Maren Morris Confronted Her Life as a Child Performer During a Mushroom Trip: 'It Was a Nightmare'

Maren Morris had a life-changing mushroom trip.

The country star, 34, opened up about how her journey of self-discovery after giving birth to son Hayes, 4, involved hallucinogenics during the Thursday, Aug. 29 episode of Sophia Bush's Work in Progress podcast.

Morris revealed that giving birth amid the height of the COVID-19 pandemic, dealing with postpartum hormone changes and having her tour canceled were challenging for her mental health.

"It's like a really hard thing to self-diagnose," she told the host, 41. "I was just so lost for so long, and I finally, like, you know, with the help of, like, my friends and family, got on anti-depressants."

Morris said that she felt "extremely futile" and noted that most of the time "the burden" is on the "self-work" women have to do.

For her, that meant continuing therapy, playing tennis and doing hot yoga.

"I'm gonna do this guided shroom trip. I'm gonna go to London for six weeks once it's open to just get out of the States for a second and figure out what the hell is going on in my head. There's just, like, so many layers happening of change," Morris said.

The "Church" artist said it was "like desperation" trying to find out what was happening in her head as she was learning to be a parent.

During her psychedelic experience, Morris said she experienced "losing control."

"My shroom trip was like it was a nightmare," she said. "It was like, yeah. You're not in control. We're gonna strip everything down."

Morris called the experience an "ego death" that made her reflect on her time as a child performer.

"Like, you weren't in control, never were, never will be, and that's terrifying when you were like, a child performer and that was your sense of worth for so long," she said.

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In December 2023, Morris opened up about her experience with postpartum depression on The Howard Stern Show.

"I think I was just starting to make very little sense to myself and to people around me," the Grammy winner said when asked about her depression. "I felt useless in the way of I couldn't work. I couldn't tour. Everything got canceled."

Morris also elaborated on how her identity was entangled with her music career.

"It's a tough one when you've done something for so long to not think that that's you, even though you love it and it makes you a living, that's not who you are. So separating those things was helpful, getting on Zoloft was also really cool," she said.