Group3 Lived Experiences of Selected Grade 11 Stems Tudents Being Low Self Esteem Towards Their Academic Performance

LIVED EXPERIENCES OF SELECTED GRADE 11 STEM STUDENTS
BEING LOW SELF-ESTEEM TOWARDS THEIR

ACADEMIC PERFORMANCE
A Research Paper
Presented to
The class of Mr. Joey B. Manalastas Jr.
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan, Inc.
In partial fulfillment of
The requirement for the subject
Practical Research 1
By
Albino, Jason
Arbasto, Princess
Barcenas, Jeric
De Chavez, Keithly
Dela Cruz, Reine
Goyon, Mary Joy
Ignacio, Edrie
Papa, Samira
March 2019
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APPROVAL SHEET
This research entitled “LIVED EXPERIENCES OF SELECTED GRADE 11 STEM
STUDENTS BEING LOW SELF-ESTEEM TOWARDS THEIR ACADEMIC
PERFORMANCES” prepared and submitted by Group 3 STEM-LAKANDULA has been
approved and accepted on March 29, 2019 in partial fulfillment of the requirements for
the Practical Research 1 under JOEY B. MANALASTAS JR.
with a grade of 95.

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ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS
The researchers would like to express their sincere gratitude to the people behind
the process of this study. Words aren't enough to describe how thankful we are to your
constant care and guidance. For helping and motivating us in times of difficulties whether
it's financially or amongst ourselves they became a blessing to us. Of course we would
like to thank God for every blessing he gave to us and to the people behind our success.
The researchers are honored to conduct the study to the very own Mystical
Rose School of Caloocan Inc., which provides the privilege to learn and discover new
things. The life experiences and hardships of each member of the faculty and colleagues
that served as the life lessons for each one of us.
To Dr. Rolando M. Gregore, president of the school and Dr. Marcelina L.
Gregore, the directress/ principal. For giving us the opportunity to conduct the study
and their constant guidance in leadership and success
To our families, for giving us financial support. For letting our whole group stay
to another colleague’s house and for giving us food until late at night. With their constant
guidance for us to strive more and work as a team especially when we have an
uncountable misunderstandings.
Especially to our Research Teacher-Adviser, Mr. Joey Borlagdatan Manalastas
Jr for guiding us from the beginning until the end. With his valuable instruction and
suggestions to improve our study, lectures and examples we’re able to make a reasonable
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actions for this study. He spend time, efforts, patience and encouragement that motivate
us to complete this study.
We would never forget the motivational words and presence of our one and only
advicer, Mr. Jan McLean Tan whenever we have a deadlines and defense he would
always say “you can do it. “
Last but not the least the participants of this study the Grade 11 STEM Students
of the school year 2018-2019. The researchers of this study are grateful to their truthful
and honest answer regarding their real life experiences and of course for their valuable
time and effort in answering the questions asked to them.

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Dedication
The researcher’s whole heartedly dedicated this study to their RESEARCH
TEACHER - ADVISER as their role example and motivation. Also, to their FAMILIES,
who supported them during late dismissal and for letting our whole group stay to another
colleague’s house and for giving us food until late at night during the process of making
this study. Lastly, to the GRADE 11 STEM STUDENTS OF MYSTICAL ROSE SCHOOL
OF CALOOCAN INCORPORATED who became the main reasons for the researchers
to create a guide to overcome the identified influenced of peer pressure to their academic
performances.
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TABLE OF CONTENTS
Title Page
Title Page ……………………………………………………..……………………………………I
Approval Sheet …………………………………………………………………………………..II
Acknowledgements …………………………………………………………………………….III
Dedication ………………………………………………………………………………………….V
Table of Contents …...............................................................................VI
List of Figures….................................................................................... IX
Abstract ……………………………….……………………………….…………………………...X
CHAPTER
1 PROBLEM AND ITS BACKGROUND
Statement of the problem...……………………………………………………...2
Assumption……..………………………………………………………………….3
Scope and Delimination…………………………………………………….…...11
Locale of the study...………………………………………………………….....13
Significance of the Study…………………………………………..……………14
Definition of terms……………………………………………………..…………15
2 REVIEW OF RELATED LITERATURE AND STUDIES
Local literature ……………………………………………….…………………18
Foreign literature …………………………………………………….…………21

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Local studies………………………………………………………………….…28
Foreign studies ………………………………………………………………...29
Paradigm of the study …………………………………………………………34
Relevance of the reviewed literature and studies to the present
Study/Synthesis…………………………………………………………...……35
3 METHODOLGY AND METHODS OF RESEARCH
Research Design ………………………………………………………………47
Selection of Co-Researchers/ Sampling Techniques………………………48
Research Instrumentation/ Data Collection…………….……………….…..49
Treatment of Data/Data Analysis………………………………………….….51
Validation of the Instrument ………………………………………….….……52
Research Roles and Biases…………………………………………………..52
Trustworthiness…………………………………………………………………52
Memoing ………………………………………………………………………..53
4 PRESENTATION ANALYSIS AND ENTERPRETATION OF DATA
Co-Researcher A----Ms. Leilei………………………………………………..55
Co-Researcher B----Ms. Naji………………………………………………....59
Co-Researcher C----Mr. Potpot………………………………………………63
Co-Researcher D----Ms. Dyosa……………..………………………………66
Co-Researcher E----Ms. Buwan…………………...………………………..71
Co-Researcher F----Mr. Mamamo………………………..………………...81
Co-Researcher G----Ms. Portly…………………………………..………….84
Co-Researcher H----Ms. Mama………………………………………..……93

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Co-researcher I----Ms. Peng………………………………………………...96
Co-ResearcherJ----Mr.Jie…………………………………………………....98
Researchers’ Experiences ....................…………………………………………..101
Researchers’ Reflection.......................……………………………………………104
5 SUMMARY OF FINDINGS, SYMBOLIC REPRESENTATION,

IMPLICATIONS, RECOMMENDATIONS
Summary of Findings ……………..………………….……………………..123
Symbolic Representation………………..………………………………....126
Implication ………………………………………..………………………….128
Recomendation ………………………………………………………………130
Reference…………………………………………………………………...132
Appendices………………………………………………………….……....137
Curriculum Vitae………………………………………………………………………..207
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LIST OF FIGURES
Figures
1 Paradigm of the Study ……………………….…………………. 33

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ABSTRACT
LIVED EXPERIENCES OF SELECTED GRADE 11 STEM STUDENTS

BEING LOW SELF-ESTEEM TOWARDS THEIR
ACADEMIC PERFORMANCES
GROUP 3 STEM-LAKANDULA
Researchers
Do really having low self-esteem does not have any effects on the academic
performances of a student? Or it is one of the primary reasons why some of students are
not competitive in terms of performing in class?
Many people who have leadership positions who deep down have low self-esteem
despite pretending to be someone who is in control and who makes decisions confidently.
This will lead to a lot of stress and pain as the pretense is covering up the real person
inside. You will see the true reality of this kind of person when they face real problems
and when things go wrong. They will be unable to accept any criticism and demand others
do what they say without question (Parera, 2016)
Unchecked, low self-esteem may even lead to mental health issues such as
anxiety and depression, sometimes with tragic results. The well-being of society depends
on the well-being of its citizenry. One of the most important factors that should be
fostered at home and in school, is children's self-esteem, as this is the key factor of their
success further in life (Venzin, 2018).
However, despite widespread support for the reforms, critics argue that the
benefits, particularly for poor families, are not comparable to the costs associated with
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keeping their children in school for an extra two years. (Patrinos, 2016).
There is more to self-esteem than first meets the eye. Someone may clearly lack
confidence and have a low opinion of them, whereas, some people may appear to have
confidence but their efforts to take charge and be in control is a cover for their low self-
esteem. Many of these people do not admit to themselves that they have any problem
and continue to aggressively appear full of self-esteem.
For Neuman (2013) changing ingrained ideas is very difficult. Some people with
low self-esteem continue to feel bad about them despite having had signal successes in
the world
In this regard, the researchers would like to explore the lived experiences of
selected grade 11 STEM students being low self-esteem towards their
academic performances. Thus, the research findings can help to widen our knowledge
towards low self- esteem, clear out misunderstandings and to make people more aware.
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RESEARCH DESIGN
This study used Qualitative Phenomenological Research method, wherein the study
is focused on the lived experiences of the currently enrolled grade 11 STEM students.
According to Creswell (2013), phenomenology is an approach to qualitative
research that focuses on the commonality of a lived experience within a group. The
fundamental goal of the approach is to arrive at a description of the nature of the
phenomenon. In addition, Creswell (2007) also stated that, a phenomenological study
“describes the meaning for several individuals of their lived experiences of a concept or
a phenomenon”. Phenomenological study allows the researchers to delve into the
perceptions, perspectives, understandings, and feelings of those people who have
experienced or lived the phenomenon or situation of interest (Abels, 2018).
On the other hand, Waters (2016) phenomenological research describes a lived
experience of a phenomenon. As this is a qualitative analysis of narrative data, methods,
to analyze its data is quite different from more traditional or quantitative method of
research. Furthermore, Phenomenology focused on the subjectivity of reality, continually
pointing out the need of to understand how humans view themselves and the world
around them (Willis, 2007).

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For the main purpose of this study, qualitative phenomenological design was used
in order to explore the lived experience of selected grade 11 STEM students being low
self-esteem towards their academic performances. This study attempts to set aside biases
and preconceived assumptions about human experiences, feelings, and responses to a
particular situations (Giorgi, 2012).

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SELECTION OF CO-RESEARCHERS/ SAMPLING TECHNIQUES
Purposive Sampling was used in the selection of co-researchers who are only
chosen if they fit rightfully to the specific intention and purpose of the study. Purposive
Sampling is a kind of non-probability sampling that focuses on a characteristic of a
population that are of interest, which will best to enable the answer in research questions
(Lund Research Ltd, 2012). In addition with that, these characteristic can help the
researchers to identify those Grade 11 STEM students who have low self-esteem;
 Is extremely critical of themselves

 Downplays or ignores their positive qualities
 Judges themselves to be inferior to their peers
 Use negative words to describe themselves such as stupid, fat, ugly or
unlovable
 Has discussions with themselves (this is called ‘self-talk’) that are always
negative, critical and self-blaming
 Assumes that luck plays a large role in all their achievements and does not
take the credit for them
 Blames themselves when things go wrong instead of taking into account
other things over which they have no control such as the actions of other
people or economic forces
 Does not believe a person who compliments them. (DOHHS, 2014)
But to really ensure the selection of co-researchers, the researchers based on the
result of the Rosenberg’s scale that serves as the assessment tool so the researchers can
carefully analyze whom are the selected students, to discover the evidence that serves
as proof of their actual experience.

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STATEMENT OF THE PROBLEM
The overall objective of this phenomenological study is to explore the lived
experience of selected grade 11 STEM students being low self-esteem towards their
academic performances in Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc., for the school year
2018-2019. At this stage in the research, the low self-esteem will generally influence
emotional, social interaction and mental health, which affect an individual to his own daily
performance at school.
This specifically sought answers to the following questions:
1. What are the lived experiences of the students having low self-esteem?
2. What insights may be drawn from their experiences?
3. What implications may the findings offer for any schools or institutions
concerned for their policy development and management?

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SUMMARY OF FINDINGS
Based on the partarticipants truthful answer and after doing a careful analyzation
of the gathered data we present the summary of findings.
Low self-esteem is not known by many people and considered as shyness. But in
this study, it was shown to their lived experiences that they are feared of being judged
by others. The low self-esteem is characterized by feeling badly about oneself. Self-
esteem consist of the way in which they view, think and value themselves. It influences
in emotional, social interaction and mental health which affect an individual to his own
daily performance at school.
Being “Katagelophobic” was the big thing that contributes a lot and causes them
to being low self-esteem. It was found out that the low self esteem affects the participants
negatively and positively in academic performance mostly when they are performing in
front doing a perfomance or presenting, interacting with other people like friends,
classmates and sometimes teachers.
Negative experiences affects every situation similar to their past experience makes
it feel uneasy or nervous, trying to avoid perfomance or presentaion that expose them
too much that results to a failed performance or presentation and missed oppurtunities.
They weren’t able to express their thoughts due to fear of being judge.
Most of the participants is affected by their experience in the past being judge by
their own skills and abilities to do things. It was part of their life as a student to
particpate, and perform in front of the class for this just serve as a practice.
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Having that said, It is not predictable when or what wouldbe the other opinion
about it because majority are affected on what would other opinion be regarding their
performance.
Mostly these people are their own classmates, teachers and friends. Intimidated
on how would the teacher react, limiting their actions during performance inside the
classroom because of the term "bida-bida" and the thought thatthey might became a
laughing stock if they did something wrong even if it’s not meant.Being too sensitive in
things and getting hurt secretly, the feeling of being useless at home, unequal treatment,
worrying too much about others opnions, around their friends.
Because of this missed oppurtunities are commonly happens like showcasing their
talents as an individual and cannot paricipate that much in class. Forcing oneself to
perform to the extent but ended up being discourage by others. This also affects during
discussions and recitation.
They face the world with a positive self image. Doing different kinds of things and
activites together like playing guitar, playing computer games and mobile games like
League of Legends, playing basketball, taking pictures, eating together and strolling
around. Although it's not always easy for them to walk on a straight line they still try their
best to keep up.
While their failures increase negative thoughts about themselves making an
individual feel frustrated, insecure, anxious, ignore positivity and success and etc. They
tend to give up easily although they already tried to make a resolution.

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Their relationship with friends played a big role to their resolution. Talking with
friends that relate to the same as them gives a positive feedback and also their
unexpected achievements despite of the ups and downs in their lives.
It's not really because they feel lonely and need an attention or the unforgettable
moments in their lives that keep them behind.
It's their need to look for the right person who can listen to their stories that makes
them feel safe. The person who can listen to what their about to say. They value those
people who choose to stay by their side through thick and thin.
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IMPLICATIONS
Based on the summary of findings, the follwong implications are drawn.
Having a fear of being embarrassed, or judged by others, affects every aspects of
student’s academic performances. The low self-esteem is characterized by feeling badly
about oneself. Self-esteem consist of the way in which they view, think and value
themselves. It influences in emotional, social interaction and mental health which affect
an individual to his own daily performance at school.
Meeting new people worth keeping for they still have the feeling of afraid to get
judge by others. The opinion of others can easily affect them positively and sometimes
negatively especially when it's about their performance. Throughout the process of trying
things out of their comfort zone they're often sensitive about it and they often evaluate
themselves negatively. So, they lower themselves that affects their performance at
school, how they interact to others and how they see themselves as an individual.
tend to give up easily although they already tried to make a resolution. On the other
hand, some are taking failure as a positive feedback. But it does not mean that they can
always take it as positivity.

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Although they try to face the world with a positive self image over those negative
things that they recieve. Still they're having a hard time making a steps that are out of
their comfort zone. They feel that they don't deserve to experience positivity that they're
receiving. Every body knows that happiness is a choice. But it gets complicated when
they desire to be happy. But they think that happines don't want them to be. Although
it's a choice to be affected or not or make a resolution or not.
Every body has different ways to overcome the hindrances and sometimes the
small things makes the best solution.

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Chapter 1
THE PROBLEM AND ITS BACKGROUND
Do really having low self-esteem does not have any effects on the academic
performances of a student? Or it is one of the primary reasons why some of students are
not competitive in terms of performing in class?
Educators believe that self-esteem plays an essential role in academic
achievement. Politicians, business managers, and religious leaders extol the virtues of
self-esteem as a vehicle for attaining success in numerous other pursuits and endeavors.
Social scientists proclaim that self-esteem is integral to life adjustment, and a slew of
popular books have appeared in recent years promising to help people build and maintain
high self-esteem. In short, self-esteem is a la mode (Brown, 2014).
Low self-esteem makes you feel defective internally as though you are the only
one who is unworthy. But in reality, many others feel the same way about themselves
too. And just like you, they aren’t sharing their vulnerability with others, so no one knows.
When you compare your “inside” with other people’s “outside”, you are bound to feel
more unworthy, different and lonely (Chan, 2017).
The environment at home has a big influence on a child's development it can affect
his life negatively or positively. High parental support and monitoring were related to
greater self-esteem and lower risk behaviors. Academic self-esteem levels of primary
students who are ages between eight to thirteen years old differ according to level of
education of their parents, economic condition of their families and the number of the
years they received education. Depressive and other symptoms increased in students
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Junior high school in both gender. Peer social support increase only for black students in
high academic competence (Essays, UK, 2013).
The self-esteem of the students with confidence overwhelming child rearing
patterns is more than the self-esteem of students with authoritarian and negligence
patterns of child rearing. The researcher concludes that the role of parents in providing
mental health, academic achievement and self-esteem is far beyond anything that has
been fulfilled (Ghorbani & Ahmadi, 2011). The stage that comes before adulthood, a point
in time determining a young person’s identity, is molded by peers, family, media and
other forces. (Sealy, 2015).
Students having low self-esteem have a big disadvantage towards their academic
performance. Some of the common reasons of having a low self-esteem are being shy to
express their own opinion and themselves. If lots of things are affecting your Self-esteem
for a long time, this may lead to a mental health problem, such as depression or anxiety
(Mind, 2016).
Having a mental health problem can make it more difficult to cope or take steps to
increase your self-esteem. But whatever the cause, it can be helpful to remind yourself
that you have the right to feel good about who you are. It can be difficult to break habits
but there are steps you can take to feel better about yourself, bit by bit. But learning to
identify and challenge your negative self-beliefs can have a positive impact on your self-
esteem. It can helpful to ask yourself: "would I talk to, or think about a loved one in such
a negative way?" (Mind, 2016).

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Almost all of the self-esteem beliefs, positive or negative, are formed in the first
six years of life as the result of interactions have with primary caretakers, almost always
the parents. To begin with, most parents are not aware that children are forming beliefs
about themselves based on interactions with their parents that don't usually appear to be
at all harmful. But even when parents are aware of this, they can have a hard time
stopping their inappropriate behavior because they are rarely aware of the conflict
between what they as parents want and what children are able to understand and do at
various ages (Lefkoe, 2011).
The lack of information about the low self-esteem of the person remains
misdiagnosed or undiagnosed and plainly being consider as shyness. Some are trying to
keep it together while others are almost at their limit trying to save themselves mentally.
Despite of having a supportive family the suffering of an individual is still different. Almost
everyone suggest talking to somebody but some people choose not to.
All those encouraging words like you can do it and that is okay do not let their
opinion get to you, are useless if that person closed his mind and think negatively about
himself.
Some students today are stuck on what kind of profession they want. Added to
that, the increasing tuition fee and miscellaneous fee. This alone can pressure not just a
student but also their parents. Due to this, the government give scholarship for students.
However, despite widespread support for the reforms, critics argue that the
benefits, particularly for poor families, are not comparable to the costs associated with
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keeping their children in school for an extra two years. An article last October in the
International New York Times raised concerns about the overall direction of the K-12
reform and particularly highlighted that many families saw ‘two more years of schooling
as a costly burden, not a benefit’ (Patrinos, 2016).
Every day our frontline services see children and teenagers struggling to
understand how they fit into the world. They have to contend with things like intense
pressure at school, bullying, problems at home, all while navigating a complex Twenty-
four/Seven world with constant stimulation from social media. (Siddique, 2018).
A report from Essays, UK (2013) shows self-esteem increased over time but males
have higher self-esteem than females. Between white and black females that ages nine
to twelve, thirteen to sixteen and seventeen to twenty-two years old, Blacks have higher
and more stable self-worth and have greater satisfaction with their physical appearance
compare to white girls. Body dissatisfaction and self-esteem are common on adolescent
aged eleven to eighteen. Adolescents with high self-esteem at the age of twelve and
eighteen showed significantly lower levels of pessimism compared to those with low self-
esteem during the adolescent years.
Unchecked, low self-esteem may even lead to mental health issues such as anxiety
and depression, sometimes with tragic results. The well-being of society depends on the
well-being of its citizenry. One of the most important factors that should be fostered at
home and in school, is children's self-esteem, as this is the key factor of their success
further in life (Venzin, 2018).

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According to the most recent UNESCO Institute for Statistics data available,
approximately 12,000 students from the Philippines studied at foreign institutions in 2013,
almost double the figure for 2002. Most of those students are self-funded. Key host
countries include the U.S. and Australia (which account for approximately a quarter of
enrollments among Filipinos enrolled abroad at the tertiary level), followed by Saudi
Arabia, Japan, and New Zealand (Craddock, 2016).
Correlations between level of self-esteem and self-esteem stability are generally
low, suggesting that these are independent manifestations of self-esteem. The Philippines
has recently embarked on an educational reform in improving the curriculum and
spreading the number of years of learning from 10 years to 13 years. The K to 12 program
aims to produce graduates who are holistically developed, equipped with 21st century
skills, and prepared for higher education, middle level skills development, employment,
and entrepreneurship. The SHS includes two years of specialized upper secondary
education. It is one where the student has the option to choose a specialization based on
their aptitude, interests, and school capacity. (Seameo Innotech, 2015).
However, many parents believe that academic excellence is the foundation for
success. Have you asked your child achiever what he/she feels about it? “Some children
perceive that you only love them because they study hard or their grades are good. The
problem with this is when they are already working, their achievements are only based
on their mental capacity or competency but when they make mistakes, they lose self-
esteem,” said Jason Sanchez, Director for Student and Faculty Development at Morning
Dew Montessori (Dela Cruz, 2012).

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Low self-esteem affects most of the students. Some of their reasons are usually
their childhood experiences or how people treated them. But they shouldn’t stick to this
kind of idea due to the increase of the low self-esteem not just in the Philippines but also
in other countries. This simple shyness that turned into a mental health disorder is a big
problem now because it cannot be cured by simple medication.
A person with healthy self- esteem can become person with low self- esteem. A
talented person can have low self- esteem. Without realizing it the things you can do
became things you cannot do. Fear of judgement, people’s negative opinion or maybe
criticisms. One these are common to us. Each individual have different sensitivity and
how should he handle himself are different too.
There is more to self-esteem than first meets the eye. Someone may clearly lack
confidence and have a low opinion of them, whereas, some people may appear to have
confidence but their efforts to take charge and be in control is a cover for their low self-
esteem. Many of these people do not admit to themselves that they have any problem
and continue to aggressively appear full of self-esteem.
Many people who have leadership positions who deep down have low self-esteem
despite pretending to be someone who is in control and who makes decisions confidently.
This will lead to a lot of stress and pain as the pretense is covering up the real person
inside. You will see the true reality of this kind of person when they face real problems
and when things go wrong. They will be unable to accept any criticism and demand others
do what they say without question (Parera, 2016).

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Students nowadays experience a lot of struggles facing their problems. Some of
them want to overcome their low self- esteem but it is not that easy to do. For Neuman
(2013) changing ingrained ideas is very difficult. Some people with low self-esteem
continue to feel bad about them despite having had signal successes in the world. That
person feels inadequate in social situations, including dating, and incapable of
accomplishing any demanding (and desirable) work. When these feelings are severe, that
individual becomes a failure. Feeling profoundly pessimistic, he/she will not try to
accomplish anything worthwhile. Anything challenging will seem to be too difficult.
Expectations of failure become self-fulfilling.
There are some students that still feel like they are having low self-esteem but not
every time. Usually it depends of the emotion that they have. However, some of them
are not considered that they are having lack of confidence or low self-esteem. Student
from grade 11 STEM stated:
Hmmmm, I don't think soo? I mean, meron mga times siguro. Pero most of
the time iniisip ko lang na kaya ko naman pag pinursigi tas ginawan ko ng
paraan. Like Kung mababa grades, just meant na di ako nagaral/nag
review. Pero Kung ginawa ko yon, parang ganon. Hmm, in those rare
instances that i'm affected by it, I think so? I mean having a low self-esteem
would make you lose a lot of confidence in doing things, so you'll not be
able to focus and study as much, pero in my experience, I can recover
pretty quick naman. Like even if I have those moments mawawala rin yun
in a day or so. I'd say minimal but yep [Hmmmm, I don't think soo? I mean,
maybe there are times, but most of the time I just thought that I can do it
if I pursue it and when I make a way to make it work. Like if I have low
grades, It just meant that I don’t study and review that well. But if I do it
just like that you know. Hmm, in those rare instances that i'm affected by
it, I think so? I mean having a low self-esteem would make you lose a lot
of confidence in doing things, so you'll not be able to focus and study as
much, but in my experience, I can recover pretty quickly. Like even if I have
those moments it will be gone in a day or so. I'd say minimal but yep].
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But in this case the person depends on the people around her. On the factors like
how they treat each other? How did they react on a mistake that you do even if it is
negative or positive? One of our co-researcher stated:
Kasi pagnagkamali kalang ng isang beses bobo kana sa isip nila. Saka yung
section natin nagpapataasan e. Sa akin lang yun a.Saka ano narin takot
mapagalitan ng teacher Oo, yan yung dahilan bat minsan wala akong
mabigay na idea kasi feeling namin hindi naman na papansinin yung
opinyon namin. Dito rin yung nasasabing wala kaming natutulong pero yung
totoo nakakahiyang makisali kasi parang mema kalang. Hindi naman,
syempre hinahanda ko muna sarili ko saka choice mo nayan kung gusto mo
pang madagdagan kabobohan mo. [because once you made a mistake
you’re illiterate at the back of their mind. My classmates thinks that they’re
better than everybody inside in our section. That’s for my own opinion only
ah. Also I’m scared to be scolded by the teachers’ yes that is the reason
why sometimes I can’t give some ideas because we felt that our opinion is
unnnoticeable. This is what they always say that we can’t help but the truth
is it’s so embarrassed to join because it’s just nothing. Not really, I just
prepared myself and it’s your choice if you want to become stupider.]
A certain student experiencing low self-esteem might not know how to handle it
or maybe they are not aware that they are already suffering from it because most of us
consider it as shyness. Added to that, the SHS program that stressed out not just students
but also their parents and teachers. Sadly, most of the students decided to stop going to
school due to the high expenses and lost hope.
In this regard, the researchers would like to explore the lived experiences of
selected grade 11 STEM students being low self-esteem towards their
academic performances. Thus, the research findings can help to widen our knowledge
towards low self- esteem, clear out misunderstandings and to make people more aware.
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ASSUMPTIONS
This qualitative phenomenological research aims to describe, explore, understand,
and interpret the lived experiences of the STEM students having low self-esteem. For the
purpose of the study, there is an assumption that the co-researchers would be honest
and truthful in answering the interview questions. The results and validity of the study
depends on the co-researchers providing truthful answers during the interview as the
information they would provide will be the data which will serve as the foundation to help
address the research questions.

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SCOPE AND DELIMITATION
The overall objective of this phenomenological study is to discover the low self-
esteem regarding academic performances of grade 11 STEM students in Mystical Rose
School of Caloocan Inc., for the school year 2018-2019. At this stage in the research, the
low self-esteem will generally influence emotional, social interaction and mental health,
which affect an individual to his own daily performance at school.
The researchers delimited their study by giving semi-structured interview to those
STEM students. Furthermore, the other strands and the issues that are not related were
excluded for the purpose of attaining concrete answers in affiliation to the problem
proposed by the researchers. The participants of the study are students which are
purposively chosen from the strand Science, Technology, Engineering, and Mathematics
(STEM). Assessment tool is also distributed to prove if the participants are having low
self- esteem.
phenomenon. In addition, Giorgi (2012) define phenomenological research design as the
study that attempts to set aside biases and preconceived assumptions about human
experiences, feelings, and responses to a particular situations.

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In order to explore the lived experiences of the STEM students, phenomenological
methodology design was used to explore the lived experience of selected grade 11 STEM
students being low self-esteem towards their academic performances. This study aims to
help student to become more aware about themselves being low self-esteem.
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LOCALE OF THE STUDY
This study will based on the currently enrolled students of the school year 2018-
2019 in Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc., taking academic track in the strand of
Science, Technology, Engineering, and Mathematics (STEM).
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc., was established in 1993 and a private
nonsectarian school that offers Academic Track and Technical-Vocational-Livelihood
Track. Courses under academic track are General Academic (GAS), Accountancy and
Business Management (ABM) Science, Technology, Engineering and Mathematics (STEM)
while Technical-Vocational-Livelihood Track consists of Information Communications
Technology (ICT) and Home Economics (HE) categories.
As STEM students, the feeling of being rejected, shamed, embarrassed and bullied
is not that noticeable but because STEM students are considered as confident, talented
and smart there are happenings that some experienced before it changes to something
that became unexplainable. Being a student of Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc.,
and having the same environment experienced same as the participants is convenient
and accessible for the researchers and the participants. For the participants it would be
an assurance to them knowing that the researchers came from the same environment as
them. The researchers would have an idea on how to properly communicate to their
participants because they’re already exposed to the same environment.

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SIGNIFICANCE OF THE STUDY
The findings of this study will be of great significant to the following:
Students for them to become more aware, to increase the understanding about
low self-esteem, and to look at themselves in a better way.
Parents for them to help their children to have an improve relationship to each
other that helps in the child’s development.
Faculty for them to motivate their students to participate, to perform better and
to enhance each other skills. They can also improve their emotional state.
School Administrators for them to improve their guidance and be
knowledgeable about low self-esteemed of the students.
Future Researchers for them to use the study to serve as a guide and reference
for further improvements.

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DEFINITION OF TERMS
The following terms are defined operationally and conceptually to add information
in the study:
Behavior is the way in which one acts or conducts oneself, especially toward
others.
Body Mass Index is a value derived from the weight and height of an
individual.
Bullying is unwanted, aggressive behavior among school aged children that
involves a real or perceived power imbalance.
Confidence is the feeling or belief that one can rely on someone or something.
Criticism is the practice of judging the merits and faults of something.
Depression is a common and serious medical illness that negatively affects how
you feel, the way you think and how you act. Fortunately, it is also treatable.
Ethnicity is the fact or state of belonging to a social group that has a common
national or cultural tradition.
Low self-esteem is characterized by a lack of confidence and feeling badly
about oneself. People with Low Self-Esteem often feel unlovable, awkward, or
incompetent.
Pressure is the psychological stress associated with expectations to perform
well in a situation.
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Racism is the prejudice, discrimination, or antagonism directed against someone
of a different race based on the belief that one's own race is superior.
Self-esteem is the effects of an individual’s overall subjective emotional
evaluation of their own worth. It is the decision made by an individual as an attitude
towards the self.
SHS means Senior High School
Sociologist is someone who studies society and social behavior by examining
the groups, cultures, organizations, social institutions, and processes that people
develop.
STEM means Science Technology Engineering Mathematics
The following terms are defined operationally and conceptually to add information
in the study:
Chapter 2
REVIEW OF RELATED LITERATURE AND STUDIES
This chapter presents the various related literatures and studies from different
foreign and local sources. The following discussions summarized the related works
referring "Lived Experiences of Grade 11 STEM Students Being Low Self-Esteem Towards
their Academics Performances".
The related literatures that are cited came from different resources such as
magazines, books, online articles, theory and opinions about authorized studies. These
studies are gathered to strengthen and inform the students on how low self- esteem
affects the academic performances of the students. Related studies are an essential part
of the planning of the study. It primarily presents the different researches and other
literatures from both foreign and local researchers, which have significant bearings on
the variables included in the research. It focuses on several aspects that will help in the
development of this study. It also reveals the similar data concluded by the other
researchers that can be found in related research, thesis or dissertations through internet,
library and other accessible sources.
In this chapter, proof and evidences is employed by this research. Local and
foreign literature is presented, collected information that can support the statement of
the problem in chapter one. The collected information will be the foundation of the study.
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LITERATURE
Literatures are the related literature which provides an overview of information
connected to the topic used. Under these are survey books, scholarly articles, and any
other sources which are relevant to the particular issue and area of research or theory,
which helps to create a greater understanding and widen our knowledge about how low
self- esteem can affect our academic performances.
Local. It composed of data that came from survey books, articles, news, and any
other sources which are parallel to the issue. That can give a description, summary and
a careful evaluation of works about the experiences and struggle of students with low
self-esteem in local boundaries.
Low self- esteem in children are considered as a normal trait or quality as we often
see shy, timid and unsociable learners sitting alone at the back of the classroom. That
should not be ignored especially by teachers since sociologist prove that it has many ill
effect on the children. And when children starts thinking negatively about themselves,
they become unhappy withdrawn and disconnected, through that it may lead to more
serious problems such as drug dependency and depression (Francisco, 2018).
Furthermore, one of the artists of GMA network also known for her role as Violet
in Destiny Rose, the seventeen-year old Kate Valdez revealed that she had low self-
esteem in her younger years because of the audition rejection for commercials. She stated
that she want her mother to bought her glutathione instead, shared Kate laughing.
Because she wanted to quit, that is when she consider herself that she’s not beautiful
thinking that is the reason why she can’t be accepted. Until she reaches the point that
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she doesn’t want it anymore. Despite of a casting reject, her morena feature had its
moments. She won the Ms. MSLO 2015 of Gen. Trias Cavite, and beating around three
hundred beauty contestants. Her perseverance in pursuing her dream to enter modeling
and acting paid off. She has done four commercials and signed a five year contract with
GMA Artists Center (Belen, 2018).
According to the article of Marajas (2018) for seven to nine years Prim Paypoon
succeeded in interviewing six hundred fourteen Filipino teenagers of every socioeconomic
class. Paypoon went fifty four out of eighty one provinces in the country with one simple
question: 'Do you have a dream in life? ‘However, according to the study, seven out of
ten teenagers answered 'no'. "It turns out that discouraging words from others was the
most common reason behind the phenomenon, followed by the lack of self-esteem, lack
of passion, lack of opportunity, and lastly, poverty".
During the school year, teenagers are most like to experience higher level of stress
than grownups. Due to the amount of school works needed to be done on deadlines,
added to that the need to analyze and review the past lessons, the new environment,
forming new friendship or relationships. The 2-year Senior High track is supposed to help
you prepare for your next steps. Whether you’re heading to college, getting employed,
or starting a business, these last two years should be able to equip you for that (Alcaraz,
M.2018).
A lot of current SHS student today experience the confusion of choosing a strand.
Especially if were talking about STEM. One of the article on when in manila by Tan (2017)
Stating that there were pressuring rumors towards the strand STEM such as all STEM
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students excel at math and science; all students will become successful, or that simply
put, all STEM students are smart.
However, these rumors might be true to a certain degree, they certainly put a
pressure towards the currently and already an STEM students that they must achieve this
kind of expectations. Not knowing these words can disturb or hinder the current students
of the said strand from doing their best by shouldering the responsibilities, it can also
discourage future SHS students from picking the strand in fear of the pressure they will
receive. She also mentioned the rumors spreading about the other strands. To support
the statement an article by Daluz (2018) two of her interviewee answered: "Never fear
to learn new things, ask questions and then record all the things you find interesting."
and “Before you finally decide to enroll in a science program, be absolutely sure first that
your heart really belongs to science and that you have an intense passion for it."
Children at school develop their potential and capabilities by the opportunity given
by the teachers, which they can help the students with low self- esteem by directly and
generously praising their exerted small or big efforts. Allowing them to speak their side
without interference in spite of mistakes will also help as correction may be done after.
Teachers must patients in explaining what and how the mistakes was done in a
way which tells them its normal to not meet others expectation from time to time.
Criticism must be just like an advice or suggestions so they won't feel like being attack
or threatened for their imperfection. These youngsters are as fragile as glass and they
need to be handled with caution and care by both parents and teachers (Francisco, 2018).
An article of Phil star Global by Beltran (2018) on having an interview with Alden
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Richards commonly known as a regular host on the daily noontime show, Eat! Bulaga.
Stating that he had low self-confidence, low self-esteem. That he felt like he did not
deserve to be part of the business where everything is about being beautiful, being
handsome, being perfect. That was the pressure on him before. It was his mother's death
that pushed him to pursue and live his mother's dream for him to be an actor.
Foreign. It contains findings from scholarly works of authors, articles and any
sources beyond the local boundaries. The result of the state studies can be used as
evidences which strengthen the stand of the researchers and for the future researchers.
We live in a world where there is an epidemic of low self-esteem. It affects almost
every aspect of our lives, from how we think about ourselves to the way we think about
or react to life situations. Nowadays, some people tend to keep their problems and
struggles by themselves, some are having a hard time expressing themselves which cause
misunderstanding and some remain unnoticed. The circumstances have endless
possibility depending on the scenario, mental stability, childhood and the people around
him (Venzin, 2015).
In the blog by Lachmann (2015), if they grew up hearing their effort was not good
enough, how are they supposed to have a positive self-image? It is difficult to feel
confident and comfortable in ourselves. Motivating ourselves to want, strive more and
imagining that they deserve more. Is ineffective when nobody paid attention to them as
if your greatest achievement is not worth to look at. This kind of scenario can often results
in feeling of being forgotten, unacknowledged, unimportant to anyone or believing that
no one is concerned about them.

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A longitudinal study was conducted, over 5 years to examine the changes in self-
esteem and feelings of competence with physical appearance and social acceptance. The
participants included were one thousand one hundred sixty-six white and one thousand
two hundred thirteen black girls, ages between nine and ten years at baseline. The
assessments of maturation stage and body mass index were done annually and Harter’s
Self-Perception Profile for children was done biennially. The report concluded that black
girls’ had higher and more stable self-worth and greater satisfaction with their physical
appearance compared to white girls (Essays, UK, November 2013; Brown).
Kling et al. (2002) conducted a meta-analysis on gender differences in global self-
esteem with two analyses. In analysis I, a computerized literature search of ninety-seven
thousand one hundred twenty-one respondents and in analysis II, the responses of
approximately forty-eight thousand young Americans, from the National Center for
Education Statistics were used. The two analyses provided evidence that males scored
higher on standard measures of global self-esteem than females, but the difference is
small (Essays, UK, November 2013; Kling et al, 2002).
In the contrary Hirsch and Rapkin (2013) conducted a longitudinal study regarding
self-esteem, school life and social support to examine the psychological well-being of
students during the transition to junior high school. The participants were one hundred
fifty nine white and black students and the findings showed that self-esteem was
unchanged from the end of sixth through the middle of seventh grades, rising by the end
of seventh grade. Depressive and other symptoms increased among girls’ overtime
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relative to boys. There is an increase in peer social support only for blacks of high
academic competence.
In addition, Richard (2013) carried out a cohort-sequential longitudinal study on
self-esteem development from young adulthood to old age. Data included 4 assessments
from the Americans’ changing lives study across a 16-year period of a nationally
representative sample of three thousand six hundred seventeen individuals aged 25 years
to 104 years. Analysis indicated that self-esteem was increasing during young and middle
adulthood, reaching a peak at about age 60 years and then declining in old age. Women
had lower self-esteem than men in young adulthood. More educated individuals had
higher self-esteem than less educated individuals. Moreover, the results suggested that
changes in socioeconomic status and physical health account for the decline in self-
esteem that occurs in old age.
A national educational longitudinal study was conducted to examine parental
support and monitoring on adolescent outcomes of self-esteem, substance abuse and
delinquency. Diverse samples of sixteen thousand seven hundred forty-nine adolescents
were included and the findings showed that high parental support and monitoring were
related to greater self-esteem and lower risk behaviors (Essays, UK, November 2013;
Parker, Jennifer, Benson, & Mark ,2004).
Phinney and Chavira (2004) conducted an exploratory longitudinal study to
examine changes in ethnic identity and self-esteem with age. The sample consisted of 18
adolescents from Asian, American, Black and Hispanic ethnic groups. They were assessed
at 16 years and three years later. Results showed a significant change to higher stages
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of ethnic identity over the three-year period. Self-esteem and ethnic identity were
significantly related to each other at each time period and across the three-year time
span (Essays, UK, November 2013; Phinney & Chavira, 2004).
Wild, Flisher, Bhana, and Lombard (2004) investigated the associations among
adolescents’ self-esteem in 6 domains and risk behaviors related to substance use,
bullying, suicidal and sexuality. A multistage stratified sampling strategy was used and a
representative sample of nine hundred thirty-nine English, Afrikaans and Xhosa-speaking
students in Grades 8 and 11 were selected. The multidimensional self-esteem
questionnaire and a self-report questionnaire were used to collect the data. The results
showed that scores on each self-esteem scale was significantly associated with at least
one risk behavior. Low self-esteem in the family and school contexts and high self-esteem
in the peer domain were significantly associated with multiple risk behaviors in
adolescents of both the sexes.
Heinonen, Raikkonen, and Jarvinen (2005) conducted a longitudinal study to
investigate the relation of self-esteem in early and late adolescence to dispositional
optimism-pessimism in adulthood. The subjects comprised a population-based sample of
young Finns and were investigated at ages 12, 18 and 33 years. The results revealed that
adolescents with high self-esteem at the age of 12 and 18 showed significantly lower
levels of pessimism compared to those with low self-esteem during the adolescent years.
Biro et al. (2006) conducted a longitudinal study to examine the changes in self-
esteem in relation to race and body mass. The samples were girls recruited at ages 9 and
10 years and were followed to age 22 years. The Harter self-perception was administered
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every other year, analyzing scores from the global self-worth scale at ages 9-12 years,
13-16 years and 17-22 years. The results showed that self-worth was greater in black
than white women and greater with lower body mass index in both races. The findings
revealed that race and body mass index are important predictors of self-esteem.
Raevuori et al. (2007) conducted a longitudinal study to analyze the genetic and
environmental influences on self-esteem among Finnish twins. The 4132 twin individuals
were assessed at age 14 years and 3841 twin individuals were assessed at age 17 years.
The Rosenberg Global Self-Esteem Scale was used to measure self-esteem and the results
indicated that stability in self-esteem was differently regulated in adolescent boys
compared to girls. Genetic factors contributed to a large degree in boys, whereas
significant shared environmental influences suggest that interventions intended to
strengthen girl’s self-esteem could be more feasible than among boys.
Block and Robins (2008) in a longitudinal study examined the developmental
changes in self-esteem from early adolescence through late adolescence to early
adulthood. The samples included were 47 girls and 44 boys. The findings showed that
the self-esteem of males increased and females decreased over time. Boys and girls with
high self-esteem possessed quite different personality characteristics in early
adolescence. Although important differences remained, the personality characteristics
associated with high self-esteem were similar for the two sexes in early adulthood.
Berg (2010) conducted a longitudinal study to examine the cross-sectional
association between body dissatisfaction and low self-esteem across gender, age, body
weight status, race or ethnicity, and socioeconomic status. A diverse sample of

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adolescents aged 11-18 years undergone school-based survey of eating, weight, and
related attitudes. Measurement of height and weight were done in schools and were
resurveyed through mails 5 years later. The findings indicated that body dissatisfaction
and self-esteem were strongly related among all groups of adolescents.
Erturgut (2010) conducted a study to analyze academic self-esteem levels of
primary school children whose families applied to the hospital with different complaints.
241 primary school children who were between ages 8-13 years constitute the sample of
the research. Stress level scale, Academic Self-Esteem Scale and Demographic Scale were
the three different scales used in the research. The results found out that academic self-
esteem levels of students differ according to level of education of their parents, economic
condition of their families and the number of the years they received education. Other
findings show the existence of an inverse relationship between academic self-esteem and
stress levels of the students.
Holmstrom (2010) did a meta-analysis on self-esteem as a focus of communication
scholarship to examine the interactions that aid in the development and maintenance of
self-esteem in both children and adults. The results showed that communication
influences the development of children’s self-esteem and it has important theoretical and
pragmatic implications.
Devamony & Devadoson (2011) did an interventional study to evaluate the level
of self-esteem among adolescent girls before and after hugging using pre experimental
design. The samples consisted of 30 adolescent girls selected by total enumeration
method and the data was collected using Standardized Rosenberg’s Self-Esteem Scale.
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Inferential statistics was used to evaluate the effectiveness of hugging among adolescent
girls and the results showed that there was a significant increase in self-esteem after
hugging among adolescent girls.
GhorbaniAmir & AhmadiGatab (2011) did a descriptive and correlation study to
investigate the relationship between child rearing styles and students’ self-esteem among
both male and female students. The sample group consisted of randomly selected 100
students including 50 girls and 50 boys. The tool used was Self-Esteem Eysenck
Questionnaire and a question was added to determine the child rearing style.
The results showed that the self-esteem of the students with confidence
overwhelming child rearing patterns is more than the self-esteem of students with
authoritarian and negligence patterns of child rearing. The researcher concludes that the
role of parents in providing mental health, academic achievement and self-esteem is far
beyond anything that has been fulfilled.
Patel (2018) said that instead our brains have envolved to survive, to protect
ourselves, to keep us safe. Sure, we have moments of elation and periods of contentment
and bliss.
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STUDIES
Studies are the related studies which the critical analysis was already conducted
providing the results that is connected to the topic used. It can be found in the related
research, thesis or dissertations through internet, library and etc., which answers the
specific questions and strengthen the claims of the researchers.
Local Studies. It composed of past studies of the researchers and authors that
came from related research and thesis. That can give a detailed information about the in
the local boundary.
Poor achievement in Mathematics are caused by problems and difficulties that
include personal problems (students’ ability and attitudes), psychological (emotional)
problems, instructional problems (teachers’ strategies in teaching and attitude), family
problems (finances and relationship), adjustment to college life, peer problems
(adjustment to classmates and board mates), and co-curricular activities (Ganal, N.N&
Guiab, M.R.2014)
The conducted study about academic performance between students with
behavior problems and those without behavior problems, but no difference was found in
the self-esteem between the same groups. The most common behavior problems
observed among the respondents are 1) skipping school or cutting classes, 2) bullying or
intimidating others, and 3) arguing with teachers, friends and classmates.
Almogela. L et al (2013) showed that there is no significant difference between
the relationship of self-esteem and health-related behavior when grouped according to
males and females. It implied that when it comes to the variable gender, the relationship
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of self-esteem and health related behavior of males and females are not significantly
different from one another. The researchers used the Rosenberg’s Self-esteem scale in
Saint Louis University School of Nursing Baguio City. There is no significant difference
between self-esteem and health related behaviors (Stress and Gender in relation to Self-
esteem of University business students, 2011).
This study in contradictory to some researches in which the relationship of self-
esteem and health-related behaviors of males and females shown that there was a
statistically significant difference with one another, which shows that males scored
significantly higher level of self-esteem than females (Self-esteem and optimism in rural
youth: Gender differences, 2010).
Foreign Studies. It contains the conclusion of the researchers and authors
beyond the local boundaries. The said studies serve as the proof which toughens the
stand of the researchers and the future researchers.
Okoko (2012) define self-esteem as a person's overall evaluation of his or her own
worth. William James first introduced the concept in 1890, suggesting that self-esteem is
the result of our success (behavior) divided by our pretensions (values and goals) (Flynn,
2016; James, 1890).Low self-esteem lay behind a range of undesirable behaviors and
practices made low self- esteem the problem and high self-esteem, or methods
supposedly promote this condition, the solution (Emler, 2001; Hewitt, 1998).
Ahmavaara and Houston conducted a study using 856 English secondary pupils in
grade 7 and grade 10.Which focus on the relationship between gender and self-concept.
The research found that the boys report higher level of self-concept than girls regardless
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of their school type or age (Okoko, 2012; Ahmavaara&Houston, 2007).
Parents transmit knowledge and values to their children and help to shape
behavior and perceptions of self. Children also are actively constructing an understanding
of their environment (Flynn, 2016).Adolescents who feel accepted in their peer groups
have their love and belonging needs as well as self-esteem needs met. Rejected
adolescents are infrequently nominated as best friends. Rejection results from
aggression, poor sociability, communicative unresponsiveness and hyperactivity (Okoko,
2012; Ladd, 1999).
Authoritative parenting which encourage adolescents to be independent but still
places limits and control on their actions, encourage socially competent behavior. The
parents who allow their children to do what they want results as adolescents never learn
to control their own behavior and always expect to get their way(Okoko, 2012;Baumrid,
1999).
According to Mercury (2015), the power of being honest with yourself is incredible.
It will change your life in every in every way for the better. It will impact your financtial
situation. It will impact your relationships. It will impact your happiness. It will even
impact your sleep and overall health.
Raghunath (2011) did an interventional study to evaluate the effectiveness of
writing therapy on self-esteem among adolescents. A sample size of 22 adolescents were
selected using purposive sampling method and a repeated measure time series design
was used. The results showed that there was a significant increase in mean self-esteem
score of adolescents after writing therapy.

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Mrudu, Nagarajaiah, and Janardhana (2012) did a descriptive study to assess the
parental attachment and self-esteem among adolescents. Convenient sampling was used
to select a sample of 100 adolescents between the age group of 15-18 years. Socio
Demographic Data Schedule, Parental Attachment Questionnaire and Self-Esteem
Inventory were used for the data collection. The findings revealed that, there is a
statistically significant positive correlation between overall parental attachment and self-
esteem among the adolescents.
Vidya (2012) conducted a study to evaluate the effect of a planned series of activity
sessions on positive peer relationship and self esteem among adolescent students using
pre experimental design. Simple random technique was used and 60 adolescents were
selected. Peer Relation Scale and the Rosenberg’s Self-Esteem Inventory were used to
collect data. The subjects participated in the planned series of activity in eight different
sessions. The results showed that the subjects developed high positive peer relation and
self-esteem after participation in the activities and it was also found that there was a
positive correlation between the level of positive peer relation and self-esteem of the
adolescents.
Self-esteem by itself can actually decrease grades. High self-esteem correlates
highly with self-reported happiness. However it is not clear if either necessarily leads to
the other. The relationship involving self-esteem and academic results does not signify
that high self-esteem contributes to high academic result. It simply means that high self-
esteem may be accomplished due to high academic performance. (Okoko, 2012; Frank,
2009). Low self-esteem is the source of all manner of personal and social ills. That at
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least is the popular view (Emler, 2001).
According to an empirical study of McLeod (2012), children with low self-esteem
rely on coping strategies that are counterproductive such as bullying and etc. Although,
there’s also a productive strategy that will help them to survive their day, just like having
friends with the same characteristic and can relate with each other. Also, Low self-esteem
children tend to be bullied by other kids that surrounds them because of being weak.
Furthermore, low self-esteem individual tends to be pessimistic towards to
everything that surrounds you (Rosenberg & Owen, 2001; McLeod, 2012).
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 Personal Information of the participants.

 preferred name
 age
 gender
 sex
 grade & section
 Describing oneself.
 Reasons for being low self-esteem.
 Describing friends and things done together.
 Social relationship with classmates and teachers.
 Performance inside the classroom.
 Worst and happiest experience in class being low self-esteem
 Effect of being low self-esteem in studies.
 Regrets for being low self-esteem.
 Suggestion and resolution.
 What are the lived experiences of the students having low self-esteem?
 What insights may be drawn from their experiences?
What implications may the findings offer for any schools or institutions concerned for their policy
development and management?
INPUT
 Distribution of assessment test to participants to determine if they

experience having low self-esteem
 Data gathering thru distribution and retrieval of semi-structured interview
 Analyzing, and Interpretation of Data
PROCESS
Explored the lived Experiences of STEM Students being Low Self-Esteem

to know if there is a positive or negative effects due to the trials, difficulties
and conflict to oneself towards their Academics Performances.
OUTPUT
Figure 1
Paradigm of the Study
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PARADIGM OF THE STUDY
Block 1 is the INPUT, characterization of the respondents the varied effect of
having low self-esteem in one's multiple aspects of living, the reason for studies and the
problem encountered by those students having a low self-esteem in their Academic
Performances.
Block 2 is the PROCESS, which contained the methods to come up with the
results of the study. Under these were the data gathering instruments in order to acquire
needed information from the target respondents: Distribution and retrieval of semi-
structured interview; use of formulated statistical treatments; presentation and analysis
of data through tabulations.
Block 3 is the OUTPUT, which presented the outcome of both the input and the
process. This also pertained to the goal of researchers towards determining the
relationship and impacts brought by part-time employment towards the academic
attainment of undergraduates, and coming up with a formulation of a guide that could
help the students to improve their competence stability of working while studying.
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RELEVANCE OF THE REVIEWED LITERATURE AND STUDIES TO THE PRESENT
STUDY/ SYNTHESIS
or react to life situations William James first introduced the concept in 1890, suggesting
that self-esteem is the result of our success (behavior) divided by our pretensions (values
and goals) (Flynn, 2016; James, 1890). Okoko (2012) define self-esteem as a person's
overall evaluation of his or her own worth.
Low Self- Esteem refers to a person who criticizes his or her own self in a negative
way, being unable to have choices and to solve problems by themselves or lack of
confidence. Low self- esteem in children are considered as a normal trait or quality.
Ignoring this may lead to more serious problems (Francisco, 2018).
During the school year, teenagers are most like to experience higher level of stress
than grownups. Due to the school work needed to be done and passed on a specific
deadlines (Alcaraz, M.2018).The 2-year Senior High track is supposed to help you prepare
for your next steps. A lot of current SHS student today experience the confusion of
choosing a strand. Especially if were talking about STEM.
One of the article on when in manila by Tan (2017) Stating that there were
pressuring rumors towards the strand STEM such as you need to be smart excel on math
and science, you will become successful. However, these rumors might be true to a
36
certain degree, they certainly put a pressure towards the currently and already an STEM
students that they must achieve this kind of expectations.
Children at school develop their potential and capabilities by the opportunity given
by the teachers (Daluz, 2018).Parents transmit knowledge and values to their children
and help to shape behavior and perceptions of self (Flynn, 2016).
Teachers must patients in explaining what and how the mistakes was done in a
way which tells them its normal to not meet others expectation from time to time.
Criticism must be just like an advice or suggestions so they won't feel like being attack
or threatened for their imperfection. These youngsters are as fragile as glass and they
need to be handled with caution and care by both parents and teachers (Francisco, 2018).
Having a low self-esteem is big factor in all ages especially for a child's
development. The negative experiences of a child until the adolescence stage can affect
and can lead to serious problems that cannot be notice right away. Added to that the
pressure he receive at school or the strand and profession that he want, his appearance,
height or weight, nationality, childhood, the current status of his family one of these
might be the reason why he is slowly losing his self-worth. We can never tell if a child is
feeling down until he tells it to you.
The possibility is endless to this kind of situation because it still depends on how
he sees himself, the support given by the family or friends and deepness of the problem.
For this matter both literatures and studies of the previous and present are combined
since it is related to low self-esteem. The overviewed literatures and studies provides
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insight, background new information and evidences that strengthen the stand of this
study since low self-esteem is not quite known for what really it is.
Children starts thinking negatively about themselves, they become unhappy
withdrawn and disconnected, through that it may lead to more serious problems such as
drug dependency and depression (Francisco, 2018).
Furthermore, one of the artists of GMA network also known for her role as Violet
in Destiny Rose, the seventeen-year old Kate Valdez revealed that she had low self-
esteem in her younger years because of the audition rejection for commercials. She stated
that she want her mother to bought her glutathione instead, shared Kate laughing. She
has done four commercials and signed a five year contract with GMA Artists Center (Belen,
2018).
According to the article of Marajas (2018) for seven to nine years Prim Paypoon
succeeded in interviewing six hundred fourteen Filipino teenagers of every socioeconomic
class. Paypoon went fifty four out of eighty one provinces in the country with one simple
question: 'Do you have a dream in life? ‘However, according to the study, seven out of
ten teenagers answered 'no'. "It turns out that discouraging words from others was the
most common reason behind the phenomenon, followed by the lack of self-esteem, lack
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of passion, lack of opportunity, and lastly, poverty".
An article of Phil star Global by Beltran (2018) on having an interview with Alden
Richards commonly known as a regular host on the daily noontime show, Eat! Bulaga.
Stating that he had low self-confidence, low self-esteem. That he felt like he did not
deserve to be part of the business where everything is about being beautiful, being
handsome, being perfect. That was the pressure on him before. It was his mother's death
that pushed him to pursue and live his mother's dream for him to be an actor.
or react to life situations. Nowadays, some people tend to keep their problems and
struggles by themselves, some are having a hard time expressing themselves which cause
misunderstanding and some remain unnoticed. The circumstances have endless
possibility depending on the scenario, mental stability, childhood and the people around
him (Venzin, 2015).
In the blog by Lachmann (2015), a feeling of overprotective and over supported.
There is chance but the preparedness for the upcoming challenges in his life is not there.
Fear of speaking up because of Physical, sexual, or emotional abuse. The feeling of being
compared puts them in situations where you are constantly guilty of the same mistakes.
Kling et al. (2002) conducted a meta-analysis on gender differences in global self-
esteem with two analyses. In analysis I, a computerized literature search of ninety-seven
thousand one hundred twenty-one respondents and in analysis II, the responses of
approximately forty-eight thousand young Americans, from the National Center for
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Education Statistics were used. The two analyses provided evidence that males scored
higher on standard measures of global self-esteem than females, but the difference is
small (Essays, UK, November 2013; Kling et al, 2002).
A national educational longitudinal study was conducted to examine parental
support and monitoring on adolescent outcomes of self-esteem, substance abuse and
delinquency. Diverse samples of sixteen thousand seven hundred forty-nine adolescents
were included and the findings showed that high parental support and monitoring were
related to greater self-esteem and lower risk behaviors (Essays, UK, November 2013;
Parker, Jennifer, Benson, & Mark ,2004).
Phinney and Chavira (2004) conducted an exploratory longitudinal study to
examine changes in ethnic identity and self-esteem with age. The sample consisted of 18
adolescents from Asian, American, Black and Hispanic ethnic groups. They were assessed
at 16 years and three years later. Results showed a significant change to higher stages
of ethnic identity over the three-year period. Self-esteem and ethnic identity were
significantly related to each other at each time period and across the three-year time
span (Essays, UK, November 2013; Phinney & Chavira, 2004).
Wild, Flisher, Bhana, and Lombard (2004) investigated the associations among
adolescents’ self-esteem in 6 domains and risk behaviors related to substance use,
bullying, suicidal and sexuality. Low self-esteem in the family and school contexts and
high self-esteem in the peer domain were significantly associated with multiple risk
behaviors in adolescents of both the sexes.

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Heinonen, Raikkonen, and Jarvinen (2005) conducted a longitudinal study to
investigate the relation of self-esteem in early and late adolescence to dispositional
optimism-pessimism in adulthood. The subjects comprised a population-based sample of
young Finns and were investigated at ages 12, 18 and 33 years. The results revealed that
adolescents with high self-esteem at the age of 12 and 18 showed significantly lower
levels of pessimism compared to those with low self-esteem during the adolescent years.
Biro et al. (2006) conducted a longitudinal study to examine the changes in self-
esteem in relation to race and body mass. The samples were girls recruited at ages 9 and
10 years and were followed to age 22 years. The Harter self-perception was administered
every other year, analyzing scores from the global self-worth scale at ages 9-12 years,
13-16 years and 17-22 years. The results showed that self-worth was greater in black
than white women and greater with lower body mass index in both races. The findings
revealed that race and body mass index are important predictors of self-esteem.
Raevuori et al. (2007) conducted a longitudinal study to analyze the genetic and
environmental influences on self-esteem among Finnish twins. The 4132 twin individuals
were assessed at age 14 years and 3841 twin individuals were assessed at age 17 years.
The Rosenberg Global Self-Esteem Scale was used to measure self-esteem and the results
indicated that stability in self-esteem was differently regulated in adolescent boys
compared to girls. Genetic factors contributed to a large degree in boys, whereas
significant shared environmental influences suggest that interventions intended to
strengthen girl’s self-esteem could be more feasible than among boys.

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weight status, race or ethnicity, and socioeconomic status. A diverse sample of
adolescents aged 11-18 years undergone school-based survey of eating, weight, and
related attitudes. Measurement of height and weight were done in schools and were
resurveyed through mails 5 years later. The findings indicated that body dissatisfaction
and self-esteem were strongly related among all groups of adolescents.
Erturgut (2010) conducted a study to analyze academic self-esteem levels of
primary school children whose families applied to the hospital with different complaints.
241 primary school children who were between ages 8-13 years constitute the sample of
the research. Stress level scale, Academic Self-Esteem Scale and Demographic Scale were
the three different scales used in the research. The results found out that academic self-
esteem levels of students differ according to level of education of their parents, economic
condition of their families and the number of the years they received education. Other
findings show the existence of an inverse relationship between academic self-esteem and
stress levels of the students.
Devamony & Devadoson (2011) did an interventional study to evaluate the level
of self-esteem among adolescent girls before and after hugging using pre experimental
design. The samples consisted of 30 adolescent girls selected by total enumeration
method and the data was collected using Standardized Rosenberg’s Self-Esteem Scale.
Inferential statistics was used to evaluate the effectiveness of hugging among adolescent
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girls and the results showed that there was a significant increase in self-esteem after
hugging among adolescent girls.
GhorbaniAmir and AhmadiGatab (2011) did a descriptive and correlation study to
investigate the relationship between child rearing styles and students’ self-esteem among
both male and female students. The sample group consisted of randomly selected 100
students including 50 girls and 50 boys. The tool used was Self-Esteem Eysenck
Questionnaire and a question was added to determine the child rearing style. The results
showed that the self-esteem of the students with confidence overwhelming child rearing
patterns is more than the self-esteem of students with authoritarian and negligence
patterns of child rearing. The researcher concludes that the role of parents in providing
mental health, academic achievement and self-esteem is far beyond anything that has
been fulfilled.
and bliss.
Almogela. L et al (2013) showed that there is no significant difference between
the relationship of self-esteem and health-related behavior when grouped according to
males and females. It implied that when it comes to the variable gender, the relationship
of self-esteem and health related behavior of males and females are not significantly
different from one another. The researchers used the Rosenberg’s Self-esteem scale in
Saint Louis University School of Nursing Baguio City. There is no significant difference
between self-esteem and health related behaviors (Stress and Gender in relation to Self-
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esteem of University business students, 2011). This study in contradictory to some
researches in which the relationship of self-esteem and health-related behaviors of males
and females shown that there was a statistically significant difference with one another,
which shows that males scored significantly higher level of self-esteem than females
(Self-esteem and optimism in rural youth: Gender differences, 2010).
Low self-esteem lay behind a range of undesirable behaviors and practices made
low self- esteem the problem and high self-esteem, or methods supposedly promote this
condition, the solution (Emler, 2001; Hewitt, 1998).
Ahmavaara and Houston conducted a study using 856 English secondary pupils in
grade 7 and grade 10.Which focus on the relationship between gender and self-concept.
The research found that the boys report higher level of self-concept than girls regardless
of their school type or age (Okoko, 2012; Ahmavaara&Houston, 2007).
Adolescents who feel accepted in their peer groups have their love and belonging
needs as well as self-esteem needs met. Rejected adolescents are infrequently nominated
as best friends. Rejection results from aggression, poor sociability, communicative
unresponsiveness and hyperactivity (Okoko, 2012; Ladd, 1999).Authoritative parenting
which encourage adolescents to be independent but still places limits and control on their
actions, encourage socially competent behavior. The parents who allow their children to
do what they want results as adolescents never learn to control their own behavior and
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Raghunath (2011) did an interventional study to evaluate the effectiveness of
writing therapy on self-esteem among adolescents. A sample size of 22 adolescents were
selected using purposive sampling method and a repeated measure time series design
was used. The results showed that there was a significant increase in mean self-esteem
score of adolescents after writing therapy.
Mrudu, Nagarajaiah, and Janardhana (2012) did a descriptive study to assess the
parental attachment and self-esteem among adolescents. Convenient sampling was used
to select a sample of 100 adolescents between the age group of 15-18 years. Socio
Demographic Data Schedule, Parental Attachment Questionnaire and Self-Esteem
Inventory were used for the data collection. The findings revealed that, there is a
statistically significant positive correlation between overall parental attachment and self-
esteem among the adolescents.
Vidya (2012) conducted a study to evaluate the effect of a planned series of activity
sessions on positive peer relationship and self-esteem among adolescent students using
pre experimental design. Simple random technique was used and 60 adolescents were
selected. Peer Relation Scale and the Rosenberg’s Self-Esteem Inventory were used to
collect data. The subjects participated in the planned series of activity in eight different
sessions. The results showed that the subjects developed high positive peer relation and
self esteem after participation in the activities and it was also found that there was a
positive correlation between the level of positive peer relation and self-esteem of the
adolescents.
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Self-esteem by itself can actually decrease grades. High self-esteem correlates
highly with self-reported happiness. However it is not clear if either necessarily leads to
the other. The relationship involving self-esteem and academic results does not signify
that high self-esteem contributes to high academic result. It simply means that high self-
esteem may be accomplished due to high academic performance. (Okoko, 2012; Frank,
2009). Low self-esteem is the source of all manner of personal and social ills. That at
least is the popular view (Emler, 2001).
According to an empirical study of McLeod (2012), children with low self-esteem
rely on coping strategies that are counterproductive such as bullying and etc. Although,
there’s also a productive strategy that will help them to survive their day, just like having
friends with the same characteristic and can relate with each other. Also, Low self-esteem
children tend to be bullied by other kids that surrounds them because of being weak.
Furthermore, low self-esteem individual tends to be pessimistic towards to
everything that surrounds you (Rosenberg & Owen, 2001; McLeod, 2012).
Chapter 3
METHODOLOGY AND METHODS OF RESEARCH
This chapter discussed the research methodology used in this study, the research
design, the respondents of the study, the research instrumentation, the validation of
instruments, the analyzation of data, the sampling technique, and the retrieval of
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RESEARCH DESIGN
This study used Qualitative Phenomenological Research method, wherein the study
is focused on the lived experiences of the currently enrolled grade 11 STEM students.
phenomenon. In addition, Creswell (2007) also stated that, a phenomenological study
“describes the meaning for several individuals of their lived experiences of a concept or
a phenomenon”. Phenomenological study allows the researchers to delve into the
perceptions, perspectives, understandings, and feelings of those people who have
experienced or lived the phenomenon or situation of interest (Abels, 2018).
On the other hand, Waters (2016) phenomenological research describes a lived
experience of a phenomenon. As this is a qualitative analysis of narrative data, methods,
to analyze its data is quite different from more traditional or quantitative method of
research. Furthermore, Phenomenology focused on the subjectivity of reality, continually
pointing out the need of to understand how humans view themselves and the world
around them (Willis, 2007).
For the main purpose of this study, qualitative phenomenological design was used
in order to explore the lived experience of selected grade 11 STEM students being low
self-esteem towards their academic performances. This study attempts to set aside biases
and preconceived assumptions about human experiences, feelings, and responses to a
particular situations (Giorgi, 2012).

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SELECTION OF CO-RESEARCHERS/ SAMPLING TECHNIQUES
Purposive Sampling was used in the selection of co-researchers who are only
chosen if they fit rightfully to the specific intention and purpose of the study. Purposive
Sampling is a kind of non-probability sampling that focuses on a characteristic of a
population that are of interest, which will best to enable the answer in research questions
(Lund Research Ltd, 2012). In addition with that, these characteristic can help the
researchers to identify those Grade 11 STEM students who have low self-esteem;
 Is extremely critical of themselves

 Downplays or ignores their positive qualities
 Judges themselves to be inferior to their peers
 Use negative words to describe themselves such as stupid, fat, ugly or
unlovable
 Has discussions with themselves (this is called ‘self-talk’) that are always
negative, critical and self-blaming
 Assumes that luck plays a large role in all their achievements and does not
take the credit for them
 Blames themselves when things go wrong instead of taking into account
other things over which they have no control such as the actions of other
people or economic forces
 Does not believe a person who compliments them. (DOHHS, 2014)
But to really ensure the selection of co-researchers, the researchers based on the
result of the Rosenberg’s scale that serves as the assessment tool so the researchers can
carefully analyze whom are the selected students, to discover the evidence that serves
as proof of their actual experience.

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RESEARCH INSTRUMENTATION/ DATA COLLECTION
The researchers executed the following research instruments in gathering data.
Semi-structured Interviews. Semi-structured Interviews Define as the specific
set of questions, but there are also addition probes that may come in the form of follow
up questions that are not included in the list of original questions. Through this process,
the researcher can gather additional data from a respondent that may add depth and
significance to the findings (Cristobal & Cristobal, 2017).
As Smith and Fowler stated at Gregorious (2017), an interview protocol was
developed for use in conducting face-to-face interviews with study participants who
consented to be interviewed. The interview protocol consisted of 10 questions, the
interviews provided a more in-depth analysis of the participant’s overall experience. The
interview questions served as a guide rather than a fixed protocol for each interview. At
times, the researcher may use additional follow-up questions to clarify or expand upon
learners’ responses in keeping with the phenomenological approach used in this study.
The phenomenological interview should be structured enough to focus the
conversation on the study participant’s experience with the phenomenon of interest, but
also open enough to allow free expression of all relevant elements.
The researchers conducted the use of semi-structured interview in order to gather
the opinions and experiences of the participant which are related to the lived experience
of grade 11 STEM students being low self-esteem towards their academic performance.
The semi-structured interviews contain questions that is prepared in advance which are
only given to the participants that fits the characteristics needed in the said study. The
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use of this assessment tool in the study is included in the semi-structured-structured
interview.
This enables the researchers to identify the participants that are fitted to the study
which are given before the semi-structured-structured interview. The purpose of this
study is stated in the statement of the problem which specifically sought answers to the
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TREATMENT OF DATA/ DATA ANALYSIS
The researcher conducts face-to-face interviews with participants, in-person, or
engages in one-on-one interview. These interviews involve semi-structured and generally
open-ended questions that are few in number and intended to elicit views and opinions
from the participants (Creswell, 2013). Correlation with this, Creswell 2009 enumerates
the following process on how to analyze qualitative data:
1. Organize and prepare. - Interviews were recorded (if allowed) and transcribed
or summarized.
2. Make a general sense of the data collected-Reading through all the interview
transcripts offered an overview of the emerging general themes, tone and
insights.
3. Coding process - Coding is defined as “the process of organizing the material
into chunks or segments of text before bringing meaning to information”
(Rossman & Rallis, 1998; cited in Creswell 2009).
4. Aggregate codes into themes or categories - Categories are collection of codes
and represent the key findings of the research study. Categories should
encompass the perspectives of various individuals and be supported by various
direct quotes.
5. Connect categories - The categories emerged from the analysis will be
discussed in detail comparing and contrasting the views of various informants.
6. Interpretation - The data, codes and categories were interpreted in light of the
literature reviewed.
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VALIDATION OF THE INSTRUMENT
After formulating the semi-structured interviews, the researchers conducted a test
sample of 5 currently enrolled STEM student of Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc. of
the school year 2018-2019 and were also asked to answer the checklist made by the
researcher in order to know if the questions are suitable and comfortable enough to be
asked to the participant. The researcher computed the weighted mean 3.66(Very good).
Also, it consist` a suggestion for further revision of the semi- structured interviews.
RESEARCH ROLES AND BAISES
The researchers considered the participants honest and truthful answer as they
share their own experience and perspective during the recorded interview. Through
analyzing the response of the participants, the researchers came up with the result that
attempted to precisely connect the purpose of the study. Throughout the research
process, the researchers observed their own experiences and perspectives as they related
to the study, conforming in mind their personal biases. The researchers attempted to let
their own opinion and perspective hinder the response that discovered in the interviews
by the participants.
TRUSTWORTHINESS
Trustworthiness as defined by LaBanca (2010), Demonstration that the evidence
for the results reported is sound and when the argument made based on the results is
strong. Therefore, trustworthiness of (a) interpretations, (b) findings are dependent on
being able to demonstrate how they were reach (Mauthner & Douceth, 2003). The
participants’ answers are the highest reliable data source because, it is based on their
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own experience. The researchers distributed assessment tool to ensure that the
participants are low self-esteem students, it is also stated in our consent form that the
participants must answer it honestly.
MEMOING
In analysis of the gathered data, the researchers listened to the recorded interview
of the participants continuously until the transcribe data is accurate. After listening to the
recorded interview of the participants several times, the researchers wrote it down,
encoded the recorded interviews and translated those stories shared by the participants
and manually evaluated the transcripts to derive with the appropriate and relevant
themes.
Chapter 4
PRESENTATION, ANALYSIS, AND INTERPRETATION OF DATA
This chapter includes the presentation, analysis, and interpretation of data
gathered by the researchers from the interview conducted.

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Co-Researcher A--------------Ms. Leilei
Hello, ako si Leilei. Ako ay nag-aaral sa Mystical Rose School of Caloocan taking
up STEM Strand section Bonifacio. Hilig kong tumugtog ng gitara at syempre makinig ng
mga classic musics. Ahm… I’m introvert and feel comfortable for being alone.
Oo, okay lang pero huwag mo sasabihin sa iba. Nagsimula yun noong namatay
ang mama ko. Lagi kong tinitingnan yung mga negative sides noong nawala siya. Mas
naging stressed ako ngayon kaysa dati. Lagi akong nababalisa sa lahat ng bagay
especially sa pag-aaral ko at meron akong ugaling pagiging malungkot pero hindi ko rin
alam kung kalian yun nagsimula.
Ang mga kaibigan ko ay mababait at lagi silang nandiyan para sa akin kahit na sa
pinakamababang punto ng buhay ko. Sila yung mga klase ng kaibigan na masasandalan
ko. Lagi kaming sama-samang kumakain at tumutugtog ng gitara.
Actually, yung relasyon ko sa teacher ko ay maayos naman dahil isa siya sa mga
nasasabihan ko ng mga problema. At yung relasyon ko naman sa mga classmates ko ay
hindi ganon kaganda. Tulad nga ng sinabi ko kanina, I am introvert. Ako ay komportable
sa sarili ko at hindi ako nabibilang sa circle of friends na meron sila.
Minsan ako ay active sa recitation sa klase pero minsan tamad din ako at antukin
habang may class discussion.
Noong ako at yung kaklase ko ay nagkaroon ng hindi pagkakaunawaan during
science fair. Nakapagsabi ako ng mga masasakit na salita tungkol sa kanya. At inaamin
ko yung mga pagkakamali ko pero meron din naman siyang pagkakamali noong mga oras
na iyon. Mula noong araw na iyon ay naging mahiyain ako sa mga classmates ko dahil
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alam nila kung ano ang nangyari noong araw na iyon. At iyon din ang naging dahilan
kung bakit ako naging low self-esteem.
Yung pinakamasayang experiences na naranasan ko is during our Christmas
party, yun na iyon.
Oo, naaapektuhan ang pag-aaral ko. Dahil sa low self-esteem hindi ko magawang
matuto sa ilang discussion dahil nawawalan ako ng focus at lagi kong naiisip na hindi ko
magagawa iyon, hindi ko magagawa ito at hindi ko gusto yung ganoong pakiramdam.
Tinitiis ko lang yung sakit, yung pag-iisa ko ng negative at lagi kong iniisip yung
kinabukasan ko na kailangan kong lumaban kahit na mahirap ito.
Oo, meron akong mga pagsisisi sa pagiging low self-esteem ko dahil maraming
nasayang na opportunities.
Huwag matakot sa mga struggles at mga problema na kinakaharap nila. Kapag
nabigo ka, gawin mo nalang ulit. Huwag ka manatili doon sa comfort zone na sapunto na
you are not able to grow as a person.

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Hello, I’m Leilei. I am studying at Mystical Rose School of Caloocan taking up STEM
Strand section Bonifacio. I like playing guitar and of course listening to a classic music.
Ahm… I’m introvert and feel comfortable for being alone.
Yes, it’s fine but don’t tell it to anyone. It all started when my mom passed away.
I always look to the negative sides of her lost. I become more stressed than before. I
always feel anxious in everything especially in my studies and I have the attitude of being
sad but I actually don’t know when it was started.
My friends are good and they are always there for me even in my lowest point of
my life. They are kind of friends that I can lean on. We usually eating and playing guitar
together.
Actually, my relationship with my teacher was really good because she is the one
I can open up my problems. Then, my relationship with my classmates where not so
good. As I said before, I am introvert. I am comfortable with myself and I am not belong
to those circle of friends that they have.
Sometimes I am active in class recitation but sometimes I am lazy and sleepy
during class discussion.
When me and my classmate had a misunderstanding during science fair. I said
some awful words about him. And I admit my mistakes but he also had a mistakes that
time. Since that day I become shy to all of my classmates because they knew what
happened that day. And it is also the reason why I have a low self-esteem.
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Yes it affects my studies. Because of my low self-esteem, I am not able to learn in
some discussion because I am out of my mind and I always think about myself that I
can’t do that, I can’t do this. And I hate that feeling.
I’ll just endure the pain, this negative mind and I always think about my future
that I should continue to fight even if it’s hard.
Yes I have regrets being low self-esteem because there are so much wasted
opportunities.
Don’t be afraid of those struggles and problems that they’re facing. If you fail, just
do it again. Don’t stay to you comfort zone to the point that you are not able to grow as
a person.
Co-Researcher B-------------Ms. Naji
Ako si Naji, 17 years old nakatira sa ph 1, pkg. 1, Blk 16, lot 1, BSCC. Lima kaming
magkakapatid at pang apat ako. Yung Papa ko namatay noong august 19, 2014 dahil sa
colon cancer. Si Mama na lang ang nagtataguyod sa amin, umabot sa punto na nagtitinda
na kami sa clasroomm namin para mayroon kaming panggastos. Yung ate kong panganay
4th year college noong nagstop siya dahil hindi na talaga kaya kapag lahat kami ay nag
aaral pa. Nagtrabaho siya para makatulong kay mama at sa aming mga kapatid nya.
Simula nung nawala na si papa, doon na ako pinanghinaan ng loob, nangulila sa
pagmamahal niya. Naiinggit ako sa iba kasi kumpleto ang pamilya nila. Ngayong gr.11
na ako, kahit na madalas na pinaghihinaan ako ng loob, ginagawa ko nalang inspirasyon

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yung hirap ng buhay para mas pagpursigihin ko pa yung pag-aaral ko. Dahil alam kong
mas pagod yung taong nagpapaaral sa akin.
Kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na wala pa akong mai-pagmamalaki, sinasabi ko sa sarili ko
at sa ibang tao na malakas ako at matapang pero ang totoo no'n nawawalan na ako ng
tiwala sa sarili ko, kasi lagi nalang akong nakakagawa ng mga pagkakamali. Minsan kahit
maliit na bagay na kapag di ako nasusuportahan ng mga taong mahal ko sa buhay,
nararamdaman ko sa sarili ko na wala akong halaga sa kanila na wala lang ako sa kanila.
Marami akong kaibigan pero bilang lang sa kanila ang mga nakakaalam ng tunay kong
kalagayan, yung nakakaintindi sa akin, kapagmagkakasama kami nagiging bonding
nalang namin yung puro kain minsan kapag nagkayayaan umiinom rin kami, syempre
kahit na bawal sinusubukan lalo na nakakaramdam ng pagkacurious sa ibang bagay.
Madalas na nagkwekwentuhan at hindi mawawala yung asaran.
Sa mga kaklase ko naman okay lang, pero merong panahon na umaabot sa punto na
walang kumakausap sa akin at nahihiya rin akong kausapin sila, dahil feeling ko kasi lahat
ng kilos ko may mapupuna sila, lahat isyu sa kanila. Sa teachers ko naman, madalas
akong nakakardam ng inis o tampo sa kanila kapag meron silang paborito sa mga kaklase
ko, kasi alam mo yon? Ikaw sa sarili mo nagsisikap ka pero parang wala ka lang sa kanila,
puro mali lang napupuna sa iyo.
Pagdating naman sa klase, active naman ako sa recitation o groupings at roleplaying,
yun nga lang tingin nila sakin ng iba feeling magaling.
Nung nag-away away kami at nagkaroon ng open-forum sa room, at puro ako lang
ang tinutugis nila, at puro mali ko lang ang nakikita nila.

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Nung nagkaroon na ako ng mga bagong kaibigan, yung sama-sama lahat ng bagay
at talagang nagtutulungan.
Oo, dumating sa punto na sinasabi sa akin ng subject teacher ko at ng adviser ko na
bumababa na nga yung grades ko. At yung nararamdan ko na rin sa sarili ko na
nawawalan na ako ng ganang mag-aral kaya nga sa major subjects ko pa ako may
mababang grades.
Sa tingin ko wala naman, o kung meron man yun ay yung naging duwag ako sa isang
bagay at kinakainisan ko yung sarili ko kasi sinasayang ko yung pagkakataon, pero hindi
na naman kasi maiiwasan yung maging mababa na yung tingin sa sarili mo, halos lahat
naman ata ang kinaibahan ko lang ay yung sumobra ako.
Siguro sa katulad kong low self-esteem, mabuting ibalanse lang natin, mag-iisip pa
rin ng tama dahil masama kapag isa lang ang pananigan yun ay ang tuluyan ka nang
mawalan ng tiwala sa sarili.
I am Naji, 17 years old I lived at phase 2 Pkg.1 block 16 lot 1, BSCC. We are 5 siblings
and I am the fourth. My father died last August 19, 2014 because of colon cancer. My
mother is the one who raise us, it comes to the point that we used to sell in our classroom
for us to have an income. My sister who’s the eldest, 4th year college when she stop
because we can't afford if we all study. She works to help our mother and for us her
siblings. When my father is gone, I started to lose hope, longing for his love. I am jealous
to others because they have a complete family. Now that I am grade 11, even if I always
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felt losing myself. I just make the difficulties in life as an inspiration for me to pursue my
study. Because I know the person who works for me to study, is tired than I am.
Because I know to myself that I don't have a thing to be proud of. I am telling myself
and others that I am strong and brave but the truth I lost faith to myself, because I
always commit wrong did. Sometimes in small things that my loved ones in my life didn't
support me, I felt that I don't have a value to them that I am nothing to them.
I have a lot of friends but it’s only a few who knows the truth about my situation.
Who understand me, when we are together we used to eat and drink alcohols as our
bonding, of course even its wrong we have tried, especially that I felt curious in one
thing. We often talk to each other and pissing each other would not miss.
To my classmates it’s okay, but there are times that it comes to the point that no
one talks to me and I am shy to talk to them, Because I feel that all of my gesture they
noticed, all is issue for them. To my teachers, I often feel annoying and sulky to them
when they have favoritism with my classmates. Because you know? You yourself pursuing
but seems like nothing for them, they notice all the bad things to you.
In class, I am still active in terms of recitations or groupings and roleplaying, but some
of them think that I am feeling great for myself.
When we had fight with each other and had an open-forum in our room, and it is
only me who they pointing out, and all of my mistakes.
When I had friends already, when we're always together in everything and truly has
cooperation.
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Yes, there is some point when my subject teacher told me and my adviser that my
grades are getting lower. And I felt to myself that I am getting less interested to study
that is why my major subjects have a lower grades.
I see there's nothing, or if there are it is the time when I become a coward in one
thing and I am annoyed by myself because I wasted the opportunity. But it won't be
avoided that you will feel low to yourself, almost all feel it my only difference is I
exceeded.
Maybe for those like me who have low self-esteem, its better to keep it balance, still
think right because it is bad when you stand for one it is that you completely lose your
trust.
Co-Researcher C-------------Mr. Potpot
Ako si Potpot. Ako ay 17 years old, grade 11 Stem student nag-aaral sa Mystical
Rose School of Caloocan Inc. Hilig kong maglaro ng computer games tyaka mag
basketball. Ako yung klase ng tao na laging inaantok. May apat akong kapatid, dalawang
babae dalawang lalaki. Meron akong stepfather kasi yung tunay kong tatay namatay
noong isang taon ako. Yung pangalawa kong kuya nagpapaaral sakin at binibigay niya
mga gusto ko pero hindi na siya dito naka tira sa bahay meron na siyang sariling bahay.
Tapos yung ate ko naman kumukuha ng education course sa UP Diliman. Yung bata pa
ako lagi lang ako sa bahay kasi di ako pinapayagan lumabas ni mama naging introvert
din ako ng almost 6 years pero yung grade 7 nako nasanay nako sa ibang tao at natuto
maging independent.
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Oo, okay lang. Yung rason kung bakit meron ako or nararamdaman kong low self-
esteem ako ay kapag ginagawa ko yung best ko sa lahat ng bagay pero ended in saying
na “Yan lang yun? Wala na bang igagaling pa? Bakit hindi mo pa galingan kulang payan
eh, walang wala ka sa mga kapatid mo.” Tapos sa mga kaibigan ko nafefeel ko kasing
iba ako sa kanila hahaha. Yung feeling na kapag sila may problema nakikinig ako tapos
kapag ako may kailangan wala sila, hindi ko alam kung anong klaseng kaibigan ako sa
kanila kaya bumababa yung tingin ko sa sarili ko eh.
Mga kaibigan ko? Mababait naman, makukulit, mga mapagkakatiwalaan pero
minsan mga hindi rin mapagkakatiwalaan eh. Katulad nga ng sinabi ko kanina. Lagi kami
nag babasketball, naglalaro ng LOL tapos magkakasama sa mga pangtitrip.
Ahm… yung pakikitungo ko naman sa mga classmates ko at teachers ayos naman
pero minsan nakakainis lang yung mga bida-bidang classmates na akala mo ang gagaling
eh hindi naman, tapos yung sa teachers wala akong problema don puwera lang sa P.E
teacher kasi ang yabang masyado tapos sa Reading ang Writing daming pinapagawa.
During class hour minsan tulog ako pero sa mga quiz at test ko lagi din naming
pasado at kumokopya din sakin mga seatmates ko, pag nakikinig akong mabuti tapos
mag quiz.
Yung pagiging mahiyain ko sa tuwing nasa harapan ako. Halimbawa kapag
reporting hindi ako makapagsalita ng maayos kasi natatakot akong magkamali.
Yung nag title defense tapos yung sa I.P kasi nakapagsalita ako ng harap ng
maraming tao na hindi ako takot magkamali at hindi ako natakot mapahiya.
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Siguro? Kasi minsan ang hirap mag-adjust at yung feeling na alam mo yung sagot
pero hindi ko nasasabi kasi baka mali at mapahiya ako. Merong masamang epekto pero
nahahandle ko naman sa pamamagitan ng sarili ko minsan. Binu-boost ko confidence ko.
Napakadami, kasi ang daming opportunities yung nasayang eh.

Advice ko lang ay huwag nila masyadong idown yung sarili nila tapos huwag sila
papadepende sa kung ano lang yung nagawa nila kasi alam nila sa sarili nila na mas may
iimprove pa yung mga bagay na iyon.
I’m Potpot. I’m 17 years old, grade 11 Stem student of Mystical Rose School of
Caloocan Inc. My hobbies is playing computer games and playing basketball. I’m a sleepy
person. I have 4 siblings. 2 girls and 2 boys. I have a stepfather because my father died
when I was 1 year old. My second brother is the one who provide everything for my
studies and he gave me everything I want but he’s not leaving in our anymore because
he have his own house already. However, my elder sister was taking up education course
in UP Diliman. When I was a child I am always in our house because my mother did not
allow me to go outside I become introvert in almost 6 years but when I was in grade 7 I
already comfortable with other people and I learned how to be independent.
Yes it’s ok. The reason why I’m being or I feel is when I do my best at all things
but ended up saying “That’s it?, is there no any improvement? Why can’t you make it
better, that’s not enough eh. Then to my friends I feel that I am different from them
hahaha. The feeling that when they have a problem I am listening and when I need
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something they are not around, I don’t know what kind of friend am I to them that’s why
I’m looking down to myself.
My friends? They are kind, nasty and trust worthy but sometimes they are
unreliable eh. Just like what I said earilier. We are always playing basketball, LOL and we
are together even in bad things.
Ahm… my treatment with my classmates and teachers are ok but sometimes I am
annoyed with those what you call “Jollibee” classmates because you think that they are
good but not, and to my teachers there’s no any problem except to my P.E teacher
because he’s arrogant and in Reading and Writing so many things to do.
During class hour I am sleep sometimes but in the quiz and my test I always
passed and my seatmates are copying to me, if I am listening carefully and there is a
quiz.
Just being shy whenever I’m in front. Example I am reporting I can’t properly say
anything because I am afraid to make a mistake.
In our title defense and I.P because I am able to talk properly in front of many
people, I am not afraid to make a mistake and I am not afraid to be ashamed.
Maybe? Because sometimes it’s hard to adjust and the feeling that you the answer
but I can’t able to talk because what if it’s wrong and I was ashamed. There’s a bad effect
but I can handle it in terms of boosting my confidence.
There’s too many because there’s a lot of a wasted opportunity.

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My advice is don’t down yourself and don’t depend on what you can do because
you know in yourself that you can improve something in that thing.
Co-Researcher D-------------Ms. Dyosa
Ako po si Ms. Dyosa 18 years old sa March 14 po. Hindi ko po alam na low self-
esteem pala ako pero sige go! Yung tinetake ko yung test akala ko hindi ako papasa dun
sa magiging particiapant nyo. Kasi yung ibang tanong dun feeling ko ano hindi naman
pang low self-esteem. Hindi naman ako ganun ka ano friendly, pero hindi rin naman ako
ganun ka introvert. Nakikipagkaibigan ako dahil nga kapag ano matagal ko ng nakasama
pero pagka kunwari pagdalawa lang kami, madalang ako yung magsalita o mag-open ng
topic. Madalang yun mangyari.
Siguro nga ayun, hindi ako masyadong nag-oopen ng umpisa ng topic ng
conversation kaya ano, hindi ko masyado naexpress yung sarili ko kahit ano gusto ko
siyang sabihin parang kinikeep ko nalang sarili ko na ano maging quiet.
Yung grade 10 ako yung mga kaibigan ko mga babae sila tapos syempre
magkakaiba kami ng school. Meron nga akong kaibigan ditong dalawa na ano taga dito
sa GAS at taga ICT pero madalang nalang kami mag-usap saka madalang din kami mag-
usap sa personal saka sa chat. Kaya feeling ko ano nawawala sila, parang hindi nako
nagiging kaibigan nila. Lalo na pagnakikita ko post nila na ano yung mga nakatag yung
ibang kaklase nila ba parang bagong tropa nila. Yun lang parang nahuhurt lang ako sa
ganun.
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Kahit noon palang junior high hindi ako masyadong, hindi ako masyadong
nakikipag-usap sa teacher pero since ano nasa ano ako may honor ako nun. Kaya close
ay ano nilalapitan ako ng mga teacher. Kilala nila ako pero madalang akong makipag
usap sa kanila na parang ibang estudyante na marunong magbiro sa teacher pero hindi
ako masyadong ganun. Hindi ko yun kaya.
Ahh siguro semi-active lang ako, siguro nagka-top lang ako nun kasi mataas yung
quizzes ko yung exams ko, pero pagkarecitation di ako masyadong active sa ganun. Ewan
ko bat nag ka top ako nun eh hindi naman ako palarecite. More on written works diba
kasi ganun dati.
Nung grade 3 siguro yun na din yung naging dahilan kung bakit naging mahiyain
ako sa klase. Yung teacher ko na ano hindi ko alam kung may galit sakin o wala kasi pag
ka ano parang lagi akong pinagbubuntungan ng galit niya. Yung nangyari kasi nun
nakatulog ako sa klase niya, ewan ko kung bakit ako natulog diba kasi syempre grade 3
palang ako nun hindi pa ako seryoso sa pag-aaral. Tapos pagkadilat ko naglelesson pala
siya tapos tinarayan niya ko, tapos sabi niya "sarap ba matulog?" ganun-ganun. Tapos
yung isang time naman nakikinig ako sa lesson niya tapos biglang dumating yung ate ko.
Ano pabalik-balik yung ate ko may hinatid siyang I.D., bote, tapos ano yun? Panyo ata.
Tapos napahiya ako nun kasi biglang sinabi niya "Ano pati ba panty mo naiwan mo?"
gumanon siya sa akin tapos tinawanan ako ng mga kaklase ko. Pagkauwi ko iyak-iyak
ako kay mama, muntik na nga nilang ipablotter yun eh, pero hindi na nila inano kasi ayaw
na nila ng gulo kaya hindi na ako nakikipag-usap sa teachers.

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Yung time nayun tingin ko yung pinaka bitter-sweet na taon ko is yung grade 8
ako, tapos yun yung taong nagkaroon ako ng top tapos top 1 pako nun parang yun yung
pinakamasya sakin pero yung time natun hindi maganda yung sitwasyon ng magulang
namin ang daming problema ganun. Tapos nagulat ako nagkaron ako ng top, nakakahiya
nga kasi umiyak ako. Panget ko dun piniktsyuran ako ni ma'am.
Oo nga yun, katulad nga nung grade 9 ako hindi ako masyadong nagpaparticipate
nun kasi nga diba? Naiintimidate ako sa teacher, feeling ko lagi niya kong sisigawan, lagi
magagalit sakin siguro yun yung nakakaapekto sakin. Pero yung mga nangyayari nung
may mga peoblema kami sa bahay hindi naman yun nakaapekto sa pag-aaral ko, parang
naging motivation.
Oo naman, oo kasi syempre diba? Mas maganda yung feeling na hindi ka nahihiya
kahit yung feeling mo tatawanan ka nila parang wala kang pakialam doon. Kasi pagka
diba? Pagka na kahit hindi ka naman tatawanan tas mararamdaman mong ano parang
wala akong confidence panget ng ganung pakiramdam.
Ano wag lang masyadong dibdibin yung mga problema. Since naranasan ko siya
hindi naman siguro sa habang panahon maeexperience mo siya. Parang mamementain
mo yung ganun kasi pagkatinry mong dagdagan yung confidence mo, tapos tinry mong
i-open yung sarili mo sa iba mawawala siya. Parang yung trauma ng naranasan ko
noon, naranasan ko kasing magkaroon ng kaibigan lalo na nung may problema ako,
parang mas naging friendly ako. Naramdaman kong mahalaga ako sa iba kaya
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nadagdagan pa din yung pagiging self-confident ko. Ayun, so pagbutihin nalang nila
pag-aaral nila kasi nakalatulong din yun.
I am Ms. Dyosa 18 years old on March 14. I do not know that I am a low self-
esteem person but alright go! When I was taking the test I thought that I won't able to
pass as your participant. Because some of the questions, I feel like what it is not for low
self-esteem. I am not that friendly, but I not that introvert too. I used to be friends with
a person I've for a long time, but if it is like we're two I rarely start to talk or open a
topic. It is rare to happen.
Maybe, that I rarely open to start a topic of conversation that's why I don't
express myself that much even though I wanted to say it but seems like i keep it myself
and be quiet.
When I am in grade 10 my friends are all girls, but we are in different schools. I
have these two friends that is from GAS and from ICT but we rarely see each other also
we rarely talk to each other in person and even in chat. So I feel like I lost them, that I
am not their friend anymore. Especially when i saw their posts, when some of their
classmates are tagged it's like they're their new friends. That's it; just I am hurt by it.
Even though I am still in junior high school, I did not talk to the teacher very
much but since ahm… I am in ahm… I still have an honor. So close is what the teachers
approach me. They know me but I rarely talk to them like other students who know
how to joke the teacher but I'm not really like that. I did not.
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Ahh, maybe I'm semi-active, maybe I just got up because I had my quizzes high
in exams, but I'm not very active with that. I do not know why I'm the top of you but
I'm not palarecite. More on written works than usual.
Grade 3 maybe that's why I was shy in class. I'm a teacher that I do not know if
I'm angry or I do not think that's what I always hate her. That's what happened
because I fell asleep in her class, but I was asleep since I was of grade 3 but I was not
seriously studying. Then I opened my eyes and then he kissed me, then he said "Is it
good to sleep?" like that. Then one time I listened to his lesson and suddenly my sister
came. My sister came again and again she brought I.D., bottle, what was it? Maybe
handkerchief. Then I was ashamed because she suddenly says “What you also left your
underwear? She said that to me so my classmates laughed at me. When I got home I
am crying to my mother, they almost blotter her eh, but they refuse to do it because
they don’t want to have an argument.
The most bitter-sweet year for me is when I was in grade 8, and that is the year
when I got a top and I am the top 1 before maybe that is the happiest for me but that
time our parents situation is not good there’s a lot of problem like that. And I’m shock
that I’ve got a top, it so embarrassing because I cried. I don’t look there, ma’am took a
picture of me.
Yes it is, just like when I was in grade 9 I don’t usually participate because you
know? I am intimidate in teacher, I felt that she would always shout at me, always
angry at me maybe that affects me. But the happenings when we have a problem in
our house I didn’t affect my study, it became my motivation.

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Yes of course, yes because you know right? It’s better to feel that you are not
shy even if you felt that they will laugh at you maybe you don’t care. Because you
know? Even if they don’t laugh at you then you will feel that I don’t have a confident
that kind of feeling is unpleasant.
Just don’t take your problem too seriously. Since I experience that maybe it
won’t last too long that you will experience it. Just to maintain that you try to boost
your confidence, you try to open up with others it will disappear. Just like the trauma
that I experience before, I experience to have a friend specially when I have a problem,
maybe I become more friendly. I felt that I am important to others so that myself
Confident will boost up. That’s it, just do their best in school because it can help you.
Co-Researcher E------------- Ms. Buwan
Tawagin niyo nalang po akong Buwan 17 years old, yun nakakaranas po ako ng
low self-Esteem kasi may mga bagay na, mga bagay na minasan naiisip ko nalang na
hindi ko kayang gawin. Tapos napaka nega ko sa sarili ko. Yung hindi ko sinusubukan
yung mga bagay na alam ko namang kaya ko.
Okay lang naman malaman niyo kung bakit low self-esteem ako kasi ano. May
mga times kasi na yun nga nahihirapan ako. Tapos iniisip ko agad na hindi ko kayang
gawin. May mga bagay na hindi ko, hindi ko tinatry na gawin kasi iniisip ko na hindi ko
kaya tapos napapanghinaan ako ng loob.

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Yung ano kaibigan ko nung grade 9 sila, almost 4 years ko na silang kaibigan
hanggang ngayon yung mga kaibigan ko nayun sobrang mabait. Sa kanila ko lamg
nalaman yung tunay na saya pero sa pamilya maaano yung saya, pero diba sa mga
kaibigan mo na nakasama mo ng ganun katagal malalaman moo talagang sila yung
magbibigay sayo ng halaga. Oo sa magulang, sa pamilya mo binibigyan karing halaga.
Pero sa mga kaibigan mo nayun nararamdaman mo talagang andun yung saya mo. Yung
mga saya na puro tama lang yung ginagawa niyo, yung saya namay limitasyon. Hindi
katulad ng ibang saya na iba yung ginagawa. Pero yung mga kaibigan nayun yun yung
pinakamasasabing the best sila. Kasi bawat weekends o kada linggo may ginagawa kami
na umaalis kami, sama-sama kami. Hindi kumpleto tutuloy parin kami kasi pwede rin
namang maulit yung sama-sama kami. Hindi kami nawawalan ng bonding kada linggo
ganun. Tapos yung mga ano kaibigan ko sa church namin, iba sila pagkasama mo. Ahh
lalo na pagkasama mo sila sa church, kasi yung mga ginagawa niyo yung tama lang yung
nasa aral niyo. Kaya yung masasabi ko yung mga kaibigan ko na dati saka mgayon, sila
talaga yubg mga kaibigan na tama talaga para sakin. Kasi ginagawa namin kada
ginagawa namin sa church, syempre pumupunta kami dun. Then, sabay-sabay kaming
gumagawa ng mga aral na tinuturo sa amin.
Okay lang naman na magshare ako about sa nararanasan ko ngayon sa bilang
grade 11. Sa classmates saka sa teachers, sa teacher kasi nahihirapan ako kasi na parang
hindi ka nila gusto ganun. Kaya kaya parang naisip ko na parang hindi nila ako gusto.
Kasi ako din naman may mali sa sarili ko na minsan hindi rin ako nagrerecite ganun kaya
hindi rin ako nagpapakilala yun. Tapis yung mga teacher na iba parang wala rin silang
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pakialam ganun. Sa classmates naman, syempre hindi mo naman maiiwasan yung mga
classmates na ganito na mapang-asar sa ano. Minsan nakakasakit yung mga salita pero
hinahayaan ko nalang kasi okay lang naman yun, biro lang naman yun. Hindi naman,
pero may mga times kasi na nakakapangbaba rin yun ng sarili yung mga pang aasar na
sobra na.
Pagdating sa klase mga discussion yung pagiging low self-esteem ano na nadadala
ko siya sa time ng discussion o kaya sa pagpeperform sa mga academic performance
ganun. Kasi diba pag lo self-esteem ka syempre kinakabahan ganun na mapapaisip ka na
hindi ko to kaya na baka mamaya pagtawanan lang ako mga ganun. Tapos may mga
time na discussion tapos hindi talaga ako nagrerecite kasi nahihirapan akl na sumagot
hindi, minsan kasi hindi ako agad nakaka adopt masyado ng mga lesson hindi ko siya
napagtutuunan ng pansin minsan. Tapos lalo na nga nang pagiging low self-esteem kasi
minsan, kasi nasasalungat nako sa lesson, hindi ko na siya na aadopt nahihirapan ako
pag ganun. Tapos mga performance syempre kinakabahan ako lagi, wala akong times na
hindi ako kinabahan kahit na ano elementary pako hindi talaga ako tumatayo sa harapan.
Noong elementary ako nun eh or high school. Noong time noon nung nagperform
ata ako nun tapos parang hindi ako satisfied sa nangyari parang na dissapoint din yung
mga teacher yun tama. Yung nagrereport ako nung grade 10, sobra yung iyak ko nun.
Kasi hindi namin alam yung gagawin namin kasi agad-agad kaming pinareport nun. Kasi
time nun MAPEH tapos puro practice siya. Yung puro practice na yun hindi namin
naasikaso yung report. Kasi ang alam namin puro practice nalang pagkatapos ng MAPEH
tapos nung time na mismo ng report. Tapos time na nung Filipino namin bigla kaming
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sinabihan ng teacher namin na "Alisin niyo yan! Wala naman kwenta pinagsasabi niyo
diyan sa harapan, parang hindi niyo inaral yung report." ganun tapos iyak ako ng iyak.
Tapos para pa akong tanga nung pinabasa sa classmate ko tung tula ata yun o dagli?
Tapos i ano ko daw, tapos i action ko daw yung mga sinabi ng classmates ko tapos yun
nahihirapan nako tapos bumalik nako sa upuan nun. Napanghinaan nako ng loob hindi
na naano yung report namin.
Itong taon na ito marami saking nangyari na masaya ako bilang low self-esteem
ako. Kasi nung ano sa church palang nakilala ko yung ano na tunay na kaibigan, sila yung
sila yung nagbibigay sakin ng saya yon. Nagbibigay sila ng saya bawat nakikita ko sila
kapag nakikipag-usap ako sa kanila yon. Nafefeel ko na may importansya pala ako kahit
papaano. Tapos yung mga happiest ayun, bilang ano nabibigyan ka ng panahon para
magsalita na mabigay mo yung gusto mong sabihin sa church nayun. Doon ko nakilala
yung sarili ko na ganito pala ako, na kahit ganito ako pero kailangan ko paring makipag-
interact sa mga tao, kailangan mo parin na makipag-usap na makipag salamuha sa kanila
na sundan o makibahagi sa mga ginagawa nila. Kaya isa san pinakamasaya yon dahil
nakakilala ka ng mga tunay na kaibigan na iingatan ka syempre may mga pagkakataong
din na minsan yung ugali nila ganun. Pero iintindihin ko nalang din yun. Pero minsan
nakakadala rin siya sa pagiging mababa sa sarili mo low self-esteeem mo, pagiging low
self-esteem sa sarili. Minsan kasi yung attitude nakakapagpababa, sinasabihan ka ng
panget na bagay bababa yung pakiramdam mo. Pero madalas naman na puro positive
naman yung sinasabi nila.

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Nakakaapekto yung low self-esteem sa studies kasi sa pag-aaral mo. Since
nakakapang baba yun di muna, parang nahihirapan kanang gawin sa mga pinapagawa
sa schools. Sa mga peformance ganon parang hindi mo na talaga siya kayang gawin.
Hmmp nakakaapekto talaga siya kasi yung mga times nga na minsan hindi ko na kaya,
yung may mga ganitong pinapagawa hindi ko na kaya nahihirapan ako, hindi ko alam
kung pano ko gagawin. Ganun naging bad effects din yun. Ayun naging bad effects sakin
kasi puro nalang kasi naiisip ko na ganito pala, wala akong ano na hindi ko pala kaya,
puro negative nalang talaga nasa utak ko. Tapos nahahandle ko naman siya paminsan
minsan pinipilit ko talaga sa sarili kong sabihin kong ganito na sana na lagi nalang sa isip
ko is positive. Na pilit akong nagpapatatag na sana magawa ko to ganun na kaya ko to.
Lagi akong nagsasabi sa sarili ko na kaya ko to, kakayanin sana mapagtagumpayan.
Maging positive talaga palagi.
Meron akong pinagsisisihan kasi may mga times na hindi ako sumasagot. Diba
yung mga performance ko na iniiwasan ko pinagsisihan ko kasi bakit hindi ko yun ginawa
bakit pinanghinaan ako ng loob, bakit ganun yung syempre dapat gawin ko pero hindi ko
talaga siya nagagawa. Nagsisi ako doon kasi nga sobrang baba ko sa sarili di ko yun
nagagawa, bakit hindi ko to nagagawa, bakit ganun. Bakit hindi ko muna subukan mga
ganun.
Sa mga katulad ko na low self-esteem. Wag tayong subukin na hanapin yung lahat
ng nangyayari sa atin, na isipin lagi natin na ganito na kaya natin na maging positive lagi
tayo sa buhay kasi hmmp. Kung papairalin lang natin yung low self-esteem sa sarili natin
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hindi talaga siya mawawala na lagi talaga siyang uudlukin ka na ganito ganyan. Yung
nararamdaman mo dapat na ganyan pero dapat lagi nating sasabihinsa utak natin na
kakayanin mo, na hindi ka ano na kaya mo na. Positive ako sa sarili ko na kakayanin ko
lahat kasi may kasama naman tayong Diyos na gumagabay sa atin na di tayo
pababayaran yun lang yung tatandaan natin. Kasi Kung lagi mong iisipin mahina ka, na
hindi mo kaya syempre yun lang yung lagi mong maiisip. Hindi mo talaga magagawa
lahat ng bagay kaya sana harapin lang natin yan lahat ng kung ano man yung ipagawa
sa atin. Yung kung ano man yung lahat ng makakaharap na mga problems or ano pamang
pagsubok yan, syempre kailangan nating harapin yun lalo na dito sa school marami
talagang ginagawa pero alam mo naman sa sarili mo na kaya mo. Na kaya mo yun na
may kasama ka lagi na iingatan kabsa lahat sa mga gawain nayan. Na
mapagtatagumpayan mo talaga yan yung lang.
I am Ms. Buwan 17 years old, I experience being low self-esteem because
sometimes there are things that I thought that I can't do it. Then I am really nega towards
myself. Where I don't try the things that I know I can't do it.
It's okay if you'll find out what is the reason behind me being low self-esteem.
There are times that i'm having a hard time. Then right away I thought that I can't do it.
There are things that I don't try to do because I thought that i'm unable to do it and I
then I lost self confidence.

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My friends when I was a grade nine, I've been friends with them for almost 4 years
until now they're really a good person. I discover the true happiness when i'm with them
but it's different in family, but to your friends who's with you for a long time you'll discover
that they are the ones who gave you value. Yes in parents, in family they also gave you
value. But to that friends you feel like you really have happiness. The kind of happiness
that you do the right things, the happiness that has limitation. Unlike other happiness
that do different things.
But those friends I can say that they're the best. Because every weekends or
every Sunday we do activities like going to different places, All together. Even though
we're not complete we still choose to continue the journey because it can be repeated
when were complete. There are no times that we don't have a bonding moment every
Sunday. Then to my friends at our church, they're a different company. Ahh Especially if
you're with them inside the church, because the things we do is just right in our study.
So I can say that my friends before and today they're the right ones for me. Because we
do the things we do at the church, of course we go there. Then all together we make the
study that was teach to us.
It’s okay if I would share about my experiences as a grade 11. To classmates and
teachers. In teachers i'm having a hard time because it's like they don't like you. So. So
I though that they don't like me. Because there's something wrong with me, sometimes
i don't recite. So I can't introduce myself. Then the other teacher act like they don't care.
In my classmates, of course you can't avoid classmates who always tease. Sometimes
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their words are painful but i just let them do it because it's okay, it’s just a joke. It's not.
But there are times that their jokes are below the belt.
In class I brought being low self-esteem in times of discussion or in perfoming
academic performance. Because you know if you're low self-esteem of course you're
nervous you thought that you can't do it maybe they would lough at me. And then there
are times when discussion is on going and I don't recite because i'm having a hard time
to answer. Sometimes I can't adopt that much to the lesson and sometimes I don't put
that much attention to it. Especially if you're being low self-esteem because sometimes,
Because sometimes i can't follow the lesson, I can't adopt it i'm having a hard time if it's
like that.Then in performance of course i'm always nervous, there are no times that i'm
not nervous even when i'm still aelementary I don't stand in front.
Before when i'm elementary or high school. I'm performing that time, I think. Then
it's like i'm not satisfied to what happened it's like the teachers are also disappointed.
When i'm reporting I was grade 10 that time, I cried so much. We don't know what to do
because the topic is given and we have to report it right away. That time our subject was
MAPEH and it was all about practice. That was full of practice and we didn't took care of
it. We thought all we have to do is practice after the subject MAPEH and then when it's
the time for our actual report, then time for Filipino subject ended our teacher suddenly
told us "Remove all of that! Your explainations are full of nonsense, it seems like you
didn't study your report." Then I cried and cried. I looked like stupid when my classmate
read maybe a poem or dagli? They told me to do the movements of what my classmate
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is currently reading and when i'm having a hard time doing it I go back to my seat. I was
discourage that our report is unsuccessful.
This is year are full of moments that i'm happy as a low self-esteem. Because when
i'm in the church I met true freinds, they are the ones who gave me happiness. They
gave me happiness every time I met them and if i'm having a conversation with them. I
felt that I have a value howsoever. Then the happiest, as they gave you time to speak
and say whatever you want to say inside the church. In there I understand myself more
that i'm like this, even though i'm like this I neeed to interact to other people, I need to
talk to other people to socialize follow them and be one with them in their doings.
So it's one of the happiest because I met true friends that I will treasure of course
there are times that there are problems towards their attitudes. But I just consider it.
Sometimes it's discouraging to be low self-esteem towards yourself. Sometiemes attitude
lowers yourself, when they say ugly things it makes you feel low. But most of the time
their response are full of positive.
Low self-esteem affects your studies. Since it makes you feel low, it's like you're
having a hard time acomplishing the tasks in school. In the performance it turns out that
you can't do it anymore. Hmmp It really affects me in the times that I can't do it, I'm
having a hard time doing the tasks supposed to be done, I don't know how to do it.
Things like that can be a bad effects. That became the bad effect to me because I always
thought about the things like I can't do it. My thought are all negative. There are times
that I can hadle it sometimes I force myself to always think about positive things. I force
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myself to be strong hoping to do it and I can do it. I always say to myself that I can do
it, hoping for it to be successful. Always be positive.
I have regrets because there are times that I don't answer. You know the
performance that I choose to ignore, I regret it because I lost the chance to do it why
did I loose confidence, why can't I do what i'm supposedf to do. I regret that because I
look down on myself too muchn that I can't do what i'm supposed to do, why it's like
this. Why can't I try it?
To those people who’s the same as me a low self-esteem. Dont try to look for all
the the things that happened to us, Just always think that we can be positive in life
because hmmp. If we just let low self-esteem into ourselves it will never be gone it will
remain to be triggered. The feelings you felt should be like tnat but we should say to out
brain that you can do it, that you're not like that now you can. I'm positive to myself that
I can do it becaue we have God all the time to guide us and won’t let us be lost that is
the thing that we should remember. Because if you alwasys thought that your weak, that
you can't do it anymore of course you really can't do it. You're unable to do all the things
so I hope that we choose to face all of it whatever the things supposed to be done. What
kind of problems that we face or what kind of obstacles it is, of coursewe need to face it
especially here at school there's a lot of things that should be done but you know that
deep inside yourself that you can. That you're able to do it with a companion that will
treasure you to all of those things. You will really be successful that's all.
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Co-Researcher F-------------Mr. Mamamo
Ako po si Mamamo from STEM 11-Lakandula, ako ay 16 years old, ano… dalawa
lang kami. Ang kapatid ko ay babae, siya ay 15 years old. Nagaaral ako sa ano Mystical
Rose School of Caloocan. Ano OFW yung dalawa kong parents eh. Dalawa lang kami ng
kapatid ko sa bahay.
Ano… pinakauna ano yung takot majudge parang ganon, takot mahusgahan kasi,
kumbaga ano pag nagpakitang gilas ka sasabihin nila bida-bida yun yung kinakatakutan
ko talaga. Hindi naman sa ayaw ko mareject parang maano lang madiscriminate ganon,
kumbaga ganon.
Ano… after class pupunta kami sa bahay ng isa naming kaibigan tapos kumakain
kami dun, biro-biruan ganon, picture picture ganon, mga ganon ba.
Ako napapansin ko naman, pero ewan ko lang sa mga classmates ko, pero… ako
kasi okay naman ako sa kanila. Wala naman akong problema sa mga classmates naming,
yon. Mmm… merong mga classmate na ganon na napapansin ko na nakaka… nakaka…
ano ba to, pano ba… parang pagnakikita ko sila, sila yung nagiging rason
Kung bakit nagiging ano ako ganon. Wala naman sa teachers.
Ano di naman kasi ako palaging nagrerecite kasi yun yung kahinaan ko, mahina
ako sa ano… Recitation lalo na kapag ano pag on-the-spot kasi parang ano nacoconscious
ako kung may masabing mali, baka tawanan ako ganon kasi takot nga akong majudge.
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Ano… parang hindi mo nasasabi ang gusto mong irecite kung halimbawa gusto
mong magrecite sa harap pero hindi mo masabi kasi takot ka sa mga sasabhin ng iba, ng
classmates mo.
Ano… yung halimbawa pag ano… gusto mong magrecite tapos mali pala yung
sinabi mo, mali pala yung sagot na nasa isip mo, parang ano… parang magiging thankful
ka na hindi mo nasabi yon kasi ano kung masabi mo yon tatawanan ka talaga nila parang
ganon. Halimbawa sabi ng teacher kung ano sagot sa number tapos may sagot ka sa
isang tanong tapos diba low self-esteem ka di mo masasabi yung sasabihin mo tapos
yung nalaman mo yung sagot na mali nasa isip mo magiging thankful ka na di mo sinabi
yon kasi ano atleast nakaiwas ka kasi ano alam mo pag mali sagot mo kumbaga
tatawanan ka kaagad ganon.
Oo naman, kase ano diba sabi nila ano… part ng ano… grading yung ano…
recitation kapag syempre, kapag mababa yung low self-esteem mo di ka makakarecite
ng ano… ng maayos sa harap syempre gegradan ka ng mababa ng teachers sa ganon.
Ano… bumabawi nalang ako sa performance task atsaka sa mga quizzes. Oo ayun kasi
wala talaga sa oral.
Oum… madami, yun nga yung di mo naipapabahagi yung ano… yung gusto mong
sabihin ano… kapag ano… kunwari katulad sa open forum namin ano di ako kakapagsabi
ng saloobin ko kasi ano nga yun nga. Oo.
Ahh… wala akong mabigay na advice kasi kung ako nga sa sarili ko di ko mabigyan
ng advice sarili ko para di maging low self-esteem pero ayun its up to them parin naman
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kung ano, kung pangungunahan sila ng takot o ano.. lalabanan nila yun. Ano ahh…wag
lang panghihinaan ng loob pag may gustong sabihin kasi lahat naman ng tao nagkakamali
yung lang, Oo wala namang mawawala kung susubukan.
I am Mamamo from STEM 11-Lakandula. I’m 16 years old, ahm… we’re only two,
my sibling is a girl, she’s 15 years old. I study in ahm… Mystical Rose School of Caloocan,
ahm… my parents are OFWs eh… it’s only me and my sister is in our house.
Ahm… first, ahm… the fear to be judge like that, fear to be judge because, was like
when you’ll show your best they will tell you that you are a “Bida-bida” that’s what I’m
afraid of. It’s not that I don’t want to be rejected but it’s like, being discriminated.
Ahm… after class we use to go from one of our friends house that we’ll eat together,
kidding each other, taking pictures, like that.
I noticed, but I don’t know to my classmates but for me I’m ok for them. I don’t
have any problems for my classmates. Hmm… I have the classmate that I’ve noticed
that… that… what is this, how… it’s like when I saw them. They are the reason why I
become like that. There’s nothing for my teachers.
Ahmm… I don’t usually recite because that’s my weakness. I am weak to ahm…
recitation especially when it’s on the spot because im seem conscious if I said wrong,
they will laugh at me like that because I’m afraid to be judge.
Ahm… was like you can say what you want to recite, example you want to recite
infront but you can’t tell it because you’re afraid on what others will say, your classmates.
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Ahm… for instance you want to recite but you answered wrong, the answer in your
mind is wrong, seems like… you’ll be thankful that you did’nt say that because ahm.. if
you’ll say that they ‘ll laugh at you like that. Example the teacher asks a question then
you have an answer but you’re a low self-esteem you can’t say what you want the you
know that the answer you’ve think of is wrong. You’ll be thankful because atleast you’ve
avoid because you know that youre answer is wrong it was like they will laugh at you.
Yes, because they say all of grading is recitation ofcourse when you’re low self-
esteem you can’t recite rightly in front of course yopu will be graded low by your teachers
like that. I just maka performance task and quizzes because I am nothing in oral.
Yes! a lot, its that you can’t share what you want to say. Just like our open forum.
Ahm… I can’t express what I feel yeah, that’s it.
Ahm… I don’t have advice because even to myself I cant give myself an advice for not to
be low self-esteem but its like to them if they will be afraid on they’ll fight. Ahm… just
don’t be afraid to burst out youre opinons because all of us did wrong. Ahh… that’s all,
yes there’s nothing will lose if you only try.
Co-Researcher G-------------Ms. Portly
Minsan tingin ko sa sarili ko failure minsan disappo...disappointment puro ganon
lang. My name is Ms. Portly I am 16 years old Ang birthday ko is May 29, 2002. I Live at
camarin caloocan Home Owner's association, Repar street. Then ano eh apat kaming
magkakapatid tapos pangatlo ako tsaka nag-iisang babae lang. Oo kase ano nag-iisang
babae lang ako tapos yung mga kapatid ko ano sila puro lalake tapos hindi naman ano...
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matatalino naman sila pero di' sila ganong achiever katulad ko kasing nung highschool
ako lagi talaga ako nakakpasok sa top lagi ako nag kakaroon ng achievements tapos
ngayon lang siya nawala.
Sige yung una is sa ano sa ano sa academics diba ano diba minsan sa mga
reportings although naaral ko naman siya ng maayos tapos parang pag ini-imagine ko
siya parang kayang kaya ko siyang i-report tapos pag nasa harapan na koparang naano
na ko na m-mental block tas di ko namasabe yung gusto kong sabihin tapos nag ano c-
cause yun ng ano sakin low self esteem parang failure kase yun sakin tapos sa mga
during exam kahit na nirereview ko siya ng magdamag ng ilang araw pag mismong test
na parang di ko na siya maaalala syempre nagiging effects nun nakakakuha ako ng ano
mababa yung score. Disappoint...Disappointments yun para sakin.
Siguro sa ano kase ano kinakabahan ako syempre kase tsaka ano mahiyain kase
ako di ako sanay magsalita sa ano sa harap ng maraming tao kaya pag ano pinakaayaw
ko talaga is yung reporting kase lalo na pag nakatingin sila sakin nakaka intimidate yung
ganon. Mahiyain lang talaga ako lalo na di ako sanay magsalita sa mga taong di ko pa
gaanong close o di ko gaanong nakakausap. Marami kase akong kaibigan eh kase...hindi
nung syempre diba natural lang naman na magkaroon ka ng kaibigan kada grade kada
grade mo tapos ako nagkakaroon ako.
Pero etong grade 10 lang ako nagkaroon ng mga ano ay, ay nung grade 9 lang
ako nagkaroon ng mga kabigan na ano na pang matagalan na hanggang ngayon kaibigan
ko padin ano ma ano sila mababait tapos napaka cheerful napaka supportive nila para...
ano tawag dito aanong wait lang suportahan ka nila sa ano sa lahat ng bagay tapos pag
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nadodown ka andyan sila para tulungan ka di' ka nila iiwanan kahit anong mangyare ano
tapos tini... tinitreat ko naman sila ng maayos yung deserve naman nila kahit minsan
kahit pinapakitaan nila ko ng ano ugali na parang hindi parang diiii deserve na i-respect
syempre kapag kaibigan mo sila maano... mamahalin mo padin sila despite ng ano nila
yung perfection kahit na ano yung itrato nila sayo.
Tapos yung mga... yung mga ano bagay lang na ginagawa namin usually before
class kumakain lang kame sa ano sa labas ganon or ano pinaka bonding nalang namin
siguro pag ano eh pag uwian ganoon magdadaldalan lang kame bago...actually ano ang
uwian lang namin nung grade 10 is ano 12 nakakauwi nakame alauna... alasdos kase
magdadaldalan kame ng ilang oras kakain ganon.
Actually lumala siya. Nung grade 10 sobrang... di naman sa sobra pero may
confidence parin talaga ako sa sarili ko kase yung mga nakasorround sakin nun ano sila
tawag dito chinicheer-up nila ko pag ano pag nag-oopen up ako sa kanila about sa
nararamdaman ko parang ngayon kase ano yuuung YUNG lalo na nung unang grading
yung mga taong naka surround sakin imbis na ih ano nila ako icheer up nila ako pag
nadodown ako ano parang lalo nila ako dinadown lalo na sa salita syempre yung
confidence na meron na nga lang ako konteng konte lalong nawala so wala na talaga
akong self-esteem. Hindi lang sa akademiks pati sa physical appearance. So sobrang
down na down na ako.
Sa mga klasmeyt ko ano kase eh pag 'di ko naman sila lagi... kahit araw-araw ko
silang nakikita or nakakausap hindi naman pag ano hindi ko naman sila katabe 'di ko
naman sila totally nagiging close parang ano lang... parang close lang kame pag
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magkagroup kame during activities kase ano eh hindi naman...alam mo yung feeling na
ano kahit na kinakausap ka feeling mo 'di ka padin kasale parang di ka padin belong
sakanila yung ganoon. So hurt.
Tapos sa mga teacher wala ano lang teacher lang ganon teacher studyante wala
naman akong pakealam sa relationship na meron dito. Di kase ako pala recite kahit alam
ko yung sagot kase nga ano ako low self-esteem nga ako natatakot akong mapagtawanan
kapag nagkakamali ako kase ano ko yun eh weakness ko yun. Yung pagtawan sa bagay
na ano pagkakamali mo kahit 'di mo naman sinasadya.
Di ako active kase nakaturn off chat ako eh. Hindi I mean hindi di nga ko pala
recite diba kahit alam ko yung sagot di ako nag ano di ako pala... ano lang pag ano
kunwari may chips ayun nag tatry ako sumagot pero ano di talaga ako ano actually active
sa ano sa recitation focus lang ako. Pag tinawag ako tapos alam ko yung sagot ayun
sasagot ako pero pag di naman ako tinatawag tapos kahit alam ko yung sagot 'di ako
nagsasalita.
Siguro yung pinaka worst yung ano yung hindi mo na meexpress yung sarili mo
sa ibang tao kahit na ano feeling mo may mga...naiiyak ako kase naman eh ayokong
tinatanong yan...ayokong tinatanong yan eh naiyak ako okay lang ako. Medyo ano lang
personal siguro yung pinaka worst yung ano yung hindi mo na meexpress yung sarili mo
sa ibang tao kahit na ano kahit na alam mo na may mga taong handang makinig sayo
parang nahihirapan kana iexpress kase ano kase alam mo sa sarili mo na parang kahit
naman sabihin mo parang wala namang magbabago. Kase katulad nalang sa ano yung
confidence sa sarili parang kumbaga ano yung dahil sa ano pakikitungo sa sinasabe ng
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ibang tao sayo pagdating sa physical appearance parang syempre diba napakalakas ng
impact ng sinasabe ng ibang tao para sayo. Kaya kapag sinabe nilang panget ka mataba
ka ganyan syempre ikaw sa sarili mo kapag alam mo namang totoo yung nakikita nila
syempre paniniwalaan mo diba siguro yun yung pinaka worst.
Siguro yung pinaka masaya bilang low self esteem is yung may mga iilang tao na
andyan para i lift up ka pag ano nararamdaman nila na ano na down ka or wala kanang
tiwala sa sarili mo yung parang may mga kaibigan ka na andiyan para ano mag advice
sayo na ano magtiwala ka sa sarili mo na ano na mahalin mo yung kung ano ka. Tsaka
wag mong pakinggan yung sasabihin ng ibang tayo may mga kaibigan kase ako na ano...
Iilan lang sila siguro dalawa o isa pero ano napaka...sobrang treasure sila sa buhay ko
kase ano sila yung mga taon maniniwala ka na ano yung sasamahan ka through ups and
down
Meron katulad nalang nung ano isa na sa mga ano yung effects yung
pagakakaroon ng ano low scores sa mga exam tapos mababang grade gano'n. Kahit hindi
na ano lang kahit medyo matagal na s'ya siguro nung mga elementary pero ano sobrang
laking epekto no'n kasi sa grades mo kasi nga diba nahihirapan kang mag express sa
ibang tao.
'Tas kung pa'no ko siya hinahandle siguro ano, hindi naman sig-siguro ano hindi
siguro kasi talagang ginagawa ko siya pag nararamdaman ko na parang nagkaka- parang
nawawalan na ko ng tiwala sa sarili ko parang ano nag o-open up nalang ako ano sa
mama ko kasi sya yung ano mas nakakaintindi sakin, sa lahat ng bagay mag kukwento
nalang ako kahit na umiiyak na ko sa harapan n'ya, kahit na siya umiiyak na din syempre
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ayaw nya kong nakikitang umiiyak pero at least na o-open ko yung sarili ko tawag don?
Na aano ko na o-op nasasabi sasabi ko siya kahit sa isang tao lang at least alam kong
may nakakaintindi sa akin, may nakakaalam ng nararamdaman ko.
Marami. maraming beses kasi ano pag nararamdaman ko yung ano low self-steem
nagkakaroon yon ng malaking epekto sa performance ko sa school, sa grade. Syempre
ano minsan iniisip ko na ano sana hindi ko nalang nararanasan yung ano low self-steem
para madali lang saking mag express ng nararamdaman sa ibang tao tsaka 'di ako
nahihirapanag mag salita sa harap ng marami yun lang thank you.
Siguro ano, hindi-hindi ko alam kung epektib pero eto kasi yung ginagawa ko.
Yung mag-mag open ka sa tao na alam mo na makakaintindi sayo kahit hindi sila dalawa
or madami kahit nag iisang tao basta alam mo na mapagkakatiwalaan tapos alam mo na
maiintindihan ka mag open ka lang at least alam mong may-may isang taong nakakaalam
ng nararamdaman mo tsaka be yourself tapos ano mag tiwala ka din sa sarili mo tsaka
sa kakayahan mo kasi hindi- totoo naman na hindi lahat ng bagay kaya mong gawin may
mga bagay na kayang gawing ng ibang tao tapos kaya mo syempre madami naman tayon
dif- marami tayong differences diba, marami tayong kakaiba sa kakayahan pero yung
kaka- yung kakayahan na kaya mo may mga ibang tao na hindi yon nagagawa tapos ikaw
kaya mo iyong gawin tingin ko yun yong masasabi ko sa kanya.
Sometimes I think of myself as a failure... Sometimes disappointment. My name is
Ms. Portly I am 16 Years old, my birthday is May 29, 2002. I live at camarin Caloocan
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Home owner's association, Repar Street. I have 3 siblings, I am the only girl. Yes because
I am the only girl and my brothers are smart enough but they are not an achiever like
me because I am always one of the top students with achievements when I was in
highschool but not anymore.Okay, the first one is about academics, sometimes when
there are reportings although I study my topic well but in the actual reporting I get mental
blocked then I can't tell then what I wanted to say and that causes me to have a low
self-esteem, it is failure for me then during exams even though I studied all night but in
the actual exams I can't remember it which results into getting a low score. It a
disappointment for me. Maybe in... Because I get nervous then I am also shy person
because I am not confident talking in front of many people that is why I really hate
reporting especially when they are all looking at me that causes me to be intimidated.
I am really shy especially beacuse I am not used to be talking in front of people
who are not close to me and I often speak with. I have a lot of friends it is only natural
to have friends every school year and I a am having a lot of friends. But I started to have
friends that are for lifetime when I was on grade 9 level only, they are still my friends up
until now, they are kind, verey cheerful and very supportive for me then when I am down
they are always there to help me, and we won't leave each other whatever happens. I
treat then well more than what they deserve to be treated even though sometimes they
show me something which is not to be respected, because if its truly your friend you will
love them even despite being a perfection, even though they treat you differently.
The things we usually do before class, we just eat outside or we bond the most
after class, we'll to each other before we go home...Actually when we are grade 10, 12pm
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is our dismissal time but we go home 1pm or 2pm because we will just talk to each other
and we will just eat. Actually it becam worse. When i was in grade 10... No too much but
I still have confidence left in me because the people who sorround me cheer me up
whenever I open up to them about my feelings but now especially in first grading those
people that surrounds me, instead of cheering me up, they intend to pull me down and
make me lose my self-esteem. Not only in academics but also in physical apperance
because of feeling so down.
To my classmates... even though I am with them or I talk to them everyday but
not when i am not sitting beside them, we're not totally getting closer... We're only getting
closer when we're on the same group during activities... the feeling that even though
they talk to you, you still feel that you didn't belong to them. It hurts. Then to our
teachers... I really don't care about the relationship between a student and teacher. I do
not recite often in class, even though I know the answer because of having low self-
esteem I am afraid of being laughed by the others if I commited a mistake because it is
my weakness. The feeling of being laughed by the others because of commiting a
mistake unintentionally.
I am not an active student, I mean I am not reciting often in our class even though
I know the answer I do not raise my hand... I also try to answer sometimes if there are
chips. I only answer when the teachers call me and I know the answer but i the teacher
didn't call me even though I know the answer, I won't answer. Maybe the worst part is
the feeling that you can't express yourself to others even though you know that there are
people who are ready to hear your feelings, but you’re struggling to fully express yourself
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because you know to yourself that even though you tell them what you feel nothing will
change. Because of what the other people telling you about your physical apperance it
has a strong impact to you. That is why when someone tell you that you are ugly or fat
then you know it to yourself that it is true ofcourse you will believe them, maybe that is
the worst part.
Maybe the happiest part of being low self esteem is there are some people to lift
you up when you are down or you don't have confidence left in yourself.The feeling of
there are some people to help and give advice to you to trust yourself and love who you
are then don't give a damn about the others who tell bad things about you... there are
some of my friends, maybe 2 or more but I treasure them the most in my life because
they are the people who will believe in me and be with me through ups and downs. Yes
there is, just like the effects of having low scores in exams then having low grades. Even
though it is long time ago maybe when I was in elementary but still it has a great effect
because of grades it difficult to express yourself to others.
How did I handle it? Maybe... not that I do it often, I'm only doing it when it comes
to the point that I don't have trust in myself anymore, I just open up to my mom because
she understants me in everyhing. Even though she is crying too when I tell her, she didn't
wanted to see me crying but at least I can open up about myself. Atleast I can tell it to
one person, atleast I know to myself that there is someone who understands me and
someone who knows what I feel.Yes, there are lots, there are a lot of moments that I'm
having low self-esteem, it causes big effect in my performance in school, in grades.
Ofcourse sometimes I think that I am not experiencing having low self-esteem for me to
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express myself easier to other people and to speak in front of many people. That's all
thankyou.
I don't know if it is effective or not but this is what I do. I open up to the person
that I know will understand me even though there are only two or more even if it is only
one person atleast I know that I can trust him or her and I know that he or she would
understand me. Just open up atleast you know to yourself that there is someone who
know and understand who you are then trust yourself too and your ability because you
can't do everything, there are things you can't do but the others can. Ofcourse we all
have a lot of differences, there are things you can only do and there ang things only other
people can. That is all I can advice.
Co-Researcher H-------------Ms. Mama
Tawagin niyo nalang akong Mama 16 years old, dalawa kaming magkapatid at ako
yung panganay, mahilig akong kumanta at magbasa, hindi ako sanay na nag o-open sa
iba.
Siguro, ako kasi yung tao na takot majudge at napakasensitive sa simpleng bagay
lang eh nasasaktan at naiiyak agad pero patago at ayoko sa lahat yung pag may
nangyaring di maganda eh ako yung sinisisi at ayoko sa lahat na may taong galit sakin
kaya iniiwasan kong gumawa ng kung ano anong bagay na magiging reason para
majudge o magalit sila sakin.
Karamihan sa mga kaibigan ko eh mga suwail like umiinom, naninigarilyo pero di
naman ako naging katulad nil na mabisyo kapag magkakasama kami puro kalokohan lang
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Sa classmates ko hindi halata na ilang ako sa kanila pero ang totoo sobrang ilang
nako, lalo na’t may ugali sa kanila na di nila alam na nakakasakit sila, di sila aware sa
mga nangyayare kung may kapalagayan man ako ng loob dadalawa lang, ayoko kase sa
plastic na mga tao, sa teacher naman comportable sila kasama.
Di talaga ako pala recite, tumatayo lang ako kapag tinawag ako o di kaya close na
close ko yung teacher ko nakikinig ako sa teacher kapag napansin kong magaling magturo
and kapag gumagawa ng paraan para di makatulog pag nagdidiscuss na.
Siguro ito yung pag nagkamali ka ng isinagot sa mga tanong ng guro eh
pagtatawanan ka ng mga kaklase mo at a-asarin ka hanggang pag-uwi hanggang
kinabukasan, like what I said im very sensitive person kaya ayoko ng attention.
Kapag may mga groupings tapos yung kagrupo ko eh nangunguna at natapos ng
dapat gawin yun na yung pinakamasaya para sakin.
Siguro minsan na-apektuhan ako kase syempre nga kung takot ka magkamali
malamang mahihiya kang magrecite, sinusure ko na tama ang isasagot ko.
Siguro, mula naman kase minsan rito pa yung mga nag e-encourage na mag-aral
ng mabuti.
Ang masasabi ko lang eh wag masyadong magpapaapekto sa mga problema mo
at ih e-encourage mo yung sarili mo at imbes na idown ito.
Just call me Mama 16 years old I am the pldest, I like to sing and eat im not
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Maybe, I’m the kind of person that is scared of being judge and I’m too sensitive
in every simple thing can hurt me and make me cry easily but not in public and I don’t
like the most is when something bad to happen eh they blame me and I don’t like the
most is when there’s a person who is angry at me so that I’m avoide those things that
will be the reason for them to judge and be angry at me.
Some of my friends eh are rebellious drinking, smoking but I am not like them who
have vices when we’re together. Only fun staffs like pranking people passed by or maybe
stroll, singing and full of conversation.
To my classmates it is not obvious that I didn’t felt some awkwardness but the
truth is I feel very awkward especially they have that attitude that they can hurt
someone, they are not aware in what happening if I find myself comfortable, we are
just talking to each other, because I don’t like plastic person, in my teacher they are a
comfortable company.
I am not a kind of person who always recite, I only present myself if a techer ask
a question to me or maybe my teacher is very close to me. I only listen to my teacher if
I notice that he/she good at teaching and if they find a way to keep students awake
while their discussing.
Maybe, this is when you make a mistake in answering a question of a teacher,
eh your classmates will laugh at you and they will tease you until dismissal, until the
next day, like what I said I’m very sensitive person and I don’t like an attention.
When we have group activity and my groupmates, eh will finish first and do what
things needed to be done, maybe that is the happiest for me.

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Maybe, sometimes I am affected because you know if you are afraid to make a
mistake obviously, eh you become when you’re reciting, I’ll make that my answer is
correct.
There’s nothing, because sometimes that is the one that is encouraging me to
study well.
I will only say eh is don’t be too affected in those problems that you have and
encourage yourself instead of being yourself down.
Co-researcher I-------------Ms. Peng
Tungkol sa aking sarili, pwede niyo akong tawaging Peng at ako’y 17 years old.
STEM-Lakandula at may allowance ako once a week.
Oo naman siguro yung mga rason kung bakit naging low self-esteem ako kase
minsan feeling ko wala akong kwenta sa bahay at pati na rin sa circle of friends.
In terms of friends, kasama ko sila sa mabuti o hindi, madalas nagkwekwentuhan
kami sa buhay namin at nakikisalamuha sa ibang tao.
Pagdating naman sa social relationship ko sa kaklase ko. Mas prefer kong maging
kung ano talaga ako at in terms naman sa social relationship ko sa mga teachers hindi
ako pabor sa pakikipagsocialize kasi wala ako sa lebel na prefer nila.
Sa class discussion, laging tinetake ko yun ng dahan-dahan at tahimik na sumang-
ayon kung ano yung tinatalakay, nagtataas lang ako ng kamay kapag alam ko yung sagot.
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Yung pinaka worst na naranasan ko bilang lows self-esteem, na yung masira yung
sarili at yung pinakamalala is yung pagiging low self-esteem, hindi ko kaya imanage yung
feelings ko.
Yung happiest experience yung na o-overcome ko minsan yung nararamdaman ko
tuwing humaharap ako sa maraming estudyante.
Kung may mga bad effects, madalas kong ginagawa yung i-overcome ko yung tao.
Oo may mga pinagsisihan din ako kasi hindi ko kayang imanage yung emosyon
ko.
Advice ko lang basta hayaan lang nilang ifeel na importante sila sa ibang tao o sa
ibang bagay.
About myself, you can call me Peng and I am 17 years old. STEM-Lakandula and
I have my allowance for once in a week.
Yes, the reason why I became low self-esteem is because sometimes I feel useless
at home and also to my circle of friends.
In terms of friends, I have them whether it could be good or not, usual talk with
our lives and interaction with other people.
With my social relationship with my classmates, I always prefer to become what
is just I can be as myself and in terms of social relationship with my teachers, I am not
in favor of making socializing with them because I don’t have the level of what they prefer
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In class discussion, I always make it slowly and silently agreeing on what is should
be tackled, I just raise my hand if I know the answer.
The worst experience being low self-esteem is when I haved experienced self
destruction and the worst was that I have nothing to answer.
The happiest experience is when I overcome sometimes what I feel everytime I
face a lot of students.
If there are bad effects, It always affects my studies because whenever I feel
being low self-esteem, I can’t manage my feelings.
Yes I have regrets because I cannot manage my emotions.
My advice is Just let them feel they are important to someone or something.
Co-Researcher J------------- Mr. Jie
Ako si Jie. 16years old gusto ko mag-isa lalo na pag nasa bahay lang.
Siguro yung mga rason una yung lack of friends, walang nagtotolerate sakin
gawin yung isang bagay na gusto kong gawin, takot majudge.
May classmates ako pero di ko sila kino-consider as friends kasi in the end of the
day uuwi akong nag-iisa at wala silang pake sa mental illness ko.
Meron akong masayahing mga kaklase pero hindi enough yun, kasi karamihan sa
kanila hindi ako gusto as their class president. Sa teachers naman normal lang kung
ano yung nakasayan ko na trato saken ng teachers ko dati ganun din ngayon.
Di na’ko nakikisali sa mga recitations if my group activity naman its either ako
yung leader tas ako din gagawa sa lahat o wala akong pake sa activity.
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Nung grade 9 ako nagrecite ako pero yung teacher naming minura lang ako tas
pinalabas ng room.
Wala akong happiest experience bilang low self-esteem.
Oo, wala akong confidence sa sarili kaya di nako nakakasabay sa discussions.
Di ko na handle yung bad effects hinayaan ko nalang kasi lilipas din naman.
Madami, namiss ko yung mga opportunity na ma showcase ko talent ko. May
nagyaya sakin dati na sumali sa banda nila pero di ako sumali kasi baka pagtawanan
lang performance ko.
Advice ko lang humanap kayo ng friends through your worst times hindi yung
anjan lang kapag nasa best part ka ng buhay mo.

I am Jie 16 years old, I want to be alone especially at home.
Maybe the first reasons why I became low self- esteem is because of lack of
friends, no one tolerated me to do a thing that like to do, fear to be judge.
I have classmates but I don’t consider them as friends because at the end of the
day I arrive at our home alone and they don’t care about my mental illness.
I have a joyful classmates but that’s not enough, because most of them they don’t like
me as their class president. To teachers, its just normal I used to adept how my former
teachers treat me is the same like now.
I don’t participate in recitations if theres a group activity it’s either me as a leader
then I am also the one who will do everything or I don’t care to the activity.
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When I was grade 8 I recited but my teacher cussed me then tell me to go out the
room.
I don’t have a happiest experience being low self-esteem.
Yes, I don’t have self confidence that’s why I can’t go with the discussions.
` I doesn’t understand the bad effects I just ignore it because it will passed by.
A lot, I missed the opportunity to showcase my talent. Someone encourage me to
join their bond but I refuse because maybe they’ll lough at my performance.
I advice you to look for a friends through your worst times not like they’re woth
you only with the best time of your life.

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RESEARCHERS’ EXPERIENCES
“We can do it guys.” That was what we said before conducting this
phenomenological study since this is our first time to do research together and some of
us are not close enough to communicate to each other everyday. When we are conducting
this research there are times that we have unity but there are also times that we are
having a misunderstanding maybe because of stress.
We are challenged, we could say that we’re like grouping in the dark. Doing this
phenomenological research was really hard for us because just like what is written in the
first paragraph this is our first time. It was really difficult, but not until then we’ve finished
making the first two chapters.
We are not expecting to have a great time listening to our co-researchers’
experiences. After our title defense, it was relieving to know that there is no more revision
needed. And since our adviser provides most of the questions in our interview protocol,
providing questions that will fit for our research was never been a problem. Then after
we’ve done validating our interview protocol, we’ve go for interviewing with the
permission of the admins and our adviser.
Before of the day we’ve decided to conduct our interviews, we’ve distributed first
our assessment tool in all of the sections in grade 11 STEM strand for the convenience.
On March 9th, the day exactly we’ve wanted to conduct our interviews, we’ve waited for
the dismissal of classes considering the availability of our participants.
At first, it was challenging for us to ask a STEM student to answer our assessment
tool that will immediately made us found out if they’re being low self-esteem. It was
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difficult because grade 11 STEM students are few compare to other strands. But after
we’ve manage to get 10 participants from STEM – Bonifacio, the momentum leads us to
our goal.
While doing our chapter 3, it was never being expected to be fun. After we’ve
made chapter 1 and 2, we’ve always thought that it is awkward to ask peoples
experiences because some of them we’re just strangers from us. Maybe it will be more
comfortable and easy for us if we’re making descriptive research. We’re doing it because
it is a requirement for us to be able to pass the school year. But after all, we’re here and
we’ll make sure that we will finish what we started.
The process is very complicated and detailed. Some of the participants are quite
shy and some of them rejected our request to interview them because they thought that
the interview is hard to answer and too personal. While some of the participants are still
emotional about their problems and cried while the interview is on going because they
still felt the pain they felt before.
The stress affect us big time because some of the answer of our co-researchers is
not clearly stated. Not just us but also the participants because of the follow up questions
that requires them to reminisce their emotional experience. Some participants have long
answer and it’s difficult to translate beacause some of the words are not compatible with
the sentence they answered and we also felt that some partipants are shy to share their
experiences because their answers are short. In that case the researchers are not
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detailed. Some participants are not capable to answer our follow up questions but it’s
also fun for us because it’s challenging.

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RESEARCHERS’ REFLECTION
1. Katagelophobic. Fear of judgement in term of physical, sexual, or emotional abuse.
It is a situation that makes you frighten and anxious just thinking about others action.
One of the many reasons to have a low self-esteem.
Co-Researcher C remembered his experience being judged. Oo, okay lang. Yung rason
kung bakit meron ako or nararamdaman kong low self-esteem ako ay kapag ginagawa
ko yung best ko sa lahat ng bagay pero ended in saying na “Yan lang yun? Wala na bang
igagaling pa? Bakit hindi mo pa galingan kulang payan eh, walang wala ka sa mga kapatid
mo.” Tapos sa mga kaibigan ko nafefeel ko kasing iba ako sa kanila hahaha. Yung feeling
na kapag sila may problema nakikinig ako tapos kapag ako may kailangan wala sila, hindi
ko alam kung anong klaseng kaibigan ako sa kanila kaya bumababa yung tingin ko sa
sarili ko eh. [Yes it’s ok. The reason why I’m being or I feel is when I do my best at all
things but ended up saying “That’s it, is there no any improvement? Why can’t you make
it better, that’s not enough eh. Then to my friends I feel that I am different from them
hahaha the feeling that when they have a problem I am listening and when I need
something they are not around, I don’t know what kind of friend am I to them that’s why
I’m looking down to myself.]
Co-Researcher B also shared how she feels about being judge by others. Pero merong
panahon na umaabot sa punto na walang kumakausap sa akin at nahihiya rin akong
kausapin sila, dahil feeling ko kasi lahat ng kilos ko may mapupuna sila, lahat isyu sa
kanila. [But there are times that it comes to the point that no one talks to me and I am
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shy to talk to them, because I feel that all of my gesture they noticed, all is issue for
them.]
Co-Researcher D expound how fear of judgement affect her. Naiintimidate ako sa
teacher, feeling ko lagi niya kong sisigawan, lagi magagalit sakin siguro yun yung
nakakaapekto sakin. [I am intimidated in teacher, I felt that she would always shout at
me, always angry at me maybe that affected me.]
Co-Researcher F correlation with co-researcher c, He also stated his experience being
judges by others. Kumbaga ano pag nagpakitang gilas ka sasabihin nila bida-bida yun
yung kinakatakutan ko talaga. Hindi naman sa ayaw ko mareject parang maano lang
madiscriminate ganon, kumbaga ganon. [It was like when you’ll show your best they will
tell you that you are a “Bida-bida” or my confidence was too high. That’s what I’m afraid
of. It’s not that I don’t want to be rejected but it’s like, being discriminated.]
Co-Researcher G also stated how she feels being low self-esteem. Kase nga ano ako
low self-esteem nga ako natatakot akong mapagtawanan kapag nagkakamali ako kase
ano ko yun eh weakness ko yun. Yung pagtawan sa bagay na ano pagkakamali mo kahit
'di mo naman sinasadya. [Because of having low self-esteem I am afraid of being laughed
by the others if I commited a mistake because it is my weakness. The feeling of being
laughed by the others because of commiting a mistake unintentionally.]
Co-Researcher H shared her own experience on how fear of judgement affect her.
Naapektuhan ako kase syempre nga kung takot ka magkamali malamang mahihiya kang
magrecite, sinusure ko na tama ang isasagot ko. [I am affected because you know if you
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are afraid to make a mistake obviously, eh you become when you’re reciting, I’ll make
that my answer is correct.]
Co-Researcher J also affected by fear of judgement and shared his experience. Namiss
ko yung mga opportunity na ma showcase ko talent ko. May nagyaya sakin dati na sumali
sa banda nila pero di ako sumali kasi baka pagtawanan lang performance ko. [I missed
the opportunity to showcase my talent. Someone encourage me to join their bond but I
refuse because maybe they’ll lough at my performance.]
The feeling of being compared puts them in situations where they are constantly
guilty of the same mistakes (Lachmann, 2015).
2. Self Pity. Observed Unhappiness over ones`own trouble.
Co-Researcher A stated she feels disappointed about herself. Oo, meron akong mga
pagsisisi sa pagiging low self-esteem ko dahil maraming nasayang na opportunities. [Yes
I have regrets being low self-esteem because there are so much wasted opportunities.]
Co-Researcher B also shared how disappointed she is within herself. Yung naging
duwag ako sa isang bagay at kinakainisan ko yung sarili ko kasi sinasayang ko yung
pagkakataon, pero hindi na naman kasi maiiwasan yung maging mababa na yung tingin
sa sarili mo, halos lahat naman ata ang kinaibahan ko lang ay yung sumobra ako. [When
I become a coward in one thing and I am annoyed by myself because I wasted the
opportunity. But it won't be avoided that you will feel low to yourself, almost all feel it my
only difference is I exceeded.]
Co-Researcher C stated why she feels pity for herself. Yung pagiging mahiyain ko sa
tuwing nasa harapan ako. Halimbawa kapag reporting hindi ako makapagsalita ng
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maayos kasi natatakot akong magkamali. [When just being shy whenever I’m in front.
For example, when I am reporting I can’t properly say anything because I am afraid to
make a mistake.]
Correlation with the other co-researchers, Co-Researcher D, E, F, G, H, I, and J also
shared their experience on how they feel pity for themselves.
Co-Researcher D Kasi pagka diba? Pagka na kahit hindi ka naman tatawanan tas
mararamdaman mong ano parang wala akong confidence panget ng ganung
pakiramdam. [Yes because you know right? It’s better to feel that you are not shy even
if you felt that they will laugh at you maybe you don’t care. Because you know? Even if
they don’t laugh at you then you will feel that I don’t have a confident, that kind of feeling
is unpleasant.]
Co-Researcher E Diba yung mga performance ko na iniiwasan ko pinagsisihan ko kasi
bakit hindi ko yun ginawa bakit pinanghinaan ako ng loob, bakit ganun yung syempre
dapat gawin ko pero hindi ko talaga siya nagagawa… [You know the performance that I
choose to ignore, I regret it because I lost the chance to do it why did I loose confidence,
why can't I do what i'm supposed to do...]
Co-Researcher F Kase ano diba sabi nila ano… part ng ano… grading yung ano…
recitation kapag syempre, kapag mababa yung low self-esteem mo di ka makakarecite
ng ano… ng maayos sa harap syempre gegradan ka ng mababa ng teachers sa ganon.
[Because they say… all of grading there is a part of… recitation of course when You’re
being low self-esteem you can’t recite rightly in front of course yopu will be graded low
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by your teachers like that. I just maka performance task and quizzes because I am
nothing in oral.]
Co-Researcher G Minsan tingin ko sa sarili ko failure minsan disappo...disappointment
puro ganon lang. [Sometimes I think of myself as a failure... Sometimes disappointment.]
Co-Researcher H Napakasensitive sa simpleng bagay lang eh nasasaktan at naiiyak
agad pero patago… [I’m too sensitive in every simple thing can hurt me and make me
cry easily but not in public…]
Co-Researcher I Yung mga rason kung bakit naging low self-esteem ako kase minsan
feeling ko wala akong kwenta sa bahay at pati na rin sa circle of friends. [The reason why
I became low self-esteem is because sometimes I feel useless at home and also to my
circle of friends.]
Co-Researcher J Wala akong confidence sa sarili kaya di nako nakakasabay sa
discussions. [I don’t have self confidence that’s why I can’t go with the discussions.]
weight status, race or ethnicity, and socioeconomic status.
3. Lean on me. It refers to the closeness of friendship up to the point that you will help
each other to conquer all the problems you encounter. Just like what the song says “Lean
on me, when you’re not strong and I’ll be your friend, I’ll help you carry on.” Bill withers.
Co-Researcher A shared how close she is with her friends. Ang mga kaibigan ko ay
mababait at lagi silang nandiyan para sa akin kahit na sa pinakamababang punto ng
buhay ko. Sila yung mga klase ng kaibigan na masasandalan ko. Lagi kaming sama-
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samang kumakain at tumutugtog ng gitara. [My friends are good and they are always
there for me even in my lowest point of my life. They are kind of friends that I can lean
on. We usually eating and playing guitar together.]
Co-Researcher E also shared the closeness they have with her friends. Yung ano
kaibigan ko nung grade 9 sila, almost 4 years ko na silang kaibigan hanggang ngayon
yung mga kaibigan ko nayun sobrang mabait. Sa kanila ko lang nalaman yung tunay na
saya pero sa pamilya maaano yung saya, pero diba sa mga kaibigan mo na nakasama
mo ng ganun katagal malalaman mo talagang sila yung magbibigay sayo ng halaga. Oo
sa magulang, sa pamilya mo binibigyan karing halaga. Pero sa mga kaibigan mo nayun
nararamdaman mo talagang andun yung saya mo. [My friends when I was a grade nine,
I've been friends with them for almost 4 years until now they're really a good person. I
discover the true happiness when i'm with them but it's different in family, but to your
friends who's with you for a long time you'll discover that they are the ones who gave
you value. Yes, in parents, in family they also gave you value. But to that friends you feel
like you really have happiness.]
Co-Researcher H talked about how they usually behave when she is with her friends.
Karamihan sa mga kaibigan ko eh mga suwail like umiinom, naninigarilyo pero di naman
ako naging katulad nil na mabisyo kapag magkakasama kami puro kalokohan lang
ginagawa like mangtitrip ng mga dumadaan or di kaya eh gumala at puro kwentuhan.
[Some of my friends eh are rebellious drinking, smoking but I am not like them who have
vices when we’re together. Only “kalokohan” is the one we do just like pranking people
passed by or maybe stroll, singing and full of conversation.]

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Co-Researcher B expound how bonded she is with her friends. Marami akong kaibigan
pero bilang lang sa kanila ang mga nakakaalam ng tunay kong kalagayan, yung
nakakaintindi sa akin, kapagmagkakasama kami nagiging bonding nalang namin yung
puro kain minsan kapag nagkayayaan umiinom rin kami, syempre kahit na bawal
sinusubukan lalo na nakakaramdam ng pagkacurious sa ibang bagay. Madalas na
nagkwekwentuhan at hindi mawawala yung asaran. [I have a lot of friends but it’s only
a few who knows the truth about my situation. Who understand me, when we are
together we used to eat and drink alcohols as our bonding, of course even its wrong we
have tried, especially that I felt curious in one thing. We often talk to each other and
pissing each other would not miss.]
In addition, Co-Resarcher C and F shared their experience how they’re close with their
friends.
Co-Researcher C Mga kaibigan ko? Mababait naman, makukulit, mga
mapagkakatiwalaan... Katulad nga ng sinabi ko kanina. Lagi kami nag babasketball,
naglalaro ng LOL tapos magkakasama sa mga pangtitrip. [My friends? They are kind,
nasty and trust worthy... Just like what I said earilier. We are always playing basketball,
LOL and we are together even in bad things.]
Co-Researcher F Ano… after class pupunta kami sa bahay ng isa naming kaibigan tapos
kumakain kami dun, biro-biruan ganon, picture picture ganon, mga ganon ba. [Like…
after class where going to our friend’s home then where eating there, having fun, taking
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According to McLeod (2012), children with low self-esteem rely on coping
strategies that are counterproductive such as bullying and etc. Although, there’s also a
productive strategy that will help them to survive their day, just like having friends with
the same characteristic and can relate with each other.
4. One of the Odds. Talks about the unfaired treatment of a teacher to his or her
students because they are having favoritism.
Co-Researcher B and E shared their experience why they feel different from others.
Co-Researcher A Yung relasyon ko naman sa mga classmates ko ay hindi ganon
kaganda. Tulad nga ng sinabi ko kanina, I am introvert. Ako ay komportable sa sarili ko
at hindi ako nabibilang sa circle of friends na meron sila. [My relationship with my
classmates where not so good. As I said before, I am introvert. I am comfortable with
myself and I am not belong to those circle of friends that they have.]
Co-Researcher B Sa mga kaklase ko naman okay lang, pero merong panahon na
umaabot sa punto na walang kumakausap sa akin at nahihiya rin akong kausapin sila,
dahil feeling ko kasi lahat ng kilos ko may mapupuna sila, lahat isyu sa kanila. Sa teachers
ko naman, madalas akong nakakardam ng inis o tampo sa kanila kapag meron silang
paborito sa mga kaklase ko, kasi alam mo yon? Ikaw sa sarili mo nagsisikap ka pero
parang wala ka lang sa kanila, puro mali lang napupuna sa iyo. [To my classmates it’s
okay, but there are times that it comes to the point that no one talks to me and I am shy
to talk to them, Because I feel that all of my gesture they noticed, all is issue for them.
To my teachers, I often feel annoying and sulky to them when they have favoritism with
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my classmates. Because you know? You yourself pursuing but seems like nothing for
them, they notice all the bad things to you.]
Co-Researcher C Tapos sa mga kaibigan ko nafefeel ko kasing iba ako sa kanila hahaha.
Yung feeling na kapag sila may problema nakikinig ako tapos kapag ako may kailangan
wala sila, hindi ko alam kung anong klaseng kaibigan ako sa kanila kaya bumababa yung
tingin ko sa sarili ko eh. [Then to my friends I feel that I am different from them hahaha
the feeling that when they have a problem I am listening and when I need something
they are not around, I don’t know what kind of friend am I to them that’s why I’m looking
down to myself.]
Co-Researcher E Okay lang naman na magshare ako about sa nararanasan ko ngayon
sa bilang grade 11. Sa classmates saka sa teachers, sa teacher kasi nahihirapan ako kasi
na parang hindi ka nila gusto ganun. Kaya kaya parang naisip ko na parang hindi nila ako
gusto. Kasi ako din naman may mali sa sarili ko na minsan hindi rin ako nagrerecite ganun
kaya hindi rin ako nagpapakilala yun. [It’s okay if I would share about my experiences as
a grade 11. To classmates and teachers. In teachers i'm having a hard time because it's
like they don't like you. So. So I though that they don't like me. Because there's something
wrong with me, sometimes i don't recite. So I can't introduce myself.]
According to Empirical Study of McLeod (2012), low self-esteem children tend to
be bullied by other kids that surrounds them because of being weak.
5. Torn Soul. It is a feeling when someone hurt you, and eventually results for you to
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Co-researchers expound their experienced on how their souls are torn by the people that
surrounds them.
Co-Researcher A Tinitiis ko lang yung sakit, yung pag-iisa ko ng negative at lagi kong
iniisip yung kinabukasan ko na kailangan kong lumaban kahit na mahirap ito. [I’ll just
endure the pain, this negative mind and I always think about my future that I should
continue to fight even if it’s hard.]
Co-Reseacher B Nung nag-away away kami at nagkaroon ng open-forum sa room, at
puro ako lang ang tinutugis nila, at puro mali ko lang ang nakikita nila. [When we had
fight with each other and had an open-forum in our room, and it is only me who they
pointing out, and all of my mistakes.]
Co-Researcher C Yung feeling na kapag sila may problema nakikinig ako tapos kapag
ako may kailangan wala sila, hindi ko alam kung anong klaseng kaibigan ako sa kanila
kaya bumababa yung tingin ko sa sarili ko eh. [The feeling that when they have a problem
I am listening and when I need something they are not around, I don’t know what kind
of friend am I to them that’s why I’m looking down to myself.]
Co-Researcher D Tapos napahiya ako nun kasi biglang sinabi niya "Ano pati ba panty
mo naiwan mo?" gumanon siya sa akin tapos tinawanan ako ng mga kaklase ko. Pagkauwi
ko iyak-iyak ako kay mama… [Then I was ashamed because she suddenly says “What
you also left your underwear? She said that to me so my classmates laughed at me. When
I got home I am crying to my mother…]
Co-Researcher H Sa classmates ko hindi halata na ilang ako sa kanila pero ang totoo
sobrang ilang nako, lalo na’t may ugali sa kanila na di nila alam na nakakasakit sila, di
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sila aware sa mga nangyayare… [To my classmates it is not obvious that I didn’t felt
some awkwardness but the truth is I feel very awkward especially they have that attitude
that they can hurt someone, they are not aware on what is happening…]
Co-Researcher G shared how others affect her self-esteem by hurting her feelings.
Yung lalo na nung unang grading, yung mga taong naka surround sakin imbis na ih ano
nila ako icheer up nila ako pag nadodown ako ano parang lalo nila ako dinadown lalo na
sa salita syempre yung confidence na meron na nga lang ako konteng konte lalong
nawala so wala na talaga akong self-esteem. Hindi lang sa akademiks pati sa physical
appearance. So sobrang down na down na ako. [Specially first grading, those people that
surrounds me, instead of cheering me up, they intend to pull me down and make me lose
my self-esteem. Not only in academics but also in physical apperance because of feeling
so down.]
Co-Researcher E also shared her experience being hurt by a teacher. Tapos time na
nung Filipino namin bigla kaming sinabihan ng teacher namin na "Alisin niyo yan! Wala
naman kwenta pinagsasabi niyo diyan sa harapan, parang hindi niyo inaral yung report."
ganun tapos iyak ako ng iyak. [Then time for Filipino subject ended our teacher suddenly
told us "Remove all of that! Your explainations are full of nonsense, it seems like you
didn't study your report." Then I cried and cried.]
The role of parents in providing mental health, academic achievement and self-
esteem is far beyond anything that has been fulfilled (GhorbaniAmir & AhmadiGatab,
2011).
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6. Survivor. It refers to those people who can overcome their greatest fear “You gain
strength, courage and confidence by every experience. In which you really stop to look
fear in the face. You are able to say to your self”. “I lived through this horror. I can take
it to the next thing that comes along. - Eleonore Roosevelt”.
Co-Researcher C shared his experience on how he still managed his esteem in crowd.
Yung nag title defense tapos yung sa I.P kasi nakapagsalita ako ng harap ng maraming
tao na hindi ako takot magkamali at hindi ako natakot mapahiya. [In our title defense
and I.P because I am able to talk properly in front of many people, I am not afraid to
make a mistake and I am not afraid to be ashamed.]
Co-Researcher D Yung time nayun tingin ko yung pinaka bitter-sweet na taon ko is
yung grade 8 ako, tapos yun yung taong nagkaroon ako ng top tapos top 1 pako nun
parang yun yung pinakamasya sakin pero yung time natun hindi maganda yung sitwasyon
ng magulang namin ang daming problema ganun. Tapos nagulat ako nagkaron ako ng
top, nakakahiya nga kasi umiyak ako. Panget ko dun piniktsyuran ako ni ma'am. [The
most bitter-sweet year for me is when I was in grade 8, and that is the year when I got
a top and I am the top 1 before maybe that is the happiest for me but that time our
parents situation is not good there’s a lot of problem like that. And I’m shock that I’ve
got a top, it so embarrassing because I cried. I don’t look there, ma’am took a picture of
me.]
Co-Researcher E also shared herself on how she is still able to be happy after being
low self-esteem. Itong taon na ito marami saking nangyari na masaya ako bilang low self-
esteem ako. Kasi nung ano sa church palang nakilala ko yung ano na tunay na kaibigan,
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sila yung sila yung nagbibigay sakin ng saya yon. Nagbibigay sila ng saya bawat nakikita
ko sila kapag nakikipag-usap ako sa kanila yon. Nafefeel ko na may importansya pala ako
kahit papaano. [This is year are full of moments that i'm happy as a low self-esteem.
Because when i'm in the church I met true freinds, they are the ones who gave me
happiness. They gave me happiness every time I met them and if i'm having a
conversation with them. I felt that I have a value howsoever.]
and bliss.
7. Storm. It is a result when some struggles or problems pass through your path of
success. It also refers to a tears just like rain that cannot be prevented to fall.
The co-researchers explained the storm they’d experience.
Co-Researcher A Oo, naaapektuhan ang pag-aaral ko. Dahil sa low self-esteem hindi
ko magawang matuto sa ilang discussion dahil nawawalan ako ng focus at lagi kong
naiisip na hindi ko magagawa iyon, hindi ko magagawa ito at hindi ko gusto yung ganoong
pakiramdam. Tinitiis ko lang yung sakit, yung pagiisap ko ng negative at lagi kong iniisip
yung kinabukasan ko na kailangan kong lumaban kahit na mahirap ito. [Yes it affects my
studies. Because of my low self-esteem, I am not able to learn in some discussion because
I am out of my mind and I always think about myself that I can’t do that, I can’t do this.
And I hate that feeling. I’ll just endure the pain, this negative mind and I always think
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Co-Researcher B Oo, dumating sa punto na sinasabi sa akin ng subject teacher ko at
ng adviser ko na bumababa na nga yung grades ko. At yung nararamdan ko na rin sa
sarili ko na nawawalan na ako ng ganang mag-aral kaya nga sa major subjects ko pa ako
may mababang grades. [Yes, there is some point when my subject teacher told me and
my adviser that my grades are getting lower. And I felt to myself that I am getting less
interested to study that is why my major subjects have a lower grades.]
Co-Researcher D Yung time nayun tingin ko yung pinaka bitter-sweet na taon ko is
yung grafe 8 ako, tapos yun yung taong nagkaroon ako ng top tapos taop 1 pako nun
parang yun yung pinakamasya sakin pero yung time natun hindi maganda yung sitwasyon
ng magulang namin ang daming problema ganun. Tapos nagulat ako nagkaron ako ng
top, nakakahiya nga kasi umiyak ako. Panget ko dun piniktsyuran ako ni ma'am. [The
most bitter-sweet year for me is when I was in grade 8, and that is the year when I got
a top and I am the top 1 before maybe that is the happiest for me but that time our
parents situation is not good there’s a lot of problem like that. And I’m shock that I’ve
got a top, it so embarrassing because I cried. I don’t look there; ma’am took a picture of
me.]
Co-Researcher E Noong time noon nung nagperform ata ako nun tapos parang hindi
ako satisfied sa nangyari parang na dissapoint din yung mga teacher yun tama. Yung
nagrereport ako nung grade 10, sobra yung iyak ko nun. Kasi hindi namin alam yung
gagawin namin kasi agad-agad kaming pinareport nun. Kasi time nun MAPEH tapos puro
practice siya. Yung puro practice na yun hindi namin naasikaso yung report. Kasi ang
alam namin puro practice nalang pagkatapos ng MAPEH tapos nung time na mismo ng
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report. Tapos time na nung Filipino namin bigla kaming sinabihan ng teacher namin na
"Alisin niyo yan! Wala naman kwenta pinagsasabi niyo diyan sa harapan, parang hindi
niyo inaral yung report." ganun tapos iyak ako ng iyak. [When I'm performing that time,
I think. Then it's like i'm not satisfied to what happened it's like the teachers are also
disappointed. When i'm reporting I was grade 10 that time, I cried so much. We don't
know what to do because the topic is given and we have to report it right away. That
time our subject was MAPEH and it was all about practice. That was full of practice and
we didn't take care of it. We thought all we have to do is practice after the subject MAPEH
and then when it's the time for our actual report, then time for Filipino subject ended our
teacher suddenly told us "Remove all of that! Your explainations are full of nonsense, it
seems like you didn't study your report." Then I cried and cried.]
They often interpret non critical comments as critical. They are more likely to
experience social anxiety and low levels of interpersonal confidence (McLeod, 2012).
8. Wasted Opportunity. These are the chances that they missed. Every one of us is
loosing something precious to us. “Lost opportunities, lost possibility, feeling that we can’t
never get back again that’s what it means to be alived. - Haruki Murakami”.
Both co-researcher B and C expound the missed opportunities they experienced.
Co-Researcher B Sa tingin ko wala naman, o kung meron man yun ay yung naging
duwag ako sa isang bagay at kinakainisan ko yung sarili ko kasi sinasayang ko yung
pagkakataon, pero hindi na naman kasi maiiwasan yung maging mababa na yung tingin
sa sarili mo, halos lahat naman ata ang kinaibahan ko lang ay yung sumobra ako. [For
me there's nothing, or if there are it is the time when I become a coward in one thing
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and I am annoyed by myself because I wasted the opportunity. But it won't be avoided
that you will feel low to yourself, almost all feel it my only difference is I exceeded.]
Co-Researcher C Napakadami, kasi ang daming opportunities yung nasayang eh.
[There’s too many because there’s a lot of a wasted opportunity.]
Low self-esteem individual tends to be pessisimistic towards to everything that
sorrounds you (Rosenberg & Owen, 2001; McLeod, 2012).
9. True Colors. It refers to your truthfulness to oneself. “Don’t be discourage and don’t
be afraid to let them show your true colors. By understanding each individual’s personality
type teams can improve communication through the recognition of a person’s true
character transforming true colors into an uncomplicated language for every individual.
Co-researcher A, B, C, D, and F are all adviced others by sharing their thoughts on
how being honest will affect themselves.
Co-Researcher A Huwag matakot sa mga struggles at mga problema na kinakaharap
nila. Kapag nabigo ka, gawin mo nalang ulit. Huwag ka manatili doon sa comfort zone na
sapunto na you are not able to grow as a person. [Don’t be afraid of those struggles and
problems that they’re facing. If you fail, just do it again. Don’t stay to you comfort zone
to the point that you are not able to grow as a person.]
Co-Researcher B Siguro sa katulad kong low self-esteem, mabuting ibalanse lang natin,
mag-iisip pa rin ng tama dahil masama kapag isa lang ang pananigan yun ay ang tuluyan
ka nang mawalan ng tiwala sa sarili. [Maybe for those like me who have low self-esteem,
its better to keep it balance, still think right because it is bad when you stand for one it
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Co-Researcher C Advice ko lang ay huwag nila masyadong idown yung sarili nila tapos
huwag sila papadepende sa kung ano lang yung nagawa nila kasi alam nila sa sarili nila
na mas may iiimprove pa yung mga bagay na iyon. [My advice is don’t down yourself and
don’t depend on what you can do because you know in yourself that you can improve
something in that thing.
Co-Researcher D Ano wag lang masyadong dibdibin yung mga problema. Since
naranasan ko siya hindi naman siguro sa habang panahon maeexperience mo siya.
Parang mamementain mo yung ganun kasi pagkatinry mong dagdagan yung confidence
mo, tapos tinry mong i-open yung sarili mo sa iba mawawala siya. Parang yung trauma
ng naranasan ko noon, naranasan ko kasing magkaroon ng kaibigan lalo na nung may
problema ako, parang mas naging friendly ako. Naramdaman kong mahalaga ako sa iba
kaya nadagdagan pa din yung pagiging self-confident ko. Ayun, so pagbutihin nalang nila
pag-aaral nila kasi nakalatulong din yun. [Just don’t take your problem too seriously.
Since I experience that maybe it won’t last too long that you will experience it. Just to
maintain that you try to boost your confidence, you try to open up with others it will
disappear. Just like the trauma that I experience before, I experience to have a friend
especially when I have a problem, maybe I become more friendly. I felt that I am
important to others so that myself Confidence will boost up. That’s it, just do their best
in school because it can help you.]
Co-Researcher E Sa mga katulad ko na low self-esteem. Wag tayong subukin na
hanapin yung lahat ng nangyayari sa atin, na isipin lagi natin na ganito na kaya natin na
maging positive lagi tayo sa buhay kasi hmmp. Kung papairalin lang natin yung low self-
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esteem sa sarili natin hindi talaga siya mawawala na lagi talaga siyang uudlukin ka na
ganito ganyan. Yung nararamdaman mo dapat na ganyan pero dapat lagi nating
sasabihinsa utak natin na kakayanin mo, na hindi ka ano na kaya mo na. Positive ako sa
sarili ko na kakayanin ko lahat kasi may kasama naman tayong Diyos na gumagabay sa
atin na di tayo pababayaran yun lang yung tatandaan natin. Kasi Kung lagi mong iisipin
mahina ka, na hindi mo kaya syempre yun lang yung lagi mong maiisip. Hindi mo talaga
magagawa lahat ng bagay kaya sana harapin lang natin yan lahat ng kung ano man yung
ipagawa sa atin. Yung kung ano man yung lahat ng makakaharap na mga problems or
ano pamang pagsubok yan, syempre kailangan nating harapin yun lalo na dito sa school
marami talagang ginagawa pero alam mo naman sa sarili mo na kaya mo. Na kaya mo
yun na may kasama ka lagi na iingatan kabsa lahat sa mga gawain nayan. Na
mapagtatagumpayan mo talaga yan yung lang. [To those people who’s the same as me
a low self-esteem. Dont try to look for all the the things that happened to us, just always
think that we can be positive in life because hmmp. If we just let low self-esteem into
ourselves, it will never be gone it will remain to be triggered. The feelings you felt should
be like tnat but we should say to out brain that you can do it, that you're not like that
now you can. I'm positive to myself that I can do it becaue we have God all the time to
guide us and won’t let us be lost that is the thing that we should remember. Because if
you alwasys thought that your weak, that you can't do it anymore of course you really
can't do it. You're unable to do all the things so I hope that we choose to face all of it
whatever the things supposed to be done. What ever kind of problems that we face or
what kind of obstacles it is, of coursewe need to face it especially here at school there's
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a lot of things that should be done but you know that deep inside yourself that you can,
that you're able to do it with a companion that will treasure you to all of those things,
you will really be successful that's all.]
Co-Researcher F Ahh… wala akong mabigay na advice kasi kung ako nga sa sarili ko di
ko mabigyan ng advice sarili ko para di maging low self-esteem pero ayun its up to them
parin naman kung ano, kung pangungunahan sila ng takot o ano… Lalabanan nila yun.
Ano ahh…wag lang panghihinaan ng loob pag may gustong sabihin kasi lahat naman ng
tao nagkakamali yung lang, Oo wala namang mawawala kung susubukan. [Ahm… I don’t
have advice because even to myself I can’t give myself an advice for not to be low self-
esteem but its like to them if they will be afraid on they’ll fight. Ahm… just don’t be afraid
to burst out youre opinons because all of us did wrong. Ahh… that’s all, yes there’s
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Chapter 5
SUMMARY OF FINDINGS, SYMBOLIC REPRESENTATION, IMPLICATIONS,
RECOMMENDATIONS
This chapter presents the summaries of findings, symbolic representation,
implications and recommendations.
2018-2019. At this stage in the research, the low self-esteem will generally as an influence
in emotional, social interaction and mental health, which affect an individual to his own
3. What implications may the findings offer for any schools or institutions concerned for
their policy development and management?

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SUMMARY OF FINDINGS
Based on the partarticipants truthful answer and after doing a careful analyzation
of the gathered data we present the summary of findings.
Low self-esteem is not known by many people and considered as shyness. But in
this study, it was shown to their lived experiences that they are feared of being judged
by others. The low self-esteem is characterized by feeling badly about oneself. Self-
esteem consist of the way in which they view, think and value themselves. It influences
in emotional, social interaction and mental health which affect an individual to his own
Being “Katagelophobic” was the big thing that contributes a lot and causes them
to being low self-esteem. It was found out that the low self esteem affects the participants
negatively and positively in academic performance mostly when they are performing in
front doing a perfomance or presenting, interacting with other people like friends,
classmates and sometimes teachers.
Most of the participants is affected by their experience in the past being judge by
their own skills and abilities to do things. It was part of their life as a student to
particpate, and perform in front of the class for this just serve as a practice.
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Having that said, It is not predictable when or what wouldbe the other opinion
about it because majority are affected on what would other opinion be regarding their
performance.
Mostly these people are their own classmates, teachers and friends. Intimidated
on how would the teacher react, limiting their actions during performance inside the
classroom because of the term "bida-bida" and the thought thatthey might became a
laughing stock if they did something wrong even if it’s not meant.Being too sensitive in
things and getting hurt secretly, the feeling of being useless at home, unequal treatment,
worrying too much about others opnions, around their friends.
Because of this missed oppurtunities are commonly happens like showcasing their
talents as an individual and cannot paricipate that much in class. Forcing oneself to
perform to the extent but ended up being discourage by others. This also affects during
discussions and recitation.
They face the world with a positive self image. Doing different kinds of things and
activites together like playing guitar, playing computer games and mobile games like
League of Legends, playing basketball, taking pictures, eating together and strolling
around. Although it's not always easy for them to walk on a straight line they still try their
best to keep up.
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Their relationship with friends played a big role to their resolution. Talking with
friends that relate to the same as them gives a positive feedback and also their
unexpected achievements despite of the ups and downs in their lives.
It's not really because they feel lonely and need an attention or the unforgettable
moments in their lives that keep them behind.
It's their need to look for the right person who can listen to their stories that makes
them feel safe. The person who can listen to what their about to say. They value those
people who choose to stay by their side through thick and thin.
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SYMBOLIC REPRESENTATION
The researchers choose the Gift to be the symbol of this study. The researchers
describe their co-researchers as what are the characteristics of a gift. First, a gift is always
presentable and pleasing to the eyes of people and it is always on a good condition. It
can be tall, small, or thin. No matter what they looked like on the outside it is always
beautiful and elegant, especially the surprised inside of it. Second, it can be use in any
occasion depending on its design looked liked but it can also give by you even if there’s
no occasion because some people gived present with the people important to them even
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with no reason. Third, a gift is always special depending on its used and on what’s inside.
You never know how important it is because you often look on the outside before you
find out what’s in it.
Just like the co-researcher of this study they’re different on the outside and there’s
always a surprise of what’s inside. You never know what’s inside until you have a heart
to heart talk with them. They awalys look presentable and pleasing in the way they
present themselves to others. On the outside they show their beautiful and elegant side,
so people will only look in that side and wont have a clue that they have their another
side. Making themselves ready so that if something came up they know how to handle it
and wont panic also to present themselves in a good condition mentally and physically
no matter how hard their struggles is, hardships, problems and etc.
They always try to cover up themselves, so that other people would not recognize
their true colors. Because nowadays people easily judge you eventhough they don’t know
who you are, what personality you had and struggles that they are suffering right now.
IMPLICATIONS
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Based on the summary of findings, the follwong implications are drawn.
Having a fear of being embarrassed, or judged by others, affects every aspects of
student’s academic performances. The low self-esteem is characterized by feeling badly
about oneself. Self-esteem consist of the way in which they view, think and value
themselves. It influences in emotional, social interaction and mental health which affect
an individual to his own daily performance at school.
Meeting new people worth keeping for they still have the feeling of afraid to get
judge by others. The opinion of others can easily affect them positively and sometimes
negatively especially when it's about their performance. Throughout the process of trying
things out of their comfort zone they're often sensitive about it and they often evaluate
themselves negatively. So, they lower themselves that affects their performance at
school, how they interact to others and how they see themselves as an individual.
tend to give up easily although they already tried to make a resolution. On the other
hand, some are taking failure as a positive feedback. But it does not mean that they can
always take it as positivity.

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Although they try to face the world with a positive self image over those negative
things that they recieve. Still they're having a hard time making a steps that are out of
their comfort zone. They feel that they don't deserve to experience positivity that they're
receiving. Every body knows that happiness is a choice. But it gets complicated when
they desire to be happy. But they think that happines don't want them to be. Although
it's a choice to be affected or not or make a resolution or not.
Every body has different ways to overcome the hindrances and sometimes the
small things makes the best solution.

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RECOMMENDATION
To the Upcoming grade 11 STEM students, for them to stop pressuring
themselves, to stop overthinking too much over negative outcomes every time they
perform in class and gave their best and making them more aware to what’s really
happening to themselves.
To the Faculty members, should take a careful observation to the students. To
create a great understanding and to have a strong bond as a whole class.
To the Parents, for them to learn and help their own kid and to have a broad
understanding in different aspects of a kid’s characteristic traits.
To the School administrators, for them to be aware about the student’s
environment, to encourage them to look at themselves in a better way and to promote a
better program base on enhancing a person esteem throughout the school.
To the Guidance Councilor, for them to help the students promote in
academics, behavior and social growth.
To the Curriculum Planners, should planned lessons, topics, and activities that
will enhance a person’s esteem and develop their personalities.
To the Future Researchers, conduct a much detailed study about the behavior
of the participants.
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APPENDICES
 APPENDIX A: Letter to Administer Interview Protocol
 APPENDIX B: Letter to Validators
 APPENDIX C: Validation Checklist
 APPENDIX D: Letters to The Participants/ Informed Consent
 APPENDIX E: Interview Protocol
 APPENDIX F: Rosenberg’s Scale for Low Self-esteem
 APPENDIX G: Transcriptions with the Validators and Participants
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APPENDIX G: INTERVIEW TRANSCRIPTION WITH THE VALIDATORS
AND PARTICIPANTS
Interviewer: So nido, can you please tell me something about yourself?

Interviewee: I am Nido I am 18 yearsold, a student of Mystical rose I am currently
grade 12 and from stem section diamond. I believe that some of the reason why My
esteem lowered/ lower because I think other people ... I mind to much how other people
saw me or how my classmate.... or what will others tell about me whenever I say
something or whenever I tell them something that I wanted to say and I think that affects
me too much or what I mean is or what I mean is that whatever other people tell me or
whatever their comment is or are it really affects me to the bones from where...from
which I find hard to expressing myself because I defend on what i think they will comment
about me after I speak or after I tell my thoughts in mind.
Interviewer: Could you please tell me something about your friends, and the things
you usually do together?
Interviewee: Currently I have 2 groups of friends from different areas. From the school
I ... I have my other group from where I do not tell them what's about me because I
believe that they didn’t have to know a lot about me because I don’t want them to use
the things they know about me when the time came that we apart... we part and my
other group was from our parish from where we also served. I'm also an altar server. I
have my fellow friends there who... Whom I usually served with together and we do a lot
of things together we even play together I mean playing lol and other things like sports
whenever there is sport fest...we…we get addicted to other sports although not everyone
is good at playing we try to impart to others and to teach others about the sports that
we already know and i think my relationship with them was not that much because there
is something that ... there are a lot of things I did not tell them because just like what
I’m doing my friends in school I do not tell them a lot of things about me because I didn’t
want them to use those things to me when we part.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teachers?
Could you please share something about it?
Interviewee: Social relationship I was kind of shy with my classmates and teachers I
do not…I do not speak to them a lot or I do not yeah I mean I do not speak to them that
much because there's nothing to tell to them or there is no topic between else that we
have to tackle aside from the school stuff and I don’t mind ... I mind not telling them the
things that I have in the parish because I believe that I have two worlds and the things
that happen to me in the parish should only be in the parish and the things that happen
to me in school should only be in school.
Interviewer: What about in class discussions can you please tell me something about
it? How you perform in class.
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Interviewee: In class discussion like what I’ve said earlier I was believe to be confident
in speaking my thought especially when it is in terms of values and when and whenever
and there and there was this time when I stopped doing that things some of my
classmates some of my classmates kind of tell things or murmur things that is not really
pleasant or not really nice about me some says that I was just faking things faking things
or faking the words that I’ve said some of them says that I am just too wordy and my
thoughts and mind where just round or I was just telling a story which I only repeat and
repeat repeat and repeat and repeat and some of the even though they did not mention
those things to me personally I still feel that they kind of have those thoughts in mind
in their mind and because of that I did not , right now or currently i do not speak a lot
in class because I do mind I do mind what other will say about me.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self- esteem
students?
Interviewee: My worst experiences experience, experiences experience in class in being
low self - esteem student. I think that was I cannot remember when has this happen but
I believe that was the time when I wasn't able to fight for what's right I kind of I became
passive at that time i became I just accept things right away although in myself I think
that there is something that I should fight for or something that we should do about it I
didn’t know or how i let bad things to us and that was it maybe I think.
Interviewer: What is your happiest experiences experience in class being low self-
esteem students?
Interviewee: Happiest? I think one of things the happiest from the lot of those
experience was having your other classmates talk to you i mean what I mean by other
classmates those classmates who also have low self-esteem kind of talk to me because
you know we kinda understand each other and we believe sharing stories with each other.
kind of made us comfortable because we kinda have the same stories from where we
just share those experiences in our own way.
Interviewer: Do you think, at some point, your being low self- esteem affects your
studies? Please share it.
Interviewee: Yes but honestly I am not that all the time low self-esteem there are
sometimes that I have low self-esteem or my self-esteem is low and there are time it is
high but this time or I mean this period maybe I am at my lowest self-esteem.Yes there
are bad effects like having poor academic performance because instead of doing what
you really want or saying or speaking the things you have in mind you kind of stop doing
or you kind of stop resisting because I do mind what other people will say about me and
because of that my recitation is not getting high and also my performance in physical
education like that I became too shy when I have to perform a dance or a song when we
have to.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem
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Interviewee: Yes but I believe regrets are always there and until then still there is
tomorrow I believe I could still do something to change those I still have the chance to
change and do something about those.
Interviewer: What advice can you give to students who have low self-esteem just like
you?
Interviewee: To the students who also have low self-esteem I that believe maybe you’re
were like me who mind sharing to other people but you have to learn how to share your
thoughts to other people it might be awkward but it’s kinda helpful because you will have
people who will be willing to hear your thoughts and whenever you started sharing to
them your story and when even though they might not understand those things I believe
they will adjust their level of understanding and level of perspective whenever they will
give advices to you and also to your parents Try talking to your parents or try at least
talking to other people or try practicing talking with other people do not mind everything
in your mind sometimes you just have to stop thinking so that you could move on just
like I have from some Facebook I don’t know I forgot where it's from tomorrow is history
yesterday is a mystery but today is a gift that is why itis called present and every gift that
we have we should used that or we should make those thing count or we should make
those gift worthy and I believe one way of making those thing worthy is trying to change
who you are and trying to be who you wanted to be.
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Interviewer: Can you please tell something about yourself.

Interviewee: Spyde Austria. I’m a friendly person and usually do something when I’m
bored.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reasons of your beung low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: Sometimes the only reason when I feel low-esteem it is just because I’m
too nervous on something that might happen.
Interviewee: We do bonding, playing games (computer). We’re not that close but we’re
okay
Interviewer: In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: I do difficult task sometimes and present it in front.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: I’ve been drown in anxiety.
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Interviewer: How about your happiest experience?

Interviewee: When I overcome my fear that may cause Low self-esteem.
Interviewer: Do you think at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studoes? If there’s a bad effect, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Yes, it makes you bothered all the time. I just ignore it.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem?
Interviewee: None, since all of us experienced it and served as a lesson.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to the students who have low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Stay positive and look at the brighter side
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Interviewer: Can you tell something about yourself?

Interviewee: Before I never loved myself. Actually I always put into trouble, I almost
do all the bad things to the point that I am far the world. I mean, it seems like I abandon
myself in past maybe because of being adolescent. They say it is the stage we become
selfish and curious. But while being matured I somehow understand the things and know
the importance of life in this world.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share to me the reasons of your being low
self-esteem?
Interviewee: I became low self-esteem when the days I want to chance, but most of
the people do not believe me that is why I begin to lose self-confidence. Before I become
a part of bad friends I become a part of good friends too.
Interviewer: What about your friends? Can you say something about them and the
things that you usually do together
Interviewee: My friends now and I likes to play guitar and worship God. I became
happy with my classmates and teachers because even we did wrong outside the school
they try to make it right. Even if it is not their job like they treat us like their children.
Interviewer: What about your social relationship with your classmates and teacher?
Interviewee: Actually it is okay, I am happy in our classroom because I learned and we
have a bonding with my friends.
Interviewer: In class discussion, could you tell something about how you perform in
class?
Interviewee: I am so happy in our classroom because it is like our home.
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Interviewer: Do you have worst experiences experience in class being low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: A lot, whenever I have low self- esteem I drink alcohol and everyone
around me I feel like they are not listening, sometimes I think of committing suicide but
I would not do it.
Interviewer: Do you have happiest experiences experience as a low self-esteem?
Interviewee: Yes of course this is why I became more close to God and to my friends
I learned to respect and that is the happiest thing in my life when I met God. For me it
did not affect my studies. When I am in school I left my problems at home because I am
just wasting my time.
Interviewer: Do you have any regrets being low self-esteem
Interviewee: Yes, aside from what I said I have a lot of hours wasted because of the
things I never done when I felt useless.
Interviewer: What advice can you give to the students who have low self-esteem same
as you?
Interviewee: It is not yet the end, Give your problems to Lord and you will be alright
in times you feel tired and you lost your faith. Just pray promise all of that will be gone
in the used of God and always be positive and be brave all of that will passed away.
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Interviewer: Please tell something about yourself.

Interviewer: I’m Jerelyn S. Entring from STEM 12 Diamond. Sa pamilya, dalawa kaming
magkakapatid ako ang panganay then ang mama ko abroad ung papa ko nagtratrabaho
sa ibang lugar. Kaya naman lumaki ako na ako lang mag isa sa buhay, sarili sikap lang
yun, share ko lang.
Interviewer: Is it okay if you would share the reasons of your being low self-
esteem?
Interviewer: Parang ano… suguro naapektuhan kase nega ako eh. Nega kong mag-isp
kaya ayan naapektuhan ung mga nangyayari. Then clumsy ako, careless ako kaya ayun
gusto kase natatakot ako na ijudge akong ibang tao, mareject ako. Yan ayoko nang
ganun.
Interviewer: Can you tell something about your friends and the things that you
usually do together?
Interviewee: Sa mga friends, ano lang ahmm di ako masyadong friendly siguro nag
iistick ako sa friends na yung tipong friends ko siya ahmm tapos iba yung standard nila
sa ibang friends. Parang ahm tinuturing Kong, pag friends ko sila tinuturing ko talaga
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silang friends as in ‘di nagplaplastikan sa friends. Sa group of friends namin lima kame.
Ahm strong kame kase pag may problema, masama man ‘yan o ano sinasabe namin sa
isa’t-isa so bale, kapag kunyare kahit masakit kase mas gusto namin na open kame sa
isa’t-isa. Then, syempre kapag maayos din ang problema, Then yung kadalasan lang
namin ginagawa yun syempre pag STEM ka mahirap yung ano… aral lang talaga. Pero
kung minsan ano… yung gala- gala para stress reliever siya kase yun ayun mahirap.
Interviewee: Sa relationship sa classmate medyo introvert ako ahm… medyo kalog
pero sa una kalog ay ma… parang ‘di ako approachable. I mean ano gusto ko yung
inaaproach them, sa mga classmate okay lang naman akong bata ayun wala naming
ahm… ayun mababa lang ako sa mga recitation ‘di ako ano sa mga recitation more on
ako sa paper sa mga seatwork ganun mga ‘yun.
Interviewer: In class discussion, how do you perform in class?
Interviewee: Ahm… kagaya nga ng sinasabi ko, ‘di ako ganoon ka… ung masyadong
nahihikayat ‘di ako expose masyado ‘di rin ako ayun.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience being low self-esteem inside
and outside the classroom?
Interviewee: Yung mga worst ko lang talaga yung mga katangahan na nangyari sa
mga buhay ko yun lang.
Interviewer: What about your happiest experiences?
Interviewer: Happiest po ? Siguro yung ano kasama na rin yung friends ko. Kase sila
lang naman yung mga pam pa ano parang nakakaintindi. Yung kwentuhan ganoon.
Interviewer: Do you think, at some point, your being low self-esteem affects your
studies? If there’s any bad effects, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Ayun nga sabi ko low self-esteem ako mababa ako mag recite. Kaya ayun,
pero kahit naman ganoon nasa achiever naman ako pero feeling ko ‘di ko parin nabibigay
yung best ko yun yung isa sa mga weaknesses ko na dapat ko pa simple kase nga college
na dapat nagbago na.
Interviewee: Ahm regrets? Ano fifty-fifty ano… kase ‘di ako low self-esteem dati. ‘Di
ako…’di ako nasa sitwasyon ko ngayon. O.A siguro ano? ‘Di mo naman masasabi yun eh
mga weakness ko yun lang gusto ko siya improve.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to low self-esteem students like you?
Interviewee: Ahm...Ano ba? Siguroo as early as possible ipractice niyo yung ganoon
kase as a student kailangan nakikipaginteract diba ahm… iyon yung mga kadalasan
nagiging problema ng mga studyante ng mga estudyante nakakaapekto ‘din sa studies
nila.
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Interviewee: I am Trisha Mae Adano, 17 years old. My strand in Mystical right now is
Gas 11-Mabini.
Interviewer: Would it be fine if you would share the reason of your being low self-
esteem?
Interviewee: Maybe… My experience is having trauma in the past.
Interviewer: Could you please tell something about your friends, and the things you
Interviewee: My friends, every time the class ends, we will decide where we will
go then, we will normally come up of what we can do.
Interviewee: So…. They treat me well, I can’t say anything bad or negative. That’s what
it is. It goes well.
Interviewer: In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: I perform in class, but I can’t tell that I’m good at performance but I know
that I have something to show. When it comes to recitation I don’t usually answer
because I have low self-esteem that is why.
Interviewer: What is your worst experiences experience in class being low self-esteem
students?
Interviewee: So in our subject, Oral Communication or performance task is public
speech, we need to perform public speaking then suddenly I can’t speak because of low
self-esteem. I can’t think of what to say then they are laughing at me then I don’t know
why did I cried.
Interviewer: What about your happiest experience?
Interviewee: I don’t know the specific answer but being with them is the happiest.
Interviewee: Yes, of course if you don’t recite it instantly affects grades! Actually I don’t
know how to handle it because it is my biggest problem.
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Interviewee: There are a lot because I can’t perform well in class because of having
low self-esteem.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to students who have low self-esteem just?
Interviewee: I don’t know what to advise because me, myself have low self-esteem so
I don’t know what to advice.
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Interviewee: Hello, ako si Leilei. Ako ay nag-aaral sa Mystical Rose School of Caloocan
taking up STEM Strand section Bonifacio. Hilig kong tumugtog ng gitara at syempre
makinig ng mga classic musics. Ahm… I’m introvert and feel comfortable for being alone.
esteem?
Interviewee: Oo, okay lang pero huwag mo sasabihin sa iba. Nagsimula yun noong
namatay ang mama ko. Lagi kong tinitingnan yung mga negative sides noong nawala
siya. Mas naging stressed ako ngayon kaysa dati. Lagi akong nababalisa sa lahat ng bagay
especially sa pag-aaral ko at meron akong ugaling pagiging malungkot pero hindi ko rin
alam kung kalian yun nagsimula.
Interviewee: Ang mga kaibigan ko ay mababait at lagi silang nandiyan para sa akin
kahit na sa pinakamababang punto ng buhay ko. Sila yung mga klase ng kaibigan na
masasandalan ko. Lagi kaming sama-samang kumakain at tumutugtog ng gitara.
Interviewee: Actually, yung relasyon ko sa teacher ko ay maayos naman dahil isa siya
sa mga nasasabihan ko ng mga problema. At yung relasyon ko naman sa mga classmates
ko ay hindi ganon kaganda. Tulad nga ng sinabi ko kanina, I am introvert. Ako ay
komportable sa sarili ko at hindi ako nabibilang sa circle of friends na meron sila.
Interviewer: : In class discussion, could you tell me something about how you perform
in class?
Interviewee: Minsan ako ay active sa recitation sa klase pero minsan tamad din ako at
antukin habang may class discussion.
students?
Interviewee: Noong ako at yung kaklase ko ay nagkaroon ng hindi pagkakaunawaan
during science fair. Nakapagsabi ako ng mga masasakit na salita tungkol sa kanya. At
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inaamin ko yung mga pagkakamali ko pero meron din naman siyang pagkakamali
noong mga oras na iyon. Mula noong araw na iyon ay naging mahiyain ako sa mga
classmates ko dahil alam nila kung ano ang nangyari noong araw na iyon. At iyon din
ang naging dahilan kung bakit ako naging low self-esteem.
Interviewee: Yung pinakamasayang experiences na naranasan ko is during our
Christmas party, yun na iyon.
Interviewee: Oo, naaapektuhan ang pag-aaral ko. Dahil sa low self-esteem hindi ko
magawang matuto sa ilang discussion dahil nawawalan ako ng focus at lagi kong naiisip
na hindi ko magagawa iyon, hindi ko magagawa ito at hindi ko gusto yung ganoong
pakiramdam. Tinitiis ko lang yung sakit, yung pag-iisa ko ng negative at lagi kong iniisip
yung kinabukasan ko na kailangan kong lumaban kahit na mahirap ito.
Interviewee: Oo, meron akong mga pagsisisi sa pagiging low self-esteem ko dahil
maraming nasayang na opportunities.
Interviewer: What advice could you give to students who have low self-esteem just like
you?
Interviewee: Huwag matakot sa mga struggles at mga problema na kinakaharap nila.
Kapag nabigo ka, gawin mo nalang ulit. Huwag ka manatili doon sa comfort zone na
sapunto na you are not able to grow as a person.

Interviewee: Ako si Naji, 17 years old nakatira sa ph 1, pkg. 1, Blk 16, lot 1, BSCC. Lima
kaming magkakapatid at pang apat ako. Yung Papa ko namatay noong august 19, 2014
dahil sa colon cancer. Si Mama na lang ang nagtataguyod sa amin, umabot sa punto na
nagtitinda na kami sa clasroomm namin para mayroon kaming panggastos. Yung ate
kong panganay 4th year college noong nagstop siya dahil hindi na talaga kaya kapag
lahat kami ay nag aaral pa. Nagtrabaho siya para makatulong kay mama at sa aming
mga kapatid nya. Simula nung nawala na si papa, doon na ako pinanghinaan ng loob,
nangulila sa pagmamahal niya. Naiinggit ako sa iba kasi kumpleto ang pamilya nila.
Ngayong gr.11 na ako, kahit na madalas na pinaghihinaan ako ng loob, ginagawa ko
nalang inspirasyon yung hirap ng buhay para mas pagpursigihin ko pa yung pag-aaral
ko. Dahil alam kong mas pagod yung taong nagpapaaral sa akin.
esteem?
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Interviewee: Kasi alam ko sa sarili ko na wala pa akong mai-pagmamalaki, sinasabi ko

sa sarili ko at sa ibang tao na malakas ako at matapang pero ang totoo no'n nawawalan
na ako ng tiwala sa sarili ko, kasi lagi nalang akong nakakagawa ng mga pagkakamali.
Minsan kahit maliit na bagay na kapag di ako nasusuportahan ng mga taong mahal ko sa
buhay, nararamdaman ko sa sarili ko na wala akong halaga sa kanila na wala lang ako
sa kanila.
Interviewee: Marami akong kaibigan pero bilang lang sa kanila ang mga nakakaalam
ng tunay kong kalagayan, yung nakakaintindi sa akin, kapagmagkakasama kami nagiging
bonding nalang namin yung puro kain minsan kapag nagkayayaan umiinom rin kami,
syempre kahit na bawal sinusubukan lalo na nakakaramdam ng pagkacurious sa ibang
bagay. Madalas na nagkwekwentuhan at hindi mawawala yung asaran.
Interviewee: Sa mga kaklase ko naman okay lang, pero merong panahon na umaabot
sa punto na walang kumakausap sa akin at nahihiya rin akong kausapin sila, dahil feeling
ko kasi lahat ng kilos ko may mapupuna sila, lahat isyu sa kanila. Sa teachers ko naman,
madalas akong nakakardam ng inis o tampo sa kanila kapag meron silang paborito sa
mga kaklase ko, kasi alam mo yon? Ikaw sa sarili mo nagsisikap ka pero parang wala ka
lang sa kanila, puro mali lang napupuna sa iyo.
in class?
Interviewee: Pagdating naman sa klase, active naman ako sa recitation o groupings at
roleplaying, yun nga lang tingin nila sakin ng iba feeling magaling.
students?
Interviewee: Nung nag-away away kami at nagkaroon ng open-forum sa room, at puro
ako lang ang tinutugis nila, at puro mali ko lang ang nakikita nila.
Interviewee: Nung nagkaroon na ako ng mga bagong kaibigan, yung sama-sama lahat
ng bagay at talagang nagtutulungan.
Interviewee: Oo, dumating sa punto na sinasabi sa akin ng subject teacher ko at ng
adviser ko na bumababa na nga yung grades ko. At yung nararamdan ko na rin sa sarili
ko na nawawalan na ako ng ganang mag-aral kaya nga sa major subjects ko pa ako may
mababang grades.
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Interviewee: Sa tingin ko wala naman, o kung meron man yun ay yung naging duwag
ako sa isang bagay at kinakainisan ko yung sarili ko kasi sinasayang ko yung pagkakataon,
pero hindi na naman kasi maiiwasan yung maging mababa na yung tingin sa sarili mo,
halos lahat naman ata ang kinaibahan ko lang ay yung sumobra ako.
you?
Interviewee: Siguro sa katulad kong low self-esteem, mabuting ibalanse lang natin,
mag-iisip pa rin ng tama dahil masama kapag isa lang ang pananigan yun ay ang tuluyan
ka nang mawalan ng tiwala sa sarili.

Interviewee: Ako si Potpot. Ako ay 17 years old, grade 11 Stem student nag-aaral sa
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan Inc. Hilig kong maglaro ng computer games tyaka mag
basketball. Ako yung klase ng tao na laging inaantok. May apat akong kapatid, dalawang
babae dalawang lalaki. Meron akong stepfather kasi yung tunay kong tatay namatay
noong isang taon ako. Yung pangalawa kong kuya nagpapaaral sakin at binibigay niya
mga gusto ko pero hindi na siya dito naka tira sa bahay meron na siyang sariling bahay.
Tapos yung ate ko naman kumukuha ng education course sa UP Diliman. Yung bata pa
ako lagi lang ako sa bahay kasi di ako pinapayagan lumabas ni mama naging introvert
din ako ng almost 6 years pero yung grade 7 nako nasanay nako sa ibang tao at natuto
maging independent.
esteem?
Interviewee: Oo, okay lang. Yung rason kung bakit meron ako or nararamdaman kong
low self-esteem ako ay kapag ginagawa ko yung best ko sa lahat ng bagay pero ended
in saying na “Yan lang yun? Wala na bang igagaling pa? Bakit hindi mo pa galingan kulang
payan eh, walang wala ka sa mga kapatid mo.” Tapos sa mga kaibigan ko nafefeel ko
kasing iba ako sa kanila hahaha. Yung feeling na kapag sila may problema nakikinig ako
tapos kapag ako may kailangan wala sila, hindi ko alam kung anong klaseng kaibigan ako
sa kanila kaya bumababa yung tingin ko sa sarili ko eh.
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Interviewee: Mga kaibigan ko? Mababait naman, makukulit, mga mapagkakatiwalaan

pero minsan mga hindi rin mapagkakatiwalaan eh. Katulad nga ng sinabi ko kanina.
Lagi kami nag babasketball, naglalaro ng LOL tapos magkakasama sa mga pangtitrip.
Interviewee: hm… yung pakikitungo ko naman sa mga classmates ko at teachers ayos
naman pero minsan nakakainis lang yung mga bida-bidang classmates na akala mo ang
gagaling eh hindi naman, tapos yung sa teachers wala akong problema don puwera lang
sa P.E teacher kasi ang yabang masyado tapos sa Reading ang Writing daming
pinapagawa.
in class?
Interviewee: During class hour minsan tulog ako pero sa mga quiz at test ko lagi din
naming pasado at kumokopya din sakin mga seatmates ko, pag nakikinig akong mabuti
tapos mag quiz.
students?
Interviewee: Yung pagiging mahiyain ko sa tuwing nasa harapan ako. Halimbawa
kapag reporting hindi ako makapagsalita ng maayos kasi natatakot akong magkamali.
Interviewee: Yung nag title defense tapos yung sa I.P kasi nakapagsalita ako ng
harap ng maraming tao na hindi ako takot magkamali at hindi ako natakot mapahiya.
Interviewee: Siguro? Kasi minsan ang hirap mag-adjust at yung feeling na alam mo
yung sagot pero hindi ko nasasabi kasi baka mali at mapahiya ako. Merong masamang
epekto pero nahahandle ko naman sa pamamagitan ng sarili ko minsan. Binu-boost ko
confidence ko.
Interviewee: Napakadami, kasi ang daming opportunities yung nasayang eh.
you?
Interviewee: Advice ko lang ay huwag nila masyadong idown yung sarili nila tapos
huwag sila papadepende sa kung ano lang yung nagawa nila kasi alam nila sa sarili nila
na mas may iimprove pa yung mga bagay na iyon.
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Interviewee: Ako po si Ms. Dyosa 18 years old sa March 14 po. Hindi ko po alam na low
self-esteem pala ako pero sige go! Yung tinetake ko yung test akala ko hindi ako papasa
dun sa magiging particiapant nyo. Kasi yung ibang tanong dun feeling ko ano hindi naman
pang low self-esteem. Hindi naman ako ganun ka ano friendly, pero hindi rin naman ako
ganun ka introvert. Nakikipagkaibigan ako dahil nga kapag ano matagal ko ng nakasama
pero pagka kunwari pagdalawa lang kami, madalang ako yung magsalita o mag-open ng
topic. Madalang yun mangyari.
esteem?
Interviewee: Siguro nga ayun, hindi ako masyadong nag-oopen ng umpisa ng topic ng
conversation kaya ano, hindi ko masyado naexpress yung sarili ko kahit ano gusto ko
siyang sabihin parang kinikeep ko nalang sarili ko na ano maging quiet.
Interviewee: Yung grade 10 ako yung mga kaibigan ko mga babae sila tapos syempre
magkakaiba kami ng school. Meron nga akong kaibigan ditong dalawa na ano taga dito
sa GAS at taga ICT pero madalang nalang kami mag-usap saka madalang din kami
mag-usap sa personal saka sa chat. Kaya feeling ko ano nawawala sila, parang hindi
nako nagiging kaibigan nila. Lalo na pagnakikita ko post nila na ano yung mga nakatag
yung ibang kaklase nila ba parang bagong tropa nila. Yun lang parang nahuhurt lang
ako sa ganun.
Interviewee: Kahit noon palang junior high hindi ako masyadong, hindi ako masyadong
nakikipag-usap sa teacher pero since ano nasa ano ako may honor ako nun. Kaya close
ay ano nilalapitan ako ng mga teacher. Kilala nila ako pero madalang akong makipag
usap sa kanila na parang ibang estudyante na marunong magbiro sa teacher pero hindi
ako masyadong ganun. Hindi ko yun kaya.
in class?
Interviewee: Ahh siguro semi-active lang ako, siguro nagka-top lang ako nun kasi
mataas yung quizzes ko yung exams ko, pero pagkarecitation di ako masyadong active
sa ganun. Ewan ko bat nag ka top ako nun eh hindi naman ako palarecite. More on
written works diba kasi ganun dati.
students?
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Interviewee: Nung grade 3 siguro yun na din yung naging dahilan kung bakit naging
mahiyain ako sa klase. Yung teacher ko na ano hindi ko alam kung may galit sakin o
wala kasi pag ka ano parang lagi akong pinagbubuntungan ng galit niya. Yung nangyari
kasi nun nakatulog ako sa klase niya, ewan ko kung bakit ako natulog diba kasi
syempre grade 3 palang ako nun hindi pa ako seryoso sa pag-aaral. Tapos pagkadilat
ko naglelesson pala siya tapos tinarayan niya ko, tapos sabi niya "sarap ba matulog?"
ganun-ganun. Tapos yung isang time naman nakikinig ako sa lesson niya tapos biglang
dumating yung ate ko. Ano pabalik-balik yung ate ko may hinatid siyang I.D., bote,
tapos ano yun? Panyo ata. Tapos napahiya ako nun kasi biglang sinabi niya "Ano pati
ba panty mo naiwan mo?" gumanon siya sa akin tapos tinawanan ako ng mga kaklase
ko. Pagkauwi ko iyak-iyak ako kay mama, muntik na nga nilang ipablotter yun eh, pero
hindi na nila inano kasi ayaw na nila ng gulo kaya hindi na ako nakikipag-usap sa
teachers.
Interviewee: Yung time nayun tingin ko yung pinaka bitter-sweet na taon ko is yung
grade 8 ako, tapos yun yung taong nagkaroon ako ng top tapos top 1 pako nun parang
yun yung pinakamasya sakin pero yung time natun hindi maganda yung sitwasyon ng
magulang namin ang daming problema ganun. Tapos nagulat ako nagkaron ako ng top,
nakakahiya nga kasi umiyak ako. Panget ko dun piniktsyuran ako ni ma'am.
Interviewee: Oo nga yun, katulad nga nung grade 9 ako hindi ako masyadong
nagpaparticipate nun kasi nga diba? Naiintimidate ako sa teacher, feeling ko lagi niya
kong sisigawan, lagi magagalit sakin siguro yun yung nakakaapekto sakin. Pero yung
mga nangyayari nung may mga peoblema kami sa bahay hindi naman yun nakaapekto
sa pag-aaral ko, parang naging motivation.
Interviewee: Oo naman, oo kasi syempre diba? Mas maganda yung feeling na hindi
ka nahihiya kahit yung feeling mo tatawanan ka nila parang wala kang pakialam doon.
Kasi pagka diba? Pagka na kahit hindi ka naman tatawanan tas mararamdaman mong
ano parang wala akong confidence panget ng ganung pakiramdam.
you?
Interviewee: Ano wag lang masyadong dibdibin yung mga problema. Since naranasan
ko siya hindi naman siguro sa habang panahon maeexperience mo siya. Parang
mamementain mo yung ganun kasi pagkatinry mong dagdagan yung confidence mo,
tapos tinry mong i-open yung sarili mo sa iba mawawala siya. Parang yung trauma ng
naranasan ko noon, naranasan ko kasing magkaroon ng kaibigan lalo na nung may
problema ako, parang mas naging friendly ako. Naramdaman kong mahalaga ako sa iba
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kaya nadagdagan pa din yung pagiging self-confident ko. Ayun, so pagbutihin nalang
nila pag-aaral nila kasi nakalatulong din yun.

Interviewee: Tawagin niyo nalang po akong Buwan 17 years old, yun nakakaranas
po ako ng low self-Esteem kasi may mga bagay na, mga bagay na minasan naiisip ko
nalang na hindi ko kayang gawin. Tapos napaka nega ko sa sarili ko. Yung hindi ko
sinusubukan yung mga bagay na alam ko namang kaya ko.
esteem?
Interviewee: Okay lang naman malaman niyo kung bakit low self-esteem ako kasi
ano. May mga times kasi na yun nga nahihirapan ako. Tapos iniisip ko agad na hindi ko
kayang gawin. May mga bagay na hindi ko, hindi ko tinatry na gawin kasi iniisip ko na
hindi ko kaya tapos napapanghinaan ako ng loob.
Interviewee: Yung ano kaibigan ko nung grade 9 sila, almost 4 years ko na silang
kaibigan hanggang ngayon yung mga kaibigan ko nayun sobrang mabait. Sa kanila ko
lamg nalaman yung tunay na saya pero sa pamilya maaano yung saya, pero diba sa mga
kaibigan mo na nakasama mo ng ganun katagal malalaman moo talagang sila yung
magbibigay sayo ng halaga. Oo sa magulang, sa pamilya mo binibigyan karing halaga.
Pero sa mga kaibigan mo nayun nararamdaman mo talagang andun yung saya mo. Yung
mga saya na puro tama lang yung ginagawa niyo, yung saya namay limitasyon. Hindi
katulad ng ibang saya na iba yung ginagawa. Pero yung mga kaibigan nayun yun yung
pinakamasasabing the best sila. Kasi bawat weekends o kada linggo may ginagawa kami
na umaalis kami, sama-sama kami. Hindi kumpleto tutuloy parin kami kasi pwede rin
namang maulit yung sama-sama kami. Hindi kami nawawalan ng bonding kada linggo
ganun. Tapos yung mga ano kaibigan ko sa church namin, iba sila pagkasama mo. Ahh
lalo na pagkasama mo sila sa church, kasi yung mga ginagawa niyo yung tama lang yung
nasa aral niyo. Kaya yung masasabi ko yung mga kaibigan ko na dati saka mgayon, sila
talaga yubg mga kaibigan na tama talaga para sakin. Kasi ginagawa namin kada
ginagawa namin sa church, syempre pumupunta kami dun. Then, sabay-sabay kaming
gumagawa ng mga aral na tinuturo sa amin.
Interviewee: Okay lang naman na magshare ako about sa nararanasan ko ngayon sa
bilang grade 11. Sa classmates saka sa teachers, sa teacher kasi nahihirapan ako kasi na
parang hindi ka nila gusto ganun. Kaya kaya parang naisip ko na parang hindi nila ako
gusto. Kasi ako din naman may mali sa sarili ko na minsan hindi rin ako nagrerecite ganun
kaya hindi rin ako nagpapakilala yun. Tapis yung mga teacher na iba parang wala rin
silang pakialam ganun. Sa classmates naman, syempre hindi mo naman maiiwasan yung
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mga classmates na ganito na mapang-asar sa ano. Minsan nakakasakit yung mga salita
pero hinahayaan ko nalang kasi okay lang naman yun, biro lang naman yun. Hindi naman,
pero may mga times kasi na nakakapangbaba rin yun ng sarili yung mga pang aasar na
sobra na.
in class?
Interviewee: Pagdating sa klase mga discussion yung pagiging low self-esteem ano na
nadadala ko siya sa time ng discussion o kaya sa pagpeperform sa mga academic
performance ganun. Kasi diba pag lo self-esteem ka syempre kinakabahan ganun na
mapapaisip ka na hindi ko to kaya na baka mamaya pagtawanan lang ako mga ganun.
Tapos may mga time na discussion tapos hindi talaga ako nagrerecite kasi nahihirapan
akl na sumagot hindi, minsan kasi hindi ako agad nakaka adopt masyado ng mga lesson
hindi ko siya napagtutuunan ng pansin minsan. Tapos lalo na nga nang pagiging low self-
esteem kasi minsan, kasi nasasalungat nako sa lesson, hindi ko na siya na aadopt
nahihirapan ako pag ganun. Tapos mga performance syempre kinakabahan ako lagi, wala
akong times na hindi ako kinabahan kahit na ano elementary pako hindi talaga ako
tumatayo sa harapan.
students?
Interviewee: Noong elementary ako nun eh or high school. Noong time noon nung
nagperform ata ako nun tapos parang hindi ako satisfied sa nangyari parang na dissapoint
din yung mga teacher yun tama. Yung nagrereport ako nung grade 10, sobra yung iyak
ko nun. Kasi hindi namin alam yung gagawin namin kasi agad-agad kaming pinareport
nun. Kasi time nun MAPEH tapos puro practice siya. Yung puro practice na yun hindi
namin naasikaso yung report. Kasi ang alam namin puro practice nalang pagkatapos ng
MAPEH tapos nung time na mismo ng report. Tapos time na nung Filipino namin bigla
kaming sinabihan ng teacher namin na "Alisin niyo yan! Wala naman kwenta pinagsasabi
niyo diyan sa harapan, parang hindi niyo inaral yung report." ganun tapos iyak ako ng
iyak. Tapos para pa akong tanga nung pinabasa sa classmate ko tung tula ata yun o
dagli? Tapos i ano ko daw, tapos i action ko daw yung mga sinabi ng classmates ko tapos
yun nahihirapan nako tapos bumalik nako sa upuan nun. Napanghinaan nako ng loob
hindi na naano yung report namin.

Interviewee: Itong taon na ito marami saking nangyari na masaya ako bilang low
self-esteem ako. Kasi nung ano sa church palang nakilala ko yung ano na tunay na
kaibigan, sila yung sila yung nagbibigay sakin ng saya yon. Nagbibigay sila ng saya
bawat nakikita ko sila kapag nakikipag-usap ako sa kanila yon. Nafefeel ko na may
importansya pala ako kahit papaano. Tapos yung mga happiest ayun, bilang ano
nabibigyan ka ng panahon para magsalita na mabigay mo yung gusto mong sabihin sa
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church nayun. Doon ko nakilala yung sarili ko na ganito pala ako, na kahit ganito ako
pero kailangan ko paring makipag-interact sa mga tao, kailangan mo parin na makipag-
usap na makipag salamuha sa kanila na sundan o makibahagi sa mga ginagawa nila.
Kaya isa san pinakamasaya yon dahil nakakilala ka ng mga tunay na kaibigan na
iingatan ka syempre may mga pagkakataong din na minsan yung ugali nila ganun. Pero
iintindihin ko nalang din yun. Pero minsan nakakadala rin siya sa pagiging mababa sa
sarili mo low self-esteeem mo, pagiging low self-esteem sa sarili. Minsan kasi yung
attitude nakakapagpababa, sinasabihan ka ng panget na bagay bababa yung
pakiramdam mo. Pero madalas naman na puro positive naman yung sinasabi nila.
Interviewee: Nakakaapekto yung low self-esteem sa studies kasi sa pag-aaral mo.
Since nakakapang baba yun di muna, parang nahihirapan kanang gawin sa mga
pinapagawa sa schools. Sa mga peformance ganon parang hindi mo na talaga siya
kayang gawin. Hmmp nakakaapekto talaga siya kasi yung mga times nga na minsan
hindi ko na kaya, yung may mga ganitong pinapagawa hindi ko na kaya nahihirapan
ako, hindi ko alam kung pano ko gagawin. Ganun naging bad effects din yun. Ayun
naging bad effects sakin kasi puro nalang kasi naiisip ko na ganito pala, wala akong ano
na hindi ko pala kaya, puro negative nalang talaga nasa utak ko. Tapos nahahandle ko
naman siya paminsan minsan pinipilit ko talaga sa sarili kong sabihin kong ganito na
sana na lagi nalang sa isip ko is positive. Na pilit akong nagpapatatag na sana magawa
ko to ganun na kaya ko to. Lagi akong nagsasabi sa sarili ko na kaya ko to, kakayanin
sana mapagtagumpayan. Maging positive talaga palagi.
Interviewee: Meron akong pinagsisisihan kasi may mga times na hindi ako
sumasagot. Diba yung mga performance ko na iniiwasan ko pinagsisihan ko kasi bakit
hindi ko yun ginawa bakit pinanghinaan ako ng loob, bakit ganun yung syempre dapat
gawin ko pero hindi ko talaga siya nagagawa. Nagsisi ako doon kasi nga sobrang baba
ko sa sarili di ko yun nagagawa, bakit hindi ko to nagagawa, bakit ganun. Bakit hindi ko
muna subukan mga ganun.
you?
Interviewee: Sa mga katulad ko na low self-esteem. Wag tayong subukin na hanapin
yung lahat ng nangyayari sa atin, na isipin lagi natin na ganito na kaya natin na maging
positive lagi tayo sa buhay kasi hmmp. Kung papairalin lang natin yung low self-esteem
sa sarili natin hindi talaga siya mawawala na lagi talaga siyang uudlukin ka na ganito
ganyan. Yung nararamdaman mo dapat na ganyan pero dapat lagi nating sasabihinsa
utak natin na kakayanin mo, na hindi ka ano na kaya mo na. Positive ako sa sarili ko na
kakayanin ko lahat kasi may kasama naman tayong Diyos na gumagabay sa atin na di
tayo pababayaran yun lang yung tatandaan natin. Kasi Kung lagi mong iisipin mahina
ka, na hindi mo kaya syempre yun lang yung lagi mong maiisip. Hindi mo talaga
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magagawa lahat ng bagay kaya sana harapin lang natin yan lahat ng kung ano man
yung ipagawa sa atin. Yung kung ano man yung lahat ng makakaharap na mga
problems or ano pamang pagsubok yan, syempre kailangan nating harapin yun lalo na
dito sa school marami talagang ginagawa pero alam mo naman sa sarili mo na kaya
mo. Na kaya mo yun na may kasama ka lagi na iingatan kabsa lahat sa mga gawain
nayan. Na mapagtatagumpayan mo talaga yan yung lang.

Interviewee: Ako po si Mamamo from STEM 11-Lakandula, ako ay 16 years old, ano…
dalawa lang kami. Ang kapatid ko ay babae, siya ay 15 years old. Nagaaral ako sa ano
Mystical Rose School of Caloocan. Ano OFW yung dalawa kong parents eh. Dalawa lang
kami ng kapatid ko sa bahay.
esteem?
Interviewee: Ano… pinakauna ano yung takot majudge parang ganon, takot
mahusgahan kasi, kumbaga ano pag nagpakitang gilas ka sasabihin nila bida-bida yun
yung kinakatakutan ko talaga. Hindi naman sa ayaw ko mareject parang maano lang
madiscriminate ganon, kumbaga ganon.
Interviewee: Ano… after class pupunta kami sa bahay ng isa naming kaibigan tapos
kumakain kami dun, biro-biruan ganon, picture picture ganon, mga ganon ba.
Interviewee: Ako napapansin ko naman, pero ewan ko lang sa mga classmates ko,
pero… ako kasi okay naman ako sa kanila. Wala naman akong problema sa mga
classmates naming, yon. Mmm… merong mga classmate na ganon na napapansin ko na
nakaka… nakaka… ano ba to, pano ba… parang pagnakikita ko sila, sila yung nagiging
rason. Kung bakit nagiging ano ako ganon. Wala naman sa teachers.
in class?
Interviewee: Ano di naman kasi ako palaging nagrerecite kasi yun yung kahinaan ko,
mahina ako sa ano… Recitation lalo na kapag ano pag on-the-spot kasi parang ano
nacoconscious ako kung may masabing mali, baka tawanan ako ganon kasi takot nga
akong majudge.
students?
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Interviewee: Ano… parang hindi mo nasasabi ang gusto mong irecite kung halimbawa
gusto mong magrecite sa harap pero hindi mo masabi kasi takot ka sa mga sasabhin ng
iba, ng classmates mo.
Interviewee: Ano… yung halimbawa pag ano… gusto mong magrecite tapos mali pala
yung sinabi mo, mali pala yung sagot na nasa isip mo, parang ano… parang magiging
thankful ka na hindi mo nasabi yon kasi ano kung masabi mo yon tatawanan ka talaga
nila parang ganon. Halimbawa sabi ng teacher kung ano sagot sa number tapos may
sagot ka sa isang tanong tapos diba low self-esteem ka di mo masasabi yung sasabihin
mo tapos yung nalaman mo yung sagot na mali nasa isip mo magiging thankful ka na di
mo sinabi yon kasi ano atleast nakaiwas ka kasi ano alam mo pag mali sagot mo
kumbaga tatawanan ka kaagad ganon.
Interviewee: Oo naman, kase ano diba sabi nila ano… part ng ano… grading yung
ano… recitation kapag syempre, kapag mababa yung low self-esteem mo di ka
makakarecite ng ano… ng maayos sa harap syempre gegradan ka ng mababa ng
teachers sa ganon. Ano… bumabawi nalang ako sa performance task atsaka sa mga
quizzes. Oo ayun kasi wala talaga sa oral.
Interviewee: Oum… madami, yun nga yung di mo naipapabahagi yung ano… yung
gusto mong sabihin ano… kapag ano… kunwari katulad sa open forum namin ano di
ako kakapagsabi ng saloobin ko kasi ano nga yun nga. Oo.
you?
Interviewee: Ahh… wala akong mabigay na advice kasi kung ako nga sa sarili ko di ko
mabigyan ng advice sarili ko para di maging low self-esteem pero ayun its up to them
parin naman kung ano, kung pangungunahan sila ng takot o ano.. lalabanan nila yun.
Ano ahh…wag lang panghihinaan ng loob pag may gustong sabihin kasi lahat naman ng
tao nagkakamali yung lang, Oo wala namang mawawala kung susubukan.

Interviewee: Minsan tingin ko sa sarili ko failure minsan disappo...disappointment puro
ganon lang. My name is Ms. Portly I am 16 years old Ang birthday ko is May 29, 2002. I
Live at camarin caloocan Home Owner's association, Repar street. Then ano eh apat
kaming magkakapatid tapos pangatlo ako tsaka nag-iisang babae lang. Oo kase ano nag-
iisang babae lang ako tapos yung mga kapatid ko ano sila puro lalake tapos hindi naman
ano... matatalino naman sila pero di' sila ganong achiever katulad ko kasing nung
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highschool ako lagi talaga ako nakakpasok sa top lagi ako nag kakaroon ng achievements
tapos ngayon lang siya nawala.
esteem?
Interviewee: Siguro sa ano kase ano kinakabahan ako syempre kase tsaka ano
mahiyain kase ako di ako sanay magsalita sa ano sa harap ng maraming tao kaya pag
ano pinakaayaw ko talaga is yung reporting kase lalo na pag nakatingin sila sakin nakaka
intimidate yung ganon. Mahiyain lang talaga ako lalo na di ako sanay magsalita sa mga
taong di ko pa gaanong close o di ko gaanong nakakausap. Marami kase akong kaibigan
eh kase...hindi nung syempre diba natural lang naman na magkaroon ka ng kaibigan
kada grade kada grade mo tapos ako nagkakaroon ako.
Interviewee: Pero etong grade 10 lang ako nagkaroon ng mga ano ay, ay nung grade
9 lang ako nagkaroon ng mga kabigan na ano na pang matagalan na hanggang ngayon
kaibigan ko padin ano ma ano sila mababait tapos napaka cheerful napaka supportive
nila para... ano tawag dito aanong wait lang suportahan ka nila sa ano sa lahat ng
bagay tapos pag nadodown ka andyan sila para tulungan ka di' ka nila iiwanan kahit
anong mangyare ano tapos tini... tinitreat ko naman sila ng maayos yung deserve
naman nila kahit minsan kahit pinapakitaan nila ko ng ano ugali na parang hindi parang
diiii deserve na i-respect syempre kapag kaibigan mo sila maano... mamahalin mo padin
sila despite ng ano nila yung perfection kahit na ano yung itrato nila sayo.
Tapos yung mga... yung mga ano bagay lang na ginagawa namin usually before class
kumakain lang kame sa ano sa labas ganon or ano pinaka bonding nalang namin siguro
pag ano eh pag uwian ganoon magdadaldalan lang kame bago...actually ano ang uwian
lang namin nung grade 10 is ano 12 nakakauwi nakame alauna... alasdos kase
magdadaldalan kame ng ilang oras kakain ganon.
Actually lumala siya. Nung grade 10 sobrang... di naman sa sobra pero may confidence
parin talaga ako sa sarili ko kase yung mga nakasorround sakin nun ano sila tawag dito
chinicheer-up nila ko pag ano pag nag-oopen up ako sa kanila about sa nararamdaman
ko parang ngayon kase ano yuuung YUNG lalo na nung unang grading yung mga taong
naka surround sakin imbis na ih ano nila ako icheer up nila ako pag nadodown ako ano
parang lalo nila ako dinadown lalo na sa salita syempre yung confidence na meron na
nga lang ako konteng konte lalong nawala so wala na talaga akong self-esteem. Hindi
lang sa akademiks pati sa physical appearance. So sobrang down na down na ako.
Interviewee: Sa mga klasmeyt ko ano kase eh pag 'di ko naman sila lagi... kahit araw-
araw ko silang nakikita or nakakausap hindi naman pag ano hindi ko naman sila katabe
'di ko naman sila totally nagiging close parang ano lang... parang close lang kame pag
magkagroup kame during activities kase ano eh hindi naman...alam mo yung feeling na
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ano kahit na kinakausap ka feeling mo 'di ka padin kasale parang di ka padin belong
sakanila yung ganoon. So hurt.
Tapos sa mga teacher wala ano lang teacher lang ganon teacher studyante wala
naman akong pakealam sa relationship na meron dito. Di kase ako pala recite kahit alam
ko yung sagot kase nga ano ako low self-esteem nga ako natatakot akong mapagtawanan
kapag nagkakamali ako kase ano ko yun eh weakness ko yun. Yung pagtawan sa bagay
na ano pagkakamali mo kahit 'di mo naman sinasadya.
in class?
Interviewee: Di ako active kase nakaturn off chat ako eh. Hindi I mean hindi di nga ko
pala recite diba kahit alam ko yung sagot di ako nag ano di ako pala... ano lang pag ano
kunwari may chips ayun nag tatry ako sumagot pero ano di talaga ako ano actually active
sa ano sa recitation focus lang ako. Pag tinawag ako tapos alam ko yung sagot ayun
sasagot ako pero pag di naman ako tinatawag tapos kahit alam ko yung sagot 'di ako
nagsasalita.
students?
Interviewee: Siguro yung pinaka worst yung ano yung hindi mo na meexpress yung
sarili mo sa ibang tao kahit na ano feeling mo may mga...naiiyak ako kase naman eh
ayokong tinatanong yan...ayokong tinatanong yan eh naiyak ako okay lang ako. Medyo
ano lang personal siguro yung pinaka worst yung ano yung hindi mo na meexpress
yung sarili mo sa ibang tao kahit na ano kahit na alam mo na may mga taong handang
makinig sayo parang nahihirapan kana iexpress kase ano kase alam mo sa sarili mo na
parang kahit naman sabihin mo parang wala namang magbabago. Kase katulad nalang
sa ano yung confidence sa sarili parang kumbaga ano yung dahil sa ano pakikitungo sa
sinasabe ng ibang tao sayo pagdating sa physical appearance parang syempre diba
napakalakas ng impact ng sinasabe ng ibang tao para sayo. Kaya kapag sinabe nilang
panget ka mataba ka ganyan syempre ikaw sa sarili mo kapag alam mo namang totoo
yung nakikita nila syempre paniniwalaan mo diba siguro yun yung pinaka worst.
Interviewee: Siguro yung pinaka masaya bilang low self esteem is yung may mga
iilang tao na andyan para i lift up ka pag ano nararamdaman nila na ano na down ka or
wala kanang tiwala sa sarili mo yung parang may mga kaibigan ka na andiyan para ano
mag advice sayo na ano magtiwala ka sa sarili mo na ano na mahalin mo yung kung
ano ka. Tsaka wag mong pakinggan yung sasabihin ng ibang tayo may mga kaibigan
kase ako na ano... Iilan lang sila siguro dalawa o isa pero ano napaka...sobrang
treasure sila sa buhay ko kase ano sila yung mga taon maniniwala ka na ano yung
sasamahan ka through ups and down.
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Interviewee: Meron katulad nalang nung ano isa na sa mga ano yung effects yung
pagakakaroon ng ano low scores sa mga exam tapos mababang grade gano'n. Kahit
hindi na ano lang kahit medyo matagal na s'ya siguro nung mga elementary pero ano
sobrang laking epekto no'n kasi sa grades mo kasi nga diba nahihirapan kang mag
express sa ibang tao.
'Tas kung pa'no ko siya hinahandle siguro ano, hindi naman sig-siguro ano hindi siguro
kasi talagang ginagawa ko siya pag nararamdaman ko na parang nagkaka- parang
nawawalan na ko ng tiwala sa sarili ko parang ano nag o-open up nalang ako ano sa
mama ko kasi sya yung ano mas nakakaintindi sakin, sa lahat ng bagay mag kukwento
nalang ako kahit na umiiyak na ko sa harapan n'ya, kahit na siya umiiyak na din
syempre ayaw nya kong nakikitang umiiyak pero at least na o-open ko yung sarili ko
tawag don? Na aano ko na o-op nasasabi sasabi ko siya kahit sa isang tao lang at least
alam kong may nakakaintindi sa akin, may nakakaalam ng nararamdaman ko.
Interviewee: Marami. maraming beses kasi ano pag nararamdaman ko yung ano low
self-steem nagkakaroon yon ng malaking epekto sa performance ko sa school, sa
grade. Syempre ano minsan iniisip ko na ano sana hindi ko nalang nararanasan yung
ano low self-steem para madali lang saking mag express ng nararamdaman sa ibang
tao tsaka 'di ako nahihirapanag mag salita sa harap ng marami yun lang thank you.
you?
Interviewee: Siguro ano, hindi-hindi ko alam kung epektib pero eto kasi yung
ginagawa ko. Yung mag-mag open ka sa tao na alam mo na makakaintindi sayo kahit
hindi sila dalawa or madami kahit nag iisang tao basta alam mo na mapagkakatiwalaan
tapos alam mo na maiintindihan ka mag open ka lang at least alam mong may-may
isang taong nakakaalam ng nararamdaman mo tsaka be yourself tapos ano mag tiwala
ka din sa sarili mo tsaka sa kakayahan mo kasi hindi- totoo naman na hindi lahat ng
bagay kaya mong gawin may mga bagay na kayang gawing ng ibang tao tapos kaya
mo syempre madami naman tayon dif- marami tayong differences diba, marami tayong
kakaiba sa kakayahan pero yung kaka- yung kakayahan na kaya mo may mga ibang tao
na hindi yon nagagawa tapos ikaw kaya mo iyong gawin tingin ko yun yong masasabi
ko sa kanya.

Interviewee: Tawagin niyo nalang akong Mama 16 years old, dalawa kaming
magkapatid at ako yung panganay, mahilig akong kumanta at magbasa, hindi ako sanay
na nag o-open sa iba.
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Interviewee: Siguro, ako kasi yung tao na takot majudge at napakasensitive sa

simpleng bagay lang eh nasasaktan at naiiyak agad pero patago at ayoko sa lahat yung
pag may nangyaring di maganda eh ako yung sinisisi at ayoko sa lahat na may taong
galit sakin kaya iniiwasan kong gumawa ng kung ano anong bagay na magiging reason
para majudge o magalit sila sakin.
Interviewee: Karamihan sa mga kaibigan ko eh mga suwail like umiinom,
naninigarilyo pero di naman ako naging katulad nil na mabisyo kapag magkakasama
kami puro kalokohan lang ginagawa like mangtitrip ng mga dumadaan or di kaya eh
gumala at puro kwentuhan.
Interviewee: Sa classmates ko hindi halata na ilang ako sa kanila pero ang totoo
sobrang ilang nako, lalo na’t may ugali sa kanila na di nila alam na nakakasakit sila, di
sila aware sa mga nangyayare kung may kapalagayan man ako ng loob dadalawa lang,
ayoko kase sa plastic na mga tao, sa teacher naman comportable sila kasama.
in class?
Interviewee: Di talaga ako pala recite, tumatayo lang ako kapag tinawag ako o di kaya
close na close ko yung teacher ko nakikinig ako sa teacher kapag napansin kong magaling
magturo and kapag gumagawa ng paraan para di makatulog pag nagdidiscuss na.
students?
Interviewee: Siguro ito yung pag nagkamali ka ng isinagot sa mga tanong ng guro eh
pagtatawanan ka ng mga kaklase mo at a-asarin ka hanggang pag-uwi hanggang
kinabukasan, like what I said im very sensitive person kaya ayoko ng attention.
Interviewee: Kapag may mga groupings tapos yung kagrupo ko eh nangunguna at
natapos ng dapat gawin yun na yung pinakamasaya para sakin.
Interviewee: Siguro minsan na-apektuhan ako kase syempre nga kung takot ka
magkamali malamang mahihiya kang magrecite, sinusure ko na tama ang isasagot ko.
Interviewee: Siguro, mula naman kase minsan rito pa yung mga nag e-encourage na
mag-aral ng mabuti.
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you?
Interviewee: Ang masasabi ko lang eh wag masyadong magpapaapekto sa mga
problema mo at ih e-encourage mo yung sarili mo at imbes na idown ito.

Interviewee: Tungkol sa aking sarili, pwede niyo akong tawaging Peng at ako’y 17 years
old. STEM-Lakandula at may allowance ako once a week.
esteem?
Interviewee: Oo naman siguro yung mga rason kung bakit naging low self-esteem ako
kase minsan feeling ko wala akong kwenta sa bahay at pati na rin sa circle of friends.
Interviewee: In terms of friends, kasama ko sila sa mabuti o hindi, madalas
nagkwekwentuhan kami sa buhay namin at nakikisalamuha sa ibang tao.
Interviewee: Pagdating naman sa social relationship ko sa kaklase ko. Mas prefer kong
maging kung ano talaga ako at in terms naman sa social relationship ko sa mga teachers
hindi ako pabor sa pakikipagsocialize kasi wala ako sa lebel na prefer nila.
in class?
Interviewee: Sa class discussion, laging tinetake ko yun ng dahan-dahan at tahimik na
sumang-ayon kung ano yung tinatalakay, nagtataas lang ako ng kamay kapag alam ko
yung sagot.
students?
Interviewee: Yung pinaka worst na naranasan ko bilang lows self-esteem, na yung
masira yung sarili at yung pinakamalala is yung pagiging low self-esteem, hindi ko kaya
imanage yung feelings ko.
Interviewee: Yung happiest experience yung na o-overcome ko minsan yung
nararamdaman ko tuwing humaharap ako sa maraming estudyante.
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Interviewee: Kung may mga bad effects, madalas kong ginagawa yung i-overcome ko
yung tao.
Interviewee: Oo may mga pinagsisihan din ako kasi hindi ko kayang imanage yung
emosyon ko.
you?
Interviewee: Advice ko lang basta hayaan lang nilang ifeel na importante sila sa ibang
tao o sa ibang bagay.

Interviewee: Ako si Jie. 16years old gusto ko mag-isa lalo na pag nasa bahay lang.
esteem?
Interviewee: Siguro yung mga rason una yung lack of friends, walang nagtotolerate
sakin gawin yung isang bagay na gusto kong gawin, takot majudge.
Interviewee: May classmates ako pero di ko sila kino-consider as friends kasi in the
end of the day uuwi akong nag-iisa at wala silang pake sa mental illness ko.
Interviewee: Meron akong masayahing mga kaklase pero hindi enough yun, kasi
karamihan sa kanila hindi ako gusto as their class president. Sa teachers naman normal
lang kung ano yung nakasayan ko na trato saken ng teachers ko dati ganun din ngayon.
in class?
Interviewee: Di na’ko nakikisali sa mga recitations if my group activity naman its either
ako yung leader tas ako din gagawa sa lahat o wala akong pake sa activity.
students?
Interviewee: Nung grade 9 ako nagrecite ako pero yung teacher naming minura lang
ako tas pinalabas ng room.
Interviewee: Wala akong happiest experience bilang low self-esteem.
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studies? If there’s any bad effect, how did you handle it?
Interviewee: Oo, wala akong confidence sa sarili kaya di nako nakakasabay sa
discussions. Di ko na handle yung bad effects hinayaan ko nalang kasi lilipas din
naman.
Interviewee: Madami, namiss ko yung mga opportunity na ma showcase ko talent ko.
May nagyaya sakin dati na sumali sa banda nila pero di ako sumali kasi baka
pagtawanan lang performance ko.
you?
Interviewee: Advice ko lang humanap kayo ng friends through your worst times hindi
yung anjan lang kapag nasa best part ka ng buhay mo.
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JASON ROSCO ALBINO
2495 Waling-Waling St., Area C, Camarin Caloocan City

Contact No: 0916-496-1395
Email Address: [email protected]
LIFE OBJECTIVES:
 To finish my studies and have descent and stable job.

 To give back all the sacrifices that my parents did.
 To travel and explore the beauty of the Earth.
QUALIFICATIONS:
 Willing to learn new things
 Open for recommendations.
 Patience and Perseverance must always acquire.
 Always love what you are doing.
PERSONAL INFORMATION:
Date of Birth: May 27, 2002
Place of Birth: Northern Samar
Age: 16
Sex: Male
Civil Status: Single
Height: 5”9’
Weight: 54
Religion: Roman Catholic
Language/Dialect Spoken: Tagalog/ English
Mother’s Name: Delia R. Albino
Occupation: House Wife
Father’s Name: Gerry B. Albino
Occupation: Mechanic
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SPECIAL SKILLS:
 Computer literacy
-Microsoft Word
-PowerPoint Presentations
-Video/Photo Editing
EDUCATIONAL ATTAINMENT:
SECONDARY LEVEL
MYSTICAL ROSE SCHOOL OF CALOOCAN, INC.

#15 Ilang-Ilang St, Metrocor Homes, Almar Subd, Camarin, Brgy. 177, Caloocan City
2018-Present
CAMARIN HIGH SCHOOL
Cadena de Amor 81 B., Camarin, Caloocan City
2014-2018
ELEMENTARY LEVEL
CAMARIN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL

Barangay 175 Area A, Camarin, Caloocan City
2008-2014
CHARACTER REFERENCE:
JAN MCLEAN TAN

Teacher
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PRINCESS STEFFANIE TIMBAL ARBASTO
Ph2 Pkg1 Blk13 Lot2 Bagong Silang, Caloocan City

Contact No: 0936-646-8011
LIFE OBJECTIVES:
 To finish my studies.
 To achieve my goals in life.
QUALIFICATIONS:
 Willing to learn new things
 Explore; and
 Discover new things.
Date of Birth: January 2, 2001

Place of Birth: 20 Luna ST. New Haven Village,
Novaliches, Quezon City
Age: 17
Sex: Female
Height: 5”1’
Weight: 42
Mother’s Name: Chona Paular Timbal
Occupation: Entrepreneur
Father’s Name: Nilo Labadlabad Arbasto
Occupation: Deceased
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SECONDARY LEVEL

2018-Present
BENIGNO AQUINO JR. HIGH SCHOOL
Ph1. Pkg2. Bagong Silang, Caloocan City
2014-2018
ELEMENTARY LEVEL
SILANGAN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL

P3 Pkg3 B65 L2, Bagong Silang, Caloocan City, Metro Manila
2010-2014
URDUJA ELEMENTARY SCHOOL
Sikatuna Ave, Caloocan City North, Metro Manila
2008-2010
JAN MCLEAN TAN

Teacher
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JERIC LAURETA BARCENAS
675 Diamond St. Area. A Camarin Caloocan City

Contact No: 0919-495-8688
LIFE OBJECTIVES:
 To help my parents in the future.

 To finish my studies and achieve my goals in life.
QUALIFICATIONS:
 Willing to learn new things.
 Discover new things
Date of Birth: September 25, 2001
Place of Birth: San Juan Roro Sorsogon, Sorsogon City
Age: 17
Sex: Male
Height: 5”4’
Weight: 42
Language/Dialect Spoken: Tagalog, English
Mother’s Name: Angelina Aringo Laureta
Father’s Name: Ricky Villanueva Barcenas
Occupation: Security Guard
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SPECIAL SKILLS:
 Fast Cuber
SECONDARY LEVEL

2014-Present
ELEMENTARY LEVEL
CAMARIN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL

Diamond St Area A, Camarin North Caloocan City
2008-2013
2013-2014
JAN MCLEAN TAN

Teacher
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KEITHLY FELICIANO DE CHAVEZ
Blk 10 Lot 16 Gucci St. Congressional model 2

Bagumbong Caloocan City
Contact No: 0906-543-6418
LIFE OBJECTIVES:
 To finish my studies.
 To make my family proud
 Be known for having a successful career
QUALIFICATIONS:
 Willing to learn new things and be trained.

 Can easily follow the instructions.
 Responsible for assigned work and can finish the work on time.
 Obey rules and regulations.
Date of Birth: July 24, 2002
Place of Birth: Quezon City
Age: 16
Sex: Female
Height: 5”
Weight: 47
Mother’s Name: Mary Grace Feliciano
Occupation: Factory Worker
Father’s Name: Omar De Chavez
Occupation: N/A
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SPECIAL SKILLS:
 Able to multitask.
 Good at verbal and written communication.
 Good in arts.
SECONDARY LEVEL

2018-Present
SAMPAGUITA HIGH SCHOOL
#11 Paraiso St. Sampaguita Subd. Camarin Caloocan City
2014-2018
ELEMENTARY LEVEL
CONGRESS ELEMENTARY SCHOOL

Brgy. 173, Congressional Caloocan City
2010-2014
GSIS VILLAGE ELEMENTARY SCHOOL
Premium St., Brgy. Sangandaan, Quezon City
2007-2010
JAN MCLEAN TAN

Teacher
218
REINE GABRIELLE DELA CRUZ
Blk 24 Lot 11 North Matrix Ville Phase 3

Camarin Caloocan City
Contact No: 0927-012-2820
LIFE OBJECTIVES:
 To finish my studies and to be a successful Architect.

 To make my family proud.
QUALIFICATIONS:
 Ability to participate in sports.
 Ability to work in a team and speak in front of a large group.
Date of Birth: December 11, 2001

Place of Birth: Quezon City
Age: 17
Sex: Female
Civil Status: In a relationship
Height: 5”1’
Weight: 45
Religion: Catholic
Mother’s Name: Rowena Dela Cruz
Occupation: Chef
Father’s Name: Roman Dela Cruz
219
SPECIAL SKILLS:
 Ability to multi-task.
 Able to play guitar.
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2018-Present
CALOOCAN CITY BUSINESS HIGH SCHOOL
Urduja Village Sikatuna Crossing Camarin Caloocan
2016 - 2017
MOTHER OF DIVINE GRACE ACADEMY
Amparo Subd. Camarin Caloocan
2012 - 2016
ELEMENTARY LEVEL
QUEEN HELEN LEARNING SCHOOL INC.

Almar Subd. Camarin Caloocan
2005 - 2012
CHARACTETER REFERENCE:
JAN MCLEAN TAN

Teacher
220
MARY JOY YMATA GOYON
1758 Quisumbing st. Area D Camarin Caloocan City

Contact No: 0920-127-1298
LIFE OBJECTIVES:
 To finish my study.
 To give my parents what they need.
 Let my parents be proud of me.
QUALIFICATIONS:
 Willing to accept changes.
August 4, 2002
Date of Birth:
Caloocan
Place of Birth:
16
Age:
Female
Sex:
Single
Civil Status:
Height: 5”35’
Weight: 69
Religion: Catholic
Language/Dialect Spoken: Tagalog/English
Mother’s Name: Jeanette Ymata Goyon
Occupation: Government Employee
Father’s Name: Edgar Salazar Goyon
Occupation: Company Driver
221
SPECIAL SKILLS:
 Playing Guitar.
 Singing.
SECONDARY LEVEL

2018-Present
CAMARIN HIGH SCHOOL
Cadena de Amor Brgy. 174 Camarin Caloocan city
2014-2018
ELEMENTARY LEVEL
CAMARIN D ELEMENTARY SCHOOL

Area D, Camarin Brgy. 178 Caloocan City
2008-2014
CHARACTETER REFERENCE:
JAN MCLEAN TAN

Teacher
222
EDRIE CABOTEJA IGNACIO
Blk 5 Lot 6 Estrealla Homes Almar subd. Camarin Cal. City

Contact No: 0977-420-5713
LIFE OBJECTIVES:
 To be a civil engineer.
 To be a successful person.
 To travel around the world.
QUALIFICATIONS:

 Adaptability.
 Good Decision Making skills.
 Ability to Work under Pressure.
 Good with Communicating.
Date of Birth: October 9, 2001

Place of Birth: Caloocan
Age: 17
Sex: Male
Height: 5”6’
Weight: 51
Mother’s Name: Mellie Caboteja Ignacio
Occupation: Overseas Filipino Worker
Father’s Name: Edgar Ranara Ignacio
223
SPECIAL SKILLS:
 Ability to work Under Pressure.
SECONDARY LEVEL

2014-Present
ELEMENTARY LEVEL
OUR LADY OF LOURDES CATHOLIC SCHOOL

1117 Petunia, cor Chrysanthemum St, Camarin, Caloocan, Metro Manila
2008-2011
CAMARIN ELEMENTARY SCHOOL II
Atis St. Caloocan, Metro Manila
2011-2014
JAN MCLEAN TAN

Teacher
224
SAMIRA SNOE GARGANERA PAPA
1758 Waling-Waling St. Area. A Camarin Caloocan City

Contact No: 0945-586-2518
LIFE OBJECTIVES:

 To become a licensed professional architect.
 To travel the iconic places together with my family and friends.
 To promote art as a way to express an individual’s thoughts that cannot be explain through
words.
 To make people appreciate art and make it understandable.
QUALIFICATIONS:
 Ability to work under pressure.
 Can adapt to new surroundings.
Date of Birth: April 3, 2001

Place of Birth: Caloocan
Age: 17
Sex: Female
Height: 4”10’
Weight: 51
Religion: Baptist
Mother’s Name: Emelita Garganera Papa
Father’s Name: Fernando Aromin Papa
Occupation: Overseas Filipino Work
225
SPECIAL SKILLS:
 Ability to work Under Pressure.

 Computer Literate
-MS Word
-Excel
-Power point
-Video Presentation
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2014-Present
ELEMENTARY LEVEL

2014-Present
JAN MCLEAN TAN

Teacher

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LIVED EXPERIENCES OF SELECTED GRADE 11 STEM STUDENTS

BEING LOW SELF-ESTEEM TOWARDS THEIR

This research entitled “LIVED EXPERIENCES OF SELECTED GRADE 11 STEM

STUDENTS BEING LOW SELF-ESTEEM TOWARDS THEIR ACADEMIC

PERFORMANCES” prepared and submitted by Group 3 STEM-LAKANDULA has been

the Practical Research 1 under JOEY B. MANALASTAS JR.

with a grade of 95.

that served as the life lessons for each one of us.

To Dr. Rolando M. Gregore, president of the school and Dr. Marcelina L.

and their constant guidance in leadership and success

Especially to our Research Teacher-Adviser, Mr. Joey Borlagdatan Manalastas

us to complete this study.

always say “you can do it. “

time and effort in answering the questions asked to them.

Title Page ……………………………………………………..……………………………………I

Approval Sheet …………………………………………………………………………………..II

Table of Contents …...............................................................................VI

1 PROBLEM AND ITS BACKGROUND

Statement of the problem...……………………………………………………...2

Scope and Delimination…………………………………………………….…...11

Locale of the study...………………………………………………………….....13

Significance of the Study…………………………………………..……………14

2 REVIEW OF RELATED LITERATURE AND STUDIES

Local literature ……………………………………………….…………………18

Foreign literature …………………………………………………….…………21

Foreign studies ………………………………………………………………...29

Paradigm of the study …………………………………………………………34

Relevance of the reviewed literature and studies to the present

3 METHODOLGY AND METHODS OF RESEARCH

Research Design ………………………………………………………………47

Selection of Co-Researchers/ Sampling Techniques………………………48

Research Instrumentation/ Data Collection…………….……………….…..49

Treatment of Data/Data Analysis………………………………………….….51

Validation of the Instrument ………………………………………….….……52

Research Roles and Biases…………………………………………………..52

4 PRESENTATION ANALYSIS AND ENTERPRETATION OF DATA

Co-Researcher A----Ms. Leilei………………………………………………..55

Co-Researcher B----Ms. Naji………………………………………………....59

Co-Researcher C----Mr. Potpot………………………………………………63

Co-Researcher D----Ms. Dyosa……………..………………………………66

Co-Researcher E----Ms. Buwan…………………...………………………..71

Co-Researcher F----Mr. Mamamo………………………..………………...81

Co-Researcher G----Ms. Portly…………………………………..………….84

Co-Researcher H----Ms. Mama………………………………………..……93

Co-researcher I----Ms. Peng………………………………………………...96

Researchers’ Experiences ....................…………………………………………..101

5 SUMMARY OF FINDINGS, SYMBOLIC REPRESENTATION,

Summary of Findings ……………..………………….……………………..123

1 Paradigm of the Study ……………………….…………………. 33

LIVED EXPERIENCES OF SELECTED GRADE 11 STEM STUDENTS

not competitive in terms of performing in class?

do what they say without question (Parera, 2016)

success further in life (Venzin, 2018).

and continue to aggressively appear full of self-esteem.

selected grade 11 STEM students being low self-esteem towards their

According to Creswell (2013), phenomenology is an approach to qualitative

fundamental goal of the approach is to arrive at a description of the nature of the

phenomenon. In addition, Creswell (2007) also stated that, a phenomenological study

a phenomenon”. Phenomenological study allows the researchers to delve into the

perceptions, perspectives, understandings, and feelings of those people who have