Compliments about my post-birth body meant I hid the truth Only those close to me knew how much I was suffering.
Breast cancer robbed me of memories with my newborn baby Less than a month after having my son, I started to notice a niggle under my left breast.
My mum broke my heart with three simple words I don’t even know how I mustered the courage to respond.
This is why I don’t wait until 12 weeks to tell people I’m pregnant I didn’t want the first time I acknowledged this pregnancy out loud to other people to be in the past tense.
My mum dressed me in long sleeves year-round to hide her crimes It took me years to build up my self-esteem after Mum dismantled it with her words.
Midwives rolled their eyes at my pain. Hours later my baby boy was gone The last thing I remember was seeing a consultant towering over me wearing a visor covered in my blood.
I spent £8,000 on IVF abroad after I was unable to access it in the UK 'If we had spent all our money on one round of IVF in the UK, we would not have our little boy today.'
My mum told me she never wanted children. I’ve granted her wish Since I stopped speaking to Mum she has made no effort to contact me - and my grandparents say she never mentions me.
I was struggling with 2 under 2. My family told me to toughen up During my worst times, when I had two under two, the darkest thought I had was that I just wanted to leave.
After cutting her off, I don’t know if my mum is alive or dead. I’m OK with that She would leave us in the house on Friday and Saturday nights with a four pack of beer and some Babycham, so she could go out.
I thought my daughter was choking on her curry. It was so much worse than that Her eyes rolled back in her head and she let out a strange snorting sound.
Midwives rolled their eyes at my pain. Hours later my baby boy was gone He was gone – just seven and a half hours after he was born.
As a stay at home mum, there’s one question I dread It’s a question I’ve been asked by friends or relatives more times than I can possibly count.