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Second Hello
01:47
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i say hello to you again
my near and dearest friend
we watch the weather come and go
(but my heart won't play pretend)
am i the person you expect?
maybe no and maybe yes
the answer seems some in-between
(or multiplicitous)
i say hello to you again
my old and newest friend
like autumn, winter, into spring
(my heart will make amends)
so we might sound a little different
or like we never even left, yeah
we could stay the same or embrace the change
but we're better off this way!
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Gentle Heart
03:56
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i sat out in the rain
to soothe my racing brain
but anxiety comes through
when i begin to think of you
oh i study where i am
to try and ground myself again
but i am led astray
distracted by the rain
oh my gentle heart beats for you
and all i can hear rings so true
but my gentle heart is pained to see
my darkest fears, my jealousy
so my gentle heart trusts in you
that you might know what to do
i talk to you again
we talk about our friends
and everything that we’re built on
how when i'm down, it seems far gone
and that feeling comes again
that doubt for everything i am
it's easier with you
but it’s so hard for me to trust the truth
oh my gentle heart beats for you
and all i can hear rings so true
but my gentle heart is pained to see
all of the shadows inside of me
so my gentle heart breaks in two
when i think of losing you
i'm sprawled out in the rain
my energy is drained
and anxiety comes through
to tell me that my fear is true
it's roaring at my back
the pain of everything i lack
but i don't think its true
ill trust that you can love me too
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i feel a feeling indescribable
my head is spinning like a bicycle wheel
(and the words come flooding into my ears)
but my mind is stolen right from under me
i'm overcome with every feeling for you
(yet my voice is just content to stay clear)
i love you, adore you
i hope that doesn't bore you
i want you, i need you
oh god i want to speak but- but- b- bleh
but it's so hard to say the things that i'm thinking
like steel in water i'm sinking
(too many to say)
i babble in wordless form
getting lost in the feeling
when i see you beaming
the things around me lose meaning
(asemic and grey)
and jupiter's endless storm
just a stain on the ceiling
and i'm inconsolable
there's no more words to be spoken
(just melting letters in fantastical forms)
like the spill of the milky way
all my words come out broken
and i don't even know what they should mean
(all my feelings unseen)
i say a phrase unrecognizable
my sense is stolen by some sly little thief
(i just hope that you somehow get what i mean)
my heart, it beats so fast
(and it shatters like its glass)
do you know who the beat breaks for?
just chasing around a sunbeam
(reflected off my phone screen)
ill take what i can get, no more
i love you so dearly
but i can't say it clearly
i stammer for hours
and- and- and- um
'cause its so hard to say the things that i'm feeling
a fish out of water, i'm reeling
(too many to say)
my head flies to meet the clouds
watch it bounce off the ceiling
my greeting is nonsense
i talk in pictures, no content
(asemic and grey)
i'm hopelessly beyond my means
so far out of the context
i'm purely emotional
my love conveyed in the worst way
(just melting letters in fantastical forms)
laid prostrate beside myself
and the words that i should say
but i can't move my mouth to match my heart
(they work so far apart)
i move so fast but end up where i start
(less than all of my parts)
but if you navigate it
maybe you can validate it
and we can call these abstract works of art
(drawn right onto my heart)
and if i bridge the gap from thought to speech
(find the words that i need)
then i could tell you what you mean to me
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4. |
Nothing (with You)
03:50
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"don't you wanna feel seen? don't you wanna be heard?
you can be complete in a single word"
that's the thing they say, that's the point of view
in a single word, that is all of you
but ain't it plain to see that it's all for show
just a snide appeal to the status quo
you can be much more than a catchy tune
but if it don't sell well, they don't want that 'you'
so is it worth it in the end
to close your eyes and make pretend
that you can find your satisfaction in a brand?
i wanna be nothing with you
a thing that cant be viewed
no careful meaningful design
not easily reduced
we'll be an idea, not the truth
not something you can prove
subliminal, invisible
unthinkable anew
i wanna be nothing with you
and make the world confused
no holding up to scrutiny
impossibly obtuse
and maybe folk will call us mistaken
try to fit us into a station
but i'd rather be a phantom
than a fucking target group
maybe you're convinced that it's really true
and the man up top really does see you
but it all falls flat experientially
capital don't care unless it means money
but is it worth it in the end
to close our eyes and make pretend
our love's a thing that they could ever understand?
why don't you be nothing with me?
a gentle force unseen
so ultraviolet, infrared
we live beyond belief
unstring all the ties and guarantees
to be with everything
we'll write the words our stories tell
and take them underwing
so come and be nothing with me
all red and gold and green
our peace of mind is undefined
empyrean, obscene
and maybe folk will try to define us
through some definition divide us
but they'll never truly hide us
if they don't know what we mean
we'll be nothing in the end
a form that no one comprehends
but i am real and you're real
and we're something real again
and so it's worth it in the end
to close our eyes, and to transcend
we do our best to dodge the real and play pretend
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Paisley Patterns
03:27
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you think that you've got it all
but you don't know the half of it
you're a lizard sat atop a rock
and you don't even know the size of it
there's a feeling setting fires in your chest
and though you always shoot then let another ask the rest
maybe you should stop ignoring what you've known for all this time
your stalwart soul is begging you to open wide, set alight
paisley patterns adorn her soul
a pink wallpaper on a cabinet door
throw wide those gates let the feeling pass
make a true protector from a heart of glass
you might say the sword and shield has never suited you
but who would hold it stronger and more passionate than you?
a love that burns aflame like nothing else i've ever seen
the fuel to keep a gentle heart burning clean
you think she's a know-it-all
she thinks you're... a lot of things
but you can make her spirit sing
and she'll make sure your heart will thaw
(she says)
"love will conquer all of you and all of me"
and being by her side, well, you cant help it but believe
she's a timid little presence with a fire in her eyes
and your reflection sits inside, catalyzed and set alight
paisley patterns adorn her soul
a teardrop painted on a maple board
one gentle ekho of a long-lost past
let her put some color in a heart of glass
you might think shes held up by some long-forgotten ways
but maybe there is value in the things she has to say
a love to keep a family tied together evergreen
the fuel to keep a gentle heart burning clean
paisley pudge, its a simple phrase
but its a title with a lot of weight
my little darling in a hand-built world
an inspiration to a lonely girl
you will never know the kinds of things you mean to me
but isn't that the beauty of a character, you think?
a love that's unconditional and just for you and me
the fuel to keep a gentle heart burning clean
and running like a lean machine, so pristine
and though the words are failing me, incomplete
we'll call it what it wants to be - bittersweet
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Gummyworm
04:47
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silent and lugubrious, i wander down the hall
time gets wasted here, i think i've lost it all
you masqueraded as the one to save my soul
but now i know; a sublingual dose
sugary sweet like candy
rotting my teeth and memory
annihilating my purpose
now i've melted in your mouth
biting my tongue for answers
sucking that sweet for hours
fucking my head up proper
now my stomach hurts
oh gummyworm
oh gummyworm
oh gummyworm, do i make you squirm?
i sent my soul somewhere far away
oh gummyworm
oh gummyworm
oh gummyworm, does the memory hurt?
i lost my mind, now i’m in a daze
(oh, i forgot the words) as i stumble through the door
mind is racing still; it leaves me wanting more
you fogged my vision up, now everything's obscured
you go to work; my god, it hurts
absolute awful shithead
trusting the things that you said
eroding my sense of comfort
i am falling faster now
saccharine empty fleeting
colorful words with no meaning
stuffing my face with sugar
crashing straight into the ground
oh gummyworm
oh gummyworm
oh gummyworm, do i make you squirm?
i sent my soul somewhere far away
oh gummyworm
oh gummyworm
oh gummyworm, does the memory hurt?
i lost my mind, now i’m in a daze
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"there's a fire burning within me"
(enough to set a mind alight)
"keeps me safe from what hurts me"
that's why it started
but there's burns on my heart now
all cauterized and scarred up
(doesn't do much more than hurt us)
and i still fight as much as i'm able
(held up by a greatsword)
but that can't hide all the pain felt
i'm a stalwart soldier
kept warm by a fire
it can burn so gentle
(so why is it painful?)
you can be so gentle
when i get done fighting
maybe i'm a lover
not a soldier struggling
you're my shield, loyal light
a gentle warmth in the blackest night
i'm your charge, you're my guard
so ill just stay right by your side
i forget myself sometimes
when i'm lost then you remind
i am your sword, hold me tight
keep me safe right by your side
(if i'm playing with fire i'm bound to get burned)
but i know there's more than the surface
i can learn to love you
and you'll burn to fuel me
(there's more to the flame than the pain
come and be my blaze)
and we'll keep to the paths you light up
(like candles to guide me)
so much fighting before us
but the thing with fire
there's a lot its good for
destruction and healing
(or forging a greatsword)
i'm a weapon of passion
that's held with intention
and you are the wielder
of tempered emotion
you're my moon, loyal light
you orbit 'round and pull my tides
i reach out towards the skies
so i can stay right by your side
i forget my worth sometimes
but i was forged in love as fire
i am your sword, hold me tight
keep me safe right by your side
there's a fire aflame in my heart that'll never burn away
feeling and passion, the ardor of comfort and pain
it would kill if i tried to deny or to live off of the blaze
so i dance in-between with the pyre to forge my blade
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8. |
Ally
03:21
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thought that my pride was on the mend
before it shattered
i'd like to think that i'd fix it on my own
but that's the matter
'cause i'd go and throw it all away
to save my ego
and the empty prize is i get to be alone
so what do i know?
but when i lose the way
you keep me aiming true
there's nothing out of view
(jump on through over to you!)
you're my ally-alli, i will take you in so gladly
though the road's been long and winding, i'm so proud to call you family
you're my ally, olly oxen free to take you with me
i'm just making up the hours, how i needed you so badly
thought i could make it on my own
not even nearly
but i'm scared to say that there ain't no other way
(but now i see it all so clearly)
i am no island, i'm a piece of something bigger
and i work the best when your sweet heart gets to rest next to my bitter
(oh its so much better this way)
so we keep our hands held tight
and shoot toward the moon
you might catch a glimpse or two
(break right through over to you!)
you're my ally-alli, i will take you in so gladly
though the road's been long and winding, i'm so proud to call you family
you're my ally, olly oxen free to take you with me
i'm just making up the hours, how i needed you so badly
you're my ally-alli, i will take you in so gladly
i've been hopelessly awaiting what was always right beside me
you're my ally, alleyway between the peaks and valleys
i'm just making up the hours, how i needed you so badly
(jump on through over to you!)
keep my head held high
green and red so bright
illuminate the night
(break right through over to you!)
you're my ally-alli, i will take you in so gladly
i've been waiting all this time to say i needed you so badly
you're my ally, olly oxen free to take you with me
so its true, there's nothing left to do
(jump on through over to you!)
you're my ally-alli, i will take you in so gladly
i couldn't find myself without you, you just came along and saved me
you're my ally, alleyway between the peaks and valleys
i'm just making up the hours, how i needed you so badly
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"welcome to the fiction
we hide here every evening
with plenty of exuberance
and voices for the voiceless"
but if i look out on the floor
is there room for anymore?
i'm a buzzkill and a bore
i'm not the person this is for
but i'm tired of civil war
my spirit is screaming out for more
its all just too much to ignore
that i could be something more
(we could be something more)
the sprawl of the ballroom
with the lights down low
i know you see my eyes aglow
my hand is extended
to offer you a dance
by chance, would you welcome my romance?
and we both know, it's fantasy
(but the feeling is real, it's real for you and me)
the sprawl of the ballroom
(with the lights down low)
i'm a grease spill and a bad time
so i look around me, see the fault lines
every soul here has a problem
but when they're together, they are flawless
but there's no pretending nothing's wrong!
they'll figure it out that i'm a fraud!
but i still try to play along
'cause i just want to belong
(do i belong?)
the sprawl of the ballroom
with the lights down low
i know you see my eyes aglow
my hand is extended
to offer you a dance
advance, my darling take a chance
and we're no kings, you and i
(but being together, we're royalty tonight)
the sprawl of the ballroom
(hold me close)
i'm so tired of the fiction (who are we)
i get so caught up in the friction (you and me)
but it's okay to let it go (we can be so free)
and find a comfort in the show
(a thing nobody knows)
are you a martyr well-deserved
or just afraid of what doesn't hurt?
my darling, i know it all too well
(but we're all pretending to be ourselves)
so maybe you're real, maybe fake
but your life is always your own to make
so lets enjoy it for its own sake!
the sprawl of the ballroom
with the lights down low
i know you see my eyes aglow
it's artifice exalted, a foxtrot fantasy
you see? don't worry about a thing
and we may part in the end
(but you can always come back around again)
the sprawl of the ballroom
and my hands held tight
alright, we'll be back another night!
welcome to the fiction
we hide here every evening
with plenty of exuberance
and voices for the voiceless
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10. |
Bittersweet
04:16
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oh it’s another day over
and i’m left wondering what for
i sat and stared at a paper
and tried so hard to ignore
the thoughts all swirling inside me
that say i’m broken, a bore
i lead it on with a paper
a silent, desolate score
i make time for you
you make pain for me
but i know you're my dream
i'll take anything
and i mean anything
my coffee bean dream, so bittersweet
(i want to make a mistake with you)
oh seraphim schemes and self esteem
(so many things i should say to you)
cause oh my god i love you
but you tear me apart
you're my savior and my devil
stab me straight through the heart
a plasticine sheen, you're so bittersweet
and all i want is to stay with you
i’m another day closer
to the end of my life
it all gets wasted on nothing
i watch the flickering light
i would kneel for you
sat down on my knees
you'd just hurt me more
hurt me 'till i bleed
oh god im desperate to bleed
my coffee bean dream, so bittersweet
(i want to make a mistake with you)
a polyseme scream, such a stupid thing
(so many things i should say to you)
cause oh my god i love you
i can't take anymore
but if i'm not creating
what the fuck am i for?
i burst at the seams, you're so bittersweet
(and all i want is to stay with you)
it wasn’t always like this
i’m just resigned to the pain
but does the fight define us
or does it waste us away?
i am much more than the sum of my work
and even without you there’s so much i am worth
but i know there's still joy to be found in a song
my coffee bean dream, so bittersweet
(i want to make something more with you)
these scenes stay unseen, that's okay with me
(so many things i will share with you)
cause oh my god i love you
but i’m more than my love
and as long as i’m complete alone
there's still room for us
you'll be my treat, so bittersweet
(and all i want is to stay with you)
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i look across the distance
the bits and bytes between us
looking at the time it’d take
to drop everything and head that way
i melt a hole in my phone screen
waiting for reply so intently
it’s hard to be present here
when my everything is nowhere near
separate beings, the want to unite but
distance keeps us away
desperate pining for tactile connection
but it leads me astray
take my feelings and knock on the front door
but it keeps me away
send a message across all the distance
praying you’ll find a way
(can i still be close to you?
can i still get close to you? yeah
i can still get close to you and
we can keep this feeling true)
stay with me
oh, rest your weary head
we may feel so far away
but we can throw that gap away
if you’ll just
i'll fall asleep and dream here with you,
three thousand miles at ten and one
a wire-crossed and tangled romance,
some voicemail's all i'm askin' for...!
(are you gonna pick up? are you there? do you care?)
separate feelings, the want to unite, but
i can't make it okay
and i know you've tried to get closer
but i'll still push you away (come closer)
pulled away by the distance between us,
from a single mistake
and although i've tried to get closer
it all still keeps me awake (come closer!)
stay with me
oh, and rest your weary head
we may feel so far away
but we can throw that gap away
if you’ll just
stay with me
oh, its more than just a dream
though its hard for me to say
i know you're not so far away
if you'll just
its so hard for me to trust your heart
that you love me even when we're apart
but i know its true
how could i not believe in you?
god the miles are more than i can bear
but i have to try if you'll be there
and the day i land between your arms
darling don't be scared, it ain't that far!
JAMIE PAIGE
OH, THAT'S MY FUCKING NAME
I AM REAL AND I'M OKAY
AND I WILL LIVE ANOTHER DAY
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Jamie Paige Houston, Texas
saw wave elemental talking in pictures
aka JamieP
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