If there’s one thing I’ve learnt about men in my career, it’s that so many of them love to be humiliated.
My client, John*, is a prime example.
‘Can you humiliate my tiny cock? Please laugh at it.’ He said in a recent email. There was even a picture of his appendage attached.
Most women would have recoiled at such a message – but I was happy to oblige.
‘You’re such a pathetic loser’ I responded. ‘You could never please me. How does it feel to have such a tiny cock?’
Within seconds, John replied. ‘Wow, you made me feel so worthless, degraded and like such a pathetic loser, that was amazing. Thank you so much Goddess.’
He pays $1000 (around £507) for the pleasure.
As surprising as it sounds, this is nothing new for me.
In the 18 months that I’ve been working in the sex industry, these requests for what is known as Small Penis Humiliation (SPH) have become increasingly frequent and I’d almost go as far as to say it’s my specialty.
Not so long ago, I worked a bog standard 9-5 office job in IT where I got paid AUD $55,000 (£29,000) and had four weeks of leave a year. It was boring and made me feel stuck in an ordinary life with little to no flexibility.
Now, I make double that from small dick humiliation content alone and that’s only one part of my job.
My first introduction to the adult industry was stripping at the age of 19. Originally it was only meant to be a job on the side to make some extra money to pay for travel and other treats.
But after a couple of years of doing it casually, and trying to hide it, I realised that the money I could make from stripping offered me the lifestyle I really wanted and that the only reason I was holding back was other people’s opinions.
So, I decided to pursue sex work full time.
People started to come to me with a variety of kinks, like bug squishing, eating gummy bears and pretending they were the client, whipping – and I was always happy to give it a go.
I’ve never judged anyone for their kinks in the way partners out in the world would. But then, that’s why people come to me and why they pay me as much as they do.
I had my first request for SPH right after starting my OnlyFans page last year.
At first I had no idea what to do with the request. I didn’t have any friends in the industry at that stage, so I had to Google it and figure it out through trial and error.
I just remember how strange it was to try to laugh at a cock and degrade it, but I loved it! He was happy and wanted more.
I thought it would be a one-off niche request, but much to my surprise it turned out to be one of the most common requests I get.
Now whenever I get a message about SPH, I jump at the chance to reply.
Generally speaking, those that ask for small penis humiliation are usually businessmen with office jobs who just also happen to be cuckolds – men that get gratification from thinking about or seeing their wife/partner having sex with another man – usually one who’s bigger, and hotter.
They love it when I talk about how much I like having sex with a real man. I’ll say: ‘Only real cocks can please me. There’s no way that you’d even come close to pleasing me.’
And I say pleasure because I genuinely enjoy getting paid to talk s**t about men’s dicks.
The way I see it, there are plenty of men who talk down to women on any given day – why shouldn’t I get to turn it back on them for once?
They’ll get satisfied and I get to take out some of my anger and frustration towards men out on them – that’s a win-win as far as I’m concerned.
The fact I’ve made at least $100,000 (£50,000) from SPH requests alone is just an added bonus.
To be clear, I’d never humiliate someone who didn’t explicitly ask for it – I’m not here to hurt anyone’s feelings for the sake of it – and truthfully, a lot of the time I’m not even looking at super small or weird-looking penises.
Having the biggest penis is not as important as men think – sometimes being too big is actually an issue for both parties. Most men are so hung up on whether they have a small penis or not but really it comes down to how you use it.
But the realm I operate in is completely separate to that; many of my clients have completely average, if not bigger than average, sized penises. However, if their desire is to be made to feel pathetic and small, I can do that… for a price.
I understand not everyone would do the same and that’s OK. My parents know what I do and they support me, and I love my life as it is now.
I work a lot but it’s fun. I travel whenever and as often as I want. And, because I’m becoming more well known in the industry, I can charge obscene amounts of money for an email and not bat an eye.
My clients see me as a goddess, as someone bigger than them who can easily make them feel small. They get off on knowing that they would never have a chance with me in the real world. I’m just here to help.
More than anything, I like that people can come to my page and tell me their kinks and desires and know that it’s a safe space to do so.
If someone sends me a photo and says: ‘I want you to humiliate my tiny cock’ then that’s what I’m going to do. I’ll never apologise for being very good at my job.
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