Megan Thee Stallion Says In Her Words Documentary Helped Her Get 'Closure': I'm 'Proud of Myself' (Exclusive)

• Megan Thee Stallion's Prime Video documentary is out Oct. 31
• The rapper tells PEOPLE the documentary is her way of taking "control" of her narrative
• The film documents the rapper in a "dark place" when she couldn't "even pull myself out of bed half the time"

Megan Thee Stallion is taking control of her narrative.

On Thursday, Oct. 31, the rapper will release her Prime Video documentary titled Megan Thee Stallion: In Her Words — and she's ready to show fans the "human" side of her.

"I really didn't want to do it at first because I was so in a dark place and I didn't want anybody to see me. I didn't want anybody to hear from me. I didn't want anybody to talk to me," Megan, 29, tells PEOPLE exclusively. "I was just not happy. I couldn't even pull myself out of bed half the time. I didn't want anybody to see me like that because usually people see me as such a strong woman."

She continues, "But then I just really got tired of seeing other people tell my story and I knew that I had to take control."

Per the film's synopsis, the documentary, which was directed by Nneka Onuorah, promises to "follow the Houston native’s journey on the road to stardom as she tenaciously navigates fame, grief, pressure and success. The documentary unpacks Megan’s most vulnerable moments in a powerful way that allows fans to meet the real Megan Pete.”

Ultimately, the "Captain Hook" rapper wants viewers to understand she's "not strong all the time."

"I was such in a dark place, people couldn't even ask me how I was doing without me bursting into tears. I struggled a lot with my mental health," she says. "I feel like people watching this are going to see... if my favorite artists could go through something like this and get through it and come out on the other end, I could do it too."

She also hopes viewers will feel empowered to speak out about anything they're struggling with.

Megan was first thrust into the spotlight in 2018, after the release of her EP Tina Show and single "Big Ole Freak," which was her first to chart on the Billboard Hot 100. The following year, her mother Holly Thomas, who managed her career, died from brain cancer.

In 2020, her career was kicked into high gear after the release of "Savage," which later turned into a Grammy-winning remix featuring Beyoncé. Meanwhile, she was grappling with the aftermath of a shooting allegedly involving Tory Lanez.

In August 2023, Lanez was sentenced to 10 years in prison after he was found guilty of shooting the rapper on her foot following an argument in July 2020.

"I was in a very fragile place and I didn't think I would be able to come out of it. But I don't know what happened. I don't know what gave me the strength to really get up and keep going, but I just kicked myself in the butt," she says of filming the documentary. "I just got up and... I'm me right now. And I'm not saying I'm a 100% OK, but I'm definitely not where I was then."

Still, the "Mamushi" rapper — who recently released MEGAN: Act II — is nervous for the world to see it because she's "never been this vulnerable to anybody before."

"I really, really, really want to move past this. And I feel like this documentary definitely helped me get my own closure on that chapter of my life," she confesses. "Seeing where I was then into who I am now. It made me a bit proud of myself."

For Onuorah, filming the documentary was a "life-changing" experience.

"I was able to see a very intimate side of Megan Pete, whereas the world has known her as Megan Thee Stallion," she says. "It was amazing to actually get to know and build a portrait of a human. A young girl navigating great success, but also great grief at the same time, and trying to rise from the ashes and continue to be the amazing person that she is."

Megan Thee Stallion: In Her Words is out Oct. 31 on Prime Video.