Journal Entry 10-22-2021 Raima M Cabaro
Journal Entry 10-22-2021 Raima M Cabaro
Journal Entry 10-22-2021 Raima M Cabaro
CABARO
JOURNAL ENTRY-October-22-2021
It's FREE DAY! We just took a break from class, which was a major deal for me
because it meant I would not have had to prepare for anything or read anything. I was
able to pay a visit to my mother's grave. I had planned to see her for how many weeks,
but I was unable to do so due to a lack of time and a bunch of obligations. I was finally
able to see my mother after more than two months. I've gathered the guts to visit her
grave. I'm still in agony, I'm still looking for her, I'm still hovering in space, and I'm still
praying it's all just a nightmare.
Seeing her grave brings back all of the pain I had been through since the
beginning. Things will never be the same again; losing my mother was my greatest
setback. I can't imagine how I'd be able to go on living if I had to cry a river every time I
remembered my mother's death. When she was gone, things were extremely terrible. I
felt that I had taken on all of the family's responsibilities.
Just as I was about to begin my readings for tomorrow's oral recitation, I
suddenly burst out crying all my frustrations. I couldn't bear the weight of the duties I'm
carrying right now. I couldn't manage well; I was always upset and blaming everyone
around me. I'm no longer capable of understanding myself.