Entertainment Music Country Music Jennifer Lopez Reveals How 'American Idol' 'Made Me More Human' "To see it reach its end is sad," the star tells PEOPLE exclusively about her final turn as an Idol judge By Melody Chiu Melody Chiu Melody Chiu is an Executive Editorial Director at PEOPLE overseeing Entertainment, Books and Events. With the brand since 2009, she has written cover stories on Taylor Swift, Selena Gomez, John Legend, Sandra Oh, House of Horrors survivor Jordan Turpin and more. Chiu oversees all of PEOPLE's entertainment verticals, as well as events strategy and live red carpet coverage for awards season. She graduated from the University of Southern California and has appeared on Today, The Talk, Good Morning America and more. People Editorial Guidelines Updated on December 1, 2020 09:33PM EST As a judge on American Idol, Jennifer Lopez has helped guide thousands of aspiring singers, but the show has also made a marked difference in her own life. “I truly love it, and I think America loves it – and that’s why it’s been [on] so long,” Lopez, 46 – who’s currently starring in NBC’s hit show Shades of Blue, judging on Idol and performing in Las Vegas for her residency – says in The Jess Cagle Interview with People and Entertainment Weekly‘s editorial director. “To see it reach its end is sad.” Watch more of The Jess Cagle Interview with Jennifer Lopez on PEOPLE.com all this week. Her first season as a judge in 2011 “was a sort of reintroducing me after having the babies and being away for a while,” says the star, who has 8-year-old twins Max and Emme with ex-husband Marc Anthony. “Also for my self-esteem … I had realized I wasn’t feeling great about myself, and then when I was on Idol and people were seeing me and they were like, ‘We like her,’ honestly … That’s nice.” For more on Jennifer Lopez’s gritty new show and her happy life now, pick up the latest issue of PEOPLE, on newsstands Friday. Though she’d been in the spotlight for decades already and “felt that people knew who I was, like they could feel my heart,” it wasn’t until she took her turn as a judge that Lopez realized “they really didn’t,” says the entertainer. “They saw, ‘Oh, she’s a person, she loves music, she’s super emotional, she cares,’ [and] it made me more human to them.” Adds the singer: “Being a part of Idol and that being a part of my legacy, being on one of the greatest television shows ever, all of it feels like such a blessing.” Close