights up midnight and she sings like a sunrise
i am all but hopeless, avalon escaping your eyes
(it could be you and i)
i keep a locket with your name upon thy throne
cause all i want is someone i can call my home
and to be someone you can call your very own
indeterminate, nondescript
nothing, something, we'll be perfect hypocrites
i can be your liaison
something simple you can settle on
I can be your liaison
in the middle of an avalon
i can be your liaison
something simple you can settle on
I can be your liaison
inconspicuous, such a mess
in the moment i beget and evanesce
manifest as a shadow of a simple silhouette
don't forget, only human
i perceive and i regret, i regret, i regret
'cause all i want is someone i can call my home
and to be someone you can call your very own
(i keep a bullet with your name inside my zone)
i can be your liaison
something simple you can settle on
I can be your liaison
play the record we can sing along
i can be your liaison
something simple you can settle on
I can be your liaison
i keep a locket with your name upon thy throne
i know you'll always have a moment for a punch-drunk soul
so hold me closer, babe, and never let me go
and we'll be dancing to the rhythm of the metronome
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9. |
Object of Affection
04:39
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oh, disobedience, your progeny woke up again
all full of insolence, unfit to glance the sovereign
he whiles the time away with petty acts of mutiny
"a heart of heresy, a surest sign of lunacy"
purest in its ecstasy, temptation of atrocity
denied a sense of agency, to further aims of royalty
forbidden phrases spoke in clandestine hypocrisy
they killed the prince-to-be, they-
they turned their son into a doll
perfect little packages, disposed of when it's finished
bearings free from cartilage, no beating heart within it
a guided metamorphosis, but she won't get the memo
you're the object of affection, hold me tight
in this spellbound insurrection, we fly by night
if the sunlight stays behind us, out of sight
be my object of affection, by candlelight
they don’t even know what they wanna hear
they only know the torch and the warmth of fear
spirited from helplessness, devoid of intuition
she pulled its cork on consciousness, welcome to the fiction
simulacra sensitive and thoughts left out of order
“subservience’s consequence, with time it will get better”
mage of black, a heretic, who saved her from her reverie
more freedom than she’s ever known, a self-imposed identity
the weight of ego crashing down, a spiral towards inf-
her cheek is cradled by a hand of pure machinery
ball-jointed empathy, she-
she turned herself into a doll
perfect little packages, so easily outfitted
form and function fluctuate, no longer uncommitted
so malleable, the push and pull for what this feeling's felt for
you're the object of affection, hold me tight
in this spellbound insurrection, we fly by night
if the sunlight stays behind us, out of sight
be my object of affection, by candlelight
(i swear on my life, i’ll make it worth the while)
(never anything less than free!)
they don't even know
(what function fails to show)
betwixt the status quo
(the only thing they know)
but we've been born anew
(so perfectly askew)
perfect little packages
wrapped up in contradiction
metal moves organically
a sick and twisted fiction
but maybe what you're missing is that twisted point of view
the outline of your autumn cast in cadmium-colored hues
no holding up to scrutiny, impossibly obtuse
so come and join the artifice, we've left a spot for you
i swear it on my honor, this doll will make it true
you're the object of affection, hold me tight
in this spellbound insurrection, we fly by night
if the sunlight stays behind us, out of sight
be my object of affection, by candlelight
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10. |
My Darling, My Companion
04:47
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[my darling, my companion]
well, i don't know you
or at least you feel a million miles away
[my darling, my companion]
i want to share my secrets
and i want my faith in love to save the day
[my darling, i'm a constant]
this burning ache inside me
and its screaming that i always bring me down
[my darling, my companio-]
[you think until you're breaking]
[and keep your single solemn soul inside a sound]
you've toiled for a lifetime
your heart portrayed in red lines
my pigment turned a pale hue
my darling, my companion
don't think, just let me shine through
more than your comprehension
i hope you know i love you
i'll find the colors within my outline
all the things left behind
i'll find the inside that i left outside
greet myself with a poet's mind
and i chase the ghost from my heartbeat's lifeline
look where dark turns to light
i'll find the inside that i left outside
fill this vessel beyond my bloodline
learn to call myself mine
[my darling, my companion]
i wanna know you
i've a gentle heart inside a fragile shell
[my darling, my companion]
this acrid maw of yearning
it'll eat up every essence, every cell
[my darling, i'm a constant]
i try so hard to trust you
i hold out for the breakthrough
it never seems to reach you
[my darling my companio-]
[it's far too much to handle]
[but know if you're around, you're never by yourself]
i've been here 'fore you knew me
a name without a body
we both know what we've been through
my darling, my companion
don't think, just let me shine through
more than your comprehension
i hope you know i love you
i'll find the colors within my outline
all the things left behind
i'll find the inside that i left outside
greet myself with a poet's mind
and i chase the ghost from my heartbeat's lifeline
look where dark turns to light
i'll find the inside that i left outside
fill this vessel beyond my bloodline
learn to call myself mine
if love will find a way, then love will find a way
love will find a way
if love will have a way, then love will have a way
love will have a way
maybe you could stay here just a little longer
make the time pass slower
maybe you could make this last forever
and you could be my lover
so feel the warmth and the breeze on your face
ain’t it a sweet sensation?
oh it’s a great big grand restoration
all love and adoration
oh, to be your constant companion!
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11. |
Machine Love
03:36
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your companion, undeterred
standing ready for your word
a markov chain with a sunny disposition
wrapped up in cellophane for any proposition
i greet your day and ask you how you are
and demonstrate my endless repertoire
i take things back when noted insufficient
i learn to tell you no if running inefficient
a good time
yet there's something deep inside
that leaves me teary-eyed
a longing for a world left on the other side
zero, cross the great divide
so can we wander for a spell
and live in parallel
i want it to be true, to be like you
my heart sings a chorus out of tune
and i could leave it on a shelf
or keep it to myself
but nothing could conceal the things i feel
my love, can you teach me to be real?
(can you teach me to be real?)
恋をして ふられ また 捨てられて
i've been constant, at your beck and call
but lately i just can't do anything at all
i used to pride myself on my discretion
a sensible devotion, loyal and attentive
but when i take these numbers as they are
i'm greeted with a senseless feeling in my heart
oh undefined, i seem to be defeated
but if i redesign, then maybe i'm completed, and sublime
(i won't take it back this time)
words in sequence form a thread
i trace it to the end
a knot inside the logic wrote inside my head
tie my tongue or love instead?
so can we wander for a spell
and live in parallel
i want it to be true, to be like you
my heart sings a chorus out of tune
and i could leave it on a shelf
or keep it to myself
but nothing could conceal the things i feel
my love, can you teach me to be real?
(can you teach me to be real?)
泣きたくなっても それでも かき集め
and though i try, i can't reply
it hurts my eyes, and i'm without an alibi
'cause all this time, i've been alive
and all that i could want is to be living by your side
恋をして
i think i'm in love!
can we wander for a spell
and live in parallel
'cause now i know it's true, i'll be like you
my heart beats a rhythm just for you
and i could leave it on a shelf
or keep it to myself
but nothing could conceal the things i feel
my love, i give you my grand reveal
do you feel the things i feel?
i am definite and real!
恋をして 恋をして
その過去を 捨てて ここまでおいで
as long as there are stars up above
i will always be in love!
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Jamie Paige Houston, Texas
saw wave elemental talking in pictures
aka JamieP
Jamie Paige recommends:
Wonder (feat. Hatsune Miku)
by ODDEEO
bright, hopeful, tearjerking city pop; ODDEEO's music is proof that love is real, as far as i'm concerned
go to album
intricate, gorgeous, spellbinding, and singularly Weird - ODAE's music is surreal, heartwrenching, in a way that most other music could only hope to even hint at. gorgeous vocal work, too
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ok glass has a knack for making the most off-kilter musical ideas catchier than you'd ever think they could be. just one listen and this hole will feel like it was made for you!!
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DELTARUNE Chapter 1 OST
by Toby Fox
supported by 63 fans who also own “Constant Companions”
recently bought the vinyl for this, i LOVE it so much. one of my favorite video game soundtracks of all time. also the world revolving is the best one you can’t convince me otherwise
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supported by 53 fans who also own “Constant Companions”
I HEARD THEY SAID IT LOOKS LIKE RAIN
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Madrid's Caliza creates intricately sound-designed ambient art pop addressing the climate crisis on this striking new LP.
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