The Best of Best American Erotica 2008: 15th Anniversary Edition
By Susie Bright
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Power Dynamics
Relationships
Self-Discovery
Erotica
Sexual Exploration
Forbidden Love
Love Triangle
Sexual Awakening
Friends to Lovers
Enemies to Lovers
Opposites Attract
Secret Relationship
Transformation
Age Gap
Fish Out of Water
Identity
Voyeurism
Intimacy
Coming of Age
Personal Growth
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To mark its fifteenth anniversary, the top-selling erotica series achieves a scorching new climax with a special edition showcasing standout stories from the entire series as well as never before published pieces -- plus interviews with the authors and, for the first time, a hot and edgy piece from Susie Bright herself.
In Susie Bright's own contribution, "Story of O Birthday Party," she recounts her lover's elaborately orchestrated birthday gift: a re-creation of Pauline Réage's classic S/M tale with Susie at the center of the action. Joe Maynard enters a love/hate relationship with a two-million-dollar sex toy in "Fleshlight." Greta Christina's "Are We Having Sex Now or What?" asks the provocative question of what defines authentic sexual connection and experience.
Thoroughly electrifying -- and thrillingly eclectic -- the 2008 edition promises to open new doors with its exhilarating, equal-opportunity approach to erotic writing. Straight or gay, dominant or submissive, romantic or sadistic, Bright's selections run the gamut -- and push all the right buttons.
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- Rating: 5 out of 5 stars5/5This collection offers a really good spread of short erotica. Each story has a different theme, from incest to domination, straight to gay, and a few other types, so there really is something for everyone. And all the stories stand on their own--that is, if you took out the sex scenes, they would still be good stories (with the possible exception of one or two that require sex to drive the plot). If you're looking for some good short stories that aren't afraid to incorporate sex, this book is for you. If, however, you're just looking for a, ah... "quickie," you may want to find another collection.
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The Best of Best American Erotica 2008 - Susie Bright
Introduction
This is the fifteenth anniversary of The Best American Erotica series, and my last turn as editor.
Whew.
In this volume, I’ve invited some of my favorite storytellers to make an encore appearance. I interviewed each author, and asked:
What inspired you to write your story in the first place? How do you see it, now, compared to when you first wrote it?
When Debra Boxer first penned Innocence in Extremis,
she was deliberately and publicly a virgin. When Greta Christina wrote Are We Having Sex Now or What?
she demanded to know what authentic sexual connection was made of in the first place.
I think my answer to Greta’s question was, If you have to ask, you’re probably in the thick of it.
Editing this series, for example, is one of the best sexual experiences I’ve ever had, and I’m not being coy.
So how have I changed, as BAE’s editor, in the past fifteen years?
When I was thirty-five, I had a new baby on my hip. I got a phone call from an editor in New York who said, I hear you know more about erotic literature than anyone else in the country.
I shifted baby Aretha to the other side. Well, if that’s true, that’s pathetic…but you’re probably right. Most people have no idea what they’re missing.
What were they missing? Honesty, for one. Good sex stories were in hiding. For a lot of readers at the time, American erotica
was an oxymoron. It appeared as either some well-worn Fanny Hill–style paperback, or a plain-brown-wrapper novelty that revolved around a nymphomaniac and a pizza delivery boy. Not a bad start, but hardly the whole works!
Women erotic authors at the time were virtually unheard-of. Queer writers were underground. Henry Miller and D. H. Lawrence had been consigned to the stuffy scholars’ corner of academia. Not a bright or accessible picture!
But I’d discovered something new since I started publishing small-press women’s erotica in the 1980s with Herotica and On Our Backs. There were new writers willing to speak as frankly about sex as any other part of life—to hell with the smarmy stereotypes. They were inspired by Beat masters, S.C.U.M. manifestos, and Penthouse Letters, but had fashioned their own new breed of storytelling.
Some people wished that the best erotica
would hold court as a romantic walk on the beach with a soft-focus ending. But the best authors I’ve worked with were outlaws, nonconformists, walking short planks on fantastic piers. Those are the waters where the best
was swimming. Nobody’d ever heard their names before.
There were a couple of famous exceptions. When I started BAE, I wrote personal letters (e-mail was not something most people used!) to Nicholson Baker and Anne Rice, thanking them for using their real names to write unabashed and eloquent erotic novels. They came from such different worlds, but they both put their reputations on the line. The early 1990s were still a time when most respectable
writers avoided distinct or frank sexuality.
Nowadays, I don’t think there’re mainstream novelists who haven’t been asked what role sexuality plays in their fiction—or why they’re pussyfooting around, if they continue to avoid it. It’s the stuff of Pulitzer and Nobel Prize winners.
It’s not so much that erotica has made a narrow genre successful—although that’s true too—it’s that writers now don’t hold back the sex part
anymore when they write about…anything. The omission was always unnatural and deceptive, and now the lie is laid bare. Sexless stories about human relationships are dishonest. How did anyone write about love, life, or death and manage to avoid it so neatly? It was a hoax, and thankfully behind us.
Success and innovation in contemporary erotica bred fantastic originals—and also exploitation and mediocrity. Not exclusively, but certainly exponentially! That’s the sign of how big American erotica became—it’s admired, envied, and the butt of any number of literary jokes. But the proof of the erotic literary revolution is all around us, in cinema, on the Web, in our music.
Since I started BAE we’ve seen so much happen in American sexuality. There’s been the dominance of the Christian fundamentalism in public policy, the fear—and then ghettoization—of the AIDS epidemic, the revolution of the Web, porn chic, kink liberation, the rise of multicultural literature—and gay literature, the end of the thriving independent American bookstore era, two wars, an impeachment vote, 9/11, and a national abstinence policy direct from the White House that is designed to keep us chaste until marriage, no matter how old we might get. The trench has been dug. There’s a war on the ground, and a war for minds and hearts that reaches into the deepest American roots of Puritanism, individualism, and rebellion.
I don’t know if we could have survived it all if it wasn’t for some great erotic writing. No one wrote with more poignancy about New York and 9/11 than Tsaurah Litzky’s End-of-the-World Sex.
No one captured the religiosity of sexual guilt better than Greg Boyd at his Horny
best.
And the message of redemption—when you’ve done everything to screw the pooch—can be seen in the agonies of stories like Alicia Gifford’s Surviving Darwin.
What makes a piece of erotic fiction remarkable, even legendary? Probably the biggest factor is its unpredictability, the miracle when it transcends formula.
I couldn’t resist Marian Phillips’s Three Obscene Telephone Calls
because it so neatly dug the nice girls
grave. Thomas Roche innovated the trans-noir thriller with stories like his Up for a Nickel.
Nostalgia for the innocence that preceded labels, before consciousness of the world’s judgments, is spun like honey in stories such as Patrice Suncircle’s Tennessee.
There’re a few stories in this collection that I never got to include in BAE before because they predated 1993. I hungered for them; I cursed my tether to our annual tradition. First among those yearned for was Blue Light,
the novella by Steven Saylor, writing as Aaron Travis, which is perhaps the most fantastic supernatural erotic thriller ever written. Edgar Allan Poe would find a telltale cock pounding in this one. At first, I couldn’t go to sleep from reading it, and then I couldn’t rest until I published it! I’m so happy to finally have the story here.
The best erotic lit is always highest comedy and deepest tragedy—both in the cut, at times. I laughed at Eric Albert’s The Letters
when I wasn’t moaning at his protagonist, You’ve got to be stopped!
Erotic prescience illuminates places and times that couldn’t be captured any other way—like New York on a high-wire down low in Nelson George’s It’s Never Too Late in New York.
And sometimes, you just need to laugh—a helpless, naked, wet belly laugh—at it all, like Joe Maynard’s Fleshlight.
The shaming prejudice about sex writing is that it’s supposed to be so porny, so stupid, so obvious that anyone
could write it, craft unnecessary.
But how many people can perfect its satire and get you off at the same time, like Serena Moloch’s Casting Couch
? How many chick-lit authors can turn a Manicure
into a descent into the S/M looking glass, as Martha Garvey does? And who could articulate the dilemmas facing woman’s sexual choices like Susan St. Aubin in her This Isn’t About Love
? Without their direct erotic approach, it wouldn’t have been said nearly as well.
I also have some memorable new stories in this collection, too. I’ll never say Fuck me, Santa!
again without thinking of Steve Almond’s A Jew Berserk on Christmas Eve.
Haddayr Copley-Woods’s haunted house made me creep to my bed the night after I read it and felt the floors whispering to my soft feet. Jennifer D. Munro had me howling with size-queen irony in Pinkie,
and Eloise Chagrin reinvented a cuckold’s tale in Playing Doctor.
Erotic literature is made to break taboos—that’s its promise. Rowan Elizabeth’s Halves
transformed a Hansel and Gretel–style fairy tale into a way of seeing unbreakable desire. Author G. Bonhomme reconstructed the male libido in his Program,
and Susannah Indigo throws every Sex and Love Addicts Anonymous rule out the car window in her Year of Fucking Badly.
I, however, am ending my tenure as your editor a little sadly—although with great affection and respect. At the back of the book, you’ll see I’ve included a list of all 272 writers I’ve worked with in our series to date—it made my jaw drop as I reviewed the list from top to bottom. I’ve also provided a Readers’ Directory of the most influential editors, publishers, ’zines, and Web sites that’ve made erotic lit something to celebrate.
There’s one person in particular I’ll be missing as the series goes on—that’s my dad, who passed away as I was first composing this anniversary edition.
When I was asked to start Best American Erotica in 1993, the number-one most excited person in the world was my father, Bill Bright. He was an editor, a linguist, a poet—and the greatest reader I’ve ever known. That’s not daughterly affection; probably everyone he knew would say the same thing. His descriptions to me of the history of American erotica, and censorship battles, were something he’d taught me since I had my first questions about banned books.
When I was a little girl, he would sit me up at his desk while he was proofreading the galleys of his linguistics journal, Language. He’d give me a pencil and tell me to look for e’s and a’s that weren’t closed up, serifs that had broken off. It took me pages and pages to find one, but what a treasure to discover a real mistake!
He proofread every one of my BAE manuscripts, which offered plenty of new grass to mow. His expertise and enthusiasm in world languages and writing systems were invaluable to every character in this series who spoke a line of dialog. Between the two of us, we covered a couple centuries of popular culture, idioms, and historical references.
In August 2006, Bill was proofreading the latest of my galleys, up to page 125. The next day he went into the hospital for brain tumor surgery, and he did not recover. The day before, at his desk, was the last time he used his red pen.
The following winter, I was back to work at my office, and I said to my daughter, now eighteen, "It just won’t be BAE without him."
Aretha looked at the pile of unread manuscripts that sat on my desk, and started writing little notes all over them. And so the apple falls to the ground. I’ll treasure her Post-its as I have every one of my dad’s red-ink remarks.
Thank you to everyone, for all your letters, counsel, sexual inspiration, and surprises over the past fifteen good ones. I can’t wait to see what’s going to happen next; and I’m sure you’ll find me in the thick of it, for many years to come.
Susie Bright
February 2008
Halves
Rowan Elizabeth
Tavis and I are twins; each one half of a whole.
Mother was a twin. Her brother, Ian, was her only true friend. He was killed in the Pacific in forty-two. She immediately married Ian’s best friend, my father, and they mourned together. They must have mourned primarily in the bedroom, for shortly after they found themselves expecting.
Our parents were blessed with both a boy and a girl in one messy arrival. Father cradled me and cooed my name, Minna.
Mother laid Tavis out on the bed to examine his ten tiny fingers and toes and to be sure he arrived with all of the requisite equipment. They promised their infants a childhood of loving innocence.
Tavis and I were inseparable. Every one of our firsts came together. First steps, first words, first climb up a tree. Neither of us would leave the other behind. We refused to bathe unless we were together. Mother schooled us at home, and we spent each hour of the day together. We slept in the same bed until we were twelve. That’s when Grandmother moved in, bringing her money, her views, and her yappy little dog.
Grandmother had been left well-off when Grandfather passed away. How our mother grew up under her rule confounded us. Yet Mother was gracious and beautiful, glowing with the love of life she passed on to us.
I will not allow Minna to be ruined like your brother ruined you,
we would hear Grandmother chastise Mother. Grandmother was appalled and swore we would grow up differently.
Everything changed when she came. I could no longer wash Tavis’s back as he took his bath; I had to wear my swimsuit top when we went to the lake. Grandmother didn’t permit us to hold hands or to eat off of the same dinner plate any longer.
Father was a quiet man with sad, loving eyes. He was proud and worked hard to provide for us. When Grandmother and her heavy purse took up residence, both barreled over Father and Mother.
The atmosphere of eternal spring left our house.
I was kept at home to be taught by Mother while Tavis was shipped off to St. Boniface Catholic Church for a proper Catholic education. Grandmother gave strict instructions, and a healthy donation, to the school for them to keep tight reins on Tavis.
We were put in bedrooms on opposite ends of the big house. Grandmother entrenched herself in a bedroom between ours. She slept with her door open, and her tiny devil-dog would bark when anyone passed in the hall.
I couldn’t sleep without Tavis next to me. Mother would lie with me until I fell asleep. After she left, I would wake and imagine I could hear Tavis down the hall. I knew he was awake and Mother was lying next to him to coax him to sleep.
Our separation was horrible, and it seemed that nature conspired with Grandmother to increase our suffering. Our bodies changed, and we could not revel in those changes with each other. I’m sure Tavis noticed my developing chest, just as I took in his peach fuzz across the breakfast table. I wanted to tell him about the monthly change, and about the heavy feeling between my legs when I tried to fall asleep.
A handful of years later, Grandmother paid the tuition for Tavis to attend a college hundreds of miles from home. I was not to receive further education. Grandmother had courted a family for their eldest son, who was tightly tied to the Church. She planned my marriage as though we lived a hundred years in the past.
As terrible as it may sound, we were relieved when the old crone died the summer before Tavis was to go away to school. Mother and Father used the money Grandmother left to send us both to the university. There I developed my love of art and the workings of the mind. Tavis studied engineering, a subject that his technical mind devoured.
Once again we were divided, not by the rules of Grandmother but by the rules of the university—co-ed dorms were unheard of at that time—and our temperaments. Like my father, I was quiet and took everything in. Tavis flourished in the public setting.
My roommate was a loud southern girl who lived in bright colors and heavy makeup. Many nights she snuck her new boyfriend through the dark halls and brought him to our room. I would feign sleep and silently watched her allow him to fondle and caress her. He would run one hand over her blouse while he tried to inch the other up her stocking-clad leg. She would giggle and smack his hand. It was the night when she didn’t giggle that shocked me.
I saw his fingers coax their way up her thigh, and bunch up her skirt and slip to reveal the tops of her stockings and the suspenders of her girdle. For the briefest of moments, his hand cupped the crotch of her white panties.
I touched the heaviness between my legs and felt something spark. There was wetness, and everything felt fuller than it did when I washed in the shower. The bump at the top of my female separation seemed to dance under my fingers. Quietly, I rubbed myself, the wetness growing and unnerving energy building up. Something was coming together between my legs, and it felt as though it would break through my skin. And that’s exactly what it did. The energy flew from my body into the room and took off for the sky.
Minna, are you awake?
asked my roommate.
I lay quiet in the dark and pretended sleep.
Tavis told me, He thinks I’m asleep. He pulls and tugs like I do and groans at the end.
Tavis and I spent every moment outside of class huddled together on the upper levels of the student union or in the stacks of the library, trying to make up for the years Grandmother had kept us apart. Over time, those years apart began to seem like an unfortunate dream.
Tavi! You do it, too? How?
When I first started, I would wrap my sheet around my parts and rub against my bed. I would do it every night after Mother left my room. I wanted to come to your room to show you. I would get long and firm and just running my hand along it made me light-headed. Then I used spit, but now I use baby oil.
What on earth for?
To make it slick; it’s easier for my hand to rub up and down.
I get wet all by myself. I put my fingers in my opening to get the wet part, and then massage it into my…uh.
It’s called a ‘clitoris.’ I’ve found books. The textbooks talk about penises and vaginas, but an author named Henry Miller calls our parts cocks and cunts.
Heat flushed not only my face, but spread between my legs. You have to show me these books.
We read everything we could find. We would take our books to an unused room on the top floor of the library, and Tavis would help me put together the pieces.
I rubbed myself in my room. I think all of the blood in my body rushed to my…my cunt. I could hear my heartbeat in my ears and I was breathing so hard.
I jerk off as much as I can.
Tavis enjoyed using our new language.
Show me. Show me how you do it.
He unfolded his legs and leaned against the wall. I bit my lip as he opened his trousers and pulled out his pink flesh. It was bigger than I remembered from years ago. Limp and wrinkled, it had a bulbous head with the same slit in the end. It didn’t seem as imposing as the pictures showed or the stories described.
Tavis spit into his hand and began running his hand over his penis. He pulled on it in such a way that I was sure he would hurt himself.
As I watched, the flesh in his hand grew. It lengthened and became fatter. Oh, how it changed!
Tavis closed his eyes and stroked up and down his length. He would pause and roughly handle the full head. Moisture formed at his opening. I wanted to reach out and touch that glimmering drop. Tavis began making low sounds. I watched in amazement of his obvious pleasure. I wondered if his thighs tingled like mine did when I touched myself, like they were at that moment.
I pressed my hand between my legs to calm the growing rush. Instead of peace, I found I needed to press harder.
Tavis began lifting his hips and jagged sounds rasped from his lips. He opened his eyes and looked at me at the same moment I knew his pleasure had reached its peak. Stroking furiously, he cried out as thick white cream spit from the opening in his penis. He slowed his hand and relaxed into the wall with a deep breath.
Does that happen every time?
When I was really young, I felt a rush, but nothing came out. But now, yes, I come every time.
I was amazed. I leaned forward on my knees and touched the fluid on his belly. It was thick and clung to my finger, which I raised to smell, but stopped short of putting to my tongue.
Tavis’s penis was already shrinking, and his breathing was returning to normal. The insistent ache between my legs refused to subside.
That night, as I touched myself, I thought of Tavis coming for me.
I knew that his lengthened penis was made to push into a woman’s body. As I plunged my fingers into my opening, I imagined that they were the strong flesh between his legs.
Over Christmas holiday, Tavis and I went home to be with our parents.
The life had returned to our house. Mother squealed in delight when Father would tickle her and chase her through the kitchen. There was no one to tell Tavis and me that we couldn’t squeeze together in our favorite overstuffed chair.
And there was no one sleeping in the hall between us; the devil-dog had been given away.
Each night, when the house became dark and quiet, Tavis crept down the long hall to my room. He lifted the heavy quilts and slid his body next to mine. I curled my back into his chest, and we slept as we had when we were children.
During the third night, I felt him grow hard and insistent against my backside. I pressed my bottom into his firmness and heard his sharp breath. His arm that had lain easily over my waist held me tight as he rubbed over the swell of my behind. His breathing became like it had been when I had watched him touch himself…like my breath did when I touched myself.
I could feel my heart beating between my legs and a fullness low in my belly. Tavis clutched my hip as he jerked, and his wetness soaked into my nightgown.
He pulled my soiled clothes over my head and wiped himself and me. I rolled onto my back and looked through the darkness.
Tavi, I need something.
He took my hand and guided it between my legs, pressing it against me with his own. Show me,
he said.
I began tracing the path that slid into my wetness and pulled it up to circle my nub. Tavis curled up against me and wrapped his arm around my middle. I massaged with increased speed and pressure, the fingers of my other hand slipped into my vagina.
I came quickly and rested against him only a moment as I gathered my energy to show him how far my pleasures could take me. As I began to experience my second orgasm, I felt his penis grow stiff against my hip.
In the safety of the dark, Tavis pulled his body on top of mine. I opened my legs to let him lie between my thighs.
I won’t enter you.
I felt the smooth head of his penis as it slid up the soft flesh of my thigh. For the briefest of moments I felt it nuzzle at my opening; involutarily my hips raised to meet him. My wetness allowed the head to break through my opening, and Tavis let out a cry of panic. He pulled his cock from me and sat up on his knees. I could see him clutching himself as he ejaculated on my belly.
Horrified, he wiped up the cream with his hand and rushed out the door. He did not come back to my bed after that night.
Back at school, Tavis would not be alone with me. His roommate, Sean, was with us always. Without him, Tavis avoided me. I did not know if it was his shame or his fear of temptation that kept him from me.
I would go to our room on the upper level of the library and take in the scent of the books that I associated with Tavis. I would close the door, turn out the light, curl up, and cry. I couldn’t understand how he could leave me.
Your brother stopped by to see you today,
my roommate told me.
Why?
Probably because he’s your brother, silly. He wanted me to tell you that you should come by his room tomorrow after dinner. He has something to tell you.
My roommate continued her bedtime ritual, unaware of the butterflies flying from my stomach out my mouth. The butterflies landed between my legs; their light tickling made me want to rub them away.
As she slept, I caressed myself and thought of being stretched and entered.
I walked across campus, but my heart was racing and my breath was catching as if I had run the whole way.
Tavis opened the door as soon as I knocked. His sharp features softened into the smile that had carried me through childhood. For the first time in a month he opened his arms to me. I crushed myself against his chest. He stroked my hair and held me.
Minna?
I looked up into the face I loved more than any other.
I heard a noise off to my right. Sean stepped up beside me and pushed the door closed. Startled, I pulled back and looked to Tavis for explanation.
Sean reached out and touched my face.
I stumbled backward into the door. Tavis caught my hand. Minna, let me explain.
I stared at the two boys as if they were strangers.
Sean, can you give us some time?
Before leaving, Sean kissed Tavis on the mouth. My Tavi!
Tavis led me to the sofa that sat opposite the sleeping lofts. He gave me a glass of sweet liquor and held my hand.
Minna. Sean and I want to be lovers.
You love him more than me?
I asked. My mind screamed.
I can’t be with you, and there isn’t another girl who can replace you.
He filled my glass with more of the sticky alcohol. I drank it quickly, without thinking, and he filled it again.
I want you to see us. Watch us. I can’t have my first time without you.
The liquor clouded my senses. I curled my legs under me and nestled under his arm. Is this what you really want?
Yes.
I could not deny Tavis anything.
I sat in the crook of his arm and took in his scent. He allowed me to run my hands over his hard chest and down the muscles of his arms. My head lay in his lap when Sean came through the door.
Wobbly, I stood and faced my replacement. His green eyes were soft and understanding as he pressed his hand against my cheek.
Let me see you love him,
I said.
Tavis stood and held my face in his hands. With a smile of gratitude, he kissed my lips and pulled away from me into the arms of Sean.
I sat on the sofa and watched. I tilted my head and bit my lip as their mouths came together. My Tavis with another.
Sean, not as tall as Tavis, took the lead and began stripping my brother of his clothes. Their urgency was startling…so much so that I could taste it in the air. I sipped my liquor and watched as they shed their clothes.
When Sean sat, I inched down to the far end of the sofa. I was a mere two feet from this naked man, whose erection stood above his body. My blood pounded with a familiar throb.
His erection was only the second I’d seen; I compared it to Tavis’s. Sean’s wasn’t as long, but it was more thick and meaty, more solid.
Tavis knelt between Sean’s spread legs and brought his mouth to the protruding cock. I leaned forward to observe as much of the scene as I could. My hand ran over my belly, and my fingers slipped into the waistband of my dungarees.
Tavis’s tongue darted along the raised ridge of Sean’s penis before he opened his mouth to take it in. Tavis shut his eyes and, with a deep suck, pulled Sean into his throat. His inexperience engendered a gag and he pulled back. I saw that his eyes watered. He tried again. His hands ran over the taut muscles of Sean’s thighs as he worked against the flesh riding his tongue.
I reached out to touch Sean’s bare shoulder. He looked at me with glazed eyes that shut as he leaned into the sofa.
Tavis’s mouth ran up and down the shaft between his lips. His hand followed to stroke the length and then to squeeze the full sac beneath. Sean groaned with deep breaths and began thrusting his hips into Tavis’s face.
They were living art, a human sculpture of smooth skin over muscle and bone. My Tavis was as hard as Sean. I wanted to reach out and stroke Tavis’s penis as I had seen him do, stroke it to explosion. Instead, I cupped my mound inside my pants and squirmed on my hand.
Tavis sat back and coaxed Sean to turn around and present his rear end.
Tavis pulled his roommate’s ass cheeks apart and ran a finger down the crack to the sensitive pucker. He gathered spit and began to lubricate the entrance. He wet two fingers with more saliva and pressed them against Sean’s tight rim. Sean groaned under the sharp pressure. Tavis stroked his lover’s back and murmured quietly. His relaxing gestures soothed Sean; Tavis’s fingers slid past the rim.
I sat forward on the sofa with my head propped to watch the entrance. Tavis’s fingers slid in to the second knuckle, and Sean gave a low moan.
Stroke his cock,
I told Tavis.
Obedient, he reached around and caressed Sean’s bobbing hard-on, his own erection pressing against his friend’s hip.
I wanted him to know that I would give him whatever he wanted. I crossed the room to his nightstand and retrieved the baby oil I was sure would be there. I dribbled the oil over Sean’s backside and Tavis’s straining cock. He pressed the lubricant into Sean with twists of his fingers and then coated his own cock.
I chewed on my lips as I watched Tavis press the head of his cock to his roommate’s ass. The slickness coaxed the head of Tavis’s cock to pop past Sean’s rim. I knew Sean’s pleasure; Tavis was once this far into me.
I sat back on my heels and watched Tavis take Sean. Both rocked into the other with closed eyes and labored breath. Tavis pulled his roommate onto him by his hips as Sean furiously pulled his own cock. I rocked on my balled-up fist between my legs.
My beautiful brother, sweat beaded on his face, eyes crushed closed, was breathing like he had so many weeks ago as he pressed against my bottom. With a deep grunt, he pressed forward. I imagined his cock shooting fluid deep inside his friend.
Tavis pulled his cock out, and a thin line of his fluid dripped down toward Sean’s scrotum. Kneeling, he massaged it into the sensitive skin, reached around, and grabbed greedily at the turgid flesh. Sean began to jerk under Tavis’s assault and shot a long line of cream onto the sofa.
Both boys collapsed into each other. They both remembered me sitting there in the room with them at the same time.
I stared at them with wide eyes and pressed my hand harder against my crotch.
Minna, do you need something?
I could do nothing but shut my eyes and whimper.
I felt the sofa shift as Sean crawled toward me. I opened my eyes to find both boys within touching distance. I reached out and took Tavis’s cock in my hand. It was still heavy with blood and began to come alive under my fingers.
Sean surprised me by unbuttoning my pants and then pulling them off. He coaxed my bottom up as he removed my panties.
I leaned back into the softness, Sean kneeling on the cushions under my behind.
We didn’t talk as my brother and his lover shifted my legs apart. I felt Sean’s long fingers run through my folds. He pulled them apart to further examine me and found my firm nub. His fingers circled as his other hand drew moisture from my opening and coated my pussy with it. He inserted his fingers into me and reached places that only I had touched.
Sean probed and rubbed me until I came in his hands.
Tavis brushed the hair out of my eyes and asked, Do you need something more?
My barely