Chapter Sampler: WALK ON EARTH A STRANGER by Rae Carson

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Dramatis Personae
In Dahlonega, Georgia The Wagon Train

The Westfalls From Missouri
Reuben “Lucky” Westfall, a gold prospector Frank Dilley, leader of twenty wagons of Missouri men
Elizabeth Westfall, his wife Jonas Waters, Frank Dilley’s foreman
Leah “Lee” Westfall, their fifteen-year-old daughter
Hiram Westfall, Reuben’s brother From Arkansas
Major Wally Craven, the wagon train guide

The McCauleys Josiah Bledsoe, a sheep farmer with ten wagons
Mr. McCauley, a gold prospector from Ireland Hampton, Mr. Bledsoe’s slave
Jefferson McCauley, his sixteen-year-old son
The Illinois College Men

The Smiths Jasper Clapp, studied medicine
Judge Smith, Lumpkin County judge and landowner Thomas Bigler, studied law
Mrs. Smith, his wife Henry Meek, studied literature
Annabelle Smith, their sixteen-year-old daughter
Jeannie Smith, their slave From Ottawa Valley
Charles Robichaud, a ranch hand

James “Free Jim” Boisclair, a storeowner Lucie Robichaud, his wife
Jeremy and Samuel, their five-year-old twin sons

Abel Topper, unemployed mine foreman
From Kentucky
To Independence , M issouri Reverend Ernest Lowrey, a Presbyterian pastor
The Brothers Mary Lowrey, his wife
Zeke Tackett
Emmett Tackett From Ohio

Ronnie Tackett Herman Hoffman, a farmer from Germany
Helma Hoffman, his wife

The Flatboat Crew Therese, their fifteen-year-old daughter
Captain Rodney Chisholm Martin, their thirteen-year-old son
Fiddle Joe Luther, their twelve-year-old son
Red Jack Otto, their nine-year-old son
Carl, their eight-year-old son

The Joyners Doreen, their five-year-old daughter
Andrew Joyner, a gentleman
Rebekah “Becky” Joyner, his wife
Olive Joyner, their six-year-old daughter
Andrew Joyner Jr., their four-year-old son
Matilda “Aunt Tildy” Dudley, their cook

January 1849

Chapter One
I hear the deer before I see him, though he makes less noise
than a squirrel—the gentle crunch of snow, a snapping twig,
the soft whuff as he roots around for dead grass. I can hardly
believe my luck.
As quietly as falling snow, I raise the butt of my daddy’s
Hawken rifle to my shoulder and peer down the muzzle. A
crisscross of branches narrows my view. The deer must be
allowed to wander into my sights, but that’s all right. I am
patient. I am a ghost.
I’ve tucked myself into a deadfall, the result of an ancient,
dying oak looming above me. Snow fills the cracks between
branches, creating a barrier to the wind. I can barely see out,
but I’m almost warm. The snow around me clinks and tinkles
like bells, melting in the early morning warm snap. The hem
of my skirt and the petticoats underneath are ragged and
soaked. If the girls at school saw me now, I’d hear no end of
it, but it doesn’t matter. We have to eat.
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Which means I have to make this shot. If only I could

conjure up fresh game whenever we needed. Now that would
be a useful magic.
Finally, a deep, tawny chest and a white throat slide into
view. He bends a black nose to the ground, and I glimpse
tall, curving antlers—at least three points on each side. His
neck is long and elegant, feathered with winter fur. He’s
so close I can almost see the pulse at his neck. A beautiful
animal.
I pull on the rear trigger—soft, steady pressure, just like
Daddy taught me. The click as it sets is barely audible, but
the buck’s head shoots up. I refuse to breathe.
I am patient. I am a ghost.
He takes a single dancing step, nose twitching. But I’m
downwind, and after a moment he returns to grazing. I shift
my finger to the hair trigger. The deadfall blocks my view of
his skull, so I aim for the lungs.
It will only take the slightest pressure now, the effort of an
exhale.
Church bells clang. The buck startles a split second before
my gun cracks the air. He crumples, flails in the snow,
scrambles to his feet, and darts away, tail sprung high.
“Blast!”
I rip off the ramrod from the barrel as I plunge through
the windfall. In good conditions, I can load and shoot again
in less than half a minute. Though my fingers are chilled, I
might still bag him if I’m quick.
Of course, I wouldn’t need to reload if someone was hunting
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with me, ready with a second shot. Everything’s harder when

you do it alone.
I’m reaching into my satchel for my powder horn when
crimson catches my eye. Bright red, sinking wet and warm
into the snow. He left a puddle where he fell, and a trail of
lighter drops to show me the way. I flanked him good.
I follow at a brisk walk, loading as I go—first gunpowder,
then a ball nestled in paper wadding, all shoved down the
barrel with my ramrod. I won’t waste another shot on the
deer, but there’s a big catamount been prowling these hills.
In a winter this mild, the scent of fresh blood might even
draw a bear. It’s not quite the hungering time—when a
critter that’s naught but fur and fangs and ribs will attack a
near-grown girl—but I’ll take no chances.
The trail veers sharply to the right. I pass a bloody
depression in the snow where the deer’s legs must have
buckled again. I stop to load the cap and rotate the hammer
carefully into place, then I lift my skirt and petticoats with
my free hand and run—smooth as I can so as not to jostle
my gun. I have to reach that deer before anything else does.
Never bring home meat that’s already been et on, Daddy always
says.
The blood trail plunges down a steep bank thick with
young birches. Crimson smears darken their white trunks.
My wounded deer is heading toward the McCauley claim,
where Jefferson lives with his good-for-nothing da. No
sense paying a visit after my hunt, because they’re certainly
not home. Jeff’s da attends church every single Sunday, no
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matter what, on the misguided notion that regular bench

sitting makes him decent.
The slope ends at a shallow but swift creek. The water’s
edge glitters with ice, but the creek’s center runs clear and
clean. My boots are well oiled. If I’m quick, I can cross
before the water seeps into my stockings. I hitch my skirt
and petticoats higher and plunge in.
Midway across, I freeze.
The gold sense sparks in the back of my throat, sharp and
hard. It creeps down my throat and into my chest, where it
diffuses into a steady buzz, like dancing locusts. My stomach
heaves once, but I swallow against the nausea. We don’t have
enough food in the cellar for me to go wasting a meal.
I force my belly to relax, to embrace the sensation. Best to
let it wash over me, through me. Allow it to settle in like an
old friend come to stay.
It’s only bad like this the first time I’m near something big.
A nugget, usually, but sometimes a large vein. From habit, I
close my eyes and focus hard, turning in place to find where
the sensation is strongest. If I hit it just right, it will be like a
string tugging my chest, like something sucking . . . There. I
open my eyes. Just across the creek, behind a young, winter-
stripped maple. The blood trail leads in the same direction.
All at once I’m shivering, my feet icy with cold. I splash
through the creek and scramble up the opposite bank, which
is slick with snowmelt. How long was I standing in the water?
It seemed like only moments. I wriggle my toes inside my
soaked stockings, hoping I haven’t ruined my boots. We
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can’t afford another pair right now. Good thing I wore my

old hunting skirt. The hem is already a disaster and won’t
suffer much from being dragged through the stream.
At the top of the bank, I check my rifle, and it seems
dry. At least I had sense enough to not let it dangle in the
water. As I step around the maple’s trunk, the gold sense
grows stronger, but I ignore it because the deer lies in a small
depression banked with bloody snow.
He pushes up with his forelegs, antlered head straining in
the opposite direction. I whip up my rifle just in case, but he
collapses back into the snow, his sides heaving.
I prop my gun against the tree and pull the knife from the
belt at my waist. “I’m so sorry,” I whisper, approaching cau-
tiously. Neck or kidney? He’ll fight death until the very last
moment. They always do. I know I would.
His antlers still pose too great a threat for me to slice his
jugular. He squirms uselessly as I near, head tossing. It needs
to be a quick thrust, aimed just right. I raise the knife.
My hand wavers. The gold sense is so strong now, its buzz-
ing so merciless that I feel it down to my toes. It’s almost
good, like being filled with sunshine. It means gold is some-
where within reach.
Deer first, gold later.
I plunge the knife into his left kidney. He squeals once,
then goes still. Hot blood pumps from the wound for mere
seconds before slowing to a trickle. It steams in the air, filling
my nose and mouth with bright tanginess. I’ll have to work
fast; if that catamount is anywhere near, she’ll be here soon.
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He’s too large for me to carry over my shoulders. I’ll have

to skin and butcher him and take only the best parts. The
great cat is welcome to the rest, with my blessing.
I place the point of my knife low on his soft white under-
belly. The gold sense explodes inside me, so much hotter
and brighter than the scent of fresh blood. I can’t help it;
I drop the knife and dig furiously at the snow—dig and dig
until I’ve reached a layer of autumn rot. Muddy detritus jams
under my fingernails, but still I dig until something glints at
me. Sunshine in the dirt. Warmth in winter.
The nugget unsticks from its muddy resting place without
much effort; this time last year I would have had to dig it
out of frozen ground. I scrape away mud with the edge of my
sleeve. It’s the size of a large, unshelled walnut and rounder
than most nuggets, save for a single odd bulge on one side.
Must have washed down the creek during last spring’s flood.
I gauge its heft in my palm, even as I let my gold sense do its
work. Close to ninety percent pure, if I don’t miss my guess.
Worth at least a hundred dollars. More than enough to buy
meat to last the winter.
I sit back on my heels, nugget clutched tight, staring at the
animal I just killed. I don’t even need it now. Waste not, want
not, Mama always says. And Lord knows Daddy could use a
fresh venison stew.
Today is my luckiest day in a long time. I shove the nugget
into the pocket of my skirt, pick up my skinning knife, and
get to work.
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The sun is high over the mountains when I finally haul my

venison up the stairs of the back porch. Everything I could
carry is wrapped in the deer’s own skin, tied with twine. My
shoulders ache—I carried it a mile or more—and though I
bundled it up tight as I could, my blouse and skirt are badly
stained.
“Mama!” I call out. “Could use a hand.”
She bangs out the doorway, a dishrag in her hands. A few
strands of hair have already escaped her shiny brown bun,
and the lines around her eyes have gone from laughing to
worried.
“Daddy’s not doing so good, is he?” I ask.
Her gaze drops to the bundle in my arms and to the rifle
balanced carefully across it. “Oh, bless your heart, Leah,” she
says. She shoves the dishrag into the pocket of her apron and
reaches out her arms. “Give it here. I’ll get a stew on while
you tend your gun and feed the chickens.”
As I hand it over, I can’t help blurting, “There’s more,
Mama. I had a find.”
She freezes, and I leap forward to catch the package of
meat before it slides out of her arms. Finally, she says, “Been
awhile. I thought maybe you’d outgrown it.”
“I reckon not,” I say, disappointed in her disappointment.
“I reckon not,” she agrees. “Well, take care of your busi-
ness, and we’ll discuss it with your daddy when you’re done.”
“Yes, Mama.”
She disappears into the kitchen. I hitch the Hawken over
my shoulder and head toward the henhouse. Just beyond it is
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a break in the trees. We keep the land clear here, so nothing

can sneak up on the chickens easily. It’s a good hundred-yard
stretch—all the way to the scar tree, a giant pine I use for
discharging my rifle. I whip the gun down and cradle the
butt to my shoulder. The wind is picking up from the north a
bit, so I aim a hair to the right. Best aim I ever saw from such a
wee gal, Jefferson’s da once told me, the only compliment I’ve
ever heard him give.
Rear trigger, soft breath, hair trigger, boom. Splinters fly
into the air as my shot hits its target. The chickens squawk a
bit but settle quickly. They’re used to me.
I lean the gun against the side of the henhouse. I’ll clean
her while I’m at the table talking with Mama and Daddy.
It will give me an excuse to avoid their worried gazes. “You
hungry?” I say, and I hear my chickens—who are not nearly
as stupid as most people think—barreling toward the door
for their breakfast.
I lift the bar and swing open the door, and they come pour-
ing out, squawking and pecking at the toes of my boots, as if
this will summon their breakfast even sooner. They forget all
about me the moment their feed is scattered on the ground.
Except for my favorite hen, Isabella, who flaps into my arms
when I crouch. I stroke her glossy black tail feathers while
she pecks at the seed in my hand. It hurts a little, but that’s
all right.
I have a strange life; I know it well. We have a big home-
stead and not enough working hands, so I’m the girl who
hunts and farms and pans for gold because her daddy never
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had sons. I’m forever weary, my hands roughed and cracked,

my skirts worn too thin too soon. The town girls poke fun
at me, calling me “Plain Lee” on account of my strong hands
and my strong jaw. I don’t mind so much because it’s better
than them knowing the real trickiness in my days—that I
find gold the way a water witch divines wells.
But there’s plenty I love about my life that makes it all just
fine: the sunrise on the snowy mountain slopes, a mama and
daddy who know my worth, that sweet tingle when a gold
nugget sits in the palm of my hand. And my chickens. I love
my loud, silly chickens.
Only four eggs today. I gather them quickly, brushing
straw from their still-warm shells and settling them gently
into my pockets. Then I grab my rifle and head inside to face
the aftermath of witching up another nugget.
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Chapter Two
Daddy always says I was born with a gold nugget in my left

hand and a pickax in my right. That’s why Mama had such
a hard time birthing me; she had to squeeze a lot more out
of her belly than just a bundle of baby girl. The first time
I heard it told, I gave my rag doll to Orpha the dog and
announced I would never have children of my own.
It didn’t take me long to figure it for a fancy lie, like the
one about St. Nicholas bringing presents on Christmas, or
how walking backward around the garden three times would
keep the aphids out of our squash. But that’s Daddy for you,
always telling tall tales.
I don’t mind. I love his stories, and his best ones are the
secret ones, the mostly true ones, spoken in whispers by the
warmth of the box stove, with no one to hear but me and
Mama. They’re always about gold. And they’re always about
me.
After shucking my boots and banging them against the
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porch rail to get off the mud, I walk inside and find Daddy
settled in his rocking chair, his big, stockinged feet stretched
as near to the box stove as he dares. He starts to greet me but
coughs instead, kerchief over his mouth. It rattles his whole
body, and I can practically hear his bones shake. He pulls
away the kerchief and crumples it in his fist to hide it. He
thinks I don’t know what he’s coughing up.
The bed quilt drapes across his shoulders, and a mug of
coffee steams on the tree-stump table beside him. The house
smells of burning pine and freshly sliced turnips.
“Mama said you found some gold today,” Daddy says calmly
as I set my boots next to the stove to dry.
“Yes, sir.” I head back to the table, where I reach into my
pocket for the eggs I gathered and set them beside Mama’s
stew pot.
He sips his coffee. Swallows. Sighs. “Did I ever tell you
about the Spanish Moss Nugget?” he asks. Then he doubles
over coughing, and I dare to hope it’s not so violent as it was
yesterday.
“Tell me,” I say, though I’ve heard it a hundred times.
Mama’s gaze meets mine over the stew pot, and we share a
secret smile. “Tell us,” she agrees. I pull up a chair, then lay
my rifle on the table and start taking it apart.
“Well, since you insist. It happened in the spring of ’35,” he
begins. “The easy pickings were long gone by then, and I’d
had a hard day with nothing to show. I was walking home
creekside, trying to beat the coming storm, when I chanced
on a moss-fall under a broad oak. A wind came up and blew
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away the moss, and there she was, bright and beautiful and
smiling; bigger than my fist, just sitting there, nice as you
please.”
Never in my life have I seen a nugget so big. I’ve heard
tales, but I’m not sure I believe them. Still, I nod as if I do.
He says, “But the storm was something awful, and night
was falling. I couldn’t get to town to get her assayed, so I
brought her home. I showed her off to your mama, then I
hid her under the floorboards for safekeeping until the storm
passed.”
He pauses to take another sip of coffee. The fire inside the
stove pops. As soon as I’m done cleaning my gun, I’ll take off
my stockings and lay them out to dry too.
“And then what happened?” I ask, because I’m supposed
to.
He sets down his cup and rocks forward, eyes wide with
the fever. “When I got up in the morning, what did I see
but my own little Lee with that nugget in her chubby hand,
banging it on the floor and laughing and kicking out her legs,
like she’d found the greatest toy.”
Mama sighs with either remembrance or regret over the
first time I divined gold. I was two years old.
He says, “So I re-hid it. This time in the larder.”
“But I found it again, didn’t I, Daddy?” I cover the ramrod
in a patch of clean cloth and shove it down the muzzle. It
comes out slightly damp, which means I might have faced a
nasty backfire the next time I shot.
“Again and again and again. You found it under the
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mattress, lodged in the toe of my boot, even buried in the

garden. That’s when I knew my girl was special. No, magical.”
Mama can’t hold back a moment more. “These are rough
times,” she warns as she drops pieces of turnip into the pot.
She has a small, soft voice, but it’s sneaky the way it can still
a storm. Mostly, the storm she stills is my daddy. “Folks’d be
powerful keen to hear tell of a girl who could divine gold.”
“They would, at that,” Daddy says thoughtfully. “Since
there’s hardly a lick of surface gold left in these mountains.”
This is why we are not rich, and we never will be. Sure, the
Spanish Moss Nugget bought our windows, our wagon, and
the back porch addition. But the Georgia gold rush played
itself out long ago, and it turns out that not even a magical
girl can conjure gold from nothing or lift it from stubborn
rock with just her thoughts. We’ve labored hard for what
little I’ve been able to divine, and I’ve found less and less
each year. Last summer, we diverted the stream and dug
up the dry bed until not a speck remained. This year, we
attacked the cliff side with our pickaxes until Daddy got
too sick.
There’s more gold to be found deep in the ground—my
honey-sweet sense tells me so—but there’s only so much
two people can accomplish. Daddy refuses to buy slaves; he
was raised Methodist, back in the day when the church was
against slavery.
Today’s nugget is my first big find in more than a year.
Lord knows we need the money. Which is a mighty odd
thing to need, considering that we have a bag of sweet, raw
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gold dust hidden beneath the floorboards. Daddy says we’re

saving it for a rainy day.
But Mama says we hid it because taking so much gold to
the mint would attract attention. She’s right. Whenever we
bring in more than a pinch or two of dust, word gets out,
and strangers start crawling all over our land like ants on a
picnic, looking for the mother lode. In fact, I’ve earned my
daddy a nickname: Reuben “Lucky” Westfall, everyone calls
him. Only the three of us know the truth, and we’ve sworn
to keep it that way.
In the meantime, the barn roof is starting to leak; the cellar
shelves are still half empty, with the worst cold yet to come;
and we owe Free Jim’s store for this year’s winter wheat seed.
A big nugget like the one I found could take care of it all. It’s
a lucky find, sure, but not so lucky as an entire flour sack of
gold dust worked from a played-out claim.
“So, Leah,” Daddy says, and I look up from wiping the
stock. He never calls me that. It’s always “Lee” or “sweet
pea.”
“Yes, Daddy?”
“Where exactly did you find that rock?”
“By a new deer trail, west of the orchard.”
“I heard the rifle shot. Sounded like it came from a long
ways off.”
“Sure did. Longer still before I got him. I nicked him in
the flank, and he ran off. I tracked him down the mountain
and across the creek to . . . Oh.”
I had crossed over onto McCauley land.
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Daddy’s rocking chair stills. “It doesn’t belong to us,” he

says softly.
“But we need—” I stop myself. Jefferson and his da need it
as bad or worse than we do.
“We’re not thieves,” Daddy says.
“I found it fair and square!”
He shakes his head. “Doesn’t matter. If Mr. McCauley
came by and ‘found’ our peaches in the orchard, would it be
all right to help himself to a bushel?”
I frown.
“She should put it right back where she found it,” Mama
says.
“No!” I protest, and Daddy gives me the mind-your-
mother-or-else look. I swallow hard and try to lower my
voice, but I’ve never mastered the gentle firmness of Mama’s
way. I’m a too-loud-or-nothing kind of girl. “I mean, if we
can’t keep it, then the McCauleys should have it. Their cabin
is in bad shape, and their milk cow died last winter, and . . .
I’ll take it back. I’ll give it over to Jefferson’s da.”
Mama carries her pot to the box stove and sets it on top.
“What will you tell him?” she asks, giving the stew a quick
stir.
“The truth. That I was hunting, that I tracked my wounded
buck onto his claim and chanced upon a nugget.”
Mama frowns. “Knowing Mr. McCauley, the story will be
all over town within a day.”
“So? No one needs to know I witched it up.”
She slams the pot lid into place and turns to brandish her
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wooden spoon at me. “Leah Elizabeth Westfall, I will not

have that word in my house.”
“It’s not a bad word.”
“If anyone hears it, even in passing, they’ll get the wrong
idea. I know we live in modern times, but no one suffers a . . .
that word. There’s no forgiveness for it. No explaining that
will help. I know it full well.”
Mama does this sometimes. She alludes to something that
happened to her when she was a girl, something awful. But I
know better than to press for details, because it won’t get me
anything but more chores or an early trip to bed.
“And I’ll not remind the entire town that we send our
fifteen-year-old daughter out hunting on the Lord’s Day,”
she continues, still waving that spoon. “Our choices are our
choices, and our business is our business, but no good will
come from throwing it in people’s faces.”
“I’ll take it back,” Daddy says. “I’ll tell him I was the one
out hunting.”
“Reuben, you can hardly walk,” Mama says. “No one will
believe it.”
“I’ll wait a few days. Let this cough settle. Then I’ll go.
Maybe I’ll do it right before heading to Charlotte.”
This is what Daddy tells us every day. That when his cough
“settles,” he’ll take to the road with our bag of gold. He’ll
have it assayed at the mint in Charlotte, North Carolina,
where no one knows us and no one will ask questions.
“Sure, Daddy.” I don’t dare catch Mama’s eye and give
space for the worry growing in both our hearts.
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I rise from the table and walk with heavy steps to Daddy’s
rocking chair. I pull the nugget from my pocket and place it
in his outstretched palm. The gold sense lessens as soon as it
leaves my hand, and for the briefest moment I am bereft, like
I’ve lost a friend.
“Well, I’ll be,” he says breathlessly, turning it over to catch
the morning light streaming through our windows. “Isn’t it
a beauty?”
“Sure is,” I agree. It’s so much more than beautiful, though.
It’s food and shelter and warmth and life.
His bushy eyebrows knit together as he looks at me,
straight on. “This nugget is nothing, Lee. Even your magic is
nothing. You’re a good girl and the best daughter. And that?
That’s something.”
I can’t even look at him. “Yes, Daddy.”
I return to the table to finish cleaning my rifle. It’s a good
time for quiet thinking, so I think hard and long. If Mama
won’t let us sell our gold dust, and Daddy refuses to let me
keep that nugget, then I need to figure out another way to
make ends meet.
I pause, my rag hovering over the wooden stock. “I could
do it,” I say.
“What’s that, sweet pea?” Daddy says.
“I could take our gold to get assayed in North Carolina.
I’ll drive Chestnut and Hemlock. The colts’d be glad for—”
“Absolutely not,” Mama says.
“It’s nice of you to offer,” Daddy says in a kinder tone. “But
the road is no place for a girl all alone.”
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“You’d be robbed for sure,” Mama adds. “Or worse.”

I sigh. It was worth a try.
Mama’s gaze on my face softens. “You are such a help, my
Leah, and I love you for it. But you would do too much if I
let you.”
“Tell you what,” Daddy says. “When this cough settles,
maybe your mama will let you come with me.”
“Maybe I would,” Mama says unconvincingly.
“I’d like that,” I say.
When this cough settles, when this cough settles, when this cough
settles. I’ve heard it so many times it’s like a song in my head.
Maybe I’ll set traps this winter. Maybe we’ll have another
big flood, which will give us an excuse to say we found more
gold. Maybe our winter wheat will do better than expected.
Maybe I’ll escape to Charlotte with that bag of gold and beg
forgiveness afterward.
Maybe I’ll become a real witch, who can cast a spell that
will keep our barn dry and fill our cellar.
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Chapter Three
By morning, the air has warmed enough that fog slithers

thick and blue through the creases of my mountains. Because
of yesterday’s hunting success, Daddy lets me hitch Peony to
the wagon and drive to school.
As soon as I pull up, I can tell something is amiss. Instead
of pelting one another with snowballs or playing tag or hoops,
the little ones stand clutched together for warmth, holding
tight to their dinner pails, speaking in hushed tones. It’s like
someone important has died, like the governor. Or even the
president. But no, the courthouse flag is not at half-mast.
I hobble Peony and scan the schoolyard for Jefferson. He
has a knack for seeing everything around him, and if anyone
can speak truth to me, it’s him.
Annabelle Smith, the judge’s daughter, finds me first.
“Well, if it isn’t Plain Lee!” she calls out. “Driving to school
like the good boy she is.” The girls my age are clustered
around her, and they giggle as I approach.
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“You seen Jefferson?” I ask.

“Shouldn’t you be out hunting?” Her smile shows off two
adorable dimples. God must have a wicked sense of humor
to make such a devil of a girl look like such an angel. “Or
mucking around in the creek?”
“Please, Annabelle,” I say wearily. “Not today. I just want
to talk to my friend.”
Her smile falters, and she indicates a direction with a lift of
her chin. “I think he has something you’ll want to see.”
I’m not sure what that means, but I nod acknowledgment
and head off toward the outhouse.
Behind it is Jefferson, surrounded by a gaggle of braids
and skirts, which is odd because the town girls—even
the younger ones—usually avoid him. He stands at least a
head above them all; tall enough so the hem of his pants
sits high, revealing feet that are bare, even in winter— He
must have outgrown his boots again. His face is framed by
thick, black hair and a long, straight Cherokee nose he got
from his mama. An old bruise yellows the sharp line of his
cheekbone.
He sees me, and waves a bit of paper. He extricates himself
from the girls and meets me halfway, at the entrance to the
small white clapboard that serves as our schoolhouse. The
girls eye me warily, but they don’t follow.
“It’s gold, Lee,” he blurts before I can open my mouth to
ask. “Discovered in California.”
My stomach turns over hard. “You’re sure?”
He hands me a newspaper cutout. It’s already smudged
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from too many fingers, and it’s dated December 5, 1848—

more than a month ago.
“President Polk announced it to Congress. So it has to be
true.”
Thoughts and feelings tumble around too hard and fast for
me to put a name to them. I sink down on to the slushy steps,
not caring that my second-best skirt will get soaked, and I
rub hard at my chin. Gold is everywhere. At least a little bit
of it. How much gold would it take for the president to make
a special announcement?
“Lee?” he says. “What are you thinking?” His usually seri-
ous eyes blaze with fever, a look I know all too well. A look
that might be mirrored in my own eyes.
“I’m thinking you’re going to head west, along with this
whole town.” That’s why everyone’s so somber. Dahlonega
was built on a gold rush of its own, and every child for miles
will understand that change is coming, whether they want it
to or not.
He plunks down beside me, resting his forearms on skinny
knees that practically reach his ears. “They’re saying the
land over there is so lush with gold you can pluck it from the
ground. Someone like me could . . .”
Silence stretches between us. He hates giving voice to the
thing that hurts his heart most; he hardly even talks about
it to me. Jefferson is the son of a mean Irish prospector
and a sweet Cherokee mama who fled with her brothers
ten years ago, when the Indians were sent to Oklahoma
Territory. Not a soul in Dahlonega blamed her one bit, even
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though she left her boy with his good-for-nothing da.

So when Jefferson says “someone like me,” he means “a stu-
pid, motherless Injun,” which is one of the dumber things
people call Jefferson, if you ask me, because he’s the smartest
boy I know.
“Daddy will want to go,” I whisper at last. And I want to
go too, to be honest. Gold is in my blood, in my breath, even
in the flecks of my eyes, and I love it the same way Jefferson’s
da loves his moonshine.
But, Lord, I’m weary. Weary of trying to be as good to
Daddy as three sons, weary of working as hard as any man,
weary of the other girls scorning me. And I’m weary of
bearing this troubled soul, of knowing things could go very
badly if someone learned about my gold-witching ways. If we
moved west, to a place where there was still gold to be had,
it would start all over again, harder and more troublesome
than before.
Then again, maybe California is a place where a witchy girl
like me wouldn’t need an explanation for finding so much
gold. Maybe it’s a place where we can finally be rich.
“Da will want to go,” Jefferson says. “But we don’t have
enough money to put an outfit together. Look at this.”
He unfolds the newspaper, and the bottom of the article is
a list of all the items a family needs to go west: four yoke of
oxen, a wagon, a mule, rifles, pistols, five barrels of flour, four
hundred pounds of bacon . . .
“That’d cost more than six hundred dollars,” I say.
“For a family of three, like yours. But even one person
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needs at least two hundred.” He shakes his head. “There’s

got to be a different way.”
I know from his tone, as surely as I know Mama’s locket
doesn’t contain a lick of brass, that Jefferson wants to go west
more than anything. “You’re going to run away,” I say.
“Maybe. I don’t know.” He scuffs his bare foot against the
step, sending a wave of sludge over the edge. “I could take
the sorrel mare. Hunt my way there. Or work for somebody
else, taking care of their stock. It’s just that . . . It’s just . . .”
“Jeff?” I peer close to try to figure him. He has a wide
mouth that jumps into a smile faster than lightning. But
there’s nothing of smiling on his face right now.
“Remember the year the creek dried up, and we caught
fifty tadpoles in the stagnant pool?” he says softly.
“Sure,” I say, though I have no idea why he’d bring it up. “I
remember you dropping a handful down my blouse.”
“And I remember you screaming like a baby.”
I punch him in the shoulder.
He jerks backward, staring at me in mock disapproval.
“Your punches didn’t used to hurt so much.”
“I like to get better at things.”
His gaze drifts far away. Rubbing absently at his shoulder,
he says, “You’re my best friend, Lee.”
“I know.”
“We’re too old for school. I only come to see you.”
“I know.”
All at once he turns toward me and grasps my mittened
hands in his bare ones. “Come west with me,” he blurts.
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I open my mouth, but nothing comes out.

“Marry me. Or . . . I mean . . . We could tell people we’re
married. Brother and sister, maybe! Whatever you want. But
you’re like me. With your daddy sick, I know it’s really you
working that claim, same way I work Da’s. I know it’s your
own two hands as built that place up.” His grip on my hands
is so tight it’s almost unbearable. “This is our chance to make
our own way. It’s only right that— Why are you shaking your
head?”
His words brought a stab of hope so pure and quick it was
like a spur in the side. But now I’ve a sorrow behind my eyes
that wants to burst out, hot and wet. Jefferson is partly right:
I’m the one who makes our claim work. He just doesn’t know
how much.
“Leah?”
I sigh. “Here’s where you and I are different. I love my
mama and daddy. I can’t leave them. And yes, it’s my claim
as much as anyone’s. I’m proud of it. I can’t leave it neither.”
He releases my hands. Together, we look out over the
snow-dusted yard to find the others staring at us. They saw
us holding hands, for sure and certain. But we ignore them.
We’re used to ignoring them.
“You might not have a choice,” he says. “If your daddy
wants to go to California—”
That stab of hope again. “Mama will convince him not to.
He’s too sick.”
“But if you go—”
The school bell peals, calling us inside.
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“We’ll talk later,” I say, more than a little glad to let the
subject go. I’ve lots of thinking to do. In fact, I do so much
thinking during the next hours that I’m useless for helping
the little ones with their sums, and when Mr. Anders calls on
me to recite the presidents, I mix up Madison and Monroe.
I drive home as soon as school lets out, not bothering to
say bye to Jefferson, though I wave from a distance. I need
to get away, and fast, find some open air for laying out all my
thoughts about California and gold and going west, not to
mention the stunning and undeniable fact that Jefferson just
asked me to marry him.
As offers go, it’s not the kind a girl dreams about while fin-
gering the linens from her hope chest. I’m not even sure he
meant it, the way he stumbled over it so badly.
I’ve thought about marriage—of course I have—but no
one seems to have taken a shine to me. It’s no secret I spend
my days squatting in the creek bed or hefting a pickax or
mucking the barn, that I have an eagle eye and a steady shot
that brings in more game than Daddy ever did, even during
his good spells. I might be forgiven my wild ways if I was
handsome, but I’m not. My eyes are nice enough, as much
gold as brown, just like Mama’s. But I have a way of looking
at people that makes them prickly, or so Jefferson says, and
he always says it with a grin, like it’s a compliment.
One time only did I mourn to Daddy about my lack of
prospects. He just shrugged and said, “Strong chin, strong
heart.” Then he kissed me quick on the forehead. I never
complained again. My daddy knows my worth.
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I suppose Jefferson does too, and my heart hurts to think

of him leaving and me staying. But the truth is I’ve never
thought of him in a marrying kind of way. And with an awful
proposal like that, I don’t know that Jefferson’s too keen on
the idea either.
A gunshot cracks through the hills, tiny and miles distant.
A minute later, it’s followed by a second shot. Someone must
be out hunting. I wish them luck.
By the time my wagon comes in view of the icy creek and the
faint track that winds through the bare oaks toward home,
I decide there’s no help for it but to talk everything out with
Mama and Daddy. The three of us have some shared secrets
among ourselves, sure, but we have none from one another.
Peony tosses her head, as if sensing my thoughts. No, it’s
the surrounding woods that have put a twitch in her. They
are too silent, too still.
“Everything’s fine, girl,” I say, and my voice echoes back
hollowly.
As the leafless trees open up to reveal our sprawling home-
stead, right when I yell “Haw!” to round Peony toward the
barn, something catches my eye.
A man’s boot. Worn and wrinkled and all alone, toppled
into a snowbank against the porch.
“Daddy?” I whisper, frozen for the space of two heartbeats.
I leap from the bench, and my skirt catches on the wheel
spoke, but I rip right through and sprint toward the house. I
don’t get far before I fall to my knees, bent over and gasping.
Because Daddy lies on his back across the porch steps, legs
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spread-eagled, bootless. Crimson pools beneath his head and

drips down the steps—tiny rapids of blood. His eyes are wide
to the sky, and just above them, like a third eye in a brow
paler than snow, is a dark bullet hole.
“Mama!” I yell, and then I yell it again. I can’t take my eyes
off Daddy’s face. He seems so surprised. So alive, except for
that unblinking stare.
What should I do? Drag him away before he ruins the
porch, maybe. Or put his boots back on. Why did Daddy go
outside without his boots?
My hands shake with the need to do something. To fix
something. My eyes search the steps, the porch, the wide-
open doorway, but I can only find the one boot, shoved into
the snowbank. “Mama? Where are Daddy’s boots?” My voice
is shrill in the winter air, almost a scream.
I use the porch railing to pull myself to my feet. If I can
just find that blasted boot, everything will be fine. Why isn’t
Mama answering?
The world shifts, and I stumble hard against the railing.
Two gunshots. I heard two. “Mama,” I whisper.
I start running. Through the drawing room, the bedroom,
the kitchen still messy from supper. Upstairs to the dor-
mer room where I sleep, then back down again. Sunshine
has broken through the clouds, streaming light through our
windows. Mama’s touches of love are everywhere—the blue
calico curtains of my bedroom, the pine boughs winding
our otherwise plain banister, and poking from the vase on
our mantel, flowers made from wrapping paper and stained
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yellow with wild mustard. Yesterday’s venison stew, still

warm on the box stove.
But Mama is nowhere to be found, and the place feels so
bare it’s like an ache in my soul.
Still calling for her, I race outside and bang on the out-
house. I search the barn. I splash through our tiny stream
and sprint into the peach orchard.
Under the trees, I stop short. The world is so empty and
quiet. Too quiet, as if even the trees need to be hushed and
sad for a spell. Which is just as well; I must stop panicking
and start thinking. You’re a smart girl, Lee, Daddy always says,
especially when I struggle with algebra. You can figure this.
Winter chill works its way through my boots, which aren’t
quite dry from yesterday’s hunt, and I wrap my arms around
myself against the cold and the dread. In the distance, Peony
snorts at something. I left the poor girl hitched to the wagon.
She’ll have to keep.
I close my eyes and concentrate, turning in place like a
compass.
Gold sings to me from north of the orchard, from the
vein that Daddy and I started working before the snow hit.
Fainter, as if very small or from very far away, comes the one
I’m looking for: a hymn of purity, a lump of sweetness in my
throat. A nugget, maybe, but I’m hoping it’s Mama’s locket.
It’s in the direction of the barn. I’ve already been to the
barn. What did I miss?
That lump of sweetness pulls me back through the bare
peach trees, through the icy brook. The sensation strengthens
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as I approach. It’s not coming from inside the barn, but behind
it. Beyond the henhouse and near the woodpile.
The ground outside the henhouse is littered with down;
something panicked the poor birds bad enough to send their
feathers through the breathing holes. The sweetness in my
throat turns sour. I force myself to walk the remaining steps.
I find her there, sitting with her back against the woodpile,
legs outstretched, her skirt ridden up enough that a sliver
of gray stocking shows above her boots. The locket that led
me to her rests above her heart, sparkling in the sunshine.
Below, her waist is soaked in blood. She’s been gut-shot.
Her eyes flutter as I approach, and she lifts one hand in my
direction. “Leah,” she whispers. “My beautiful girl.”
I rush forward and grab her hand. “I’ll get Doc,” I say. “Just
hold tight.” I try to pull away, but her grip is strong, though
her gaze is so weak it can’t seem to alight on anything for
more than the space of a butterfly’s touch.
“My strong girl. Strong, perfect . . .”
“Who did this to you?” Tears burn my eyes.
Her head lolls toward me, as if moving her neck can force
her gaze in the direction her eyes cannot. “Trust someone.
Not good to be as alone as we’ve been. Your daddy and I
were wrong. . . .” Her words are coming slower and quieter.
“Mama?”
“Run, Lee. Go . . .”
Her chin hits her chest, and she says no more.
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I need help. I should get the sheriff. Or Judge Smith. I know

I should.
But all I can do is sit back on my heels and stare. It doesn’t
matter what I do next. Not a single thing in the whole world
will make my mama and daddy any less dead. And once I
get up and walk away, everything will be different. I want
this moment, this in-between time, when I’m not quite an
orphan and I’m not quite alone.
She’s wearing her winter dress, the black wool. Her chin
rests in the ruffles of the high collar. I avoid looking at
her belly, instead letting my eyes drift down to the mud-
splattered skirt. She tried to run.
I gently lower her skirt to cover her stockings and tuck it
under her ankles so the breeze won’t blow it back up. The
shiny brown bun of her hair skews to the side. I reach up to
rearrange a hairpin or two, but my shaking fingers just make
a mess of everything.
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I swallow hard. Mama had the most beautiful hair.

Shimmering light brown, with hints of bronze and gold. It
fell past her waist when it wasn’t pinned.
The locket winks at me, bright against the black wool.
She’d want me to have it. But removing it will be so final.
A twig snaps, and I shoot to my feet. The sound came from
the woods behind the barn. It could have been a raccoon,
or even a deer. Still, I imagine murderous eyes on me as I
reach behind Mama’s neck for the clasp. My hands struggle
to make sense of it. I’m too afire with listening, ready to dart
away at the slightest noise.
My fingertips tingle from gold as I work the clasp. It comes
free, and I barely catch the charm before it slips off the chain.
I shove both chain and locket into the pocket of my skirt.
“I’m so sorry, Mama,” I whisper. “I have to go.”
But go where? Everything is foggy and strange. All I know
for sure is that Mama told me to run.
I can’t just leave her here. It wouldn’t be right. I need help.
I need—
Jefferson! He’ll know what to do. I could be at the McCauley
claim and back in twenty minutes.
I shouldn’t go unarmed.
I dash to the house and bang open the back door. Daddy
has a special rack above the mantel for hanging our guns.
We own three—an old long rifle with a bayonet, the newer
Hawken rifle I always hunt with, and a cap-and-ball revolver.
The long rifle and the Hawken give me distance and accuracy,
but they can be awkward to load while bareback, especially
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with my fingers trembling like they are. That leaves the

revolver.
I grab it from the rack and palm the ivory grip. Something
niggles at me while I stare down at it, like mosquitos in the
back of my head. I think about Daddy, lying in a pool of his
own blood. Bile rises in my throat, but I force it down.
That hole in his forehead. So tiny and perfect. The back of
his skull is probably in tatters, but except for that hole, the
front is as white and pristine as Mrs. Smith’s alabaster vase.
No rifle would make such a tidy hole. My daddy was shot
with a revolver, like the one I hold in my hand. No, maybe
even a smaller gun, like one of those fancy new Colts. Do I
know anyone who owns a new Colt revolver?
I sift through memories of everyone I know, but my mind
fogs up again, and I can’t do it for all the gold in the world.
Jefferson. I need Jeff.
I run out the front door, leaving it swinging in the wind,
and I leap over the steps and over Daddy’s body. I unhitch
Peony, hike up my skirts, and use the wagon wheel to vault
onto her back.
The McCauley homestead is tucked into a dark holler

between two birch-thick hills. Jefferson half cleared one of
the hillsides and planted corn, now brown and shriveled with
winter. But the rest of the land is so wild and dense that most
of the ground never sees the sun. It’s a dank, dark place made
for hiding things like moonshine and heartbreak.
Peony and I splash across the frost-edged creek, passing a
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rotting, abandoned sluice. I pull her up at the house—a small

log cabin with a sod roof. Smoke curls from the chimney, and
wind whistles against the cracked glass of the single window.
“Jefferson!” I swing a leg over and slide off. I sprint through
dead weeds to the stoop, where I leap to avoid the sagging
steps, and pound on the door. “Jefferson!”
Their dog, Nugget, barks from inside the house. Booted
footsteps hurry toward me. The door swings wide, reveal-
ing Jefferson’s da, a small man with wild gray hair, rumpled
clothes, and a bright red nose.
He shrugs on his right suspender strap, blinking against
the gloomy day, which is downright perky compared to the
murk of the cabin. “Miss Lee,” he slurs.
The air wafting out the door is warm and sour, like rising
bread gone bad. “I need to see Jefferson,” I say.
“Dunno where that boy run off to.” Nugget pokes her yel-
low head out beside his legs, floppy ears perked forward.
“Where do you think he might’ve—”
“I said I dunno.”
“Did he come home after school?”
“Mebbe.”
Something snaps inside me. “Think for one lousy minute,
will you? I’m in a heap of hurt, and I need to talk to your
boy.”
Mr. McCauley recoils. “Watch your swearing tongue, girl.”
My fists clench with the need to bust his bright red nose.
It’s a testament to my fine character that I turn tail and jog
away. I’ll find Jefferson myself.
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The door slams behind me, so I’m surprised to feel Nugget’s

damp nose in my palm as I head toward the outhouse.
I pause at the door. It’s powerful improper for me to bang
on it with Jefferson inside. No help for it. I raise my fist to
knock when the crack of an ax rents the air.
Relieved, I lift my petticoats and run toward the ram-
shackle building that was intended to be a barn but never got
finished and became a woodshed instead.
Jefferson is behind it, sleeves rolled up past his elbows and
ax in hand, splitting firewood on one of the larger stumps.
The moment he sees me, he frowns and drops his ax. “Lee?”
And suddenly I’m clutch-hugging myself, and my words
are jumbling all over one another, and I hardly know
what I’m saying except that the word “dead” hangs in the
air, sharper and more final than the crack of an ax on a
chopping block.
His arms come up around my shoulders, and he pulls me
close. He smells familiar and safe, like fresh woodchips and
loamy soil, and finally I cry—great gulping cries that dampen
his shirt.
“All right, Lee,” he says at last. “Slow down. Start over and
tell me everything. Every single thing.”
So I do. His face is grave as I talk. Even though my dinner
is turning round and round in my belly, and my words come
spilling out all over themselves, Jefferson just stands calm
and ponders like a man twice his years.
“Maybe it was bandits,” he says, though I can tell he doesn’t
put much stock in the idea.
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“They didn’t take anything. Only thing missing was one of

Daddy’s boots.”
“How long ago were they shot, do you think?”
“I heard the shots when I was on the way home. Mama
was still alive when I found her. And Daddy’s . . . The blood
hadn’t froze. Jeff, he rushed out the door with his boots still
in hand. Why would he do that?”
Jeff’s hand finds the small of my back and guides me
toward the cabin. I stumble keeping up with his long legs.
“Where—”
“I’m getting my gun,” he says. “Maybe your daddy heard a
shot and ran outside.”
Nugget trots along beside us. “Wouldn’t he have grabbed
his own gun first? He just ran outside. Like . . . like . . .”
Jefferson stops cold, and I almost bang into his shoulder.
“Like he knew the person. Someone he was powerful glad
to see.”
I nod up at him. “Who would Daddy . . .” A sick worry
wriggles around in my chest. “Mama said . . . before she . . .
She told me to run.”
“She thought the murderer was still nearby.”
We stare at each other.
“This is bad, isn’t it?” I say.
“We’ll figure it, I promise. Did you bring a gun?”
“The cap and ball. Loaded it on the way here. All five
shots.”
“Good. Nugget, stay here with Lee. I’ll be right back.” He
flings the door open and disappears into the murky cabin.
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Jefferson never lets me in. He doesn’t want me to know

how bad it is between him and his da, and he doesn’t realize
I’ve already guessed about the moonshine still that’s hidden
inside. There are things even best friends don’t tell each
other.
Nugget leans against my leg, and I bend down to scritch
her neck. We’ve always gotten along, Nugget and me.
A thump echoes inside the cabin, then Mr. McCauley yells
something loud and angry. Jefferson strides out a moment
later, rifle in hand. He won’t meet my eye, just heads over to
the goat pen, Nugget and me at his heels.
He grabs the sorrel mare; they’ve never named the poor
girl, just call her “the sorrel mare,” and they keep her penned
for lack of a proper barn. Jefferson mounts up, and I use the
fence to climb up on Peony, and off we go. Jefferson leads us
southward, toward my house.
“We’re going back?” I thought we’d go for help.
His voice is gentle as he says, “No use getting Doc now.
And no murderer with a lick of sense would stick around
after doing the deed.”
I stare blankly.
“Surely you know, Lee?” Jefferson says. “‘Lucky’s gold’ is
practically a legend. Once word is out that your mama and
daddy have gone to Jesus, the whole town will come poking
around. Everyone thinks your daddy stashed—”
“Oh.” Tears threaten to spill again. I can imagine it now.
Annabelle Smith and her mother coming by with their peach
pie and their slick words of sympathy and their darting eyes.
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Sheriff Weber searching the whole homestead for “clues,”

opening cupboards and shifting hay bales and maybe even
prying up floorboards.
“I need to hide . . . until everything’s settled.” The words
make me feel heartless and cold. Necessity is a harsh master,
Mama used to say. Bet she didn’t anticipate that necessity
would make me look to our gold even before giving her a
proper burial.
“It’s true, isn’t it,” Jefferson says, his voice suddenly wistful.
“It’s true,” I whisper.
“All right, then.” He nods, as though to himself. “We’ll
have to be careful and quick. Just in case your mama was
right and whoever did this decided to stick around.”
“I’m glad Nugget is with us.”
“She’ll let us know if someone happens by.”
We pass the ridge where Daddy and I started working the
new vein, then I cross the tiny cemetery that only has two
headstones—one for Orpha the dog, and one for my baby
brother who lived three days. Daddy carved them himself.
There’ll soon be two more, and I don’t know who will carve
them.
Our pace slows even more as we ride through the orchard.
Jefferson sits tall on his mare, alert for the slightest strange-
ness. As we pass the henhouse, something in me screams not
to look, but I can’t help glancing that way. The woodpile
blocks my view of everything except Mama’s legs. Her skirt
is still tucked beneath her ankles.
A shadow passes overhead, and I duck before realizing it’s
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a great buzzard circling. The first of the scavengers, coming

to get what’s mine.
“Let’s go in the back door,” I say. I’ll have to face Daddy’s
body again soon enough. But not just yet.
Jefferson guides our horses past the garden and to the
back porch. He hands me the reins to the sorrel mare, puts
a finger to his lips, and whispers, “I’ll check the house. Wait
here.” He hefts his rifle and slips inside.
He’s in there a long time while the cold sun beats down on
my head and the buzzards circle and the silent woods watch
my back. The world feels empty and quiet. Too empty.
My breath catches. Our gold.
I do sense something—the tiniest spark of sweetness.
Probably just the nugget I found yesterday, hiding wherever
Daddy stashed it. But the usual, ever-present thrumming
in my head whenever I’m near our bag of dust is completely
gone.
Strange how you don’t notice things until they’re taken
away.
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Finally, Jefferson peeks his head out the doorway and says,
“I think it’s clear.”
I slide off Peony and loop the reins of both horses through
the porch rail. “Let’s get this done,” I say, and my voice is
heavy with the knowledge of what I won’t find.
Jefferson makes Nugget stay outside. She whines as the
door shuts behind us, but I feel better knowing she’s out
there keeping an eye on things.
“This way,” I say to Jefferson, and I lead him into the
kitchen. The pine table I used last night to clean the Hawken
rifle is askew, the braid rug beneath it wrinkled. One of the
four chairs lies toppled on its side.
Jefferson helps me lift the table. I get down on my knees
and peel back the rug to reveal two floorboards that almost-
but-not-quite match the others.
“This isn’t a very good hiding place, Lee,” Jefferson says
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Tears are already streaming down my face. I push down on

the boards just so, and the opposite ends pop up so I can grab
them. “Guess we never figured on actually getting robbed.” I
reach into the hole.
“Anything?”
“It’s gone,” I say in a dead voice. I pull out an empty flour
sack, the one we were going to start filling next. It’s still
folded into a neat square.
“What’s missing?”
“A three-pound flour bag.”
“Of gold?”
“Yes.”
“Like that one there? Except full?”
“I said yes.”
“Oh, heavens, Lee,” Jefferson says. “Three pounds of
flour . . . That would be the same as . . .”
“Almost six pounds of gold.” I sit back on my heels, holding
my hands in my lap to keep them from shaking. “That bag
was worth well over a thousand dollars.”
Enough to take a whole family to California, easy.
“Where did you find it all?” Jefferson’s voice is filled with
breathless wonder, and maybe a little anger.
“Here and there,” I say, avoiding his gaze. The lie sets ugly
in my heart. “We got lucky.”
“And now it’s gone.”
I wipe my eyes quickly and get to my feet. “I have some-
thing for you.”
“What?”
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I close my eyes and turn in place. “Just have to remember . . .”

There. On the shelf above the box stove, where Mama’s
wrapping-paper flowers sit in their plain wooden vase. I walk
over, upend the vase, and the nugget drops into my hand. I
hand it to him. “This one is yours. I . . . chanced upon it after
I chased a white tail onto your claim.”
He grips the nugget tight, saying nothing. He’s still staring
at the empty flour sack on the floor by the hole. It’s stamped
culbert & sons, ltd. flour millers.
“We had to import sacks special from England,” I say. “To
get the small size. Daddy hoped people might think they
were really filled with flour at first glance.”
Jefferson tears his gaze from the sack to stare at my face
instead.
“Please say something, Jeff. Daddy was going to take it all
to the Charlotte mint, where no one knows who we are, but
he got so sick. It’s just been sitting here for more than a year
and . . . Well, Mama said people would hate us for being too
rich too quick. I couldn’t stand it if you were one of them.”
Jeff shakes his head. “It’s not that.” Finally, he shoves the
nugget I gave him into a pocket. I thought he’d forgotten it.
“Then what is it?”
He squats down beside the empty sack, brushes the top
with a finger. The fever burns in his eyes. He’s picturing it
full of sweet, raw gold. All of a sudden, he snatches his hand
back like he’s bee-stung.
“Let’s go get Sheriff Weber,” he says. We head out the back
door, where Nugget greets us with a little yip.
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“Don’t tell!” I say, and he freezes on the porch step. “About

the gold, I mean. People might think there’s more. They
might . . .”
His shoulders rise and fall with a breath. “If you say so.”
Before mounting up on the sorrel mare, he turns to me and
adds, “But, Lee? You could have trusted me.”
I nod, even though shame makes the back of my throat hot.
There’s so much he still doesn’t know. So much I can’t say.
“We should grab a few of your things,” Jefferson says. “I’m
sure someone in town would take you in while—”
“No.”
“Lee—”
“I’m getting help, and I’m coming right back. This is my
home, Jeff.”
He frowns. “Promise me you’ll keep your guns handy. I’ll
stick around as much as possible.”
“Thank you.”
As we ride toward town, I can’t shake the feeling that some-
one is watching us. Maybe it’s the continued dead silence of
the woods, or the way Nugget keeps her ears perked and
sticks so close to Peony that she nearly gets stomped.
Not that it matters. Anyone who’s watching is wasting his
time. I’ve already lost everything.
News of the murder sends the town of Dahlonega into a

frenzy, and the next few days are a blur. I have visitors every
waking minute, which makes me feel a lot safer but puts a
terrible ache in my head. Everyone’s condolences have an
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edge of excitement to them. When Mr. Cooper, superinten-

dent at the U.S. Mint, lends all his assayers and other staff to
Sheriff Weber for a search of the woods around town for the
murderer, it becomes almost like a holiday.
Mama said to run, but I’ve no place to go. This is my home.
I’ve worked just as hard to build it up as Mama or Daddy
ever did, and I won’t let anyone scare me away. So I sit in
my house for days, pretending to be grateful for company,
waiting and waiting for news that doesn’t come. I keep
the five-shooter close by and ready, breaking a rule about
loaded guns in the house. I hope to hear that bandits have
been raiding the mountains, that mine isn’t the only house
they hit, because that would mean I’m probably safe now. It
would mean Mama wasn’t trying to warn me about anyone
in particular.
The search of the woods reveals nothing. Sheriff Weber
asks around at Mrs. Choice’s hotel and Free Jim’s store,
where they say a steady stream of strangers have been passing
through all week on their way to the gold fields of California.
He eventually concludes that the awful deed was perpetrated
by bandits looking for Lucky’s secret stash—which I assure
him never existed—and that they’re probably well west of
here by now, along with all the other good-for-nothings.
I’m not convinced he’s right, and it makes me a little sick
for my parents’ murders to be put to rest so easily. But God
help me if I’m not a little relieved too. I don’t know what I’m
going to do next or how I’ll run a homestead all by myself.
Maybe after the funeral I’ll finally have time and space to
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think it all through, away from prying eyes and wringing

hands.
Everyone inquires politely about my parents’ relations, as if
somehow their asking will conjure up the kin everyone knows
I don’t have. Mama’s family cut her off when she married my
daddy, and she hasn’t talked to them since moving away from
Boston. Daddy has no blood left but his brother, Hiram, a
fancy lawyer way down in the state capital of Milledgeville.
In a place where family connections spread out like wild
grapevines covering the trees, I’m all alone.
Or not quite all alone. There’s still one person I can turn
to for help.
Jefferson and a couple other boys from school spend an
afternoon digging graves for Mama and Daddy. I found out
it would cost me twenty dollars to have headstones made,
and maybe I could witch up enough gold dust given a little
time, but not without raising questions. So I ask Jefferson to
make a pair of wooden crosses for now.
The day of the funeral dawns icy clear. Meltwater from the
warm snap froze overnight, leaving the trees, the eaves of the
barn, and even the henhouse dripping with tiny icicles. The
whole world sparkles so bright in the winter sun it’s almost
hard to look at.
After finishing my morning chores, I wash up and don my
best dress—a brown wool with lace cuffs, and a pointed waist
with pretty yellow piping. Mama and I finished it just last week.
I can’t get the corset very tight without help, but the dress
buttons up with surprising ease. It has the fullest skirt I’ve
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ever owned. I remember twirling in place during my final fit-

ting, admiring how high the hem lifted in spite of the fabric’s
weight. Mama scolded me for showing off my petticoats.
I stand before our tiny mirror to put on her locket, and
I see her face staring back at me. Everyone says I have her
eyes—widely spaced and mostly brown, a little too deep-set.
But I look like her more than ever today. I seem older, with
thinner cheeks and sunken eyes. I haven’t eaten much these
past few days.
I reach around the back of my neck and clasp the locket
in place. I flip out the lace collar to cover the chain. The
pendant rests just above my heart. It’s a relief to feel the gold
sense come back, even a little. I may never take off the locket.
Someone knocks at the door. I glance at the table to make
sure my revolver is still there. I’ve been keeping it handy these
past few days, because whoever killed my parents is armed
with at least a Colt. If my visitors have found it strange that
I never open the door unarmed, they haven’t said.
I grab the revolver and head toward the door, feeling a stab
of embarrassment; the steps leading up the front porch still
have bloodstains on them, though I’ve scrubbed and scrubbed.
They’re brown-black now, not like blood at all. Still, if I don’t
replace them soon, I’ll see Daddy’s body in my mind’s eye
every time I step outside. Maybe Jefferson will do it for me.
And it’s like I’ve summoned him with a thought, because I
swing the door open and there he is, his gaze downcast and
his wrinkled hat in hand. Nugget sits at his heels, her tail
thumping.
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He blurts, “I’m going west, Lee.”

It’s like a kick in the gut. “What? When!”
He looks up finally, and I gasp, for his right eye is the color
of spring violets and swollen shut. “Now,” he says.
“Oh, Jeff, what happened? Was it your da? I’ll kill him
if he—”
“Come west with me.”
The sorrel mare is tethered at the bottom of the steps. Two
saddlebags hang over her sides, and Jefferson’s long rifle rides
high in its saddle holster near her withers. “That nugget you
gave me. I should’ve given it back, but . . . I just came from
Free Jim’s store. He bought it off me. Gave me enough to buy
a stake in a wagon train.”
“It never belonged to me. It was yours to do with as you
wanted.”
“Then come to California with me. You could sell this
place to Mr. Gilmore today.”
A vision passes before my eyes: clear mountain brooks
sparkling with gold flecks, nuggets winking up from pine
needle–choked earth, game so plentiful you’d hardly have to
leave your back porch to shoot. For a girl like me, California
is the Promised Land.
“Leah, we’d have enough money to buy our way there if you
sold—”
“I . . . I don’t know.” Is that what his marriage proposal was
about? Finding someone to help him buy his way there?
“Mr. Gilmore has had his eye on this place for years,” he
insists.
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I shake my head. “Doesn’t matter. I’m just a girl, and I

can’t sell what I don’t own until I get my hands on Daddy’s
will, proving the place is mine.” I’m not sure how I’ll do that.
Uncle Hiram was the one who drew it up, years ago. “This is
my home, Jeff. I’ve worked so hard to build it into something
nice. I don’t know what’s going to happen to me, or how I’ll
run this place, but . . .”
He steps forward until his body fills the doorway. When
did Jefferson become so large? “Then let’s just go.”
Oh, dear Lord, but a hole is opening up in my heart again,
just like the one that started gaping wide when I saw Daddy’s
boot in the snow. “I have to go to the funeral, and then I have
to sort through Mama’s and Daddy’s things, and then there’s
my chickens, and . . .”
He plunks his hat back on his head. “I know you, and I
know you want this. When you change your mind, find me in
Independence, Missouri. I’ll wait a spell for you. Can’t head
west until the prairie grass starts to grow, anyway. Otherwise,
the sorrel mare will starve. But I can’t wait too long either,
else I meet winter in the mountains.” His lips press into a
firm line. “I’ll wait for you in Independence as long as I can.”
I watch him walk away, the hole growing wider and deeper.
Sunshine falls onto his shoulders, lighting him up like a
torch, and for a moment I can hardly breathe.
He pauses. Turns. Sadness tugs at his eyes as he says,
“Seems like I’ve been waiting for you to come around my
whole life, Lee. But a man can’t wait forever and stay a man.”
And with that, my best friend in the whole world is gone.
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Chapter Six
I’ve hardly closed the door on Jefferson’s retreating back

before another knock sounds. I smooth down my hair and
check my hairpins before opening it again. It’s Mrs. Smith,
wife to the judge and mother of Annabelle.
“Oh, Leah dear, I was worried something had happened to
you.” She frees one spindly, gloved hand from its fur muff to
pat my cheek, but her gaze moves beyond me, roves the inte-
rior of the house. Looking for untidiness to gossip about, I’ll
wager. Or hoping giant sacks of gold will magically appear on
the kitchen table.
“Everyone is waiting for you graveside,” she explains at
last.
She’s wearing a funeral-appropriate black gown with velvet
panels, but it’s her locket that catches my eye and makes my
throat buzz a little. It’s gold, like Mama’s, and etched with
interlinking hearts. It contains photographs of her husband
and Annabelle, taken when the Smiths visited Charleston
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on holiday. I know this because Annabelle told everyone at

school about it when they got back.
Mama would never have allowed such an expense. The
locket I now wear contains a tiny tuft of my baby brother’s
hair.
“Aren’t you coming, dear?”
Does Mrs. Smith realize how lucky she is to have a whole
family? “Yes,” I say to the locket. “I . . . I just needed a
moment to myself.”
“Of course.” Her tone holds a whiff of disapproval. “I’ll
walk with you.”
“Thank you.”
She grabs my hand and yanks me out the door. Judge Smith
waits in the walkway, and he tips his hat as we descend the
stairs. “Glad to see you, Miss Leah,” he says.
I mumble something polite as the Smiths take up posts at
each shoulder. They are both long and lanky, and they walk
with unerring purpose and perfect posture, certain of their
significance in this world. I am towered over. Hemmed in.
Imprisoned.
Jefferson’s words return to me like a clanging church bell.
I’ll wait for you in Independence.
When we arrive, others are already gathered around the
snow-dusted mounds that mark my parents’ graves. The
air smells of freshly turned earth. Almost everyone wears
black. They huddle in groups, bundled against the cold, their
breaths frosting the air. It’s more people than I’d like to see
right now, but less than my parents deserve.
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Annabelle Smith is the height of fashion, even in mourn-

ing black, with a rabbit-fur cape and a poke bonnet with
blue silk flowers and long, trailing ribbons. Her young slave,
Jeannie, stands a pace behind her, shivering in a thin muslin
dress. Reverend Wilson has already taken up his post behind
the twin wooden crosses, his huge Bible in one arm and his
huge wife under the other.
I’m surprised to see Jefferson’s da. He wears his buck-
skin coat over stained trousers, and he stares dolefully
as I approach, his red nose brighter than ever. Does Mr.
McCauley realize Jefferson has run away?
Beside him is Free Jim Boisclair, the richest Negro in
Lumpkin County and a great friend to my daddy. He speaks in
hushed tones to a few others I recognize from our infrequent
visits to the Methodist church. He points to something in
his hand. A leaflet, with writing I can’t make out. Several
others are clutching leaflets too. There’s a buzz in the air,
like when everyone is worked up to hear a new preacher. I
can’t shake the feeling that the leaflet is the main attraction
and the funeral a mere afterthought.
Upon seeing me, the reverend clears his throat.
Conversations die around me. My face warms under the
scrutiny of silence, and I’m almost relieved when he launches
into his eulogy.
To my dismay, it turns out to be a sermon. He speaks of
the toils of this life and how sometimes our troubles make
us want to escape to far-off places instead of standing strong
in the Lord’s grace. He says the love of gold is the root of all
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evil and we should be storing up treasures in heaven instead.

Tears prick at my eyes. No one would blame me for shed-
ding a few, but I hold them back anyway, because I don’t
want to let rage tears flow when my parents deserve grief. It’s
not right, the reverend using their deaths as an excuse to give
us all a talking-to.
I’m in a bit of a haze and grateful for it when Annabelle
Smith—who wrongly thinks she has the voice of an angel
and always sings loudest in church—barrels through all six
stanzas of “Amazing Grace.” Everyone comes to shake my
hand and tell me how sorry they are and that God is looking
out for me as one of his sparrows and do I need anything?
Mr. McCauley hangs back. Gone is his angry scowl. He
wrings his hat in his hands and glances around as if searching
for something. Finally, he approaches.
“You seen Jefferson?” he asks.
I echo his own words back at him. “Dunno where that boy
run off to.”
My mockery is lost on him. “Sorrel mare is gone. And my
rifle. I found this by his bed.” He shoves one of the leaflets in
my face. “Dog’s gone too.”
I snatch it from his hand and look it over. It’s an
advertisement for the Pacific Mail Steamship Company,
promising to take passengers to California, beginning in
the spring, for the sum of two hundred dollars. This is what
everyone’s so excited about. This is what the reverend is
speaking out against.
Mr. McCauley says, “You think he went to catch a boat?”
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I pin him with a gaze, and he shifts uncomfortably.

My heart starts to soften toward him, but then I remember
Jefferson’s busted eye. “He’s probably halfway to Savannah,”
I say. “If you leave now, you can catch up.” Keeping the leaf-
let, I turn my back on him.
Annabelle Smith finds me next. She clasps my hands and
says, “I’m so sorry, Lee. I wish . . . I mean . . . I’m just sorry.”
She can’t meet my gaze, but her words have a ring of sincerity.
“I’m glad you came,” I say automatically. But suddenly it’s
true. I watch her back as she walks away, wondering what it
would be like to have a girl for a friend.
Free Jim is next in line. His dark hand closes around my
cold, pale one—too tight and too warm—and I blurt, “I’ll
make good on Daddy’s credit, Mr. Boisclair, I promise. I just
need a little time to—”
“No need, Miss Leah,” he says gently. “The account was
brought up-to-date just this morning.”
“What? How?”
He frowns. “Your uncle Hiram paid it. Apparently he’s
done well for himself down in Milledgeville.”
My stomach drops into my toes. How did my uncle get
here so fast? How did he know?
“That man’s a born politician,” Free Jim says, and it doesn’t
sound like a compliment. “Anyway, I’m praying to the good
Lord every day on your behalf. Your daddy was a fine man;
one of the finest I knew. The world is a poorer place today,
but heaven is all the richer.”
“Yes, sir,” I say, swallowing hard. “Thank you, sir.”
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Free Jim and my daddy have a history, going back to the

first discovery of gold in these parts. Daddy always considered
him a friend, and we’ve gotten through many a tough winter
thanks to Free Jim and his generous negotiating. We’d have
owed him even more for that winter wheat seed if he’d
demanded fair market price.
“I thought your uncle would be here,” Free Jim says, glanc-
ing around. “He said he had a few errands, but afterward
he’d— Oh, there he is. Mr. Westfall!”
My heart races as he calls out my uncle’s name. Slowly I
turn.
The conversation around us dies as Uncle Hiram bears
down on our little group, tromping through the winter-gray
trees like he owns them. He’s followed by Abel Topper, a
shovel-faced man with keen eyes, who used to be a foreman
before his mine dried up and closed down.
Hiram exchanges greetings with Free Jim, who afterward
tips his hat to me and nods in solemn farewell. He and Abel
walk off together. Uncle Hiram turns in my direction.
Dread curls in my belly, and I’m not sure why. Maybe it’s
because he looks so much like my daddy, though he’s more
dashing, truth be told. Thick lashes rim sharp brown eyes,
and neat sideburns frame a solid jaw. His long nose would
be the bane of any lady, but on him, it fits proud and strong.
He wears a shiny top hat and a fine wool suit with silver
buttons, and the sparkling silver chain of a hidden pocket
watch loops across his left breast. His sweeping, knee-length
overcoat is unbuttoned, revealing a black leather holster with
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white stitching slung across his hips. The revolver is partly

hidden by the holster, but I can plainly see that it’s tiny,
ivory-gripped, and sparkling new.
A Colt.
I’m sure of it.
It doesn’t mean anything. Lots of folks have bought Colts
recently. Still, my hand creeps to my imaginary holster before
I remember that I’m dressed in funeral finery, that my five-
shooter lies lonely on the table.
I glance around. Everyone is clearing out, except Mrs.
Smith, who lingers. I edge closer to her.
“Hello, sweet pea,” Hiram says in a slow, sleepy
Milledgeville drawl.
Daddy’s endearment, coming from him, feels as false as
hearing a cat bark. “Why are you here?”
His smile is just the right amount of sad. “Judge Smith
wrote to me with the terrible news. I came right away to put
Reuben’s affairs in order.”
Uncle Hiram doesn’t seem all that shaken by “the terrible
news.” When my baby brother died, I thought the pain in
my chest would never go away, even though I only knew him
for a few days.
He says, “I’m here to help you put—”
“I don’t need your help.” He hasn’t bothered to visit since
I was eight years old.
“I don’t think you understand. I’m your guardian now.”
I blink. “Oh.”
I’m still staring up at him when he reaches out with his
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fine gentleman’s hand and caresses my cheek.

The gold sense wells inside me, so startling and quick that
tears spring to my eyes. I lurch away from him, swallowing
hard to keep down my breakfast.
“There, there, sweet pea,” he says, as though talking to a
recalcitrant horse. “We’ll get accustomed to each other in
time. Everything’s all right now, I promise.”
My skin is crawling. Everything is not and never will be all
right. Because my uncle is carrying a new Colt revolver, and
he’s covered in gold dust.
Sure, he probably brushed it off. Wiped his hands. And I
can’t see the gold caught in his knuckles, or trapped beneath
his fingernails, maybe even lingering on his overcoat. But I
can sense it. I can always sense it.
“Leah?”
Grief washes over me in waves until I’m dizzy with it. Jeff
was right: Daddy rushed out of the house to greet someone.
Someone he was glad to see.
And my uncle killed him. His very own brother.
“It’s okay to cry, baby girl,” he says.
I blink against tears and clench my fists, imagining what
it would be like to feel his nose bust under my knuckles. But
my rage dribbles away, and my legs twitch as if to flee. Is he
going to kill me too? Who would help me? Not Mrs. Smith,
who even now gazes up at my uncle like he’s the second
coming of George Washington. She would never believe me.
No one would.
“You have room in the barn for my horse?” he asks, and
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for the first time, I notice the tall black gelding hobbled
behind him in the woods. It’s snowing again, and the horse’s
back is powdered with white. “Poor boy could use a bit of
pampering.”
There’s not a hint of regret or shame in his face. No fear of
discovery in his voice. And maybe that’s what will keep me
safe, for now. I can’t let on that I know what he did.
I force my voice into perfect blandness. “I have two empty
stalls. Put him in the one by the door, or Peony will give him
a nip.”
“We’ll talk more in a bit,” he says. “I’ll come back later to
pay my respects.” He tips his hat to Mrs. Smith, who stands
enthralled beside me, and he heads back toward his gelding.
“I’m not moving to Milledgeville!” I call out after him.
He looks over his shoulder. He’s still wearing that slight
smile. A whole world I don’t understand is in that smile. “Of
course not,” he says.
Why did you do it? I want to scream at his back.
“A very fine man, your uncle,” Mrs. Smith says.
“I hardly know him,” I murmur, still staring after him.
“Well, you’re lucky to have him.”
I say nothing. Mrs. Smith has known me my whole life. But
she’s delighted to see me given over to a perfect stranger, for
no other reason than I’m a young girl and he’s a fine gentle-
man relative.
There’s no proof Hiram murdered my parents—not unless
I lay my secret bare, the one I swore to Mama and Daddy I’d
never reveal. There’s nothing I can do.
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Well, maybe there is one thing.

I return to the house and discover that several people

dropped off food before heading back to their own homes.
I count three jars of jam, two baskets full of biscuits, a meat
pie, some baked ham and smashed potatoes. More than I
can possibly eat. Warmth swells in my chest, surprising me.
The people of Dahlonega are a gossipy, small-minded lot, but
we’ve always taken care of our own.
Boots tromp up the stairs outside. The braid rug covering
our hidey-hole has puckered at the edge. Quick as a snake,
I put my toe out and stomp the wrinkle down. I almost
laugh aloud at myself. Hiram already stole my gold. Keeping
secrets is such a habit.
He doesn’t even knock, just swings the front door wide
and strides inside like the house has been waiting for him.
He whips off his gloves and whacks them against his thigh,
sending powdery snow falling to the floor.
I don’t bother to hide my glare. “Hang your hat and coat
there by the door,” I say, indicating the iron hooks in the
wall.
“What culinary delights are conspiring to make my mouth
water?”
If he’s trying to sound like a fine Southern gentleman, he’s
failing. “I don’t know. Whatever folks left for us?”
“I smell baked ham,” he says, shrugging off his overcoat.
“Fix a plate for me?”
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I consider storming off, but I can’t shake my upbringing.

When you have a guest in your house, you fix them some-
thing to eat. I grab a clean plate from the hutch and cut him
a slice of ham, then surround it with potatoes and biscuits. I
hope he chokes on the first bite.
Hiram makes himself at home. He has a heavier step and
quicker movements than my daddy, and the tobacco scent
of him swells, pushing everything out of its way, making the
air of my home seem unfamiliar and strange. He settles into
Daddy’s chair by the cold box stove, and I put the plate on
the side table next to him.
“Help me with my boots,” he says.
My gut churns as I approach, careful like a cat. I kneel at
his feet, and my fingers squelch in lingering mud as I grab
and yank. The boots come loose easily enough that he could
have done it himself. He sits back, sighing like a man well
and truly satisfied. “Thank you, sweet pea.”
I ignore him, setting the boots by the door. I wipe my
hands on a rag. Then, standing straight as I can, my chin in
the air but my face as void as a snow-blanked hill, I ask the
question that’s been squeezing my soul: “How long are you
going to stay?”
He pulls a pipe from the breast pocket of his vest. It’s
carved with vines, and the sick-sweet scent of tobacco gets
even stronger, though the pipe remains unlit. He contem-
plates it a moment, smiles a small, secret smile, then shoves
it back into his pocket. “Forever, Leah,” he says finally. “This
is my home now.”
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“It belongs to me. Daddy left it to me in his will.” My fists

clench at my sides again. “You know it. You’re the one who
drew it up.”
“He left this homestead—everything—to me,” he says.
I open my mouth, close it. Try again. I imagine I look like
a brook trout, tossed onto the bank and gasping.
His voice gentles. “You need proof; I can see that.” He
puts his stockinged feet up on Daddy’s stool and leans back.
“My boy will be here soon with all my belongings. When he
arrives, I’ll unpack my office first and show you my brother’s
will, signed by Reuben himself.”
It takes a moment for me to realize “boy” refers to his
slave. If Daddy knew that his brother owned slaves . . .
My eyes prick with tears all over again. I won’t cry in front
of him. I won’t.
“Be reasonable, sweet pea. Such a will would have been
invalid, anyway. The law, in its wisdom, protects the weaker
sex from the hardships and vicissitudes that attend the own-
ership of property.”
“I’m not weak.”
“Of course not. You’re a Westfall.” His smile is all teeth.
“But you are a young lady, one who has just suffered a terrible
tragedy, no less. It’s a good thing I came when I did.”
“Why? So you can . . .” I almost say “kill me too.” “So you
can take what doesn’t belong to you?” I finish lamely.
“It’s mine, lawfully and morally. And so are you, sweet
pea. My very own charge.” His gaze on me softens. It’s the
same look of affection Daddy gave me when he said I had a
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strong heart, and it chills my bones.

“This is a hard time for you; I understand that,” he
continues. “But you and I, we are much alike, I think. We’re
going to get on swimmingly.” Keeping his eyes on me, he
picks up his plate, stabs the ham with a fork, and crams the
first large bite into his mouth.
I ignore him, pulling on my own boots—Daddy’s castoffs
from years ago—and head toward the door. I have plans to
make.
“Where are you going?”
I whirl to find Uncle Hiram still peering at me. He seems
nervous all of a sudden, and I’m pleased to have shaken that
smug composure, though I’m not sure how I did it.
“I’m going to muck stalls.”
“That’s man’s work.”
“There’s no man here willing to work, far as I can see.”
He frowns. “That barn is the cleanest I ever saw.”
“Because I don’t shirk my daily chores.”
We stare at each other, our chins set equally hard, and the
thought niggles like a worm in my belly: Maybe we are alike.
Maybe just a little.
Finally, he says, “You’re too valuable to waste on farmwork,
Leah. I know what you can do. And I intend you to keep on
doing it.”
I do a stink-poor job of keeping the shock off my face.
Daddy told him. Hiram knows about me. My knees turn as
wobbly as pudding. I need to get away to the barn fast, before
I fall apart completely.
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“But when my boy gets here, I’ll start making a lady out of
you. I know Reuben and Elizabeth let you run wild as a colt,
but no longer.”
“Whatever you say.”
“I care about you, Leah Westfall. More than you know. I’ll
make sure you have the best of everything. The best gowns,
the best grooming, the best—”
I walk out and slam the door behind me.
Uncle Hiram tricked my daddy, for sure and certain. He
drew up the will, and Daddy signed without question. Hiram
was the one person Daddy had trusted and loved enough that
he let his guard down.
Trust someone, Mama said. Her dying words, burned into
my heart. But she was wrong. When there’s gold to be had,
you can’t trust anyone. Not a single soul.
Snow has started to pile up against the barn, and I scoop
some of it out of the way so I can swing open one of the barn
doors. It’s not until I’m wiping snow from my hand on to my
skirt that I realize I’m still wearing my brand-new dress.
Peony greets me with a snort and a head toss. I shove the
locket under my collar so she doesn’t accidentally break it,
then I slip into her stall and put my arms around her neck.
Finally, I let the tears flow.
“You want to go west with me, girl?” I whisper into her
mane.
My shoulders relax and my jaw unclenches as she snuffles at
my hair and neck. We lived in the barn for two years before
Daddy built our house. The animals come first, Daddy always
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said. They’re our lives and livelihood. I don’t really remember

that time—I was too little—but I’ve always felt at home here
with Peony. Always felt safe.
Our wagon sits braked in the center of the barn. On each
side are four stalls containing Peony and the rest of the team,
two milk cows, and now Uncle Hiram’s black gelding. Tack
hangs on wooden pegs at the opening to each stall. Hay is
stacked against the back wall and in the loft—not enough for
winter, not with Hiram’s horse here.
I cast around for our missing gold, but I don’t sense it any-
where. I’d bet all the hay in our barn that Hiram took it to
get assayed already. He probably used some of it to pay our
debt to Free Jim and then put the rest in the bank. There’s
no way I’m getting it back now.
“How do you feel about wearing a saddle again?” I say to
Peony. It’s been years since she’s worn anything but a soft
halter for riding; I’ve always been able to direct her with my
knees. But a trip across the continent will demand a lot more
of us, and I’ll need finer control and a firmer seat.
It’s tempting to take the wagon; I could carry more, and
Peony is used to that bridle and harness. But if Hiram knows
what I can do, he’ll come after me, for sure and certain. I’ll
travel so much faster on horseback.
I stumble against Peony with a sudden realization, my
knees threatening to betray me. I’m the reason he killed my
parents. He wants me. Or rather, my gold sense.
I should leave. Right now. No, tonight when Hiram is
sleeping. Maybe I can still catch up with Jefferson. My heart
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squeezes at the thought. In the space of a week, I’ve lost my

parents, my home, and my best friend. But if I catch up to
Jeff, I’ll get one thing back.
Daddy has saddlebags around here somewhere. And horse
blankets for winter. My neighbors left enough food to give
me a fine start. I’ll bring one change of clothes, an extra can-
teen, Mama’s old tinderbox . . .
Thinking of Mama sends her voice into my head. Nothing
slows a girl down faster than haste, she always said when she saw
me hurrying my stitches.
I step away from Peony and take a long, slow breath. I need
to be smart about this, not fast, and there’s no way in heaven
or hell I’m making it to California with nothing but a gun,
a horse, and some leftover funeral food. Jefferson, at least,
could hire on as protection or even a hunter. Anyone would
be glad to have him along. But I’m just a girl. Which means
I need money. Enough for almost a year’s worth of supplies.
I ought to hire a chaperone too, or no wagon train will have
me along. I need to look neat and respectable. I need . . .
I need to be a boy.
My pulse hammers in my throat. Could I do it? I’m strong.
I can shoot better than any man in Dahlonega. Maybe if I
cut my hair. Wrap my chest tight. It will take a day or two
to alter some of Daddy’s clothes to fit me. I have handsome
eyes, sure, but some boys do. I’ll just keep Daddy’s hat brim
pulled low. When I find Jefferson, I’ll ask him to say I’m his
little brother, even though we don’t look a thing alike.
Annabelle Smith would be scandalized to hear what I’m
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thinking now. But it’s my best shot; I know it is. Once I run
off, Hiram will be searching for a girl. And if I look like a boy,
no one will think twice about me riding astride or bringing
down a deer. I won’t have to be neat and proper all the time.
I could travel alone, and no one would pay me any mind.
Even as a boy, I could sure use some money. My hand goes
to the locket at my chest. No, not that. But Mama has a
nice bracelet. Hiram won’t notice if a few of the chickens go
missing.
My chickens. Who will take care of them?
It hits me like I’ve been mule-kicked: I’m leaving home.
Once I’m gone, never again will I wake to sun shining
through my dormer window. I’ll never again bake a cobbler
with peaches picked fresh from my very own orchard. My
parents will never get proper headstones.
I’ll just have to make sure it’s all worth it. Find a new way
for myself. Maybe California is a place where a woman can
have her own land, her own life.
I’m coming, Jeff.
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Chapter Seven
I’ve spent the last two days being agreeable to my uncle.

Not friendly, mind you. Just blankly pleasant enough not
to arouse suspicion. I made him breakfast both mornings,
helped him take off his boots each night, and let him sleep
in my parents’ bed without batting an eye. I’ve also been
altering some of Daddy’s clothes to fit me, and I’m exhausted
from staying awake so late, peering at blurry stiches by the
light of a single candle.
It’s the third morning after the funeral. I’m leaving today. I
still don’t have any money, but I’ve scrounged up a few things
to sell. I’m trying to decide whether to sell them to Free Jim’s
store or head out of town first.
Uncle Hiram sits across from me, eating the breakfast
I made. He’s mopping up egg yolk with a biscuit when he
raises his head and says, “I’m sending you to finishing school
in the spring.”
I sit quietly, hands in my lap, gaze cast down so my eyes
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don’t give me away. It shouldn’t matter what he says, now

that I’m running off, but his declaration makes me feel like
a cat with fur being rubbed the wrong way. “The school in
town is just fine. Everyone likes Mr. Anders.”
“It was a place to start,” he says around a mouthful of
biscuit. “But it’s no place to finish. I suppose letters and
sums will be useful to us, but you need to learn style and
comportment.”
I’m not sure what he means by “useful to us,” but I nod and
say, “If you think it’s best.”
“Which isn’t to say you won’t be busy here when you’re
home. I’m sure there’s plenty of gold still to be found.”
He wipes his hands on a dishcloth, then puts them into the
pockets of his vest. When he pulls them out, they’re both
fisted. He reaches them toward me and says, “I have a gold
half eagle in one hand. Which is it?” There’s a twinkle in his
eye that reminds me so much of Daddy that my chest hurts.
The coin sings to me clear as spring runoff from his left
fist. I point to the right.
He smiles. “You can’t keep secrets from me, Leah.”
I sigh and point to the left.
“That’s my girl.” He opens his fist, and there it is, shining
yellow-bright. “Here. You can have it.”
I snatch the coin from his palm.
In the next instant, I almost give it back. Hiram just made
me divine gold. He asked me to do it, and I did. Without
question. But I can’t say no to five whole dollars right now,
even if they come from the devil himself.
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A horrid thought occurs to me. “You thinking of taking

us west?” I ask. That’s the last thing I need—to go where he
intended all along.
“Yes,” he says. “Though not for at least a year. Everyone
else can help themselves to the surface and placer gold. I
have bigger plans in mind for us, but we’ll need to put some
polish on you first.”
I can’t imagine what that means. Maybe I’d rather never
know. Unable to make nice a moment more, I rise from the
table. “I have chores need doing.”
“And I have some errands to attend to today.” He pulls his
silver watch from his breast pocket, flicks it open for a look,
then closes it and shoves it back in. “My boy will be here with
my things by the end of the week, and I’ll need room in the
barn. I want you to sell two of the horses.”
I gape at him, marveling at my luck.
He misunderstands. “I know you’re fond of them,” he says
gently. “But I don’t want to pay to feed more horses than we
need, and my own are much better stock.”
“Not Peony,” I say.
“I might sell that one later. Abel Topper was asking about
her. Thought he might get a deal, since Reuben passed.”
My fingernails dig into my palms.
Maybe I imagine the sympathy that flits across his face.
“Take two of the others for now. With so many people head-
ing west, Free Jim can turn them around for a quick profit.
I’ve already talked to him. He’s expecting you.”
Uncle Hiram has just unwittingly paid my way to
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California. “Yes, sir.” My mutinous lips want to smile more

than anything, but I won’t let them.
“Bring me whatever you get. It will help pay your tuition.”
“Yes, sir.”
I busy myself with cleaning as he rises from the table, and I
refuse to look up as he buckles his holster and dons his over-
coat and hat. Go, go, go, I say in my own mind, like a prayer,
but Lord Almighty, does he take his sweet time about it.
Finally, the door closes, and I allow that grin to go slipping
all over my face.
I whip off my apron and hang it by the washtub. I run
upstairs to my dormer, where I grab Daddy’s castoff boots
from under the bed—the ones I wear for hunting and muck-
ing stalls. I’ve already stuffed extra stockings into the toes,
but I won’t put them on for good until after I’ve sold the
horses. After lacing my own boots tight, I pull the leaflet
from where I hid it under my straw mattress. It’s wrinkled
and damp, and the upper right edge has a tear because I’ve
handled it so many times. Mama used to say the water of the
Atlantic goes on and on—to the edge of the world. I want to
see that someday; I surely do. But Jefferson is heading toward
Independence, so that’s the way I’ll go too.
I lay the leaflet on the floor. With the toe of my boot, I
edge it slightly under the bed. I want it to look natural. Like
I left it there on accident. Hopefully, Hiram will find it and
think I’m heading to California by sea.
For the last two days I’ve been silently saying good-bye to
everything in the house—the box stove, the worn table where
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we ate so many meals together, the porch where Mama and I

used to sit on summer evenings, and especially my bedroom
with its beautiful window. The patchwork quilt, though, I’m
taking with me. It’s already wound tight in a saddlebag, hid-
den in the hayloft.
My new-to-me shirt and trousers are in the barn too, along
with some supplies and Mama’s sewing shears. It all has to
wait a few hours more.
The town square is packed with people when I arrive with

the colts, Chestnut and Hemlock, pulling my wagon. There’s
no way I’m getting through this noisy crowd, especially with-
out Peony to keep the colts in line, so I steer around behind
the courthouse and the general store. It’s muddy back here,
but quieter. I throw the brake lever, grab my skirts, and jump
from the wagon.
I give Hemlock a pat on the nose, tie the colts’ reins to
the store’s back porch rail, and walk through the gloomy
alley between courthouse and store, toward the square.
Hundreds are gathered on the green—all miners by the wiry,
sunless look of them, a few of them slaves. They’re listen-
ing to someone lecture from the steps of the courthouse,
and as I approach, the speaker’s words ring out: “Why go
to California? In that ridge lies more gold than man ever
dreamt of. There’s millions in it!”
I almost laugh aloud. It’s Dr. Stephenson’s voice; I know it
well. He’s from the mint, and he’s assayed our gold plenty of
times.
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Everyone in the crowd mutters. Some are nodding. But

others, like me, are tickled by the fact Dr. Stephenson con-
siders this a compelling argument. Sure, there’s plenty of
gold in Findley Ridge; you don’t need to divine it like me to
know that. But it all belongs to the mine, and Dr. Stephenson
is wasting his breath. These men are going west, for sure and
certain. There, they’ll work just as hard as they do now, and
at the end of the day, they’ll have sore backs and blistered
hands and coughs that won’t quit—but they’ll get to keep
their gold.
Good thing I’m leaving today. Most of these folks will be
a few months saving money and selling their belongings, but
soon enough, there won’t be anything left of this town. I
edge away from the crowd and mount the steps to Free Jim’s
store.
“Leah Westfall,” he says as I enter. He stands behind a
counter painted bright white. Beside him is a glass jar full
of hard candy, a large scale for weighing dry goods, a smaller
scale for weighing gold, and—new to my eye—a half-dozen
large pickaxes. The shelves behind him are filled with pairs
of boots; some new, some not. “What can I help you with?”
he asks.
Gold pricks at my throat. He’s got dust lying around some-
where, in addition to coins from the mint. “Hello, Free Jim.
Uncle Hiram wants me to sell two of our horses. A matched
pair. Know anyone in the market?”
“The colts, right? The ones Reuben broke?”
“Yes, sir.”
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“And now your uncle wants them gone.”

“Yes, sir.”
He studies me close, rubbing at his jaw. Softly, he says, “That
Hiram Westfall owns you right proper now, doesn’t he?”
His words give my belly a squirm. Too loudly, I say, “Seems
like everyone around here is making plans to head west.”
“Indeed. The sooner you get to a gold field, the better you’ll
do. Folks in this town remember that.”
Free Jim glances around the store, but we’re alone. Everyone
is outside listening to the speech. He says, “McCauley was
asking around town after his boy. Seems to think his son ran
off to Savannah, hoping to catch a boat and sail halfway round
the world. Don’t suppose you know anything about that.”
I pretend to misunderstand. “Mr. McCauley spoke to me
at the funeral, said the same thing.”
“Might have been a mistake for Jefferson to go.”
I step toward the counter, getting right in his face. “You
know he has reasons to strike out for himself.”
He holds up his hands. “That’s not what I’m saying.”
“Then what?”
He considers me, as if deciding something.
Free Jim reaches beneath the counter and pulls out an old
farmer’s almanac, the kind Daddy always kept lying around
for easy reference. He opens the cover, revealing a square of
thick folded paper tucked inside. He unfolds the square and
spreads it out. “This is Mitchell’s Reference and Distance
Map, the 1846 edition, with an inset for Texas, California,
and Oregon.”
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I peer at it. “Oh?”

“We’re right here.” A large blunt finger drops onto the sec-
tion labeled “Georgia.” The states are marked in bold out-
line, each one filled with brightly colored counties. His voice
drops to a whisper. “Now, when someone leaves Georgia, and
they don’t want anyone finding them . . .”
His voice trails off. I swallow a lump in my throat. “Like
Jefferson, you mean.”
“Sure, like Jefferson.” His fingertip traces across Georgia to
the ocean. “Say the rumors are true and Jefferson is going to
Savannah. That’s trying to get to California all in one jump.
A temptation, to be sure. But he’ll have to wait there to find
passage, and waiting somewhere is asking to get caught. Even
if he does find passage, the ships will have records. Passenger
manifests that anyone could look at.”
“How should he do it?” My next words are timid. “Head for
Independence?”
“Sure.” The map keeps trying to fold back up. Free Jim
grabs a boot from the shelf behind him and plunks it on the
counter to hold down the edge. “If Jefferson is smart, and I
reckon he is, then he should consider his journey in stages.
The first thing is to get to Chattanooga. There’s only one
road across the mountains. Now, let’s say somebody’s look-
ing for him.”
“Like . . . his da.”
“Like his da. Any store or tavern or farm he stops in,
people might recognize him. So he’s got to camp out. But
the local pattyrollers know all the places to hide. So the
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faster he gets away from here, the better.” He pauses, leans

forward. “The most dangerous part of the journey is close
to home.”
Daddy always said the slave patrols were little better than
bandits. For the right price, they’re happy to go after just
about anybody, and Uncle Hiram wouldn’t think twice about
sending them after me. I bend over the map, memorizing the
towns on the way to Chattanooga—Prince Edward, Ellijay,
Dalton.
Jim slides his finger westward over the mountains. “Let’s
say Jefferson makes it to Chattanooga. From there he’s got
two choices: He can go overland, through Kentucky and to
the Ohio River. Or he can get on a flatboat or steamer and
ride down the Tennessee River.”
“Which is better?”
“He should go by land. He can keep moving, not get tied
down where someone might catch him. It’s hard to run when
you’re on a boat, unless you can walk on water like our Lord.”
I choke on a laugh.
Free Jim’s return smile quickly fades as he indicates a
twisting blue line that cuts the map in half.
“The Mississippi River?” I ask. It looks huge. Even on
paper.
“Yep. Everyone going west must cross the Mississippi
eventually. By ferry or steamer.”
“Is that . . . expensive?”
He nods. “The steamer surely is. And bound to get more
expensive every month. By this time next year, fares will be
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double, at least. But once the river is crossed, Independence

is just a state away.”
I study the roads that lead from Chattanooga, but there
are too many places to remember. As long as I go north and
west, I’ll get there.
Jim spreads his hands on the map, one thumb on Dahlonega
and the other on Independence. “If Jefferson’s all alone for
this part of the journey, he’ll need to be full of care. You
understand me?”
“I understand.”
“But if he reaches Independence and joins a wagon train,
the guides will take him the rest of way.”
“So, the wagon journey is the easy part,” I say.
He shrugs. “I wouldn’t say that.”
I fall back on my heels, shoulders slumping. The country
is bigger than I thought it was, and I’m going to need more
money than I realized.
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The bell on the door chimes. Free Jim quickly folds the map,
stuffs it inside the almanac, and slides it under his counter.
A fellow I don’t recognize crosses the threshold and goes
straight for the gold mining tools.
“I’ll throw in the wagon too,” I say, as though we’ve been
haggling this whole time. “Hiram wants them all gone to
make room for his own team.”
“So you’re saying I can get a bargain.”
“I’m saying you can get a fair price.”
“I’d be happy to take them off your hands,” he says. “But
I’ll have to stable them at the hotel until I find a buyer, so
the best I can offer is seventy-five each. Ninety if you throw
in the wagon.”
“They’re a matched driving team and saddle-broke to
boot!” The man perusing mining equipment glances our way.
I force calm into my voice. “Worth at least two hundred and
forty for the pair.”
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Free Jim leans forward, resting his arms on the counter.

His voice is so low I must strain to hear: “I don’t keep much
money on hand. Man like me has no place to put it.”
It’s a split second before I realize he’s talking about the
bank. They won’t open an account for a Negro.
“So I mostly trade in goods and store credit, understand?
If you want to hear the jangle of gold eagles, and I suspect
you do, you’ll have to let it all go for one hundred and eighty
dollars, and I’ll be doing that as a favor to your late father.”
“Oh.”
His gaze softens. “Tell you what. I’ll throw in a few men’s
shirts.”
“Men’s shirts?”
“I’m sure your uncle could use some new ones.” Whispering,
he adds: “Light. Easy to carry. They’ll be worth ten dollars or
more to the right person at the right time.”
“I see.”
The stranger picks up a pan, turns it over in the light, as if
pondering how such a thing could possibly help in the search
for gold.
Free Jim asks, “Ever heard a mockingbird?”
I’m not sure what he’s getting at. “We had one last sum-
mer, sounded just like an oriole. Mama would get so excited,
then she’d look and look and never see it.”
“You understand what I’m saying, then. If someone’s look-
ing for an oriole, that mockingbird is going to slip right by
them.” He pauses. “Anyway, I’ll throw in some men’s shirts.
I’m sure your uncle will find a good use for them.”
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I swallow hard. “I appreciate that, sir.”

“So. People might come around asking after . . . Jefferson.
Which way should I say he went? By land or sea?”
“By sea. He went by sea. I’m sure of it.”
“All right, then.” I’m not sure why Free Jim is so keen to
help me out. Maybe it’s because he was such good friends
with my daddy. Maybe he has his own suspicions about
Uncle Hiram. Regardless, I need to get out of town fast,
before Free Jim isn’t the only one who figures what I’m
about.
He writes down the total on a piece of a paper. “I’ll need
your signature on this bill of sale,” he says. “For when Hiram
Westfall comes asking after his horses.”
The bill of sale does not mention the shirts. I sign my
name.
Jim counts out a huge handful of eagles and half eagles.
One hundred and seventy dollars total, which he bundles up
inside four long-sleeved, linsey-woolsey shirts in such a way
that they don’t jangle even a little bit. The final ten dollars he
breaks into smaller coins and hands to me.
I’m pocketing the coins when he says, “Best of luck, Leah
Westfall. Lord willing, I’ll be seeing you very soon.”
My gaze snaps to his. He winks at me.
Free Jim is planning to go west too. I smile, and it feels
like my first genuine smile at a fellow human being in days.
“I surely hope so, Mr. Boisclair.” I have at least one friend
besides Jefferson, and that’s no small thing.
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Chestnut and Hemlock were never my favorite horses. Still, I

can’t bear to say good-bye. On a promise from Free Jim that
he’ll have them tended right away, I leave them behind the
store and circle around the crowd on foot. As soon as I’m out
of sight of the town proper, I hitch my bundle of boughten
shirts and hidden coins under one arm, pick up my skirts
with my free hand, and run as fast as I can. It’s three miles
till home, and I run the whole way.
Once inside the barn, I pull the doors shut and lean against
them to catch my breath. My uncle said he had errands, but
I don’t know exactly what that means or how long he’ll be
gone.
I race up the ladder to the hayloft and shove a bale aside
to reveal my stash of clothing and supplies. My fingers are
clumsy on the buttons of my dress, and I force myself to slow
down. Good thing I’m wearing my old day dress, which but-
tons down the front.
I shrug the dress to the ground and unlace my corset. I
fold them up and stuff them inside one of the saddlebags.
Shivering, I wrap Mama’s old cotton shawl around my chest
as tight as I can and tuck in the edges. It doesn’t feel very
secure, but it does flatten what little there is. Hopefully, I’ll
get better with practice. Hopefully, my chest won’t grow any
larger.
I pull on the trousers and shirt I altered, then shrug the
suspenders over my shoulders. Daddy’s boots feel way too
large on my feet. I’ve tended the garden and mucked stalls
in them, even hunted a little, but walking and riding all day
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long will be a different matter. I’ll just have to make do.

Only thing left is my hair. I grab Mama’s shears.
I’ve always liked my hair. It’s long and thick, gold-brown
like my eyes. I was so proud the day Mama let me put it up,
knowing it would shimmer in the sunshine. I didn’t bother
putting it up today. Before I can think about it a second lon-
ger, I grab my braid and start hacking away.
Hair is stern stuff. It takes some effort before the braid
comes away in my hand. My head immediately feels lighter.
Remembering how Mama always trimmed Daddy’s hair, I
snip along the top and sides too, so it’s short all over. I’m
probably making a mess of it without a mirror to guide me,
but my hat will cover the worst of it.
I shrug the saddlebags over my shoulder. Braid in hand,
I start to descend the ladder, but wisps of gold-brown hair
catch my eye. They almost blend into the hay, but not quite.
I can’t leave my hair for Hiram to find.
I gather it all up, quick as I can. I’ll hide it in one of the
stalls. No—too risky. I should dump it somewhere in the
woods, along with my women’s clothes.
My saddlebags are already fit to burst, but I shove the
shiny mess down inside one anyway, then I spread loose hay
around to blur the sight of any stragglers. I drop the saddle-
bags to the ground and follow them down the ladder.
I toss the bags beside Peony, and I grab her bridle from its
peg outside her stall.
The unmistakable clop-clop of hooves nears the barn
entrance.
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I dart inside Peony’s stall and swing the door shut. I crouch
in the front corner as the barn doors creak open and light
fills the space, along with a rush of fresh, icy air.
The creak of a saddle as someone dismounts. The jangle
of a bridle. “There, there,” Hiram says. “That’s a good boy.”
Will my uncle wonder why the wagon is gone, even though
he didn’t ask me to sell it? Will he see that Peony’s bridle is
missing from its peg?
I hardly dare to breathe as I strain my ears. He’s unsaddling
Blackwind, far as I can tell. Now he’s removing the bridle.
Blackwind stomps, and Hiram chuckles. “You’d like that,
wouldn’t you, boy?” he says. “Fine. A rubdown it is.”
No, no, no.
Peony snorts and tosses her head. My uncle’s footsteps
approach. “Hullo, girl,” he says.
Don’t look down, don’t look down.
Above me, a thick arm in a black woolen sleeve snakes out.
Peony allows her muzzle to be rubbed, though her nostrils
remain flared. “You’ll get used to us, girl,” Hiram says. “So
will your mistress. I promise.”
The arm disappears. Footsteps retreat. I wait, quiet as a
mouse, my heart in my throat, as he rubs down his gelding.
Is it twenty minutes? An hour?
Finally, finally, he sets the curry brush back on the shelf
and closes Blackwind’s stall. The barn doors shut behind
him, leaving me in safe, blessed gloom, and I loose a single
sob of relief.
I stay frozen, waiting for him to get out of earshot. When
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I can stand it no more, I spring to my feet and toss Peony’s

blanket over her back, followed by the saddlebags and saddle.
As I buckle on the rifle holster, I whisper, “We have to move
fast and quiet, girl. Won’t be more than an hour before he
starts to wonder why I’m not home yet.” And sooner or later,
he’ll figure out what the missing wagon means.
She bears the saddle without complaint, and I heap praise
on her and kiss her nose. After one last tug on her girth strap,
I take her reins and pull her from the stall. Gradually, quietly,
I crack open the barn door and peer outside. A light snow is
beginning to fall. Hiram’s footprints, crisp in the fresh snow,
lead toward the house.
The barn door isn’t visible from anywhere in the house
except the back porch, so I probably have a few minutes to
get out, close the door, and get into the cover of the woods.
I’m about to yank her forward when I get an idea.
Blackwind’s saddle hangs over the side of one of the empty
stalls. I grab my knife from the belt at my waist and saw
through the girth strap. It takes longer than I care for, but
unless Hiram’s a dab at bareback riding, it’ll be worth it.
I grab Peony’s nose strap and lead her from the barn. The
door squeals when I close it behind us. I swing up onto her
back. She dances a little, but I dare to hope it’s with antici-
pation rather than nervousness over the unfamiliar saddle. I
check that Daddy’s Hawken rifle is steady in its holster, and
give her flanks a light kick. She lurches forward, eager to go,
but I keep her at a quiet, patient walk.
The world is smothered in soft white. Fresh flakes continue
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to drift down, and I twist in the saddle to make sure they’re

filling Peony’s tracks. No birds call, no rodents rustle in
the barren underbrush, no wind whistles through the bare
branches. The winter-still world holds its breath, waiting for
me to give myself away with a sound.
I nose Peony behind the barn and into the woods. I bend
over her neck to avoid low branches as we twist through the
maze of chestnut and red oak and digger pine. The trees
break wide too soon, revealing the white ribbon of open
road. I pull Peony up short.
If I take the road, I risk being seen by someone who knows
me. If I keep to the thick woods, I can’t go fast enough to
outrun Hiram.
With a kick and a “Hi-yah!” I urge my horse into a gallop.
I refuse to look back.
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Peony and I fly down the road. The wind sweeps my hat
from my head so that it flaps like a sail at my back, the chin
strap strangling my neck. The icy air on my face makes the
corners of my eyes tear. Or maybe it’s the fact that I’m leav-
ing home forever, as fast as I possibly can.
We reach the fork, and Peony slows, sides heaving. She
noses toward the familiar route into Dahlonega. I steer
her left, on to Ellijay Road, but she tosses her head and
veers right again. “Please don’t fight me, girl. Not today.”
When she feels the reins against her neck a second time,
she gives in.
I resist the urge to spur her back into a gallop. Though she
pulls our wagon almost every day, I haven’t been running her
regularly. I need to take care of her if she’s to stay sound all
the way to California.
But this is precious, precious time; the only part of my
journey when I can put distance between myself and Hiram
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before he realizes I’ve run away. Which means I’ll have to

run Peony again once she cools off. I’ll have to.
The most dangerous part of the journey is close to home.
“We might make Prince Edward by dark if we hurry,” I
explain, my voice sounding hollow and lonely in the empty
winter woods. “Daddy’s been there.”
My plan is simple: stay on the big road until I get to an
even bigger road, and head off into the woods if I see some-
one familiar. If I’m lucky—very lucky—the gathering at the
courthouse will last awhile, leaving the road empty.
An hour passes. I urge Peony into a gallop again. This time,
she pulls up even sooner, and I dismount to walk beside her
for a spell, giving her a chance to rest.
I feel smaller when I’m not on Peony’s back. Smaller,
lonelier, colder. The woods loom to either side, dotted with
adjoining paths that all look the same—gloomy tunnels
through leafless forest, barely wider than deer trails. What if
I’ve missed an important turn? I hope I’m going in the right
direction.
Any direction is better than back, I tell myself firmly. Soon
enough, with the sun low and me still not home, Hiram will
realize I’m gone. He might be searching already. I did my
best to misdirect him toward the sea route, but what if it
wasn’t enough? There could be men on the road right now,
pattyrollers or borrowed miners, coming to ride me down.
Maybe they’ll ambush me, bursting out of one of these silent,
gloomy trails.
I can’t help myself; I swing back into Peony’s saddle and
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urge her forward. She tosses her head in protest. “It’s just a
few days of hard travel. Once we’re out of Georgia, we can
slow down a little.” I reach down and pat her neck. Even in
the fading light, she’s a beautiful animal, with a shimmery
golden coat and a flaxen mane and tail.
“Peony,” I say, pulling her up and sliding off again. “We’ve
got a problem.”
Everyone for miles knows “Lucky’s palomino.” She’s even
more recognizable than I am, with a coat bright enough to
shine in the twilit gloom. I whip off my gloves and stash
them in my pocket. With my bare hands, I shove aside some
slushy snow and scoop up the mud beneath it. When I lift it
toward Peony’s neck, she twists her head away.
“Sorry, girl, but everyone knows that pretty coat of yours.”
Working fast, I smear mud down the side of her neck. She
nips the space near my ear in warning. That’s the thing about
Peony—she’s sweet most of the time, but if you do some-
thing she doesn’t like, she’ll let you know. Daddy used to say
she and I got along so well because we had a few things in
common.
“Hold still!” I rub a little mud on her flanks, wary of an
impending kick. When I smooth it down her rear legs, she
whips her tail around to swat my face.
I give her reins some slack and step back to see how she
looks.
“Blast.”
It’s only my first day on the road, and I’ve already made a
huge mistake. She’s exactly the same horse as before, with
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her proud bearing and corn silk mane and a glorious tail that
almost brushes the ground. Now, she’s muddied up in a way
that will draw even more attention, and the precious time I
spent disguising her is a total waste.
I start to climb back on, but I pause, foot in the stirrup.
There’s another bit of business I should take care of while
we’re stopped. The delay might add up to another huge mis-
take, but ignoring the task could be worse.
Every decision I make right now feels like the wrong one.
I’ll just have to be quick.
I hobble Peony and grab my woman’s clothes and shorn
braid from the saddlebag. It’s an armful, even rolled up tight
as it is, with the corset, the full skirt, and the petticoats. The
whole mess is probably worth a decent sum, and for the hun-
dredth time I consider selling it somewhere. For the hun-
dredth time I come to the same conclusion: It would seem
mighty odd for a young boy to walk into a store with a bun-
dle of female fixings to sell. They’d take him for a thief for
sure—which might make them look close enough to realize
he wasn’t a boy at all.
Using a small branch and the heels of my boots, I dig at the
ground, squelching up mud and rotting leaves. I don’t have
time to make a proper hole, so I settle for a small depression.
I drop in my parcel of hair and clothing.
I stare down at it too long, feeling strange. The edge of the
skirt’s ruffle has started to escape the bundle, and the shiny
braid winks up at me. It’s like I’m burying half a girl here.
Peony’s snort moves me to action. I cover it all up best I can
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with more mud, add a few deadfall sticks and rocks, which
ought to hold if a big rain comes this way. My saddlebags are
a lot lighter now. I mount up and kick Peony forward, but my
back twitches, like that buried bundle is staring after me and
my ill-fitting trousers.
The mud dries on Peony’s coat, making her skin twitch
like it’s covered in flies. She shows her annoyance in a hun-
dred tiny ways, from fighting her bridle to flicking her tail.
“That was a bad idea, and I’m sorry. I promise I’ll clean you
up as soon as I can.”
She tosses her head as if to yank the reins from my hands.
“Stop it!” I snap. “I’m doing the best I can, you ungrate-
ful, mule-headed . . .” My tirade fades as quickly as it came.
Yelling at my only companion won’t do me any good.
Night falls. I don’t dare gallop her in the dark, but neither
do I dare stop. At least Peony’s shiny coat is becoming a col-
orless gray in the gloom. No one would recognize her now.
My tiny spark of relief is doused by the clop-clop of hooves.
Someone approaches.
Everything inside me yearns to dash for the woods and
hide, but I have to face people eventually. I nudge my hat
brim low, sit straight in the saddle, and trust the moonlight
to hide what it must.
A silhouette appears around the bend and rides toward me
at a leisurely pace. Not anyone I know, thank the stars. He’s
gray and heavily whiskered, and he stoops low over a sway-
backed mare. A huge tear in his hat has been hastily stitched
with dark thread.
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“Howdy,” he says, with a tip of his hat.

“Howdy,” I reply, tipping my own hat. One little word, but
it sets my heart pounding fit to tumble out of my chest.
We pass each other. I stare straight ahead as if I haven’t a
care in the world, as if I’ve every right to this road. I imagine
him calling out at my back. What’s a young lady like you doing
out here all alone? Why is your horse so muddy?
He doesn’t. The sound of his mount’s hooves fades, but it’s
a while before I breathe easy. “We did it,” I whisper after a
spell. “I don’t think he suspected a thing.”
We press on. The air chills. Peony’s steady steps echo
around us. Except for that man with the mended hat, I
haven’t seen a single soul, which is odd, even for winter. I’m
fretting all over again that I’ve gone the wrong way, when
I catch the sharp scent of burning pine. Sure enough, we
round the next hill and find Prince Edward.
Houses cluster along a western slope, smoke rising from
their chimneys and lanterns glowing in their windows.
Below them are a white clapboard church, a small store,
and a two-story tavern. Lanterns swing from the tavern’s
front post, illuminating the double doors and wooden stoop.
Everything I need is there—oats for Peony and supper for
me. But I don’t dare go inside.
A group of men stagger from the tavern door, where they
pause to don their hats and pull out their pipes. Coals glow
in their pipe bowls, and sickly sweet tobacco smoke fills the
air.
Quickly, I aim Peony away. We’ll circle the town, keeping
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to the shadows. Then we’ll find a place to camp for the

night.
Too late. “Hey, boy,” one calls out.
I pretend not to hear, but my neck prickles, and my grip on
the reins tightens. Peony sidesteps in response.
“Boy, I’m talking to you. What’s your name?”
I recognize his voice now— It’s Abel Topper, from the
funeral. The one I saw talking to Uncle Hiram.
I hold Peony to a smooth, casual pace, but my mind races.
Topper was a foreman at one of the mines before it dried up.
His men—all desperate for work—could be here with him.
My uncle might have hired them to look for me. Why did I
waste time with that awful mud?
“Leave the boy alone,” someone says.
Topper’s voice drifts toward me. “That looks like Lucky
Westfall’s mare, is all I’m saying. Hiram said he’d sell her to
me.”
“Topper, you’re too drunk to know a mare from a mosquito.”
“Not that drunk. What’s she doing out here? I’m telling
you . . .”
Abel Topper’s voice fades with distance, but I feel his eyes
boring holes into my back, and I don’t know what to do
about it except to keep us walking. We pass the stable, the
church, the store, and a few more small houses. Once we’re
out of sight, I kick Peony into a run, urging her to go faster
and then faster still.
After a minute or two, Peony pulls up in protest, and I
let her. I dismount and wrap my trembling arms around her
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sweaty neck. “That man won’t take you,” I choke out. “You’re
not going back to Uncle Hiram. No matter what.”
The most dangerous part of the journey is close to home.
The woods hemming the road are dense and black, and I
lead Peony into the cold thick of it. She needs time to walk
off her sprint, so I don’t stop until we find a stream with a
trickle of water; nighttime makes it look like an inky scar
slashing through the ground. I work mostly by feel, feeding
Peony what little oats I’ve got in my pack, rubbing her down,
checking her over. Galloping her was a stupid and dangerous
thing to do in the dark; we’re lucky she didn’t injure herself.
I take my time, making sure to brush away every speck
of that stupid mud. When she bumps her head against me,
I know she’s finally forgiven me for this terrible day and is
ready to rest. I shiver with cold as I hobble her beneath the
trees.
Good thing Daddy made me learn how to start a fire in the
dark. I scrape a small hole in the ground, rooting around for
dry wood as I go, then I pull out my tinderbox and coax up a
fire. I hunker over the flames until I stop shivering.
There’s nothing to eat except the trail food in my saddle-
bag, but I don’t want to touch it. What if it has to last? There
could be Abel Toppers in all the taverns, general stores, and
boardinghouses from here to Independence.
What’s she doing out here? Abel Topper said. He wasn’t
expecting to see Peony. Which means my uncle didn’t send
him. In fact, Topper probably arrived hours ago. Maybe even
yesterday. Long before I left.
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The thought frees me to grab some hardtack and force

myself to eat. As I chew, my thoughts drift to Jefferson,
who set off with even less than I did. I hope his supplies are
lasting and the sorrel mare is doing well by him. I hope he’s
safe, with a cheery fire of his own. And to be honest, I hope
Jefferson’s soul is giving him a sting that he ran off on me,
leaving me all alone.
No, he couldn’t help it. He was in a bad way as much as
me, with a daddy who is worse than no daddy at all. It wasn’t
Jefferson’s fault. It wasn’t.
The hardtack turns to grit in my teeth, and my stomach
rolls over in protest. Turns out, I don’t have room for much
inside me except worry and anger and tears that haven’t been
given leave to see daylight.
Speak of the devil and you summon it, because just thinking
about tears invites them to spring to my eyes. I blink rapidly,
trying to tamp them down because they feel like angry tears,
not sad ones.
There, I’ve said it. I’m mad.
I’m mad at my parents for not being here, I’m mad at
Jefferson for leaving without me, and I’m mad at myself for
not going when he asked. I’m mad at everyone back home for
brushing off my parents’ murders, and I’m mad they turned
the funeral into a church social. Most of all, I’m mad at Uncle
Hiram for being a slimy, villainous beast and taking every
single thing I ever loved. I’m scared and I’m mad, and both
keep me awake in the dark for a long time.
The cold wakes me before dawn. The fire has burned down
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to nothing. I’m shivering, teeth chattering, and my blanket

is soaked with dew.
My stomach is truly empty, and my tears have dried; I
won’t be shedding more. I chew on another bit of hardtack
as I saddle Peony.
The only way to go is forward. “C’mon,” I say. “We have to
keep moving.”
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Walk on Earth a Stranger

The text of this book is set in 11-point Hoefler.

Library of Congress Cataloging-in-Publication data is available.

ISBN 978-0-06-224291-4 (hardcover)

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In Dahlonega, Georgia The Wagon Train

Hiram Westfall, Reuben’s brother From Arkansas

Major Wally Craven, the wagon train guide

The Illinois College Men

Jeannie Smith, their slave From Ottawa Valley

Charles Robichaud, a ranch hand

Jeremy and Samuel, their five-year-old twin sons

Emmett Tackett From Ohio

Helma Hoffman, his wife

Carl, their eight-year-old son

Rebekah “Becky” Joyner, his wife

Olive Joyner, their six-year-old daughter

Andrew Joyner Jr., their four-year-old son

Matilda “Aunt Tildy” Dudley, their cook

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Which means I have to make this shot. If only I could

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with me, ready with a second shot. Everything’s harder when

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matter what, on the misguided notion that regular bench

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can’t afford another pair right now. Good thing I wore my

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He’s too large for me to carry over my shoulders. I’ll have

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The sun is high over the mountains when I finally haul my

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a break in the trees. We keep the land clear here, so nothing

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had sons. I’m forever weary, my hands roughed and cracked,

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Daddy always says I was born with a gold nugget in my left

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mattress, lodged in the toe of my boot, even buried in the

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gold dust hidden beneath the floorboards. Daddy says we’re

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Daddy’s rocking chair stills. “It doesn’t belong to us,” he

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wooden spoon at me. “Leah Elizabeth Westfall, I will not

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“You’d be robbed for sure,” Mama adds. “Or worse.”

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By morning, the air has warmed enough that fog slithers

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“You seen Jefferson?” I ask.

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