I will Love once again..

I WILL LOVE ONCE AGAIN!

….no matter how much I still miss you

I WILL LOVE ONCE AGAIN!

….no matter how much I still miss you

Krishna

Sristhi

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First published by Srishti Publishers & Distributors in 2012

Copyright © Krishna, 2012

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I may not tell her so in words,

Doesn’t mean I don’t love her.

I think of her each and every moment,

But I don’t want to admit it.

With struggling days, sleepless nights

I still cry for her and miss our fights.

You went far away from me,

I am still looking for you in agony.

Running here and there in pain,

I promise ‘I will fall in love once again’.

Acknowledgments

Writing this book was a tribute to my love and there are so many people that I am overwhelmed with gratitude.

I am thankful to my Parents and sister for their love and support. My special thanks to priety without whom this book would not have been there. Thanks for being in my life, wherever you are I am sure you would be glad as I kept my promise. APJ school and my great teachers who always supported me during my challenging phase and assisted me in completing my schooling. My college DAVIET and my evergreen college friends Ridhi, Deepti, Aseem, Rupali and shiven. My cutest junior Priyanka kakkar who recently got married.

Thanks to WIPRO technologies, My ex tech leads Isha gupta and Bindya Sharma for believing in me. My ex manager Ramit Kumar who always guided and stood behind me. Chiya(Pooja) my ex Wipro acquaintance and first to ever know that I will be writing.

Richa bajaj and Prateeksha aggarwal who are always with me and promised to promote my book. My manager Hitesh jain for being my wall. My friends Saurabh singh, Kamal, Deepika Arora.

Thanks to Varun Maria for reviewing every page and for always believing in me that I can be the Star, Simerdeep singh bhatti for being such a character that I can bank on and for always believing in me that I can do anything, Puneet Sharma for all the great time in Pune and his assistance forever.

Special thanks to Sharika for being so unique and for her critics and then her prayers & wishes for me. Rakshandha for her prayers especially during the phase when I needed them the most. Aishwarya kothapali for always praying, encouraging and wishing me.

Thanks to my maternal relatives for supporting us during my toughest phase, Sachal babbar for motivations, prayers, wishes and all the good things I keep learning from him.

Srishti publishers for being so encouraging and promoting my writing.

OM SHANTI

CALL LETTER AND JOINING

March 2009:

"I got engaged. The guy is nice, earning handsomely and has a family business as well. Are you happy? I asked her. My family is happy. She responded. Congratulations!" I could say only this and she disconnected the phone.

I completed my B.Tech in Information Technologies from DAVIET in 2008, that too with distinction. The year was 2008-09 which every engineering student would want to erase out from their memory. The recession landed many people with cut offs in their salaries, pink slips in their pockets and never ending hope for thecampus placement. That was the time when many parents might have been thinking of engineering as a curse. I too have reasons to hate the same year but different ones. After a series of failures in my attempt to run my own business and having lost the girl whom I loved since 12th standard, I flunked in all the marketing concepts that I tried to achieve something big and like every bollywood movie my girl. It was the time when I felt like a destitute and like every other normal guy held God responsible for everything. Right from taking away my girl to making me face the loss in my business, I lost all trust on that supreme power; I packed all the images, in my room and dumped them into a box. I had no option left but to explore classified columns of the local newspapers to search for jobs matching my profile.

It does happen that sometimes you lose all your hopes but suddenly there is a surprise for you something most unusual and unexpected. I waited for a year and then finally got a call from an MNC. I got this mail on 4th April 2009 which was as follows:

Dear,

We acknowledge and appreciate your patience in waiting to join our organization. We are also eagerly looking forward to have your on board with us. We are committed to honor every offer that is made and it gives us pleasure to communicate your date of joining.

Your joining date is scheduled on 22nd Sep 2009

Details of joining formalities and location of in-house training would be communicated two weeks in advance from the above date of joining.

The details of the induction and engagement program are as follows:

In house Training:

• You would be in an in-house training for a period for 2 months, as per your offer letter.

Month in lieu of salary. Your salary (as per your offer letter) will be restored once a suitable project opportunity has been identified for you and you have commenced working on the same.

We also take this opportunity to convey to you that in view of the delay in joining we have decided to make an exception and waive off the Bond formality for campus selects of 2008 batch that will be joining us post April 1, 2009.

• On successful completion of your training you would be assigned to projects with salary as per your offer letter.

It is possible, however, due to the difficult market conditions currently prevailing, that we may not be able to assign you to a suitable project immediately on completion of the in-house training. Should such a situation arise, we would engage you actively through an extended Web based training program at residence, which will be delivered by company’s Talent Transformation team. While you are on extended training, you will be paid an interim allowance of Rs.6000 per

Yours sincerely,

Well! Unexpected surprise never means all that things will be under your control. The e-mail above had some favorable news and bad news too. The good news waived us all from any bond with the company but the bad one was that now the company could kick us anytime because of no bond. The good news stated that the package would be same as per the offer letter but sadly due to bitter market conditions we might be sent back with only training programs in our pocket.

Now the question was to sit and wait for the September joining as it could be delayed in future depending upon the marketing conditions or to move forward and join local companies here and there. My maternal aunts and neighbours were already preparing their children for the future by giving my example of completing my studies and still sitting home. Who would explain recession to them or make them understand that I was not sitting at home out of my own sweet will after 4 years of exasperating studies. So to shut them up and to keep myself occupied I joined some private firm as a software consultant on incentive bases! What an irony! The guy who just passed out would be a consultant and that too for the products he should be developing. But it was hundred percent a marketing job tagged with consultant on the visiting card.

I now decided to lead a life where I would let it take complete charge. No expectations, no enthusiasm, no energy and no life. I was already shattered, unlike a few months back when I was running my own business and my girl was with me. I was then leading life on the edge, charging everyday with the energy to create something big and achieving her but in a split second the game turned and I was here.

I had a dream boss in the company I joined. He was smart, Intelligent, witty and cooperative but nobody is perfect so he had a weakness too and that was a glad eye for the beautiful hot girls in the office. He used to remind me of an amazing character played by Aditya Pancholi in YES BOSS.

We are developing software that will allow them to keep track of each and every patient in a hospital. I hope you get it and the next time you target clients with the same requirement. Preet will hand over all the details to you. My boss explained.

Preet was my boss’s personnel assistant or you can say another consultant like me handling marketing job. She was just a girl of 18 and pursuing her BCA degree on a distant learning programme. Technically she was my senior too.

May I come in?

Our eyes shifted to the door in the cabin as it was a soft voice, possibly that of a girl. She was Neha a new recruit. She not only entered the room but directly into my boss’s heart..

You can leave now as I guess you have an appointment. Smilingly my boss waved at me. I had no option just to obey him.

I came late the next morning, so he was the first person I met.

Why so late?

I was running short of a specific reason so I replied quickly,

I had a meeting with the principal.

Oh! So how was it?

It was good and they may opt for our services. I smiled.

I hope this client of yours opts for our services like your previous client did. My boss replied sarcastically. I hope you come in time from tomorrow.

I left the cabin and went to my bay where the team was already present, staring at me as if I was answerable to them. To my surprise, my seat was already occupied and Neha was working on my PC. I quietly went and sat near her.

A formal introduction and we started chatting. It does happen that sometimes you get close to some people very soon and sometimes you take ages. I never understood this philosophy of positive vibes or negative ones, but soon we were talking. As we talked I never knew that how time passed and it was lunch. But before that I got a call on my intercom.

So I hope your deal is fixed? Inquired the voice from other side.

Who’s this? I asked softly.

Your damn boss!!!!

Oh boss! I stood up, Sir I was about to leave and I thought I will…

What you will? Don’t just sit and enjoy the office AC, just go out and enjoy the work too.

Beep! Beep!

I smiled, pretending to be normal and confidently said, My client is impatient to see me.

I guess it was your boss Na. She asked inquiringly.

I was left with no choice but to leave and go out for the deals. I don’t know why all bosses and managers are given the right to peep into their junior’s personal life. My boss was looking me from the cabin as my bay was just opposite.

I was not at all serious about the job I was in but somehow I managed to close one or two deals and my boss was really happy with me. My interaction with the team was good and Neha also joined it. We used to lunch together, have tea and even left the office at the same time. As the days passed this became one of the reasons that my boss started to keep an eye on me. Anytime, anywhere if I was seen talking to her, I always get a call from him. Who wouldn’t? Especially if you are planning to marry the same girl with whom your junior is going around. But my boss was not that rude, he used to make comments, some sarcastic remarks but more often they were in a friendly way. May be he was sure there was nothing between two of us or he knew that after all he was the boss.

Everything was going fine, being an engineer I was doing well in the marketing job, thanks to the earlier experience where I had failed miserably. The office was good and my acquaintances were very nice to me, but somewhere in my mind there was something that was making me insecure and uncomfortable. I was not at all at the right job. I was able to engage myself completely during the day but was going through the struggling sleepless nights as I cried and constantly mourned the past. I wanted to run away, far away from this city. It could be anywhere, any corner around the world but it should